Advice about marijuana and first time smoking

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Some months ago i smoked marijuana. My objective was try to have an insight about myself, to find answers, something like that. Is this a wrong thing to do?

I used to be a heavy alcohol drinker but i'm clean for years, so i think i wasn't "scared" of the first time effects bc i know similar effects very well.
I couldn't really think straight, because like with alcohol, i kept forgetting things. But alcohol makes you forget and you don't think about anything at all. Marijuana overflows my mind with a million thoughts every second.

I was with some friends and i like them. They're not the closest friends i have but i don't feel uncomfortable with them. However i kept getting paranoid even if i didn't want to.

And for the last bad experience: I have extreme anxiety. I was hoping to feel better and relaxed but i was having heavy heart palpitations and i felt like i was having a heart attack. Even when i tried to listen to calm songs, it was a mix of "This song is so amazing this is the best experience EVER" and "I'm going to die. I want to stop this. Fuck". It was probably a Panic attack.

The thing is, i really want to try one more time, but the experience was awful at some times. I felt great about not having a deadly hangover like i used to have with alcohol. Should i try it one more time?

But after all, it was interesting. When sober, i feel like i'm a strong-minded person. While some people i know get affected by minor things, i don't care at all. But weed showed me i can't be immune to everything, i'm not as strong as i think, and should have more emphaty with people.

(Btw i don't plan to smoke it often as i don't have the time nor the money to)