help

>>18528905
>This has made me feel hopeless, never excited about tomorrow.
that's what most people who
>go to work 5 days a week
feel

you're fine.
well, not fine, it's soul-crushing hell, but not a good enough reason to see a psychiatrist

Classic signs of depression. See a doc and a therapist. Depression is not justt 'i want to die' but there is also 'apathetic hopeless depression' which you sound like you have a textbook version

>>18528914
how do I get myself to feel happier than. Should i find a new job or pull an Into the Wild kinda deal?

>>18528918
cuz this guy says otherwise. I need so I'm at a 1 to 1 tally right now

>>18528918
and how much will a psychiatrist run me?

>>18528956
Do you have insurance? Some insurance you dont have to pay anything for psychiatrist. Some pills for depression will run you 5 cents a month . 5 cents per month. But that's if you have insurance. If you dont then it can be $40-$120 a month per psychiatrist visit. It will be more in the beginning as they try to figure out what you need.
You just need to decide if you are willing to spend that much for future happiness.

I am assuming that you havent had anything traumatizing happen to you and this is only a chemical issue and not an emotional one. You should also exercise, that will help a lot with depression too.

>>18529007
I do exercise daily and no trauma lately that I an think of.

This post did put a smile on my face. I checked my insurance and they all want 100+ after all the deductions. thanks obama?

>>18528945
having SOME kind of plan makes it much easier
like
>I'll quit this job as soon as I save up X $

>>18529089
I mean... i'm not gonna just quit my job if i reach some finite money goal. cuz then when it runs out what will i do?

as far as work, I am currently applying elsewhere to get a feel of the market before my review so i can ask for a better pay. but its just money...

>>18529106
I'm just saying, there's no light at the end of that tunnel, and that's the worst part
carve some light for yourself