I'm having trouble getting over feelings of anger and betrayal from my ex. I had emotional baggage going into it (bullied for 8 years) and that generally manifested as trust issues.
To get over that, (I loved her and she loved me) I just threw myself into it and essentially worshiped her. The problem was she also had baggage, and took it out on me. Because of my state of mind I just assumed it was my fault at the time and her saying that she didn't love me anymore (6 months go by) and using me I felt worse and worse.
Nearing the end of the relationship I was basically a willing slave, so I cut things off. On one hand I feel like I can't even be angry at her since I brought it on myself. On the other hand she knew about my trust issues, I completely trusted her anyway, and she completely betrayed that trust.
I flip flop thinking about it between despairing sadness, and betrayed resentment. I'm not sure how to get over it. I'm looking to start dating again but I don't want to shadow of this to hover over me in the my next relationship.
Just an-hero
okay so, you fucked up, hating her is the easy way to handle things, it was YOU who was weak and became a little bitch, it was YOU who left her because of your ego issues
i dont know what betrayal happened but you are having this victim mentality that you should be pardoned/loved/excused for whatever because you were bullied, which is laughable
you fucked up, multiple times, so i suggest try forgiving yourself for being an idiot and accept sometimes you can and will make mistakes, then try not repeating them
>>18505847
Obv has a vagina.
OP, what did the whore do to betray your trust?
>>18505826
I don't know what you mean?
>>18505847
I don't have one, if you read my post...
> I feel like I can't even be angry at her since I brought it on myself.
I'm not asking for pity, and I'm well aware of weakness. Your answer lacks any advice except for the obvious.
>>18505856
A lot of little things, it was mostly that the relationship wasn't reciprocal. I continually invested more into it than she did. I half think she just didn't want to break it off but didn't want to be with me so made it progressively shittier for me until I did. Dunno.
>>18505908
then you cant read, stay mad
I've been there man. Having no reciprocation sucks.
>>18505931
If you have any advice about to how to get over staying mad other than attacking me I'm all ears.
>>18505968
Thanks, well I'm going to bed but if anyone else has advice I'll check the thread in the morning. I think just getting it off my chest helped though.
Cya