I was a person with a "strong spirit," and the kind of person who always believed things would get better. Because I suffered from mental illness from a young age, I was better at dealing with problems, and more mature, than other people. I thought that my suffering made me stronger, and that I would make it. Fast forward, and I'm 29-years-old, and I'm the opposite of that now. I'm more beaten than anyone else, and the slightest thing throws me emotionally off balance. I've lost all my will to fight. I can't even stand up to small challenges anymore. Still fighting the same demons as always, and I've gotten better at that, but worse at handing normal life. Just wanted to hear other people relate and commiserate, if possible.
>>18494343
Hi OP, I can relate.
Life has ups and downs, I like to think I'm getting better at being a decent human being. I fear eventually I'll have one mood swing too many and end myself but until then I'll take what I can get.
I like the idea of kintsugi : being broken isn't the end, getting fixed up is the start of a new cycle. How you broke and recovered is part of your history and what makes you unique.