GIOYC - Get It Off Your Chest!

>>18487686
Weak. Thanks for the chucks, daddy

You weren't very polite to me considering the hundreds of euros I put your way

I get it. I fucked up, you are now confused about where to go from here when it comes to us. I have wanted to talk things over with you. Really talk, but it's clear you don't. Its been 6 months in this miasma. You continue to talk to me, but it's all idle chatter now. All I get from you is the constant "I'm sorry, I haven't responded...". Nothing more but simple how are you and rarely you say that you miss me. I don't think I believe that anymore. I can't do this to myself anymore.

I really did try and all I wanted was to make things up to you. To work past out problems and maybe grow stronger from the jam we got in. I guess I believed we had something more special than what we really had. The reality is that I had been putting too much effort in our relationship. I was always the one to care the weight. To do the things. You were always passive.

I guess I learned something important in all this as well, don't put in too much. When you keep giving up of yourself, you may not get anything in return. Sure love is fine and all, but like a bag of sugar, all sweet and no substance will make one sick.

I need to put more effort into myself. At least then I get something in return.

>>18487958
Initials?

All I want from you is some reassurance. I don't want to give up on you but I feel like I'm fighting for someone who doesn't want to be fought for anymore.

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>>18487958
>>18487971
I feel both of these

Waiting on a psych checkup to try another med. This last prescription trial thing made me feel awful day one. Tongue wouldn't stay still in my mouth, my whole body was anxious, I had to lay down. I need to find something that helps otherwise I actually have to follow through with social security benefits even though it feels like I'm giving in and forfeiting my usefulness. I don't wanna be unwell forever.

>tfw told to arrive later than everyone else for the party yesterday

I knew I should have said no, it was pretty bad. It sucks growing apart from old friends

I want to know more about you and what happened. Your Facebook showed pictures of you and your friends from 5 years ago and now, it seems like you have cut all contact since they're no longer connected to you. What happened? Did the same thing that happened to me, happened to you too? I feel weird for prying so I'm hoping that one day you can trust me enough to tell me.

>>18487999
What's your story anon?

Also nice trips.

>>18487966
Likely you aren't the person this is meant for. 4chan is a small world though.

Still all I will say in response is that I had reached out for a while now. Held my hand out wanting nothing more than to feel yours grab on. I wanted to never let it go, but I got nothing in return but empty apologies. I wanted to believe you better than this. But the longer we delay this the more the feeling that you are only acting this way to hurt me grows.

Whatever trust I had left is slowly eroding. I wanted to help but got pushed away instead. I guess to you strenght means being able to do everything by yourself. To me, it means that as well, but also knowing when to accept help is part of it. Your problems, your issues, I never minded them. I always saw us as a team, and I was always willing to help you, but you never did take it. Maybe you didn't want to trouble me, maybe something else. I simply wanted to be there for you. As I wanted you to be there for me as well.

That's the thing about relationships huh? People want different things out of it.
Now that look back and think, why did I stay with you? Why do I continue to fight for something that is clearly not worth the pain and strain?

Maybe you are just playing a game with me. Maybe not, I'm not sure invade to find out anymore. The wargames strat comes to mind now "the only winning move is not to play."

God i just weighed myself today

80 kg, im back to were i was a year ago, if only my mom hadn't forced me to go to that horrible place right at the same time i was dealing with the depression of losing the only girl i ever cared about stress wouldn't have gotten to me an i would probably have abs right now,her food wasn't healthy at all either

But whatever im finally living alone again and so far i have had no problem going back to my old routine
>get up
>cardio with an empty stomach for an hour
>go out for a walk
>nap
> eat low calorie food
>cardio again until im tired
>sleep
>repeat

God i wonder how much weight i'll be able to lose in 1 month and a half before school starts if i keep this up i'll be happy if i lose 10 kg but i used to weight 61 kg

>>18488075
I'm going through the same exact situation right now anon. I really don't know what to do anymore.

>>18488075
If you are the person I hope you are then it isn't too late. I am sorry I wasn't receptive to your needs and grew complacent. We can still overcome what has happened.

Boy, you're an enigma.

>>18488087
It's exhausting. No matter what I do, I can't seem to let go. Even though it seems the other person already has.

I'm in the same boat. Part of me keeps hoping to work things out, but 6 months, it's painful. I guess it's better now that I'm not dealing with the passive aggressive guilt trips of the first few months. That was all I was getting from my ex.

It got me to think am work on myself.
Sure I'm still immature, it takes time, but I'm starting to see that my partner wasn't as grown up as they tried to play off.

Instead of being a couple, we ended up being parent and child. It got exhausting trying to do both parts of a relationship.
My ex seemed to have wanted to deal with all the shit they had and hope for better times later. I wanted to work together to make our better times now, but hey, shit doesn't work out how we want it.

Some of us are team players, others aren't.
This fucking sucks.

>>18488113
I always hid my issues because I thought they'd be too much a burden to you, you were already burdened with so much. I should have trusted you with them. Please be direct with me I thought you no longer wanted me around.

>>18488113
If you are. Reach back before it's too late.
Just say what you need to say, and I will listen. You know how to reach me, where to find me. All you have to do is drop the idle chatter and small talk and get to the point. Otherwise, keep on apologizing and doing the same things over and over.

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>>18487686
WHAT THE FUCK MAN

SERIOUSLY WHY IS IT SO FUCKING DIFFICULT FOR ME TO MESSAGE A GIRL I THINK IS CUTE

I'M NOT EVEN UGLY OR AUTISTIC, I HAVE A FUCKING SOCIAL LIFE AND PEOPLE LIKE ME USUALLY, YET WHEN IT COMES TO A FUCKING WOMAN I JUST CANNOT SHAKE THIS WEIRD FEELING INSIDE ME, IT'S NOT EVEN LOVE IT'S MORE AKIN TO FEAR, I'VE NEVER EVEN HAD A PROBLEM TALKING TO HER IN REAL LIFE

I MESSAGED HER NOW AND I'M GONNA ASK HER OUT ON THE SPOT BUT I HATE MYSELF FOR HOW MUCH STRENGTH AND TIME IT TOOK ME TO JUST WRITE, IT JUST PROVES TO ME THAT I AM NOT A REAL MAN


ONE
FUCKING
MESSAGE

FOR FUCKS SAKE

>>18488129
You blocked me on everything and told me to not text you anymore. If I see those blocks come down and you are who I hope I will tell you.

Why do you think taking time off from each other will solve anything? Be an adult and learn how to fucking communicate and resolve problems instead of isolating yourself.

Idk why girls are so confusing. This girl I've been into for a really long time, at this point she almost exclusively chills with this one dude. They're not dating but most likely fucking. She gets mad at me for not hitting her up, the fuck does she expect? I certainly don't want to chill with this guy with you. I constantly ignore her and blow her off yet she texts me pretty much everyday. Kinda stresses me out then I don't feel bad about ignoring her.

Mama, she is dying. You can't cure her, you can't avoid her death. I know you don't want to put her down because it's final, but mama, she is suffering and she won't get better. She barely eats, she'll starve herself to death. She is too weak to move her head, doesn't respond when we call her name, her eyes are half-closed all the time. I know you cling to hope, and I know dad doesn't want to put her down either. But this is wrong.

>>18488162
Don't assume they're fucking.

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>>18487686
I'm a submissive faggot that will never find a dom gf because they don't exist.

>>18488344
Don't give up, she's out there. You into pegging by chance?

>>18488354
Not really, anal stuff scares me. I'm willing to try it though.

I hate the fact that the sex my recent ex and I had was better than with any other partner.
She was a liar and a manipulator but I can't stop thinking of my hand tight around her throat, my throbbing cock slamming her sopping wet creamy pussy when I'm with other women. I tried to recreate it but it's just not the same. Seeing those captivating almond shaped eyes lustfully staring into mine, her nails digging into my forearms as if the thought of inflicting pain made her cum even harder.. I miss you FH but damn are you stupid sometimes

How do I enjoy the present when all I can think about is the worst case scenario of the future? My relationship (the best of my life) is going so well, but the thought that IT COULD end is making me feel like it's all futile. Which sucks.

>>18488334
They hang out every single day/night. I really don't like that. She's told me that shes not looking for a relationship or anything and it fucks with my head the way she acts around me.

I ran into her briefly last night, she was with him and another friend of hers. She came over to me and some friends and it was kinda awkward, told her we had to leave shortly after. She just texted me saying it would have been nice to chill with you.

You couldnt wait?

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I'm tired of being vegan but at the same time I could never go back to eating meat/eggs/dairy because just the thought makes me sick. I really think it would taste horrible in my mouth and make me vomit. But at the same time being vegan is very alienating and most times my options suck unless I want a bitch ass salad.
Also most bitches that are vegan are crazy as fuck and I'd prefer a meat eating girlfriend over these crazy vegan bitches. It's like a cult to these hoes.

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>>18488068
Thanks anon.
Just a girl I know with unrequited...interest? I've known her for half a year. She's kind, innocent, genuinely compassionate; there's a lot of good I see in her. But she clearly has no interest in having me a part of her life. She never initiates, never tells me things unless I ask for an update. Which is fine, I want what she says to be up to her. But we can go for weeks with just silence. Say the wrong thing and she just won't respond. And me asking all the time doesn't make it feel genuine.

The only thing I can talk to her comfortably about is music. We can go for hours with that, but anything else is so estranged. I need to stop.

My faggot ex-husband is prosecuting me for a third-degree felony. I violated a bullshit protective order he got in order to have leverage in a custody battle by talking shit about him on Facebook. Yeah. This bitch is ruining my children's lives and clogging up the legal system because of fucking Facebook posts. Any thoughts?

>>18488536
I was a vegan for years because my boyfriend was vegan. It's a form of control. Get the fuck out of that relationship, man.

I'm gonna make it short here.

I'm getting kicked out, I just finished high school and my parents don't live with us anymore so I've been living with my sister for the past year.

She has been extremely nice about it, but she and her fiancé and child are moving out, and I am not going with, so I have to find my own place.

I have all the pieces in place to get an apartment, but I don't know how to handle it emotionally or physically. I am just scared at what's gonna happen.

Could any of you give any tips to make life on your own easier? Or something in that vein?

>>18488624
It's likely to be your local "justice" system that's prosecuting you, not your ex.

And yeah, here's a thought: what's more important to you? Your kid(s) or shit-talking (or making threats against) your ex on facebook? If it's your kids, have some fucking self-control.

Also get a lawyer.

Wtf is my brain doing? One minute I'm okay, composed and rational and hopeful, next minute my emotions hurt so much that I'm crying like a little bitch and preparing the noose. I don't understand what's going on and it scares me

>>18488646
Get help anon. Please.

>>18488629
I'm single lol, I'm actually a vegan by choice but most vegans I've met are crazy and I hate their militant attitudes.

>>18488640
Points taken. But is my punishment (and the punishment of my children by taking their mother away from them) equal to the crime? (I never made any threats)

>>18488649
They ARE militant! Absolutely. I started dealing with these people, many of whom were overweight or even morbidly obese, in college back in the late '80's. Vegetarianism is one thing, but Veganism is a little crazy,.

>>18488075
Iv'e been in this same shit for two years now. Love of my life and she reached out to after two years. Recently informed me of a concert happening with a band very close or at least close to my heart when I think of it.

I know I was 80% of it all...The fact that if you did feel the same as I do. It hurt you as much. I think back to the ex before me and if you felt how I feel towards you and lost that relationship. Thats 2/1 you/me. I wanna reach out so bad. People blame me for saying I need you for being happy. I don't you just became such a great addition into my life.family both yours and mine.

doubt if you would read this but Melissa if you appear in person and not through messages. Like I told you before I am waiting.

>>18488660
I think it can be crazy. I'm at a healthy weight and even though there's bad days just because I get bored of my food choices sometimes (because I don't really get down with the whole vegan junk food thing) I'm still happy with my choice and I never try to persuade others to stop eating meat. Most of the time people don't even realize I'm vegan til much later on because I don't mention it; it's a personal choice and everyone's entitled to that. I do have some animosity towards those militants vegans though because I've noticed that even though they preach about all the health benefits of veganism and how people are pieces of shit for eating meat they themselves eat like SHIT. It's like dude, if you're gonna be vegan be about it, don't just get full on chips and vegan candy you sloppy fuck.
Sorry, I'm going on a rant but seriously, most vegans suck.

>>18488654
Here's something you need to learn about the justice system: it is not about justice.

The people who comprise the justice system generally don't give a fuck whether you think you have a legitimate grievance, or are being treated unfairly. Have a grievance? Present evidence that it's real and legitimate. Don't have evidence? Then shut the fuck up.

Follow the fucking rules or you will lose.

And you're not taking the point. Again, what is important to you, being "right", or having your kids? I'm leaning towards "being right".

As far as whether or not your punishment is equal to the crime, I don't know. I don't know you, or if you're a liar. I don't know your ex or if he's a vindictive asshole. You want random strangers to side with you, and to agree that oh, it's so unfair, but that's stupid. You should want your kids.

Hint: the justice system is comprised of random strangers who are being paid to NOT take sides based on emotion or one person's side of the story, but on specific pieces of evidence being presented to them.

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>>18488380

>>18488360
It's a lot of fun when your mistress allows you to practice with plugs first. How submissive do you think you are? Into humiliation at all? I've started femdom in February and I love everything about it so pardon my curiosity and please feel free to ask me anything, I've been experimenting for a few months now.

>>18487686
I had sex with (and lost virginity to) an escort. She was really nice, friendly, and kind. Yet, I still feel ashamed a little bit. The sex was great and she was really good at it (my word if only I could experience a bareback bj from her). It sucks that there's so much stigma involved with paying for sex with women like her out there. Some dudes have that "it" factor when it comes to normal relationships and some don't. For those that don't, like me, I am very glad that escorts like her are around.

>>18488731
I'm relatively submissive I guess, might be a switch. I'm into typical guy stuff and don't look submissive at all (6'4 athletic). I'd say I like humiliation but I don't really know what it means. I'm a footfag and like collars so there's that lol. Do you have a kik?

>>18488755
In the ancient world, where respectable young women were off-limits until marriage, prostitution was legal, accepted, and normal. Young men often lost their virginity to an experienced, older woman skilled at pleasure and at teaching about pleasure. The prostitute was the female equivalent of the male sophist, the professor who taught virtue and wisdom for money.

I'm stuck between leaving this all behind and my wish upon a star that one day we'll be something. That's literally the only reason I've decided to stay around here. Truthfully I would prefer to only be homeless in some other part of the states then deal with this shit day after day.

Forming a relationship with you would be such so cliche in so many ways. But that's the part that would make it so pulchritudinous.

I hope this gets to you-

Kindest regards,
C

I miss you so much. It's taking everything in me not to call you right now.

You're my first everything, we've been together for nearly a decade and I've always believed we'd be together forever.

Why did you freak out and take such a possessive and paranoid stance when I asked to see my close friend? No matter how much we talk about it, the situation doesn't change. Why are you forcing me to choose between having a friend and having you? Are my actions really so wrong?

I didn't think of them in a romantic way... until you started making those accusations. The more you push me, the more I dislike this part of you. I can't live with this.. but can I throw away a decade of history? My heart is broken and I don't know what to do.

>>18488881
> I don't think of them in a romantic way... until you started making those accusations.

So you're saying you're all of a sudden attracted romantically after he accused you of it? You sound like a dumb bitch.

>>18488624

I warned women it was coming.
The golem (corrupt family courts) they've been exploiting for so long is turning on them.
It's going to grind them up.

In my generation, women outearn men. They'll be the ones paying alimony.
They'll be the ones committing more suicides.

And given the blind eye men got, it'll be really hard to rile up this 50% of the population to support you in your time of need. Maybe we'll tel you to "woman up". Maybe.
If we care enough to respond.

Equal rights, equal lefts.

If you're a faggot, which
>My faggot ex-husband
Possibly hinted at, then why the fuck did you want this shit? Surely you saw what it was doing to straight men?

Equal rights and lefts for you too, idiot.

>>18488889
No, I never thought about our "romantic compatibility" until my partner brought it up. Then it became "sure, I suppose we would make a good couple too". I'm not interested in my friend.

I'm hurt my partner is behaving like this and refusing to hear me out or compromise in any way, that's the problem. It's suffocating and unhealthy to control someone like this.

>>18488707
Anyone who has been separated from their children for a length of time due to the vindictive actions of the other parent knows pain like nothing else. My children consume my thoughts every minute of every day. I cry for them every single day.
This is a GIOYC thread, and I wanted to get this anger I have towards my ex off my chest.
I obviously can't go on facebook again. I am not a liar. Every day without my children is a living nightmare. I have spent thousands to get them back, and will spend thousands more.

>>18488802
This is true... Now I get to pay exorbitant amounts of money for sex and run the risk of getting an std and getting arrested! Oh well, it's the only way my ugly mug is going to get laid by even a mildly attractive woman.

Oh no, I don't know what to do I'm such an idiot. I'm stuck between hanging out with this cute extroverted guy that I met in tinder, starting a dom and sub relationship with a guy I just met (although it will be short lived) or just waiting for my ex to get his shit together. and here I thought I was ready to start dating...

>>18489007
You're a hoe.

>>18489009
Actually I'm not, I've only had one boyfriend (the ex) and I have been encouraged to start dating but since I have only been in one relationship all my adult life, I have no idea what I'm doing.

>>18489024
>starting a dom and sub relationship with a guy I just met
Slut

>>18489007
It's hard to have a long lasting relationship with someone off tinder (in my experience), it's a hookup app after all. Hanging out with dude numero uno and being friends sounds fine though.

Dom/sub relationships are fun if he's the submissive. Keep him wanting you, cage his cock, fuck him in the ass occasionally, shove your post-gym pantsu in his mouth and have him sniff them daily to love and crave your scent and your scent alone, and make him lick and rub your stinky sock covered tootsies.

Waiting on am ex is a dangerous game, lass. There's a reason why you both parted ways.

>>18488879
Call him/her then.

>>18489105
I can't. They wanted to take a break so I'm leaving them be so I don't look like a needy fuck.

I fucked up when i was younger by being obsessed with videogames and smoking pot which killed any ambition i had to do good in school, or college (which i later dropped out of)

and now im stuck at a job thats 8-430 every day, so i can't even attend classes to get me a better job because the college doesnt have classes past 4pm and i fucking hate myself everyday for not doing better in school.

They said they'd text me an answer at a certain time. Its far past that time. I still trust that they'll text back, but I'm getting so anxious about it.
I didn't even know I cared this much.

I'm so obsessed with her it's making me mad, I missed the chance I had to express my feelings to her and now it's eating me inside, but did I really do wrong ? She's beautiful, smart and kind, she was nice even to garbage people like me
I can only hope fir her to find a great guy who will love her and who will be as nice to her as she is with the world
And yet I'm here trying to find the smallest piece of information about her, creating fake facebook account to add her friends and find pictyres or something but there's nothing, she's dodging cameras and phones, not a single picture of her on this garbage website and the only picture I have of her is that blurred pic I took in the metro
What is wrong with me

H,

I am sorry I have been acting shitty lately, this situation is doing a number on my health. It was not my intent to guilt trip you, I was crying out for some help from the only person I can go to. I hope you understand I couldn't help how was acting and it is not representative of who I am or of the person you knew and cared about. These actions were just that of someone who really needs so help.

I really wish there was something that could undo all this so things can go back to how they were before. If that would be possible I would not be complacent and I would work harder then ever before towards the future we wanted. I hope deep down somewhere you didn't give up on our dream. Still; there will never be a time I stop loving you irregardless.

Sorry for burdening you with all these issues, you already have so much weight to carry.

Love,
R

fuck me

I cant just kick you out of my life because we've grown a lot in the last 4 months

but if we just stay strictly friends you know it wouldn't be the same. this is more than a FWB at this point you're just not ready for the commitment yet.

but you still keep saying you love me and are grateful for me

and my head constanly hurts jesus christ

I'm 24 with no job and not a fucking clue what to do with my life.

I've started working out to try and get fit enough to apply to the state trooper academy but even then it still just feels like something i'm doing just to not feel worthless.

I still live with my mom and step dad who fight and bicker constantly from things as small as "what are we going to eat tonight" which can go into an hour long argument about how my step dad can somehow spend hundreds of dollars at the store and there not be anything that we eat in the fridge, to the argument they're having RIGHT NOW about my mom trying to clean and organize the bath room and my step dad thinking she's trying to pack him up to leave or some stupid shit.

They haven't even shared a room in probably a decade for various reasons ranging from his snoring which has since been fixed, to a dog that's up all hours of the night which has since had to be put down, and now her insomina causing her to stay up until 4am even with meds, while he has to get up for work at 4am.

I still visit my dad every weekend but only because I feel sorry for him that he has no friends to hang out with. Mostly because he burns bridges with everyone the moment they stop kissing his ass.

The man can't keep a girlfriend to save his life, and just this last weekend he said that the last woman he's been seeing is in the hospital on life support and the very next day he's hitting on another girl that he asked out to dinner with us.

The only good part of my life that I can recall is hanging out with friends in high school, who I have since lost contact with, and the girlfriend I had 6 years ago who I broke up with for the dumbest reason anyone could ever think of.

But she's with someone else now and she's happy with him so I can't bring myself to tell her how much of a fucking idiot I am and that I want to be with her again, and that being with her was the highlight of my life.

(cont.)

You gave me something to live for and now that you're disappearing I'm having suicidal thoughts. You've broken my spirit completely.

I'm only happy because I ignore my problems.

>>18489366
Hey bro, my life is pretty similar

I'm getting fit to join the military.
Same dif.

How are you lifts going?

I have depersonalization disorder don't I? As in, I can't remember anyone's faces or it takes me a very long time to.

When we were at that hospital, I vaguely remembered 99% of the people there and only a small few I could recall the names of.

Are people making fun of me for this? Do they think I'm stupid? Or a bad person?

I'm sorry. I just can't remember...

>>18489366
I can't afford to go to college because my family makes to much money for me to get a grant, but don't make enough to send me, and as I said early I have no job, and no luck finding a job, so I can't afford to even send myself.

I grow more and more depressed each day at the fact that i'm getting older and older but still don't know what it is in life that will fill me with passion and actually make me happy.

I binge on netflix, anime, and games just so I can try to feel some kind of escapism from how depressed I make myself, but even that has lost it's appeal because I know that i'm just using it instead of doing it because I enjoy it.

I just wish I could find my direction. Find what It is that I want to do with my life so I can finally get out there and do it.

Get away from my mom and step dads bickering day in and day out.

Get away from my dad blaming all his problems on everyone except him.

Maybe I should just move to a different city. Just talk with one of the few friends I still have about just going somewhere. Renting an apartment and finding a job somewhere that I haven't already applied to 100 times over.

But I don't have the guts to even do that because the thought of moving away and then failing and having to move back or end up on the streets terrifies me.

My family thinks that I just don't care about anything anymore but most nights i'm up all night just wanting to know how I can stop feeling like a burden and actually contribute to paying the bills or something.

It's not that I don't care. I just really, really don't know what to do and I really just need to know.

>>18489386
I try to run a minimum of an hour every day. There aren't any gyms that I can go to around here so I do that, as well as reps of sit-ups/push-ups/and pull-ups until I get tired, and the next day aim to do at least 5 more than what I managed to do the day before.

I really have to drill a routine into myself to do it, because if I make the mistake of thinking "eh I'll do it tomorrow" then that can easily send me into a spiral of procrastation, and I hate doing that.

The hardest part is dieting, because there's nothing but junk food in this house like chips, chocolate doughnuts, dove candy, etc... that my step dad buys for snacks.

But he at least buys a small thing of fruit and some banana's so there's at least that to eat instead.

>>18487686
I don't want to have a kid, because I fear for my own life, rather than the worries of my girlfriend...

I should just die, but she would end up feel guilty about it, and I can't let that happen.

>>18489408
Doing good mate. The hardest part of getting fit, regardless of how you do it, is having that desire to "punish" yourself. Like if you miss a session you feel you have to make up for it.
That gets you going. That'll keep you going.

And fuck junk food. Somewhere in my 20s I developed a hatred of it. Cook your own meals and use that as snacks.
If you have money, then celery and light cream cheese is good.

You sound like you got a lot of drive.
You can make it. Look on Craig's List for some weights. Maybe you can get lucky.

I hurt so much more than I'll ever let anyone know. I love you and just want to see you again. It would hurt so much to see you with someone else. Why can't we just be together?

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>>18489440

>>18489440
She already fucked someone else lol

This is cruel. You guys have been purposefully throwing people at me that I have met before, even close friends and family but I don't recognize them at all. Why would you do that to me? You already know I have issues... do you do it to make fun of me? To make me look stupid? to looks like a shit person...

Why didn't I notice this earlier? Is it because of my eyesight? I just thought I couldn't see people's faces from afar.

When I was a kid I use to get these weird spells of feeling detached from my body. It felt like my arm was a hundred miles away from me.

But I have no ability to recognize people's faces... what the fuck is wrong with me.

>>18489470
I use to dread having to hand out papers to people in highschool. I never knew who to hand them out to. I would recognize their name but not their faces.

I want to fucking die

I can't even recognize my own face at times.

Fuck you. I tried my fucking best to fix our relationship, but nooooo. According to you I wasn't trying hard enough. Then you had the fucking nerves to shut me down anytime I tried to open up to you, and as soon as some guy comes over and gives you some attention, you jump at him and dump my ass? You don't even deserve my suffering right now you fucking whore. Hopefully this new guy gives you the pump and dump treatment.

I remembered Allie clearly though. No one has eyes like her. They are a clearer blue than my own.

LH, I act like I hate you to my friends, every bone in my body wants to say that I hate you but I really did love you, and you shot me down like I meant nothing. I deserved none of the shit you put me through, and I just want to make you jealous now. You acted like you cared for me, but as soon as I called you out on your bullshit you played the blame game and made people hate me. You fucked up me emotionally and I hate a lot of things now because of you. You ruined my first love experience, and I have no remorse for you.
To HN, thank you for everything, you are fantastic. Never change for anyone else, you are perfect. I don't know what I'm gonna do without you and I have a strong feeling we wont be talking after you leave. I've loved you at many points in my life, but you repeatedly shut me down and you never took my feelings into consideration.
To AS, stop being a hoe, you are so much more than that, you deserve a man who will treat you right like the perfect person you are.

I wish I stopped pussying out before hanging out with a girl, but I get a feeling inside of me like I'm doing something morally wrong and cut off all communication. Hopefully it will be different with you, but the way you never speak to me has me all kinds of fucked up. I want someone who will be as communicative and open as I am but I feel like my options are limited. I play the funny guy, but it gets me nowhere and I just want to be normal and enjoy what everyone else does.

why does every woman I find myself interested in have to have a bf?

every. fucking. time. I can't do anything with that. I instilled it into the very essence of my being after I got cheated on that I would never be that guy. plus if she cheats on him she'll cheat on me. there's nothing I can do with that.

fuck me.

Maybe Muhammed will show me the answers

Well it was a pretty good time we had, I know I should just stop talking to you whenever you look for me, and I know I shouldn´t look for you when I miss you, but I still love you and you know that, I never wanted for it to end, I just wanted for you to give more of yourself.
I still wonder, when I´m in bed with insomnia, how can I, at least, make my stomach stop hurting when I see you being happy with another one. Goddamnit I love you more than anything in my past, present or future, I just wanted you to be more loving and reciprocate, but that was my mistake, to believe that romantic relationships are reciprocate, and now I´m paying the price: the utter and crushing loneliness, the awareness to know that you will never love me again, the broken dreams we had been imagined for us, the excruciatingly regret I feel for not making things work, for not bringing you to a state of happiness and for not being man enough to just get over it; I see now, clearer than ever, I´m still a little kid in need of affection that is so afraid to get out of his comfort zone (his little bubble) that he will let all his chances of true realization slip pass by, filling himself with remorse as years go away.
Now I just try to get distracted from thinking about you, failing miserably at every attempt, feeling more pathetic every day, throwing myself at you every time we talk in hopes of the impossible receiving always the same rejection, the same friendly shut down; guess I just want someone to love me and to receive love from me, but I understand it is way too selfish of me to want that, just like all that I´ve wrote on this post.

>>18489595
I don´t know if I´ll ever stop with this vicious circle, but I surely thank you for every good memory, right now I feel like could love you even after death, for my own sake I hope I´m just lying and sooner than later I will find happiness on my own (you already found your happiness, so I hope you can keep it for the rest of your life).
You know? I believe I´ll never find another like you MP

you were the worst annoying piece of shit that latched on to me holy fuck are you worthless; you manipulated me to think i was wrong and everything i did was terrible, eventually i thought i was the worst person in the world for not making you happy all the time . It wasnt until i realized that you got mad for every little gesture i tried to show you- you would say it isnt enough at all, I have a hard time expressing my love and you got mad at me for it- 6 months it took me to realize that i was not terrible and you were bad for me. I am glad we argued for the last time, i left your ass on the bus. I am not a mean person at all hell it took me six damn months to put my feelings above yours and it was the best thing i ever did. A friend was helping me get through all the times i cried because of your verbal abuse and not soon after i left you, i fell in love with him. Does that makes me a slut? A hoe? Idk i never dated you for the past 6 months we never officially dated and now i have another by my side and i can say that he is my boyfriend. Far more romantic, funnier, and understanding than your immature ass will ever be A.H sincerely G.H.L

I just love disabled girls please don't hate me.

I just want the normal you back. Not this empty shell of a person with no interest in anything in life.

I bet if I go back and talk to the cute girl with the short hair I met a few days ago I'll find she's got a bf too. it's such a strong pattern that I'm willing to bet on it.

I'm so worried about my future that only drinking makes me calm
But only half way

>>18489625
Nah don't worry
A dozen or so years ago I was working at a Home Depot as a cart jockey
This woman asked for help to load her car with her purchases, so I helped out
Real pretty bird she was. Gorgeous

Load all her shit and when I smile and say g'day, I realize that she's missing a leg beyond the knee on one of her legs

Jeezum crow. Woulda done anything for her, her lack of leg meant nothing but also kinda something

>>18489632
When you assume failure you have nothing to lose if you try

evidently I come off as really aggressive. I wasn't aware.

All I want is my shitty fucking piece of shit belt. Fucking piece of shitty game design this has been and all I want is to fucking get it already so that I can finally fucking do something else

>>18488639
Work your ass off so that you aren't blind sided by monetary hardship.

Join a club or sport or a group to keep you social. Build yourself, build your circle. Get outside the boxes: car, house, internet...

You are it. You're the man. Become the man you're destined to be

i know you're a radio city rockette now, but never ever forget that one time in junior high when i invited you to my lunch table because you looked painfully lost and hopeless. i felt so bad for you. you looked like a lost puppy but i guess it was all a ploy because you used me that year to work your way up to the top and beyond. i never should've helped you.

I like all these girls wearing their hair as if they kitty ears.

On the other hand, I just want to die. I'm fucking broken beyond repair.

I'm terrible at being alone. Every time theres a break in my schedule where I have the day to myself I feel terrible the whole uneventful day. I always try to hang out with friends but whenever that falls through and I have to keep myself busy for the day I always feel completely isolated from the world and like I'm falling behind or that I should be doing something big or important where I'm making progress.

Thoughts? Probably has something to do with unresolved emotional issues that I can't even remember.

>>18489730
If you appreciate that hairstyle then you can't be all that bad

I wanted to fix things between us. You keep telling me that you miss me. Yet nothing changes. I still love you, but there's no point to wait for someone that doesn't act and only talks. Its been far too long for me to just wait for when you are ready.

I just hope that when you find out I have started to date other women, that it doesn't hurt you.

I need to think about myself.

>>18489826
Cheating dickwad.

>>18489826
Initial?

Holy fuck I'm so deathly terrified of actually making a dating profile/tinder. The thought of a woman matching or wanting to be with me just boggles my mind and makes me very anxious.

No I'm not a virgin. I have a car but I still live with my parents (didn't stop me from getting any) but holy shit a girl that I've never met wants to hang out with me.

I'm pretty much a normie though I think nowadays. I have a stable job, I'm apparently funny and attractive and I love skateboarding.

What the fuck is wrong with me? The thought of a girl I've just met laughing at my jokes or smiling when she sees me almost makes me feel insulted as if it were a joke. I've had depression in the past and had to convince myself I wasn't totally worthless, so maybe it's a relic of that?

I have a dozen breakdowns a day. I just want this to be over. Why won't you end it? Why? Are you trying to kill me with a broken heart?

i ended my long term relationship over some chick from the internet. it was worth it.

i hope you'll forgive me someday and find your own happiness.

J,

I still like you, and I hate it so much. And I care about E a lot, but you just crept into my life and then into my thoughts and shit and now most mornings I'm up until 2-4 am just thinking and wondering "what if"? What if I moved back home? What if I moved into dorms? What if I moved in somewhere else. What's crazy is that you're the only person I've ever noticed aside from E and it drives me nuts because I feel like I shouldn't be with anyone now. I hope this passes, I really do. For everyone's sake. I'm glad we got to talk a little.. And for what it's worth you're probably right that it's for the best. Just wish I didn't have these stupid feels at all. It's not fair.

-D

>>18489645
They are so rare I've only met a few while growing up but I was so nervous I couldn't say anything. They were really cute despite being disabled and I would like to meet another but I have no idea where. It seems like a dream at this point.

>>18489648
this is true. but like I have this problem where women that I don't have any interest in I can talk to entirely normally, the second I start to have an interest I can't even think of things to say. in that moment there is always a pretty big differential in terms of interest between the girl and I. and so it just goes to shit.

pretty sure I watched that happen today in a different situation.

its fucking retarded because in a relationship I'm great. out of a relationship as friends with no interest between us I'm great. that intermediate area? I'm a fucking dysfunctional autist that can't speak normally or act right and I end up in situations where a few hours later I just cringe at myself like today, right now.

>>18488123
initial?

>>18488149
Did your person unblock you?

I know he's going after her. He just has to do this to me just as I was going to get close to her. I know she'll probably gravitate towards him since they've known each other. Fucker is bigger than me and more experienced in the world and all that but fuck I have to come out on top. Its a race to the bottom and I will win because I have to.

I... have sore testicles.

>>18489838
I hope you'll kill yourself after being catfished.

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>tfw there's nothing for J for five days in a row
You know what, life's beautiful sometimes.

My ex says he can't be with me because his family doesn't approve or some shit. He choose family acceptance over me. These assholes don't even know me. Fuck them and fuck him.

>>18489900
No anon, they did not.

>>18489891
R, I can almost guarantee I am not who you are looking for though.

>>18489939
initial?

>>18489948
R, likely not who you are looking for. It is also kind of wishful thinking on my part the person I am looking for thought like that. Their writing is just similar and they were pretty opaque with their reason for going.

WHY DO PEOPLE LEAVE OTHER PEOPLE ON READ, DESPITE THEIR DEEP FRIENDSHIP

>>18489952
Yeah, sorry I'm not the person you're looking for either.

>>18489952
By opaque I mean, they did something wrong suddenly and gave up on me to chase someone easier. It didn't help that I pushed them away by acting like an asshole recently due to medical issues when they were struggling to decide if I could deliver what I promised.

I am just kinda hoping that they would still admit they want what we were chasing for should we have a talk and find a way forward where I can be more active in their lives instead of being complacent, which brought about this mess.

Dear K,

I have so many questions and so many regrets over you that it's not even funny. How exactly did you see me? We hung out almost everyday at one point. I tried to make it somewhat obvious of my feelings, but it seems I was not blunt enough. I'm such a pussy with this shit. When I finally confessed, you turned me down because of a current bf that you started dating 2 weeks before I asked. I know that F has really helped me out, but I feel like I just can't move on from you. We're still friends, right? Are we awkward now? How do you think of me? I thought of you as someone whom I could spend my life with, despite my youth and naivety. Now that you broke up with this guy, you again shot me down, this time, while I was being truly direct. I'll wait as long as it takes. Sorry F, but it seems that I can't seem to take your advice. I keep reading stories of happy endings after multiple tries and persistence, and it just energizes me. I won't and can't give up. I won't lose you.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Dear T,

I know it's been 2 years, but I cannot believe the shit you've been saying. I put myself out there for you, and you want to talk about love now, over social media? You're a selfish, arrogant cunt. You only go for 'buff guys' and football players because that's what you see as 'your type'. Yet I was willing to offer you my being. You shot me down and ghosted me without even giving me a full explanation as to why. Fuck you, we'll never be as close as we were, if you would even call it that. I hope you see that those guys you like are just filthy niggers who just want to live the thug life. You have greater aspirations than them, who are banking their livelihoods on a single sport that they probably won't get anywhere with. Sincerely, fuck you. I don't know why I'm so angry with you now, of all times, but fuck, you're a dense cunt who tried to be nice, but went about it in a shitty way. The worst part is that you knew and didn't make up for it.

>>18489954
probably cause they're not that good of friends. there's a whole spectrum of friends anon. most are not close.

>>18490006
what if they ARE close

>>18490016
maybe the other person is fucking some bitch or is dead. idfk anon. I don't give a shit about this kind of stuff. people come and go. if people want to be around alright, if they don't there's very few I feel an obligation to go out of my way to try and keep around. I'm fucking busy, I got my own shit to worry about. you should have your own shit to worry about too.

>>18490016
if ya'll close, you should be able to talk about it between the two of you. if you can't, you ain't close.

>>18488755
>I still feel ashamed.
Senpai, if it's any consolation, paying for sex is pretty pimp and illegal where I come from.

why the fuck are you on advice if you're going to tell people that you don't want to hear about their problems, idiot

>>18490030
o shit, good idea

>>18489391
I feel your pain. I dissociate on a regular basis and I can't remember fights to save my own life. I think we may be broken

Please god, give me this job. It's just a simple one even dumbass high schoolers could do. Surely I'm not completely unemployable for whatever reason....

Unrelated, but I need to get over my crush on (you). It's ripping me apart.

>>18488147
I'm with you brother. I just sent a text to a girl I had sex with a week or so ago. It's the first contact I've had with her since. Sitting on it is the worst part. My advice for texting like that is send it, then put your phone on airplane or whatever, then go for a nice long run and do some workouts. After that turn off airplane mode and see what happens!

>>18489371
Same feeling here. 4 years to the trash.

>>18489826
Fuck you.

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I don't know if plastic surgery will make me stop obsessing over my appearance. My biggest reason for not wanting surgery isn't what I tell people- cost, risks, hoping I'll stop caring about my appearance- it's the fear that it won't help. I feel like I need to have a flawless face. I almost feel like... what's the use if I change just one facial feature? I need to be a different person. Image related- saw it on PostSecret a few years ago. I would like to try CBT to stop reflexive thoughts, like "I should just kill myself" when I see someone much better looking than myself. bLEHHH

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>>18490049
why the fuck can't you link posts?

>>18490049
also I did give advice. read it again, think critically, apply things that were said to the situation. oh look there's advice in with the tough love, hot damn.

mom,

stop talking shit about me to dad. the second I talk to him I btfo your bullshit. idk if it's because you're trying to be a bitch or because you don't understand the words coming out of my mouth, but he understands everything I'm doing and what I say. I'm pretty sure you should be able to comprehend the things I talk about, so I'm forced to the conclusion that you're doing it on purpose to ruin our relationship. you should stop, or when I have kids I will never let you near them. I've already considered it.

your son.

I'm so confused. I love you so much, but when you're not around me I think about how much I want to break up with you. Everything started so great, and then we started fucking up. Fuck you! Why did I have to fall in love with you, why do you have to be my first girlfriend. Why can't we just love each other. I just want to love you, but you continue to do stupid shit. And it makes me act out in childish ways. I don't know if I can keep doing this. I still love you.

I think Jay-Z and Baebae are scam artists and that Adele is as fake as creosote

I think I fucked it up with mu crush :(
It was soooooo close, last date we went to she really wanted a kiss (i could see it in her eyes) but I didn't do it and it feels as the chance is gone now.

My mind wanders and I find it difficult to concentrate

https://youtu.be/im9UzhOxVlI

I love you so much it isn't even funny. I feel like a teenager, I spend every second thinking about you and how I want to kiss you, hold you, caress you. I can't concentrate on anything to the point that my roommates make fun of me. And somehow, undoubtedly thanks to a miracle, you love me back. I'm just so happy and I can't wait to see you again.

>>18489194
Update on this; I texted them and now we're doing something later.
I don't know why they're so hesitant to contact me first though.

I'm jealous. Everyone around me seems to be more successful whether it be with girls, music, looks, etc. I have some hobbies and skills myself but it feels like I'm just wasting my days away this summer. My friend put up a post of them playing the piano, a failed endeavor of mine, and I can't help but feel worse than it actually is. A girl I used to date is dating one of my friends and I feel like a fucking cuckold, even if she's not my girl. While all I'm doing is counting the number of times I jack off a day, flushing away days while I'm in bed, and just not investing myself in anything. I wanna get up and fucking do something with myself but I'm just a kid and can't get out of the house much. I have a good environment, family takes care of me, have various comforts, and I should actually be grateful that I can stay in my bed all day while other kids don't have that convenience. I just can't help but feel envious. Maybe I'm just lazy because I know I can better myself and I know I have all the time to do it.

Pin prickles a growing sensation
Attenuation of pain gives way
Somehow today I saw outside
Blinding light beautiful embrace of love
It dripping last thing I saw
Immeasurable pain gave way immense pleasure
I see them that I've longed for so long
Pin prickles of ecstasy
Is it the end or just the beginning

>>18490512
fuck those people. They're probably just as confused and miserable as you.
There were 11 year olds who fought in the French resistance, don't let your age dictate what you can and can't do.

I'm sick of it
Sick of being an adult
Sick of budgeting, sick of working, sick of having to protect myself
Sick of being outdone by people who have had a blessed life
everything that i would want to do in my life is unnachivable
without a head start and i'm already loosing the game of life
I have no idea what i really want to do.

I'm honestly bored
I want to make friends but i have no idea how
Tinder has failed me and i have failed at tinder
I tried but im boring online and i have no idea what i should do
I've been suicidal more than a few times in the past 6 months
And i'm too lazy/scared to seek help
I miss being loved i miss the warmth that comes with it.

What if youre actually just a really dumb person?
Im terrible at socializing and I can't empathize whatsoever.
I friends growing up and all, I think mostly because I was funny and I did genuinely want to help people, but my ability to understand others wants and needs, was and is terrible.
I sometimes fail at understanding extremely simple concepts and it makes me feel dumb. I guess its partly because I cant focus and get lost in thought, distracted or focus too much on a single detail, much like an autist.

Its in my genes, my entire family has a history of social rejects, inbreds, mental diseases and whatnot.

What is really the point then? Why even try when theyve all failed for generations. I know you can only learn and change so much about yourself.
Some things are just in your core.

Im very self aware and have what I would call almost robot like objectiveness. thats why I can see that many things are just, plain bad and hopeless.

I feel like Im just smart enough to realize how truly dumb I am. I tried learning from mistakes but I end up doing the same impulsive things every time.

Im losing enjoyment in every aspect of life and I see no way out anymore

every fucking time I get too tired or drugged out I end up feeling seriously melancholic because I miss my woman
this shit needs to fuck the fuck off, I'm tired of feeling bittersweet over the smallest things that remind me of her
I'm tired of missing her so damn much and I'm tired of wishing I could've done things different because it's over and I'll find someone else, even though I don't want anyone else
I'm tired

I was a huge asshole when I was a kid. I pushed others around, leeched off others, got into fights, and made them do what I wanted. I even used a desperate fat girl to lose my virginity when I was 16 and then avoided her. I still feel like shit when I think about it.
Maybe I just have more problems than I care to admit. No doubt linked to my overly passive father, my pill selling, lonely mother, and the fact I'm a middle child with two older brothers and two younger sister on my mom's side, and three older brothers and a younger brother and sister on my dad's side.
When I put it that way, its no wonder I'm not as close to my parents as normal people.

>>18490536
None of this matters. It's your life, your experiences and expectations. Finding your own inner peace and contentment is all you need. Competitiveness is pointless, you're better than equating your short life with the twats in suits. Experience jaw dropping beauty, be it in the natural world or faux luxury, but remember, this is all temporary. Life can crush your spirit, sometimes we get sucked into a messy vortex. Then we emerge from that, cobwebs cleared away with a fresh perspective and better able to deal with our challenges.

Is face attractiveness all about having a tall forehead?

>>18490727
no

Sometimes I hate this job.
I hate having to suck up to mu superior so that I don't get passed up on. I hate suspecting that I'm getting passed up on anyways because she's his girlfriend. I hate the stuck up guy I have to work with. I hate doing things for free because unless I do so the product is gonna suck. I hate that the bosses are cheap fucks who nickel and dime us on everything. I hate that doing all of this doesn't even guarantee me a full salary. I hate that I can't even quit and get a similar job.
Sometimes I just fucking hate it all, but better than being unemployed right?

I'm probably going to get a more or less dream job. I finally have some free time and came back home. But ever since I ran out of deadlines and exams I don't know what to do with life. I felt good avoiding and postponing, but now that there's no pressure I have too much time to think and I feel lonely and bored again

I should have said something to you yesterday. I'm probably going to regret being such a pussy for the rest of my life. God fucking damit why do you do this to me. Fuck

>>18490102
>>18489830
Cheating? No. We broke up. You wanted a break. Needed time. Its been almost a year. I'm sorry, but I think you just didn't have the guts to tell it to me straight.
You didn't have the respect to say it's over and cut me loose. I waited. I wanted you. Not sure how long you can do this to a person. Would you happily sit there? With the constant feeling of missing, and getting nothing in return? For so long?

If you honestly wanted me, we would have talked openly. We would have worked on a plan or something to make thing work out. I wanted that more than anything. You never saw us as us. It was simply you and me. We were never a team in your eyes. Just conveniences.

I'm sick of waiting, sick of empty promises, the same apologies. The nothingness of our relationship. Its not worth it. You aren't worth it.

what the fuck kind of stupid ass dream was that, brain? you realize none of that shit made any fucking sense? I mean for starters, lets talk about the fact that first everything was under water and there were sharks right? like we were in a sunken ship, then all of a sudden everything is on dry land and there's carniverous dinosaurs I have to kill. THEN there's a giant that kills a gigantosaurus or whateverthefuck but it turns out his parents are tiny, and somehow they know me from childhood and we're all good friends.

seriously, brain, get your shit together.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UYKKQn3WXh0

welp, she's not into me anymore. also something was really weird this morning.

26.0 BMI.

I done goofed.

Why is so hard to be alright? I don't want a perfect life, but I'm sick of how imperfect mine is.

>Exercise

And let the little shit rub it on my face? Do I have to be a weeb too? Do I have to screech like a masturbating chimp too? To play the dumbass manic pixieboi role while, in fact, being the most obnoxious and self-fetishizing fucktard in the world? Do I have to kill myself slowly by felating the cunt-faced bastard life has prepared me to be my boss too? Do I have to defecate on everything my significant ones consider precious too?

Holy fuck, I wish I didn't knew him. But he's there. All the time. The same fucking blood. That sickens me. If he wants to be happy, let him be happy, but away from me. So that I don't have to live under the shadow he wants to put on me. That fucking shadow that wants to mount me like a fucking mongrel.

I just wanted to be the chill one, the silent one, the thoughtful one.

How the fuck am I supposed to exercise without my family noticing?

Fuck, I wish I loved something, ANYTHING, enough to improve myself. But I don't even love myself enough to go out and DO something.

(sorry for the lack of order in the ideas, I'm just spewing shit here)

>>18490928
stop blaming others. You don't need excuses to excercise. Just do it. let that person rub it in. They only care because they want you to fail.

>>18490334
ADHD?
NLVD?

I want to die.W
Why are you people doing this to me? You're not helping me. You've made me worse than ever.

It happened again. I got my hopes up but moved too slow, and now I 'lost' again. She's with someone else, and I have to see them every day. They think they're being discrete, but it's plain as day.

The initial shock is over, the stabbing pangs of jealousy aren't as sharp any more. It's just a dull melancholy that ruins everything; jokes aren't funny, work isn't interesting, and I don't feel hungry even when my stomach growls.

If I just moved too slow, that's fine. I don't like 'flirting' by acting like an asshole, ignoring personal space and continuing to pester someone when they say "no". What's the difference between persistence and disrespect? Is acting like a self-centered jerk really that attractive? Where does self-confidence end and arrogance begin? Should I just assume that her not moving away from me means I'm flirting successfully?

If I misread the signals, instead, that hurts worse. One, because that means I haven't learned anything since the last time. Two, because I felt a real response when I was with her; she didn't sit there and play on her phone, but she wasn't just casual and polite, either. It's hard to describe. Like a sort of.. mutual transfixion. Heck, the only reason I got interested in her was because of how she acted when we were together.

Did I misread things, then? Am I wrong now? I'd rather just get over it, than prolong any fantasy, but it's a bit difficult to ask when you two are always disappear together.

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Here's the truth. I feel like I wasted 2 or 3 years with you.

Not the first 3, because I was in high school and I wasn't going to do what I wanted anyway. Not the 1 or 2 after I moved to be with you, either, because those were quite nice and I was working, figuring myself out.

But the 2 or 3 that came after that was me sitting alone in an empty room in front of a computer waiting for you to come home from work. Being a miserable house-spouse. and I couldn't really express myself outwardly. I couldn't touch your mother's apartment, I couldn't dye my hair because you wouldn't like it, I couldn't get tattoos because you wouldn't like it. I finally have my own apartment now, and decorating it to suit my tastes is a lot of fun. I only wish I could have done it sooner. I know that if we'd gotten a place together, I wouldn't be able to do it because you would disagree with everything I want to do. The only thing I don't feel like was a complete waste was that I at least spent those years honing a skill that benefits me greatly now and is my career. So there's that I guess. I hope you feel the same way, and that your wings can finally be spread now that I've left you. But maybe you haven't and you're still in the same place in your life.

au revoir

Makes me blush knowing how jealous people are of me and how low it makes them. Pretty tasty that their existences are in my control

Are you able to say anything other than "hmm" or "mhm"? Anything? And are you able to say anything other than "I'm sorry"? How do you two expect to keep a conversation going with those? I might as well not even talk to either of you.

>>18490334
Me too. It feels like it's getting worse. On top of that I have a bad memory. I've tried talking to my friend about it but he just says "well don't bother trying to get a job or do anything with your life then". Thanks for the uplifting words.

Help

I'm so anxious throughout the entire day, I worry almost endlessly about the idea of death. It intrudes on my thoughts many times a day - even in the company of others.

I am now completely unable to sleep at night out of fear I get another panic attack about it. Even seeing the sun go down make me anxious as it makes me realize that the night is soon coming and the nightmares begin.

I'm unable to do anything without anxiousness. How do I make it go away?

>>18489536
How do you expect to make me jealous when you have no way of contacting me? I don't give a fuck what you do in life anymore. And everyone hated you from the start. Especially now that you showed them what you're capable of.

I still feel a bit hurt.

My Birthday passed a couple of days ago. Only 4 people greeted me. My mom, brother, sister and a cousin.

I thought at least my highschool friends who I use to literally hang out everyday with would send a text. Looking back, after like 10 years of friendship, they never cared. Never bothered to learn the date or even the month.

The closest thing was when they asked me when mine was a month after. I feel like they pretended to feel bad and bought an ice cream cake. The following years, they forgot.

Fuck you guys. I took the time to remember each and every one of yours and greet you. I thought you guys were special people in my life.

>>18489559

>>>>>r/islam

Why do I always fall for the immature girls, who can't understand boundaries, have daddy issues, and use people without giving anything back? Is my dick some kind of divining rod for bad news barbies? Meanwhile the girl with dyed hair and bullet-magazine belt is super levelheaded and understanding, but I can't find anything actually attractive about her.

I'm a male, and I want a misandristic woman to my life SO BAD. Like, full SJW trampling everything I've built for fun and profit.
It's gotten to the point where I've started viewing efforts to improve my life as stuffing the treasure chest for such a woman to plunder.

You are the most toxic, self obsessed person I've ever met. You ruined me a year ago and yet you still want me to stay in your life. I'm sick of all this bullshit. Congrats, I hope it felt nice manipulating all of us and almost destroying a friendship that started long before you even knew about me. I fucking hate you.

i always have to be high/drunk almost at all times... if it's not alcohol it's most likely benzos... all of this started after i left my boyfriend last year.

he started doing lots of drugs after the breakup as well.

i'm only 18 and leaving for college in a couple months. i just hope that the addiction doesn't spiral out of control.

I have a feeling I'm being lied to. If you don't want to talk to me just say so! Don't fucking string me along and disappear. Don't tell me you love me anymore, because I know you don't mean it. I hate how I feel right now. And don't ever, EVER tell me that you fucking love me more when I'm over here feeling sick over you and you're ignoring me. I wish I never fell in love with you. I wish I hated you. My life is crumbling because of my feelings for you. I wish I could choose who I loved because it sure as hell wouldn't be you. And you're not even trying to change your situation. I can't even look at you as an option. Yet I continue my "relationship" with you, because I love you. I am the world's biggest idiot and I hate myself.

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>TFW your USB cable is broken and you need to position your phone just right to get it to actually charge properly

I'm depressed and I hate myself for becoming this way today. I should be stronger.

>>18491867
Why should you be?

Why are you punishing me for being devastated at what you told me, and being scared at how out of character you have been acting? Why do you believe that terrible thing someone who has never met me said about me? You have known me for years and you know I am not like that.
Why are you asking others for advice regarding me instead of just asking me directly what it would take for me to be cheery again?
Most importantly please talk to me again, it has been almost a week. Please stop treating me like a stranger I am the same person you have always known.

Why is it so atrocious and unbelievable that I wanted to be alone this holiday?

I like being alone. I like quiet, and peace.
I don't like festivities. I don't like surprises.

I've been saying this for years, now. Every time you act like it's the first time you've heard it.
I get looks like I just told people I broke my leg, or my pet died, and questions of "what's wrong?"
Nothing's wrong. I just like being alone.

Then when I've said this half a dozen times, you turn around and starting agreeing. Yeah, screw people! You don't need them!
Yes, I do need them. I need people who care about the same things I do, and who care about how I'm doing, not how much money I'm making.
I choose to surround myself with people who care about who I am. Not what niche I'm supposed to occupy in your perfect mental family hierarchy.

You claim that everyone is out to use you, to use me, that I can't trust anyone.
I'm pretty sure you're the one who can't be trusted, because you're the one who seems to have a 'plan' for me each time we talk. Your messages don't sound heartfelt; they're commands riding on guilt tripping me.

My brother figured it out years before I did. I wish I had, too, but I actually bought all you were selling, and now I'm still struggling to shake it off.

>>18491949
Shitty parent problems are the worst.

>>18487686
Apparently I'm only happy when I'm spending time with you. This being dependent thing is new and I hate it.

>>18491870
Because I should be able to keep my shit together

I dated a girl who was raped repeatedly by her older step-brother from the ages of ~9-12, for 3.5 years, and couldn't bring myself to break up with her despite the glaringly obvious psychological damage. Finally we went separate ways so she could focus on her education. I'm relieved to be out of that relationship, but very lonely and have no confidence.

I'm tired of living in constant pain. Every second of every minute of every hour of every day for 25 years. Stop telling me to fucking cheer up or look on the bright side. Every time we go out I have to put on a facade of normalcy. No matter how much fun we have, I am in fucking pain and do my best to put it aside for you. Forgive me if I have a really bad day and need some time to myself to recuperate. Just living day to day is a struggle so get off my back about getting married or having kids.

>>18487686

basically i tried to get this girl to like me but she unfriended me from fb probably cuz of constant texting and shit, rip

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>>18491852
>>18491852
>>18491852
Grow up, I don't want you anymore anyway, you're used goods now; slut.

You bitch you were the one who approached me while you were still daying that fag and you were the one who ended your two year relationship to be with me now you cut me off and get back together with that cuck and i dont know what i ever did wrong i thought we could be together we were so fucking close i wanted you so bad why did you block me on everything when ive never done anything to you and havent even tried to contact you in months i know shit now though i know you arent a fucking virgin i know things about you most people dont and i wish i didnt this whole damn situation bent me over and fucked me right up the ass and im glad it didnt work out abd i wish it was over

I'm gonna keep pretending for the rest of my life I don't really hate you, because otherwise people will make you the victim and you don't deserve that, but on 4chan I can say what the fuck I want.
Fuck you. You never put half the effort I did into making our relationship work. I gave you everything I had, and what did you do? You cheated on me with your ex, who you don't even like, because you're too much of a self-centered cunt to think about anyone but yourself. And even after all that, you had the audacity to ask if you could still live with me for a while until you "figure shit out", which I assume means move your stuff to your new bfs house. Fuck you. I hope you at least lose sleep over this, but I'm betting you won't, because I doubt you cared to begin with. Fuck you, T, and you fucking know I'm keeping your bomb nudes.

>>18488171
:(

>>18488159
Yeah, fuck people like that. Every time a girl tells me she needs time, I tell her we should just break up now.

>>18492387
I'm about to do this right now. My boyfriend wanted a break and I agreed to it but I'm realizing I don't think I can handle it. It's just best for me to move on instead waiting around for him.

>>18492389
Don't second guess yourself, this is the right decision. Your boyfriend played a bitch move.

Am I ever going to be somebody to anybody?
I just want to feel at home, but I Don't know how to. I don't know what to do. I don't think I can be happy. I'm such a whiny edgy overemotional douchebag and I hate that and I hate me but it just keeps getting worse. I wish I could just find something that makes me happy. I wish the world had a place for people like me.

>>18488159
Uh, because some people are different than you? And maybe they just want to be left alone from you and enjoy being by themselves.

Fucking loser.

What, you love me? But you're still not over your ex? You think I'm the best person you've ever met? Despite how broken I am? I want to love you. I want to be with you. I want it to be us against the world. But do you feel the same? If I told you I loved you, would you say you loved me that way too? Or would you just say "thanks, I needed the self-esteem boost"? You're the most complex person I've ever met. I can't lie to myself anymore. I love you.

i'm tired of not being able to trust anyone
even the people who i get close with
i'm still... hesitant
wtf is wrong with me??

I think I'm ready to die.

>>18492419
It's good to be prepared, I've heard, but maybe that's not a universally applicable saying.

>>18492419
Me too.

>>18492400
I'm already regretting it. help

>>18492403
>Am I ever going to be somebody to anybody?
You already are.
>I don't know what to do
Something you've never done before.
>I'm such a whiny edgy overemotional douchebag
Mate, lots of people think they're pieces of shit. Most aren't. Assume you're in the majority and stop bullying yourself.
>I wish I could just find something that makes me happy
Then start looking. It won't show up on your doorstep, happiness is something that most of us have to work hard for.
>I wish the world had a place for people like me
You aren't special. There are thousands of people in pretty much the same spot. You'll find one eventually.

>>18492417
Hesitation is natural. The best thing you can do is open up to them about how you feel, and if they're actually worth spending time with they'll completely understand.

>>18491729
If all you've got to stop it is hope then the addiction will progress. Take control of your life and find an addiction center or ask your doctor about treatments.

>>18491618
Why are you still hurt by this? It's been years since they showed you they were terrible people, and yet you still devote that much brain power to them? Focus on what's here and now, your friends and loved ones that really care about you, and leave that shit to rot away deep in your memory.

>>18492435
Wanna chat? I just broke up with my gf so I feel ya.

>>18488147
You are just afraid of success, it happens to everyone.

>>18490082
Fuck, this is good advice. I'm gonna do this next time.

>>18491523
I used to have that exact problem. I was depressed and lonely, without any real aim or purpose, and this lack of a foundation to life makes us think about that nasty shit. So focus on what and who you love, and with progress and time these thoughts will fade away.

>>18492470
Sure. Where?

>>18492485
I don't care. Snapchat: QuakersOat, number: 3123809199
I don't have kik, but I do have Skype if you wanted to do that.

>>18492495
We can Skype. Whats your skype?

>>18492498
Can't Skype at the moment unfortunately because my roommates are sleeping, but my username is mics1964

>>18492504
Okay I just added you

I always, ALWAYS, regret the last text I send. Fuck.

>>18492475
Glad to help :^)

no one believes me and i'm all alone

Several (Also Help is appreciated):

Dear Marko,
I will always love you. Even if I never had the courage to tell you this. I am here on the other side of the world while you are having beautiful moments with your friends.
I really like for us to meet again at least once, when I am back from studying abroad. The nights we shared were amazing, the talks, the kisses. I will never forget what you have done for me you gave me the confidence to face some of the most hurtful episodes in my life.
You reused to come on a trip with me ... I will never fully know why. Maybe it is because you found someone else.... but I will never know because you are not answering my texts or messages.

Just one signal from you would put my mind to peace.

2. I met this really cute guy on the street randomly on the street while I was with a fuckbuddy. He suggested to find each other on Facebook at the end of our conversation in which we talked about shared interests. Does that mean he is into me? I already added him on Facebook....

What do ?

>>18488078
This is unhealthy, you will rebound if you do this. Eat healthy and exercise a little.

I want ice cream so fucking bad right now, but I also want my 6 pack back and I'm almost there.

I haven't seen my partner in a very long time and our relationship has been fraught with issues (abuse issues, his constant lying throughout the relationship, and cheating online). Not being able to see him in-person for several weeks and having the last real interactions with him be so negative has really made me love him a lot less. My emotions keep going back and forth with him. I wonder if being able to see him more would help sort out my feelings better but he's unable to see me anytime soon because of family obligations.

C, I will miss you, honestly.
Hope the grass is greener on your pasture.

>>18492627
You should make him clean up his act, cheating is not okay.

>>18487686
i actually had a pretty good day today, but seeing all the cute young women walking around and knowing i am undateable put a damper on things

>>18492600
technically I do need like 500-700 more calories though... so I could eat like a half pint... but that's all shitty calories that aren't doing anything for me. fuck, it's too late to get something tasty here except for shit food.

fuck it, when in doubt, protein shake. still waiting on a special occasion for a huge milkshake. other than that, I guess fuck ice cream.

Just end me.

>>18492676
Why?

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>>18487686
For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish, but have eternal life. (John 3:16)

Jesus Christ loves you all, Seek Him and you will find. You need to open up your heart to Him. It doesn't matter what your friends think, it doesn't matter what your family thinks, it doesn't even matter what 4chan thinks.

Get alone inside your prayer closet and start seeking God. Cry out to Him and He will listen to all your cares and all your worries. Life is not fair, God is always fair and one day He will judge both the living and the dead. Humble yourself and get in the Spirit and Seek God (Jehovah, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit). Repent of your sins, stop sinning. Read your Bibles. Pray, pray, and pray. Seek and you will find.

My social life is nonexistent, all my friends have cut me out of their lives, my physical health and emotional well-being are rapidly deteriorating, and I have absolutely nobody to talk to about it and no hope of recovering anything I've lost or moving on with my life and actually trying to start a career. I had a normal life at one point and hopes and aspirations like anybody else and now I don't even have that much. I barely even know what the date is half the time. Two weeks can pass and I won't even realize it. My life is escaping me in huge chunks.

It's just not right, it shouldn't be this way. I almost feel like I'm living in some awful alternate universe where everything is upside-down and there's no way I can fix any of it. Bright patches are few and far in between. This is an existence, but it's not much of a life. I have some talents and people who care about me but there's so much wrong that I can barely find any reason to be happy.

I don't know how to end this rambling mess. I just wish things could be better.

Jesus says b yourself you dont need to do shit he's already cool with you and you don't need a bible to pray and if they're trying too sell his words they're not very holy so keep your money love is free. Praise the poor not the business or their logo for man is to sin.

I fucked up, I don't regret breaking up with you, but I do regret not telling you why, I wish I wasn't so autistic and retarded, I loved you a lot. It's been a year since I last had sex and about 3 months since I last saw you, maybe you had sex this week, maybe you'll have sex today, I hate what you've become but I really shouldn't care, I can't move on until something as good as you were at the moment happens to me, but life is shit, I miss having a girlfriend in general, but not being YOUR girlfriend, you fucking suck.

I... can't stop shitting. I'm. Scared.

WHEN THE FUCK ARE WE GETTING THE REST OF SEASON 3? like I mean, don't rush it, I know it's gonna be good, but this shit is fucking great and I need more.

on a somewhat related note, I would totally steal cable if I could get infinite tv from infinite universes.

>>18492928
1) gb2 leddit

2) July 30th

I keep doing wet farts.

>>18488159
Sometimes people may prefer to take some alone time than to hear your constant nagging. Just a thought.

>>18492642
I know that feeling and some guys might say "lol who cares, just enjoy the look" but what's the point of that if you never get that bitch in tight leggings or a short skirt anyway?

I just don't know what to do or be anymore. I did everything I could to finish highschool on time just for my life to be a mess. Graduating did nothing and I haven't done anything. I barely can stand being awake but I hate sleeping because all I do is toss and turn. I have a girlfriend I've been dating for years and I feel like I've never gotten a chance to experience a relationship with anyone else but I love her and do genuinely care about her. Im 18 and don't have family that matters or cares about me. And I can't drive and don't have a job. It feels like my so called friends are just tasked and burdened to ever even message me. And I spend all week in a room playing videogames I don't really want to play anymore but have to because I would probably hang myself if I just sat doing nothing. I don't know how much longer I can hold on and all I can think if how great it would be to just become a worthless addict or alcoholic like my parents. I want to force myself into a place where I can finally cut ties with the few people I do have that care about me so I can feel no guilt and kill myself. But even then I question what I'd be missing out on since all I ever feel is that I'm missing every opportunity that could make me happy. So I'm stuck in a place where all I do is suffer and when no one is around I cry and mock what a pathetic mess and waste of breath I am.

>>18493091
Sorry to hear that, anon, it sounds like a real hell on earth for you. I wish I could offer some words of advice. This might not mean much but regardless I'll just remind you that you're still really young and probably pretty healthy to boot. Cherish these things and most of all take care of yourself. Don't end up being a pathetic wreck at nearly 25 years old who spends every day wondering how it could all go wrong and wishing nothing more than to be able to go back and do it all over again.

If you want to learn a language or become an artist or a musician or a programmer, do it. Train yourself every day even after you get sick of it and the novelty is gone, that's the only way you'll ever be good at anything and when you get good at something you might find a purpose in life.

Hope that provided you with some comfort at least.

I don't want to feel incapable of doing anything in life anymore.

I wish you could see that I would do anything for you out of love. I was dedicated to providing you with a happy life and better prospects. As you've turned your back, several doors have opened for me. My strengths that you lambasted, others appreciate as unique and marketable. Onwards and upwards.

You can expect me at the wedding.

Don't expect me at the reception.

Should I buy a Mac book?

Fucking heroin cravings...

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I'm struggling for like 5 years now, can't ask for help or anything. I'm thinking of suicide everyday, and i have homicidal thoughts from time to time. I've asked for help, i've went to the psychologists etc, but none of them helped me. Shit's getting too heavy for me and i might do it soon, but at the same time i can't, because of my family, my sister, my girlfriend. All that time it was ME who was helping others, and noone helped me. If i'll refuse to help anyone, people will forget about the good things i did, and will only remember the bad things. I can't do anything.

I think God is making sure I never get a gf so that I become a priest.

I'm going to learn to love myself. I will focus the next year on self betterment and not worry about other people.

>>18493562
Sounds like a good idea. Good luck.

>>18488807
If I see you in my fucking neighborhood one more time, I'm going to jail for beating your ass.

Don't shop here, don't get gas here, don't take a walk here, do nothing in my vicinity. Just pass on through, and we will have no issues.

Also, I take it California didn't work out?
Heh, knew it was bullshit from the start.

I don't know what to do with my life, my time is filtering between my hands and there is nothing I'm doing about it.

>>18493520
At least you aren't the reincarnation of Jesus.

let me tell you something son, being THAT fucking sucks.

>>18487686
You make me crazy. I love you so much, I just want to feel close to you.

>>18492928
wait, what's season 3?

What the fuck is wrong with you people. What was season 2? Does this never end?

Season 3 is going to end on a super downer just so you know.

I get parkinsons and die.

Did you guys do that shit on purpose? With the wifi signal being crossed out?

Why would you do that? I'm still fucking thinking about it.

I'm tired of being single. I want a nice hot loving bf to dedicate time to. Will that ever happen I wonder. I wish I liked guys more often, but it's very rare and they never like me back

>>18490288
Same boat as you man, same sad boat as you...maybe we'll close our eyes and the situation will solve itself?

like, am I really so pathetic that people want to take care of me? That's why I'm so popular?

oh well.

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I don't think people understand just how little motivation and self-confidence I have, and I worry that telling people the truth will alienate me further from them.

Herw we go. I need y'alls help on defining my sexuality. You see I was molested by my brother. After that I was confused about my sexuality (which is normal I hear). In high school, I had a crush on a girl, and a guy, who looked like my brother kind of. Anyways I fought about how I felt about him, for a while. I constantly fap to gay porn, shotacon and straight porn (all of which could mean nothing) but yeah a definite answer would relieve me 10 fold

im gay

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>>18488550
Iktf. Either say what you feel, or stop writing altogether. Otherwise it'll fuck you up in the long run.

>>18493905
You're bi

fuck, I bought a bottle of your perfume and I'm smelling it right now and I feel pathetic. were you only to look at me lovingly once, my world would turn to gold

I want to live, I want to love
But it's a hard long road out of hell.

Best bud left for Europe and I got no bro to grieve to since girl I like is in South America on fancy trip for summer. Really bored cause I got nothing to do and no one to talk to besides another girl who is nice and all but she doesn't share anything in common w/me so it's mostly empty conversations about pointless stuff.

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So... uh... we came back together, we fucked, you want a relationship with me, I want a relationship with you, but the magic's gone and it doesn't seem to be coming back at all.
The fuck is wrong with this whole thing?

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I'm going to kill myself tomorrow :')

>>18493919
Hmm okay. It seems like I don't want to be, But was is it that obvious?

Thanks for giggling at my 5 inch benis

>>18493957
Quoting Manson. Nice

>>18493994
Should have slapped a bitch

>tfw you send the text and then immediately regret it

K,

I hope you're doing well. Its only been about a month since you told me to stop "harassing" you. When you told me that you were scared of what I might do. It still confuses me, I made no threats and I was never violent with you, so how could you possibly think that I would hurt you? I still don't get it.

I found myself late drawing. I made a big canvas drawing of you and your rabbits. I thought it would make a good birthday present for you in September. But you probably wouldn't like it since its from me. I want to mail it to you, or give it to your friends to give to you. Or something. I wanted to level with you. I wanted us to leave each other peacefully. But I feel like I should just leave you alone.

My head is telling me that you weren't worth it. That you only hurt me and that I never shouldve changed for someone as cold hearted as you. That I should only change for myself. That I should resent ever meeting you.

But my heart is saying that you were worth every second of my time. That even though I like the person I am and that I shouldnt change for you, I would do anything for you. That I still want to be with you even after all this.

I feel like I want to write a letter to her wishing for her to find her happiness and give it to her with the drawing I did as a final goodbye. But I'm also scared to reach out and get hurt again.

I'm sorry that I'm in love with you but like i said, people can't control who they like.

You guys fucking broke my brain with that filing cabinet/dresser captcha. WHICH ONE IS IT.

I have a bf and I also somewhat like our mutual friend.
I put my limit at how I treat him as how my bf treats his close friends. Sometimes he gets affectionate and sends a heart occasionally to his good friends so I don't go past that.
I feel like I'm subconsciously baiting his friend and that makes me feel scummy even though that's not my intention. He might end up liking me or he already does, he just hides it extremely well. But regardless, nothing will be done about it.

They keep telling me you were just a cheap fuck for me to lay, but I don't agree with them at all.

You might even consider me a rival. I still consider you a friend. Even if everything we shared was a lie.

are there any drugs harder than heroin?

fuuuckkkk thhiiisss shiiiitttttt

>>18494140
save up for ibogaine treatment, my dude

I've been on a journey and I'm back..

I didn't want to be back so soon.

>>18492631

I'm a C and I miss a lot of folks. What keeps you from seeing C?

>>18494074
If you're a girl. Sending a heart is a no no.
You can't really treat then like he does. Its a bit different. Especially if they were his friends first. Mutual, maybe, but there are boundaries. Thread lightly.

>>18494192
My C is going to go to a new job soon, and there's a good chance at not seeing her again.

I mean, I'll admit, I never talked to her that much. In fact, we were kinda cold-shouldering each other for a while (I think. To be honest, it's only because I'm attracted to her, but I have nothing interesting to converse about with her.).

That being said, she kinda brightens the day when she's around. Next to R and D, she pretty much mitigates the shit going down at work with her charm.

Losing her is like losing a fluorescent light. It's going to be darker and gloomier without her being here.

I can remember the lyrics to a song I haven't heard for almost 20 years and yet I can't remember the thing you put on salads.

I can see you responding to total strangers online. Yet, you can't make a few minutes to shoot me a text, God forbid place a call.

Sometimes, I just want to hear from you. Its always been this way. You promise me change, and nothing happens. You apologize and keep treating me like shit.
Why am I here? Why can't I walk away? It's clear that you don't care anymore. Its fucking obvious, it's been this way for years now. Yet, here I am. I feel stupid as fuck for trusting you. After what you did, I swallowed my pride and tried to look past your offense. Why? Because I loved you. Yet, you do did nothing but dig up old shit and fung at me the moment things went bad? It's like you only live when life is going perfect. The moment shit hits the fan it's passive aggressively my fault. Don't think I see the barbs you fire my way? Then I offer help, offer to make up for my mistakes, and you push me away?

Oh but you miss me, huh? Or so you say. Why? Why can't I just fucking let go? You aren't worth this, my sanity, my focus, my time. We shared almost a decade together and yet you can't fucking talk. Makes no sense. Then the moment I walk off, the moment I feel like I can stand you come back with a few sweet words and fuck my shit up again.

I need to break away from you. Its clear you don't want fix and repair anything. You just want to continue fucking me up. I trusted you. I believed you a better person. I always did. Even when you returned my love with neglect. Even then, I was yours.

I don't want to be yours anymore. I want to have someone, but I need someone who is willing to compromise and work as a team. I want a partner. You, you wanted a slave? Not sure what, but it's not what I have to give.

Fuck you, I'm hurt. I don't want to hurt anymore.

I'm sorry that happened. vaguely ask the people that know this stuff how to deal with that situation tactically for some good info. here, /k/, and /pol/.

I won't be back on till like 1am most likely. getting offline now.

just turned 18 today
>baked my own cake again but this time family didn't prepare any food to celebrate
>people seem like they're tired of me even outside our family
>approached adulthood looking like a fresh junior highschool graduate

good news is we're coming back to our home country and i feel like i'm ready to off myself lol

Does anyone elses hair always seem to cover one whole side of their face at all times?

I can't see shit.

I don't wanna work at a call center again, even for three months. I got a fucking 67% on the logic portion of the test and now I feel fucking stupid. Should I just write down math/logic problems to solve them until I'm not stupid then? If I got >70% at least I would feel average.

I'm mad because I think I'm smart.

>>18494198
He sends hearts occasionally to a mutual female friend and she does it back. So that's irrelevant.

Idc if this makes me a bad person, this is the vent thread. I hate how she went out on a date with him and not me, she should realize I'm better than him.

Everything is OK again
I'm OK again.

fuck you cunt

Stop saying everything I do is a fucking game.

>>18494247
You should tell them this exact thing directly anon if you haven't already.

>>18494199
thanks for the reply, I'm feeling like that at the moment as well. Wish you the best anon.

>>18494332
If someone calls you a horse you tell them to shut up. If they call you it a second time you punch them in the mouth. If you hear it a third time; well perhaps it's time to saddle up. Catch my drift.

Goddamn I hate new couples. Yeah, some of it is jealousy, since I was sweet on the girl for a hot minute, but I was already getting out of that when I saw she wasn't interested.

They aren't clever. They aren't subtle. It's annoying to have them drop out mid-conversation and start a new one without warning or even finishing their thought. It's disgusting to see them get their hands all over each other at every moment, or suddenly run off together. I'm surprised you haven't been pulled aside by your manager yet.

It's good for them, sure. They are my friends, after all. Everyone deserves to be happy. The honeymoon stage is fucking awful to be around, though.

It also doesn't help that every relationship I've seen that's started this way ends badly. I know that's only my anecdotal history, but just seeing them act this way is enough to make me want to leave the room, because I get so irrationally frustrated at the situation, how overly saccharine it is, and how easily I can see it going wrong.

Fuck off Stacy. Stop showing the guy I like nude pictures of you when you obviously don't even like him. You tried ruining his life and broke his heart, yet one picture of you makes him crawl back to you.

Stay away from my man.

Hey Laura, the only reason I don't wish you and your husband to die of AIDS is because you fucked my bf and I don't want any disease. I sincerely hope you pay for all the distress you caused me, fucking horse face tattoed bitch.

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>>18494563
Honey, slaughter that bitch and give your mans them sweet sugar walls of yours

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>>18493915
I hear you anon. I feel it already.

There's more to all this of course, but I'll add that there's distance between us too. And long story short, I thought I found a girl I'm on the same line of life with, but I guess I was mistaken. I'm not sure I wanted to start something intimate, but getting on with someone who felt like they were of similar speed was what I needed for a while.

Hey I feel guilty about this situation and tons of people tell me I shouldn't and I just don't know where to look anymore and if anyone can help me please do

Here's my story shortened down
>date this girl
>she has depression and anxiety really bad
>took each other's virginities
>broke up with her after a while cause of family shit
>got back together after a month
>didn't last long
>she thought I used her for sex, thought I manipulated her into sex
>she cut and I didn't know what to do, I pushed her away
>texted me all this in one night and followed it up by ending things
>said she couldn't have a relationship
>less than a month later she has a new guy
>posts pics with him all the time never posted them with me
>I apologized so much from the bottom of my heart
>she said I was being manipulative and I was using her friends to get her back
>my friends say that it's not at all my fault
>she said I put her in therapy and hurt her really bad
>she completely ghosted me

Thanks to anyone that read all that and has any advice
I'm just confused

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>>18494848
The only thing you're guilty of is sticking your dick in crazy, my friend.

Never stick your dick in crazy.

I'm having that dark realization that I can't tell people apart. I don't remember people's faces. I always just thought I was dumb or had really bad eye sight. But I literally can't remember people's faces.

Fuck my mind is super broken.

>>18487686
>tfw primarily attracted to women who are 5'2" and below or 6' and above

why am i so weird

I'm suffering from depression and I'm trying my hardest to get better, but I don't think I'll ever make it.

>>18495055
Not with that attitude you won't

This sounds shitty when I say it but it's all in your head

You CAN win but the first step is acknowledging that you can win

I suggest you get a passion to distract you
For me I love guitar and it's always there to cry with me when I'm down
Others have video games and stuff like that

Never give up

>>18494247
You're a cheater and always will be.

>>18495083
>the first step is acknowledging that you can win
It's hard to do when the depression keeps coming back.
I can feel great and motivated for weeks and then out of nowhere I get depressed and suicidal again.
I've been like that for nearly 10 years.

I do have passions to distract myself and they do help, but I can't do them 24/7.

I am very close to the edge.
I'm only happy by not pretending to not care.

I don't know what I'll do if I fail.
I can't fail.
I think I did.
I don't know if I can live if I did.

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After I finished high school, I tried out two different careers the next two years. I'm 20 years old now, and I despise both the things I studied, and uni itself pretty much (kinda autistic). I have no idea what to do. I deffinitely won't continue with the career I've been doing this year, but I don't know what to hop on now.

I've never had something I could have said "hey, that's what I want to do with my life so I'll study x so I can work as y", not even remotely, I have no vocation and I'm frightened. I have no guideline I can follow.

What should I do? I've been advised by an uncle to take a year off, find a place to life by myself (temporarily or not) here or in another country and get a job, try out life a bit and clear my mind, free myself of the convenience that is living in my parents house and not having to do anything to survive. My mother on the other hand says I should go to uni, that I've already lost 2 years and that it's too late to make experiments.

I would seriously appreciate some advice, deadlines for unis are closing in 3 days and I have to make a choice fast. Thanks bros.

>>18495095
I never fucking cheated on you. I was always loyal. Even now, and I know I shouldn't be. We aren't anything, you seem to be making fucking sure of it.
Not sure who would try to say I cheated on you, but I wouldn't even make the thought of me straying from you.

>>18489931
"a J" -- my contribution to society.

>>18495083
you don't know shit about depression.

>>18495247
If you don't take a couple of years with the convenience of living with your parents while you finish school, you may as well prepare to go back and forward to your parents house the rest of your life. I'm writing from my own experience. Take a vocational test, expend just three (three years is NOTHING) years studying a career and then try out life not a bit, but completely. You can travel on vacation or even do some exchange semester. Wish you very very good luck.

>>18495247
Choose one and go for it
It doesn't matter how you feel

Better to have a career and feel a bit sad than be 30 and about to be homeless

Tell me what the colored girls say

>>18495282
Fuck you J. Go hang your self.

>>18495372
This is what I'm talking about.

I can't survive this

>>18495453
Yes you can. I believe in you and love you. You will make it.

>>18495571
What a sweet thing to say

>>18495571
I'm at the end of the end of the end of my rope
Everything was shit, but I held on.
I kept holding on.
I still held on
I gave everything into my current endeavour.
And it FUCKING FAILED

I have nothing left.