Depressive Episodes

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I'm clinically depressed. For the most part, my main symptoms (Apathy/Anhedonia) leave me functional, but every once in a while at the slightest thing, my entire day falls apart and I can barely even continue working. For an example, I tried very hard yesterday to make work pleasant: I got up early, exercised, ate a healthy meal, showered, and even helped some stoic literature to help me get by. Despite this, it all collapsed when a coworker asked me something and I spewed out a bunch of gobbledygook because I was busy and not paying attention. I felt like a fool for trying to be a stoic personality when at heart I feel I'm clumsy, manic, anxious, and unsure to the point that any stoic traits I try to adopt would really only be a shallow mask on my actual self. And from there, my mood went through the floor.

Is there anything I can do to prevent these moments? As far as I can tell, I did everything right yesterday, and that wasn't in my control at all, but I'd like to hear what you have to say.