I’m 23 and I feel old, like life has passed me by. I feel like

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I’m 23 and I feel old, like life has passed me by. I feel like most people my age are doing things which, if I ever get to them, it will take me years to do so. I feel a certain numbness, a certain indifference, as if I don’t care what happens at all, but the uncomfortable part is I also feel like I will stay like this, it’s the kind of thing I feel sure of, that feeling that’s missing when I set myself out on a goal, like when I started at engineering school. I told people I was going to do it, I told myself, I pictured myself doing it, but it felt phony, fake. That’s how I feel everytime I start in a new school, like I’m lying to myself. I don’t know what I’d rather do, even music doesn’t seem to motivate me very much. I daydream about doing so many things with my free time, and when that time comes I lose all desire to do any of them, and I just sit, or lie there, or walk around in circles thinking about anything, avoiding at all costs to do any task. I feel as if I’m the only person with this problem, as I look over at my acquaintances and see them making progress, accomplishing things. I really want to know if everything feels as pointless to them as it does to me, but they just carry on distracting themselves with other things, as I probably should, but I just do nothing, again. It’s procrastination, lazyness, I guess, stretched out for years and years, and I notice it, I tell myself to do things, I feel the regret of wasted time, but it’s like I’m paralyzed, I just sit back and let the time of my life keep slipping between my fingers.

Has anyone here experienced something like this?