hey guys, feelin real fuckin sad...

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This is just to toss a bullshit letter out there and hopefully forget about what's written on it... I stopped talking to some one a couple months ago. I'm not upset that I did, they were a bad person(they were paranoid, mean, completely, uncontrolled emotions, unaware of half the issues they caused and worse) not that I'm an angel, I'm better than that though...
I never want to talk to them again, I hate them so much...

But I've been pretty sad not just about them, but things in general. After moving on and a few months of not being happy with anything and digging myself into a hole, I finally started getting attention from people again for what ever reason and have been actually been somewhat receptive to it... I'm not normal and it's very hard for me to connect with people which makes it worse, even if they like me, it's likely I won't like them. But I just had a dream about the person I stopped talking and all these new people I might be able to form bonds with and all I can think about is them... Yesterday I couldn't even have a moment to myself but I wake up the next day only thinking about them... I'm sure it will get as the day goes on and I didn't get much sleep, I feel horrible in all ways imaginable, but this is better than contacting them.

I should take this time to focus and improve myself but I just feel so messed up. Any one else in a similar situation? any advice to make it easier?