tl;dr: I'm depressed to the point where I make other people sad to be around. I'm not asking for a magic solution to be happy, I'm just tired of making people around me feel bad, I know a lot of depressed people don't show it, but I just don't have the energy to hide it anymore, what are some tricks you guys use? I wake up dreading life until I go to sleep, it used to be easier when I'd wake up feeling ok, but it's been a long time since then.
>>18484302
try this program, pdf+mp3:
http://www.mediafire.com/file/stl5ctg1ptogszt/MWTD.zip
>>18484302
Have you tried having a hobby like a sport or going to the gym? There's no point moping around and masturbating all day. Find a hobby, find a group that shares your interests, go to group meet-ups or gatherings etc etc. (Sports club are good to get into because there's always a pub meet up or something to do with drink, not getting shit-faced drinking, and everyone tends to loosen up)
>>18484351
I do all of those things though, I don't drink much and I don't fap since my girlfriend lives with me, the problem is that I just can't find the energy to smile and be bubbly or friendly around people anymore when it's time to interact with friends or family(I spend a huge part of my day cycling, running, or swimming which aren't team sports), I'm thinking maybe a stimulant would help but I can barely drink coffee without getting weird, I guess it's like I'm either extremely fatigued or I'm extremely active without any are in-between
>>18484388
You only really need 15 mins of a moderate walk as a bare minimum. To me it seems that, like you said, you're over exerting yourself with spending most of your day doing something physical.
Try maybe calming down the exercise and only do it at a time after you've done your most important errands for the day. That way you are not so fatigued and have no mojo.
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