There is a girl at work that i kinda like.
she is pretty. good to talk to, i like to make her laugh and i loke when she makes me laugh.
i dont feel awkward or shy with her or anything and dont think i would have a problem asking her out.
here is the deal though. i have no friends or social life and besides work i am pretty much hikikomori
how much of a deal breaker is that. im more scared that once she find out the truth she is going to think differently of me or start or change the way she acts towards me. or even worse, other co workers woyld find out.
i dont know why i am ashamed. about this side of me when i put myself there by ghosting everyone because i never liked going out to the point no one reaches out to me anymore and dont have any friends because of my homebody ways.
even if people tried to get in contact me i would probably still start ghosting because i wouldnt want to go out
wtf is wrong with me