GIOYC -- Get It Off Your Chest

How convenient.
I was just looking for this thread.

M
I'm never going to date you. I'm your friend. Please stop trying to be anything more. You already know this.

L
I'm not sure how to feel about what happened the other night. It seems you make the advances but blame others when they have sex with you and don't want anything more. This is the second time dude. I can't help it if I'm horny. You shouldn't do that to people.

E
Thanks for being my best friend. I hope you end up leaving him eventually because he's shit and you know it. Be happy. I love you.

S
I'm excited to hear from you again and I wouldn't mind if we started dating. I was really into you and I probably always will be. I hope you feel the same. Let's see where it goes...

A
I still hate you. I still hope you get your heart broken. I still can't believe you would do this to me. Fuck you.

A

If you die now, I want to die too.

Maybe if I pray every night, you'll come back to me. I don't wanna close my eyes because of you, I see a bad moon rising, and I will always love you. But Now that you're gone, I'm all by myself. Baby, come back.

C

Thanks for being my only company when I needed. I am really sorry you had to go that way. We could have been something else but I guess not. I bought you flowers and wrote you a song, but now I guess these don't mean shit now. I hope you're better now in your new place, wherever that is. I just wish I could talk to you for one more minute so I could say what I still feel for you until this very day. No other girl has been as interesting as you. I would rather have you back than having 100 blondes in my bed any day. You will aways be my lover.
Rest in Peace, Sweetheart.

L

It's been a few months, but I've finally mustered up the courage to delete all my texts and facebook messages between myself and my ex, plus I've blocked her on every social media I know she uses.
And let me tell you, I feel fucking great.

I'm breaking up with you to be with my fling from highchool. Our 4 years together was just the soul searching I needed. I'm sure you will do just fine.

Last night I saw my oneitis with this guy, she was dressed like a total slut too. They hang out every single day/night now, its fucked up. We both saw each other but didn't say or do anything about it. A few weeks ago she tried telling me she wasn't into him, I'm pretty sure she's been staying at his place. She also texted me last night saying "do you have something to say?" I don't even know what to say at this point, fuck her.

I don't have what it takes to attract a romantic partner and I'm finally okay with that.

I'm tired of hearing about all the bullshit "genders" there are and how we should be accepting of it. There are only 2 genders and if someone claims they feel like they were born the wrong gender then that is a mental problem that we should be compassionate of but let's not enable that nonsense. It causes unnecessary confusion but that's not even my biggest problem, my biggest problem is that it is illegitimate; always is was and shall be.

>>18480768
Text her back and say "if I did I'd say it, but thanks for asking?" Stupid bitch was trying to be a wise ass, fuck her.

Obsessive girl from the last thread. Ex texted me back saying he'd talk to me at noon. Now I'm freaking out and so anxious. What the fuck is wrong with me, I thought this was what I wanted. I had terrible social anxiety in my early twenties and I feel that way now. I'm going to freeze up and not be able to talk. I feel like a sheep being lead to the slaughter and I brought this on myself.

>>18480920
Neck yourself.

It was never meant to be for myself and the girl I dated, I came to terms with that, I thought I'm getting over her but every time I look at other girls I'm looking for 'her' in them and it reminds me of her and what could've been...

Its only been a couple of weeks now so I think it might take a bit longer to get over her but at the same time I'm worried that feeling might not go away and I won't be able to look at other girls ever again...

I'm tired of being me. I am a fuck up, I never do anything right, I have nothing to build a future off of; no talents, or skills, or anything really I'm particularly good at. I am a clumsy forgetful, hyperactive idiot. On top of all that I'm a ugly manlet 5'2" with a small dick (4.5"). No girl will ever want me. I have nothing it live for. nothing.

>>18480695
I'm catching feels for the bit on the side, and slowly hating my main piece more and more.

>>18480926
I'm too much of a pussy bitch to end it all. At least anon will always be there to verbally abuse me even if no men IRL want anything to do with me.

I kind of feel happy that my friend broke up with her boyfriend who is also my friend. I can't help it.

I wish I could redo this year.
If I could I wouldn't have lost the only thing that has ever made me happy.
If I could I would have watched my health better so that I wouldn't have gotten so sick and alienated everyone with my illness.
If neither of these happened life would be good again, shame there is no undo in life.

The person I look forward to chatting with is a married woman.

I hate myself for that.

It really sucks when people can't tell the difference between an homage,inspiration and plagiarism and try to call you out on that after you worked on this stuff for years

>>18481040
But is it a non profit thing? Because making profit from a homage/inspiration is kind of plagiarism.

>>18481052
Yeah that's what I'm getting at. If I make something for my art class I've been working on in secret and then finally show it after heaps of doubt if they will like it and then get comments like "This is just balant plagiarism" and "This definetly looks like xxx" and they even get the teacher on their side I really feel like I'm in the wrong place at all.

>>18481073
Damnit, yeah that sucks, I've had similar problems but I decided to just say "yeah maybe it IS plagiarism, so what?". If art inspires you to make something better or work on it, then you are free too. Kind of the reason why "fair use" or whatever it's called exists for music copyright. People will judge it as plagiarism but from experience it's always people who may or may not have their own original ideas but never ever get them working or finish them. Idk about your art class people but I imagine their art is probably unfinished """"original"""" shit or something you can count as plagiarism too. Either way nothing is truly original.
Some people make a living out of taking other people's work and improving it with their own ideas, like J.J. Abrams.

>>18481040
I hate when I think of a concept before I even get into a work and somehow get accused of ripping said work off.

>>18480768
She's fucking him. She knows you want her. She's deliberately cucking you now. Your best option is to find a gf and forget about your oneitis.
When your new gf whispers, "I love you, anon," into your ear as she slides down gently onto your cock, you'll forget all about what-was-her-name and Chad.

>>18481100
I hate this too. I have a notebook where I write down every idea I have for a videogame. I make indie games but it's a lot of work and I almost never finish anything. Through the years many big videogames were made and they coincidentally had the ideas I wrote down. I mean I know the whole difference is "getting things done" but I hate how I didn't manage to make and release my game with that idea first and then people who played my game could say "hey that new big game has the same idea as this old indie game you made".

>>18481021
I've been there. It's not your fault. It might be hers, or it might be his, but you're in the clear, anon, no matter what happens. You can't help that their marriage is deficient. You aren't obligated to make her miserable or help keep her faithful to an unhappy marriage.

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>>18481040
>that's the problem with socialist states, the proles end up with nothing and the justification even if unwittingly is a deceit to keep the revenue streams in the same hands. see also who runs these places and who their mates are

>ran into GF while driving
>get stopped at intersection
>i turn to make eye contact for some reason
>give a goofy looking smile
>she looks too

Wanted to talk, don't know what I'd say though.

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Alright, so we dated for a couple of months two years ago. I was depressed and messed up from going through psycological assessment, and ended up with two PDs. The reason it ended was not due to my mental state, but because of a mix between me being polyamorous and not being entirely over my ex.

You asked me never to speak to you again.

Three months later you asked me if I had been talking to a common friend of ours about you, because somehow you knew I met him. I'm betting his girlfriend at the time told you, and you freaked out. I told you your name only came up once, and only because he asked me about us dating. I never revealed anything you wouldn't want me to, but you were angry with me for even saying your name. I told you politely how your name came up, but that it was in fact none of your business, since people talk about people they know sometimes. You didn't take it well, but the conversation ended in us agreeing about how the way I acted, sending you texts trying to meet up, after you broke things off, was foolish. I did this as a 'nice' gesture, and to make you shut up and leave me alone, since I didn't really care anymore. I had been fucking four other women since you anyway.

Five months later I saw you at my regular pub. We shared eye contact before I headed over to say hello. I got up and went to the ladies as soon as you saw me. The following day you sent an appology, and told me that we of course should be able to say hello, but you just panicked.

It's been a year, and I met you on the streets yesterday. You asked about my life, how my new job was going - which you knew about because you never unfriended me on facebook (which is really strange, since you told me never to contact you again.) Later last night you sent me a text and said it was really nice seeing me again, and good to know I was doing well. I replied in kind, and then you asked if I wanted to have coffee with you sometime this week.

Am I supposed to think you want to fuck again?

>>18480920
Don't respond, girl. Have some dignity

I think I'm in love with my cousin. I just saw her for the first time in a few years and she's really grown. She's really pretty, but more than that, she's has a really bright and vibrant personality. My best friend feels the same about her and has become obsessed with her, even though he already has a great girlfriend. Nobody has ever had this effect on me and I can't tell if I want to be like her, or be with her. I'm very confused. Any advice?

>>18481451
Get lost cousin-lover

She's seeing someone else. I probably blew my only shot I'll ever have with her.


Why can't I stop thinking about her?

>>18480849
I was born as both male and female.
So what now bigshot?

I wonder what the specific reason why I'm so over reserved is. The only people I actually reveal my feelings to are girls I was dating. I don't even reveal my hobbies to others and I never reveal anything I know they wouldn't be interested in. I never tell people what I want to do after college unless they ask me. I'm terrified of entering the same store twice in a short amount of time because I don't want to be recognized. I always push people away even when I'm lonely.

I think the worst part is, I don't ask these questions to anyone else either, further perpetrating my loneliness. I just assume they are just as guarded and fragile as I am when it comes to these topics, when in reality they need a helping hand just as much as I do. I guess the first step to being a more open person is to learn about others hobbies, tastes, and outlook on life. Maybe then I can be much more emotionally honest with them as well and perhaps, make a few close friends.

>>18481817
Then you are a hermaphrodite weirdo, that happens in nature, although rarely. Most trannies were never born as hermaphrodites, just fucked up in the head.

>>18481828
Then you know you're wrong.

i love talking to you

>>18481831
Wrong how? I'm not the anon you replied to originally, I agree with him though. Someone who was born either a male or a female and later on develops the mindset "it's a wrong gender", is imo mentally ill.

my dad offers to take me to the same place every single year and i understand he's trying to be nice but by the 4th year in a row i know the fucking place inside and out it'd be a fucking chore to do it again
though i know he'd take it personally and probably get depressed if i said no
but like can he really think of no other way to try and bond with me than to escort me to the same fucking theme park every year

Why the fuck am doing this to myself. She told me again and again there is no getting back together and yet I made a sex date even after the last one pretty much undid all my progress of letting go. And she even tells me she has plans for the evening after. I know it's only going to hurt more if I keep seeing her. I know it's not the same but it feels like being back together for a night. I wish I never texted her back after just two weeks. She even slept with another dude as soon as I was out the door. In the bed that I soundproofed. Fuck me I should have treated her better. Why why why. Why did I have to be such an idiot and throw away something which meant the world to me. I can't. I know I need to forget her but I don't want to. It hurts

>>18481780
You are not alone. Maybe one day someone better will come along.

every time i feel like everything is finally getting better my brain and body just seems to collapse into nothing
the lows aren't as low or lasting as long but i'm sick of these cycles

>>18481439
We just made small talk and edged around talking about the relationship/break-up and that we're both still single. We might meet up later in the week. I will try to keep my shit together.

i did it for my own good. i was just your fashion accessory.

i need to sort my shit out. away from you.

>>18481841
That's not what they said at all.
>There are only 2 genders and if someone claims they feel like they were born the wrong gender
He was wrong and so are you.
Just say you're wrong. People won't think you're stupid for admitting you're wrong. They will think you're stupid if you ignore all evidence and facts though.

>>18481837
And I love talking to you.

>>18482152
I don't think I'm wrong, sorry.

My ex has turned my friend against me. We broke up, I think, two years ago. I maintained my composure when she said that no feelings were involved in front of me. I pushed back my itching sense of fucking juctice so I wouldn't do anything stupid.
We broke up when we understood that our relationship is going nowhere.(Well, officially. I know she cheated on me way more than once.)
Then, yesterday I suddenly find out that a man I considered to be my friend just changed his opinion about me a full 180 degrees since my ex started to muck around his workshop. I don't have any proof, but everything just matches too perfectly: the timing, the fact that this guy likes girls of certain weight, all of this. He is a much older married man, shit.
And I know I'm going to meet my ex at a local con. And it will be much, much harder for me to not punch her in the face, which is really stupid, but fuck it.

For the first time I actually care about, admire, like spending time with and want to fuck someone. I don't think I've ever felt so completely in love this way and of course they probably don't feel the same.

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My little home gym works great i'll get back in shape in no time, i already went out for a while after working out today and there is not a lot else to do except for that super tiny comic book store and the super cheap movie theather but i don't want to go to the movies alone

1 entire free month for working out before entering the new school, i just have a little bit of internet that i should use wisely

I wonder if my new classmates will be good people this time, i would be happy if i at least find a funny girl, i really need to meet good people so i can forget the last 2 waves of horrible people i meet, i want to feel strong again

>>18482240
Maybe you should tell them...?

>>18482246
I've hinted, they're probably not interested plus it's just all around not going to happen.

>>18482255
Why not? See, I'm curious because I'm in a similar situation.

I've known my girlfriend for two months, but have already had multiple major fights and come out of them much stronger. She says that I'm the first boy who genuinely cares about her. It's the first time I've genuinely cared so much about someone else.

We shouldn't be compatible, but we are. So compatible that I feel we might be going too fast. We've talked about our plans for children one day. I'm gonna tell her I love her soon.

I feel like I'm purposefully letting this go so fast even though I would adamantly refuse such a notion if I were asked by her or someone else. I care so much about the relationship, I am beyond worried about making mistakes; I make them in the hope that she'll forgive me. And she has.

I feel I'm too young and inexperienced for this.

>>18482262
I've told them I love them in literally every way possible without actually saying the words. They have to know. I think we're just friends

>>18482262
and I'm scared to lose him

>>18482266
>I've told them I love them in literally every way possible without actually saying the words

Can you give any examples? The closest I got to saying how much they mean for me was "I trust you". I'm not sure if my person understood the implications of that.

I'm starting to feel bad for my secret life. A while ago I came into some money. Not enough to retire, but enough to live a comfy life. I didn't tell anybody about it because my family has a history of borrowing large amounts of cash and not paying me back.

>>18482280
I'd rather not say because he is on 4chan but probably not on advice

>>18482310
mfw my guy is on 4chan too

Well, at least we know now that we're not alone in this shitty situation.

>>18482310
>but probably not on advice
Nah, he's also lurking here as well, much more than likely.

It's not really revealing when it's just anons talking about anon things. It's only when initials are involved that things become less anonymous.

>>18482324
<3

I got sucked off by a guy in an alleyway and I'm ridiculously ashamed.

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I applied to a few jobs and I significantly want to kill myself less now.

Why does _____ have to be so cute....

>>18482384
Here's hoping we both get the jobs we want.

Im going to fuck your sister in her ass you little fucking clone

Hey.

Remember how we always talked about our pretentious tastes in music? Or how we would get out of bed at four o' clock after struggling to get up for hours, glued together? Or how you were always scared of holding my hand in front of your friends?

I would be lying if I said I didn't love you still. At least part of me still does, and maybe always will. I want to look you in your grey eyes and tell you these things, and at the same time I never want to see you again.

Maybe you've moved on. Maybe you've found someone to fill the void I left. I don't give a fuck where you take your life from here, I'm sure you'll do fine though.

I've reconsidered your offer. I don't want to be your friend; I'm not gonna act like a coward to win you back after years or decades. The only reason I keep writing in this moment is to let you know that you made a big mistake. Any pain you feel or have felt these past few weeks is your own fault, because you and I know that had you wanted me I would've stayed. I would never have hurt you, or wronged you.

But now I'm a stranger.

i would love to get that job, but i took almost a month to apply (i didnt see the add before) so i don't think i will..

I'm sick of of people, I'm sick of trying. I'm sick of getting ignored or burned every time I try to meet people.

I always thought it was true that some people are better off alone, living has only confirmed that thought so far.

I do not know if I am bi or just going though a phase or something. the question has been bothering most of my life, to the point where i wouldn't do certain things (sleep on my stomach or side, keep in mind i was a child then) because I though it was gay. the molestation didn't help either. then in about my junior year of high school there was this guy Brandon. I felt something that in retrospect seems like attraction. He looked like my brother which was probably a contributing factor, after that at about 17 I started watching porn,which in my mind confirmed i was straight. back then I was very religious, so when i tried to watch gay porn I was very nervous and only did so for a like a minute or two. then next big event was when I discovered shotacon. that made me question just about every thing including my faith. that lead to me to fap to gay porn a few months there after. also I should mention a girl I had a crush on in HS,but was too beta to tell anything too basically implied she was not interested. before I left school (a few months before shotacon). recently I found myself feeling something at least toward a co-worker twice actually. so my what do you guys think Is it porn induced or am I a fag, or should I just kill myself for making a blogpost on a Korean shadow puppeting site?

I never make the same mistake twice. At least not consciously. Next time I see you, I'll make it happen.

I'm probably gonna throw out your sunglasses when I move out but I don't really know what to do with that cute little thrift store ornament my mother made me buy for you. That might actually happen soon by the way, the moving out. Fucking hell. I'm so close. If I screw up now...

I'm not even sure why this is directed at you. It's comforting I guess, picturing you getting on in the world, finishing school, being released to the wild. Or whatever you're doing. Getting the shit together. I'm listening to Sebadoh, it's giving me some real fucking feels. Hope you're good.

>>18482265
Your girlfriend is a dumb nigger who slept with about 10 other guys before you.

I cannot wait until the surgeries.

I can't believe it could happen still. I'm going to be a pretty goth princess and it's going to make me cry just thinking about it.

>>18482152
I'm the anon that posted that, and no really; you're wrong.
What you have is a birth defeect.
There are only 2 genders, common sense dictates that. The truth is always simple, lies always complex and if you want to keep being willfully ignorant of the matter please do so in quiet so as not to spew your faulty rhetoric onto others.

I keep hearing the argument that gender is a social cojstruct, which again I beg to differ. If gender is a social construct then it means that it can be deconstructed. If gender is deconsturcted then what's left?

>>18482754

Not 10, no. She has a history, but it's not outrageous. I don't really care that much. Sex is sex, I can't blame anyone for wanting it. She doesn't have STDs, she tested across the board just for me.

She's putting up with my equally (or possibly greater) sized baggage anyways.

>>18482687
If you *are* gay -- go and be the best damn polesmoker you can be you fucking faggot

>>18482808
thanks, man.

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I'm literally obsessed with making friends.
I don't even know when to start.
I guess the long and short of it is I had a small group of close friends from when I was 7 to when I was 13 when we drifted apart. I think about those people and the times we shared every single day.
I fell on my face in high school. I stayed home on prom night. I guess I'm bad at social cues. I had casual aquaintances but no real friends except for my father. I haven't communicated with someone my age since graduating a month ago.
I feel like all that stands between me and happiness is some people to be myself around. I beat myself up about being so inept every single day.
I start college in August. I feel so nervous I could hurl. If I can't man up and be pleasant, positive, and WHATEVER I need to do to make the deep friendships I want when that time comes, I've got no idea what i'll do. I feel time moving around me constantly. I'm acutely aware i'm wasting my youthful, healthy body being miserable.

Plz respond

>>18482844
Just get drunk a lot. That seemed to help me.

>>18482801
>hat is a mental problem that we should be compassionate
So what you're saying is I was born the correct gender? That I shouldn't be able to change it now?

I was born as both genders. My parents chose to raise me as a male but as I got older and older that was clearly the wrong choice. I should have been a female. They removed my external lady parts but kept the penis. I still have ovaries and uterus internally.

Are you saying that I shouldn't have the choice now because my parents made the wrong decision? That I should suffer because of something I had no part of? Even though I have a female mind, with all the chemicals and hormones that go with them, I'm forced to live as a boy because a complete stranger that has no idea what the fuck he is talking about decided so?

The fact I exist already means you're wrong about "only two genders" bullshit. The fact I exist is proof that gender isn't black and white. It's far more complicated than you think and just because you're too fucking stupid to research anything doesn't mean others should have to suffer.

I am neither a man or female. That makes me a third gender. I didn't have a choice when I was a child but if I did I would have chosen female.

>>18482853
You are a special case, because you were born with both sets so to speak. So of course you should be given the chance to decide for yourself whether you are female or male, I agree with that one.

But people who were born either male or female should stick to their gender because they will never change their internal and external structure.They don't have the confusion you have, because they don't have 2 options; they have one and if they can't accept that, that's too bad, because clearly they can't magically switch from man to woman or woman to man and pretend that their new gender is legitimate. You and people like you are rarities, exceptions that prove the rule.

>>18482853
>Are you saying that I shouldn't have the choice now because my parents made the wrong decision? That I should suffer because of something I had no part of? Even though I have a female mind, with all the chemicals and hormones that go with them, I'm forced to live as a boy because a complete stranger that has no idea what the fuck he is talking about decided so?

I'm saying that you were born with a birth defect, meaning that as an exception to the rule you may "choose" because of your birth defect, it truly is a gray area inyour case; but in others with only either a male or female genitalia then BIOLOGICALLY they are either or.
Regardless of what's going on in their heads.
Also being born a hermaphrodite doesn't mean anything as far as gender not being binary. If anything it PROVES gender is binary by that fact your condition is birth defect because if you were born as either male or female then you would not be labeled as having a genital birth defect.

>>18482844
You just have to do it. A mentality that helped me overcome a lot of my anxiety was the thought that most people don't care about you, everyone have their own lives, if you fuck up, most people won't even care.

Other thing to keep un mind is being open to change when you stumble upon something that really could make you a bad or disgusting person to be around. You can try meeting hundreds of people, but of you are an asshole or an idiot everytime, and you refuse to admit it, you are wasting your time.

A
I want to go back with you, i feel like this could have been different and im actually working on myself so i can make you happy... but i know you might not feel the same about me and im so afraid of failing...

All in the long run. I'm going to finish the Kite Runner soon

I had a chat with a homeless man for a few hours. I've volunteered at shelters a lot so I'm pretty comfortable around people like that.

The guy was really interesting but he ended up in love with me and got an erection and tried to hold hands with me and such afterwards and it was super awkward. I think he left to find a restroom to deal with his issue.

I think I want to get into some sort of social work eventually but I don't know how to deal with guys since they easily fall for any girl.

I'm tired as fuck. Is this shit over yet?
and if not, fucking why?

Whhhhhyyyyy isssnnn'tttt ittttt ooooovvvvveeeerrrrrrrrr

i just want a thickshake man
now i have to get dressed and get out of bed to drive and get one

There have been countless cases of young girls being kidnapped, raped and murdered in my area lately. And now a friend of my friend has gone missing

>>18483234
That's fucking scary, I'm shitting my pants for you guys.

Fuck you for not telling me up front that you can only get off with a blowjob. I wasted my time when I had someone else ready to go who could actually fuck. I'm pissed that you didn't say a thing until we were halfway to our destination. Fuck you.

M
I miss you. You were the light of my life. I never deserved you and I'm sorry for what I did.
C
Wrong place, wrong time. I told you that nothing would develop, but I'm sorry I didn't just say no.
J
I forgive you.

It still hurts. It all still hurts so much.

CCTV is a lie

>>18483234

Fuck, I hope things are somehow okay. Crime right now where I live is pretty disgusting, especially what you just posted. Every day I read about anything of the sort my blood fucking boils. It sounds cheesy and incredibly dumb but I always daydream of just loading up and going suicide vigilante on some bad areas.

Last night I was trying to sleep and I got very upset
I didn't "almost cut myself"
But I for the first time understood the feeling that would drive someone to do that

I'm scared.
I know God has my back

My GF has responded to any of my messages today which is a bit unusual. Usually if she's working we obviously don't talk but I asked her the other day if shes working this week and she said no. Its been about 6 hours now should I be concerned?

>>18483403
I'm porking her
>:)
I've never been in a relationship but I often turn my phone off for whole afternoons. I think you're being clingy

I haven't had sex in 4 years. I can't make the move because I only want women to validate that I am not a loser anymore, and I know I still fall short. I feel like actually getting off sexually is a distant second in importance to this, so not trying seems preferable to being judged.

Also I'm wearing braces at 24.

>>18482308
Don't feel bad. I imagine it's better than the life where people know. Trust me, people will treat you differently if they knew and not in a good way.

Turning 27 July 4. Virgin NEET with no friends. Gonna spend it going to my old temp job that recently didn't want me to return to get my work shoes. Then to a general labour job interview I'll probably bomb. Then to the gym where for 2 hours, I'll feel like a normie. Then dinner with my family who I know are disappointed in me.

>>18480970
Jesus Christ get a hold of yourself. What are you going to todo about it, improve yourself or keep crying yourself to sleep every night? It's up to you.

No one told me about her.
And now many people died.

>>18480970
Dude if your dad scored with his tiny dick and small frame you can too. Quit limiting yourself. You're feeling that way right now but when you're doing something you enjoy is it even a though?
Thoughts and feelings come and go, don't go to work on these feeling, because next thing you know the feeling has gone and been replaced with another one. Be honest; be productive; get out there and live life on your terms and understand that others are going to do the same. If a woman rejects you move on, there's billions out there why get caught up in one?
Realize that people have their own preferences and you may not match up to some women's and vice Versace and guess what? That's ok. This negative self talk is just perpetuating the cycle.
Don't feel bad when a negative thought arises, just recognize it for what it is, accept that it will come and go and don't entertain it any further. Just develop the ability to let it come and go without you putting your attention to it.
You got this shit man, but don't believe it because I said it, believe in yourself and others will start to believe in you.

Hey I'm not very experienced with these type of people and I'm sure some of you guys are so any help is appreciated
Here's my problem

>I dated a girl for a while
>she has depression and anxiety really bad
>we broke up about 6 months into our relationship
>month later we got back together
>she thought I was using her so she left me (I really wasn't using her)
>she ghosted me, I apologized, let my whole heart out and she barely responded
>told me she couldn't have anything close to a relationship
>bout a month later she was in one
>she seems really happy
>when we were together she would always seem down and she would hardly eat
>now she seems really happy and is eating again
>when we were together she would hate posting pictures on social media like snapchat but now she posts them all the time with her new guy
>I only wanted to make her happy so I don't understand why I couldn't

Thanks to anyone that can shine a light on this
It's been 2 months now and it bothers me sometimes

>>18483463
Happy birthday! Don't worry so much about what's happening tomorrow, let it come to you and deal with it as it happens. Tomorrow is your special day, try not to stress so much, love.

>>18483463
Set some goals for yourself and stop using the excuse of you being a virgin for your failings. It's only as big a deal as you make it. It's your life motherfucker, make your own rules on how you feel about shit. No one can make you feel like a virgin NEET with no friends except yourself. Ok you're a virgin, big fuckin deal. Ok you're a NEET with no fiends, good you accept it. What are you gonna do about it? Wait for someone to come hold you by the hand and walk you through the steps of life?
Do you due diligence and take responsibility for the way your life is going, the choices that led you up to this point and the future choices that are going to mold the rest of your life.
Taking responsibility for your life is scary; it means everything hay happens good or bad and how you handle it is all up to YOU. You can choose to take that the right way or the wrong way but either way; get on with it.

So after all these years of watching anime, I actually have a senpai who doesn't notice me. What a world

I... have a slightly above average sized penis.

I can't jack off anymore. like porn just does nothing except make me want real pussy, which it pales in comparison to, and I don't have anyone to really think about at this point. like there's no... there's no where to put that sexual energy. I am so goddamn pent up. like I am fucking going up a wall. I'm just cumming to try and get rid of some of the sexual energy at this point but I'm into it, it's not doing anything for me. I almost feel bad for whatever girl at some point, whenever, eventually, happens to align feels wise with me with no bullshit in the way, and then feels the same, and all that shit... it's likely to be a marathon session. like I could go for hours right now and not be satisfied I think.

jacking off has stopped working. like it's nothing. and there's no women that I'm like fully interested in right now so I can't even imagine someone without it just being a mental conversation with myself about if I'm interested in them or not to justify or put a stop to my sexual interest. like, this is some bullshit.

this is worse than when my sex drive went through the roof. at least then I knew why and where it was directed. now it's like sexual nihilism. like why jack off, theres no point. like why try thinking about a specific woman, there's no point, it's not going anywhere. like why cum it's not doing anything.

this is some bullshit.

>>18483563
hey me too. though it doesn't get much use and I find that to be a waste. jacking off isn't even a thing that I feel like finishing half the time now. it's fucking stupid.

>>18483563
I... don't. It's very small...

>>18483505

It sounds cheesy and cliche as fuck, but sometimes it just doesn't work out. Who knows if it was the situation, timing, you, her or what had to change in order for her to finally take those steps. People are very strange. I've had advice and situations similar to one another give different results due to timing, environment and my mindset (and I'm an idiot that takes a few bumps to learn).

Don't beat yourself up anon.

When I was 10 I dog-sat the across the street neighbor's dog and i beat the shit out of it in the backyard, threw it around, threw rocks at it, later on she said the dog hurt it's leg or something and they took it to the vet, she had this look on her face, i think she knew

>>18482803
She's still a nigger whore with no family meaning she's fucked in the head, disloyal and likely to cheat.

>>18482265

Good luck. Sounds like she has issues and you're a glutton for punishment.

>>18482803
>>18483730
Also, you're literally just a placeholder emotional tampon until a better guy comes along.

Dear Anaheim,

Blow me.

D

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>haven't gone on facebook in a while
>tfw my weeb friend suddenly has a qt 9/10 gamer gf
>it hits my ego pretty hard
>can't maintain social life because i'm always working
>family is broken and won't support me
>have to focus entirely on career or life will fuck me in the ass
>4 years behind everyone else
let me out

>>18483934
That gf is far hairy 46yo catfish tranny.

>>18483934
I thought I was the only one suffering these feels. The only difference is that I don't have a career, I just have a shitty fucking job at a hotel.
Right down to the 4 years 2 late card. Sure, I'm 20 now, but it won't matter when all that time could've been better spent on not jerking off and playing games.
Sure, I also have time to redeem myself and change myself completely, but it's a long, brutal, agonizing path. I realize even more, however, that if I don't take this path, I will forever live in dreamland.

May the deities lend me the power to trudge through the garbage that is my life. I need all the power I can get as soon as possible, with as much as possible.

>>18481398
You you got mental illness, best you leave her alone.
You might add narcissistic personality disorder too.

>>18483934
hey you're basically me. keep going fucker. get. the. fuck. up. and buck. the. fuck. up. buttercup.

it is what it is. you gonna cry about it or are you going to get shit done?

>>18483567
One word:
> tinder

>>18483968
mate, getting sex would not be a problem for me. I don't do casual sex though. tinder does not help me find a gf worth a damn.

>>18483940
I'd actually be more impressed if he could get a passable tranny
>>18483956
i'm doing everything i possibly can but what if its not enough

I want to put a bullet in my brain maybe then people would finally understand you'd think the first two attempts would get the point across but I guess everything being spattered everywhere is easier to understand

>>18484001
>what if its not enough
well then you try again.

wrong again.

i've been heavily debating ghosting you for the last week but you're the only thing i look forward to anymore. it's going to hurt but it's going to hurt less than you leaving me.

I like drinking and smoking at night, because it helps me forget how lonely I am.

P

I can't tell if you mentioned fire safety cause you are here and you know, or if you mentioned it just like... as a normal thing. I'm wracking my mind trying to figure out if that was like a thing.

>tfw qt waifu material girl maybe possibly kinda sorta id'ed me today.
there's no way right? I don't have that kind of luck. also I've got just a touch enough of the 'tism to fuck that up. like the second I find a woman interesting its like all over.

>>18484078
>today.
yesterday*

my schedule is all fucked lmao.

I am in top listeners of my favorite musician on Last. FM, I am second page
I wish I could actually get to know him
It seems so easy but so far and hard at the same time

I still don't know if i'm handsome or ugly and it's obsessing me more than it should a clear headed person

>>18484401
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>>18484438
left, only pic on phone atm

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>>18484036
I'll brace for it.
Thank you for the advanced warning

>>18484489
I'd say cute and dateable.

>>18484538
you too honeybear

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>>18483249
>>18483310
I just got a message from my friend that apparently the girl was found a few moments ago and she was okay!! though we don't know anything else right now yet
Thanks for your concern!

>>18484489
You look good. Leave normie REEEEEEEEEE

Really thinking about cold approaching someone tomorrow. Any advice or why I should not do it?

>>18480695
I just want to be with you. I miss you, I'm sorry for reacting that way. All I want is for us to makeup and for things to go back to normal. I literally need you, you're the only person I feel comfortable around that keeps me on my feet. Sucks to know that I now mean nothing to you.

Anyone else have this constant undercurrent of anger and irritation? I nearly saw red when a girl I used to have a thing with basically admitted she saw me as a backup option. Nearly lost it when I went down an entire letter grade because of stupid group projects. Constant frustration because I feel perpetually 4~ years behind. No single thing worth going nuclear over, but death by a thousand cuts. I can't talk to my parents about this because they don't really view my issues as "valid". Won't talk to friends about it because I'm already known as "eccentric" and I don't feel like being known as the angry weirdo.

I need to decompress and I don't know how to.

Im feeling so shit i am not even bothered to type anything, fuck my life

starting today im gonna lock doors

>>18480695
Touched my cousin while she was asleep when we were kids.

Still feel bad about it.

>>18484680
Who leaves their doors unlocked in the first place.

>>18484688
suicidal people. must be nice to have an easy life with everything handed to you and not know what its like to want to kill yourself.

>>18483915

Doubtful. She likes me possibly even more than I like her. I tried to remain "just friends" with her multiple times before I fell for her back.

Anyways I don't feel I have to defend myself or my relationship from some jaded (possibly virgin) anon on 4chan. I'm gonna fill her with a lot of cum and then one day put a few babies in her. Not much you can do about that :^)

>>18484699
Leaving your door unlocked won't lead to a robber killing you, you will just have your shit swiped. Robbers tend to avoid killing.

L.

I didn't meant to insult you, although I just used the word you described yourself with multiple times.

You mean a lot to me regardless, and mayhaps falling in love with you was a mistake, but I don't want anything with you unless it is what you desire.

You may see it as a small slip, but the silence these past hours has made me long for someone to break my ribs to the point the slightest push might kill me.

I don't want to lose you.

>>18484718

Ever since I met you again, things have been easier to deal with, thanks to you I didn't feel alone and miserable and you said it yourself I helped you feel the same way.

Thanks to you, the wish of ending it all faded, and you felt the same way.

Thanks to you, I had something to look forward to, and you felt the same way.

Losing each other will be bad for both of us, but I think we are still far off of fulfilling the promise we made each other: to be invincible together, yet strong apart.

I don't feel strong now.

H,

I am sorry I have annoyed you lately with how I have been acting, this situation really is making me extremely ill. I hope you understand I can't help how I am acting right now and it is not representative of who I am or of the person you knew, it is just the actions of a drowning man pleading for air.

I really wish there was something, anything that could undo all this so things can go back to how they were before. If that would be possible I would not be so complacent and I would work harder then ever before towards the future we wanted. Sadly I know this message is in vain because you no longer see hope in that, and you don't believe me to be the person I was.

Sorry for the burden of all of this, it wasn't my intention to upset you.

R

>tfw everyone you know puts so much (of the wrong value) on sex while also not valuing it at all
>tfw everyone and everything tries to force down my throat the thought that Sex!=Love and that sex isn't anything deep and that it's "like taking a shower" or other mundane acts and that you should feel bad if you say otherwise
>tfw laughed at/mocked/yelled at when I try to say I want it to be special
>tfw people get pissy when you hint that you don't wanna ride the neighborhood bike
>tfw the older you get the harder it's going to find someone who shares your values
>tfw all the promiscuous fucks will want to settle down "eventually" and just expect people like myself to accept them
>tfw you shouldn't have to/don't want to settle for used goods

why is it so hard
I just want a committed monogamous relationship with someone who hasn't spread their legs/cheeks for every john who walks by, but apparently this is a bad thing in the modern day, and is something to be shunned as "slut shaming".
Like, it's fine if you just wanna fuck a shitload of people. You do you. I don't like it, but it's not my choice to make. I just want what I said above.
But I get lambasted every time I say it.

>>18485164
Don't worry Anon, there are still lots of girls who share your mindset.

>>18484609
May I ask for your initials, anon? Hope your lass makes it back to you

>>18485172
The problem is (and I know I'm gonna get shit for this) I'm a lefty liberal. One of the only things I'm conservative on is sex and relationships so it puts me at a serious disadvantage among my peers/potential partners, because obviously they're gonna be very sex-positive if I'm hanging out with a bunch of super hippies.

Of course there's always more moderate people, but again they're not really my peer group so it's harder to meet them.

here's hoping I can find one of those girls.

I am just now getting out of 10 years of suicidal depression. I've made two failed attempts on my life, one when I was 13 by taking fifteen whole sheets of over the counter antihistamines (because I'm an idiot and don't know how pills work) and another by trying to hang myself from an unstable bearing at 15... Aaaaaaand I fell on my face and it hurt. A lot. But it's not over yet. And I don't know if it will ever will be over. I no longer have the deep desire to throw myself in front of traffic, but the thought to do so comes every now and again. I'm starting to think that I don't have much control over it, anymore. Maybe years of going through it has conditioned me to where I never will be able to get a hold on it.

When I kill myself, I'm going to shoot myself in the stomach or heart so science can have my brain. I want them to find out why someone like me can't be happy or find joy. I know enough about physical and mental health to know that there's something wrong with me, I'm not just ungrateful. I want them to find out why I want to die, and why all the things I used to love are things that hold no interest for me. Food has lost its taste. Colors have lost their intensity. Music has no melody. I've been tested multiple times for autism and Asperger's and it's always come up negative. I'm on a high dose of medication for a thyroid condition, and it's smoothed out a few things. But not my mental state.

I have financial dependents, so I can't bullet myself just yet, but soon. Everyone important in this scenario is aware of what's wrong with me, everyone knows nothing has helped. I know they're mad at me, but they understand. So, when that time comes I want to make sure someone looks at my head. I want them to find out what's wrong with me so no one else will go through what I've gone through.

>>18483738

We all have issues. I definitely have much bigger issues than her.

>>18480976
Alright, so we dated for a couple of months two years ago.

>>18480976
dude, ive been there, man that sucks. I just got busted by my main bit, and after the whole drama I totally lost affection for the bit on the side. its a lose-lose. so, whats the plan?

>>18484609
I know this feeling too well anon, I hope you get them back.

>>18481398
>Alright, so we dated for a couple of months two years ago
im immediately stopping to read. just that tone, the first words, i can tell you are an attention soaker. "alright". whats, "alright"? basically tl;dr

I hate how arrogant I am when it comes to how smart I am. It seems like no matter who I meet, it feels like I'm smarter than them and I wish I could stop assuming that. It only happens when it comes to my peers and people without degrees (I just refrain from comparing myself to them because there is no good point of reference). At the very least, I can recognize when people are better at some subjects than I am, especially when it comes to writing and understanding literature, but even then I assume that my ability to pick up on other subjects much better than them leads me to believe I'm "smarter" than them.

I feel like an asshole when it happens and I go out of my way to try to be modest as possible. I feel like one of those athiest fedora wearing neckbeards who claim people are stupid and think small talk is superficial and prefer to talk about higher subjects such as "philosophy" or politics.

I remember all the harsh things she said about me. I know she said that in a fit of anger, but it still stung. Despite all she did to me, not once my faith in her abilities faltered. I've always known she'd be a great artist. Her faith in me, however...
It just feels great that my life is going so amazingly well that she refuses to believe I can be this happy without her.

>>18485277
Stop thinking being "smarter" means anything. People show intelligence in ways other than academics.

You say you go out of your way to be modest, but your post reeks of arrogance.

>>18485308
>You say you go out of your way to be modest, but your post reeks of arrogance.
Yeah, but didn't he just say he hates how arrogant he sounds?

>>18485310
He hates it but not enough to stop exhibiting it. If he cared enough to change his ways, he'd do more than write a pity post on a German sock weaving forum.

>>18485313
He may be arrogant, but this place is for venting, not judging. Please be more considerate of other's feelings, since they're exposing their vulnerability here.

>>18484532
if it's any consolation i'm only doing it because i can feel you losing interest and becoming distant. i don't deal well with rejection.

has nothing to do with you.

>>18485328
A diary is a place to vent without judgment. A public forum is not.

>>18485277
have you ever met a person who is a criminal(on the streets, not in the politics), but has a lot of integrity, has a quick sharp mind, and more balls than you ever will have? i have the same issue as you, but at the same time i know this pretentiousness can only confirm itself among academic circles and privileged people, and when i meet people who are just intelligent by nature and grew up on the streets, then i realize what a slime i am.

>>18485334
I can only hope empathy grows within you and that others have it towards you.

I have no fucking money. I owe money to my parents, and they have no money as well. I wish I could just fall into a few thousand dollars at least. The problem is having no money is making me depressed and that's making me unwilling to do work and actually earn money. I'm now a lazy piece of shit. Why can't I just win the lottery, even just one of the smaller draws.

>>18485277
Have you ever thought about the possibility that you are just smarter than all those you've met?

>>18485337
Do we really live in an era where people are so delicate that even the slightest criticism is considered unempathetic?

I dated the greatest girl I've ever met, she was my first date ever which made it even better, but at the same time I feel terrible now that she's gone.

She wasn't sure what she wanted and I needed her to commit because of the distance, if she committed we would've made it work, she was the sort of girl you'd do it for, but she wasn't sure and couldn't make up her mind about a relationship. We had to end it because she'll flake out eventually, the distance was only growing so without dedication this would've failed, and it did.

I couldn't have her in the end, she wasn't meant for me, nothing I could've done that I already haven't done but it still feels like shit.
It wasn't one of those break ups when one cheats on the other or whatever, it just couldn't have happened and we both knew it.

Thats just my luck, something great happens in my life but then its just gone before I could reach out for it

>>18485353
It's not about the era or being delicate. People come here to show their weakness. If you or anyone preys on them, it's no surprise you'll get frowned upon. Regardless, if you lack the empathy to understand it, this conversation will be fruitless. I hope you have an amazing day.

>>18485370
I agree anon. But I don't understand how what I said was "preying" on them. I was offering legitimate advice on an advice board.

>>18485380
>You say you go out of your way to be modest, but your post reeks of arrogance.
It was mostly this. It sounded, at least to me, unnecessarily harsh. If you meant well, my mistake.

>>18485385
Fair point, the way I phrased that was callous.

>>18485350
Its not something to rule out, but the actual probability of it is very low. Like that other anon said, intelligence isn't some all encompassing measurement. People are good at some things and terrible at others. I just can't shake the feeling of "I'm on a higher level than this person" whenever I interact with them. It doesn't help that people tell me I'm smart all the time, whether its just a nice little complement or a sincere one.

I think that if I just interact with others more, I can learn more ways somebody could be smart and have a more grounded view on the whole thing.

lol I was the reason your dogs missing

Am I supposed to respect furries or should I point out what a bunch of degenerates they are?
I wouldn't mind if they kept their stuff to themselves in private, but they show their furfaggotry in public in places where it makes no sense. They shove it into other people like me who want nothing to do with their shit.
Am I supposed to respect them the same way I'm supposed to respect people of color and LGBT people or are they on a different plane and I'm allowed to point out that they should keep their disgusting shit to themselves?

>horny as shit
>ask boyfriend to do dirty things with me
>he's busy playing Saints Row 4
>we do nothing

...I don't... I don't fully understand what has just happened. But next time I'm going to grab you by your dick and drag you to the nearest couch.

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hhhhhh shit. damn i gotta admit i think i really love you, cause you're like... perfect. You and i share the same sense of humor, youre super nice and friendly to me, and just.... ugh, just thinking about your name is enough to give me butterflies, you have a really pretty name and you are even more beautiful as a person. i'm so glad you're coming to visit by where i live in the future, and eventually moving here. i hope we can do some awesome stuff together, like go to some amusement parks and just hang out. also, sidenote, i remember that one time we were in a group voice chat and you were really tired so you made those, like, noises, that you apparently almost always do whenever you're sleepy. the ones that are like, sort of sighing, but kind of high pitched? i love that about you desu, i remember giggling about it while we were talking and you just did it more. god you're so wonderful, and amazing, and i hope you only ever have good things happen to you. When we see eachother for the first time, i hope you don't mind if i give you a big giant hug. you are lovely and amazing. i love you so much

>>18485491
are you guys like, dating?

Have never in my life encountered such an unoriginal, little thief. You can only steal from someone for so long

>>18485498
no, or at least, not as of yet, but we are real close friends and we talk to each other a lot on discord, the more and more we talk the more love i feel towards her, and she's always been supportive and just an all around fantastic person to me when bad shit happens. and a lot of times she messages me just to tell me hi and hopes im having a good day, and i to her. She's so awesome.

My whole life has been a fucking fluke and I can't wait for the day it all comes crashing down, along with every bit of pretension and ties I have with other people. I hope I get hit by a truck or something because I'm too fucking retarded to off myself.

>>18485503
Well, fuck you too.
I need my soda, and there ain't shit you gonna do about it. I paid for a fucking cup in a store that offers free refills. You KNEW what was gonna happen.

Sorry your chink boss got on your ass, but a man like me needs his thirsts QUENCHED.

Not like you're gonna stay in that position for long, tbqh. Give it a few months, and then you'll leave to a better job at a better fast food joint, or hell even a restaurant. Either way, whatever.

>>18485462
You should treat everyone with a basic level of respect regardless. As long as they aren't harming others or breaking the law, you don't have a right to shame them.

I've never cared or been very into the "Were Egyptians black?" argument, but I've always wondered why it's primarily an argument between black and white people. I've only ever seen maybe one or two modern Egyptian people say anything about it.
Why are so many white people that fanatically invested in something that has little to do with them? Why does it make them angry, like the possibility of black people having some random historical empire is an affront to them? Why do they feel the need to speak for Egyptians? I'd understand if it was the whole "Shakespeare was black" debacle, because that would actually be an insidious attempt to lay claim to objectively white history, but why Egypt? The debate should primarily be between black people and modern Egyptians, since they're the people it concerns. Is there some background I'm missing?

>>18485462
How do they shove it onto other people? I've never seen a furry IRL

I have a hot as fuck body and it's wasting its best years with an owner who's single. Winter means I can't even show it off either

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I can't wait to be a mommy

Mum caught me crying again

It's a shame at this point I'm still totally hung up on you. I believed 100% that we would be able to move forward together and see just how much we could accomplish with a few new ground rules and a healthier approach. I guess that'll never happen now, you made your decision to lie and live as a stranger to me. To be honest, you feel like an imposter who encroached only for convenience. You aren't a good person, but you could have been. Oh well.

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>Have good guy friend in high school, always so supportive of me and me supportive of him. Very close with one another
>He develops feelings, I have to shoot him down, but despite it all we get around it, remain close as hell.
>Graduate, we head off different places. Still have frequent contact online. Close as ever, he gets a couple gf's over the years, I get a couple bf's, world keeps turning.
>I'm going through a rough time, very sexually and romantically frustrated. Been talking to him about my issues with this for the past couple years. He's been supportive of me and helping me through it same as he always has
> For the first time in over 7 years we're in the same town again, start hanging out, feel the physical distance between us just getting shorter and shorter.
>I hesitate, knowing how he felt about me in the past. Back then I made sure to never put myself in any sort of physical situation with him for his sake. Remind myself he's dated quite a few women since, he liked me when he was 14 and in high school, surely he's moved past me. We're both very different people as adults.
>Due to my personal drama and frustrations, I fuck him just to feel a little relief for once despite my better judgement.
>after: "soo is this just a one time thing, or.... You're just very special to me, you know?"
>Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck
>Feel like a terrible person who just used the only person who's ever been there for me and truly cared for me because I just wanted quick temporary relief from my own damn sexual frustrations.
I knew better, I should have listened to my hesitation and just not have gotten so drunk on the feeling of being in a mans arms again. God I'm so fucking greedy.

You guys created me to have pretty much every disorder known to man. I have autism, dyslexia, OCD, gender dysphoria, PTSD, social anxiety, IBS, REM sleep disorder, and depression. You designed me to be a living train wreck of a person so I could be as relatable as possible.

Fucking kill me.

Dear David

It sucks you had to fall in love with me. I wish we could have kept being lifelong friends but I'm never going to feel bad about not reciprocating your feelings.
I know you feel fat and ugly.
But the guy I ran off with isn't in perfect shape or terribly handsome either.
He just worked hard and "obtaining" me was never the endgame or win all of his aspirations- he has goals and is still working hard to achieve them.
I know you hate him- but it hurts my feelings that you can't understand why I love the guy.

And I do love you too- sure it's like a brother ( I could never see you sexually, again- cant apologize for that) and even though it's been a year I think about you all the time hoping your okay.

So many times I've been tempted to ask how you are- but I know never talking to you again is the healthiest thing for you.

You hung onto hope of me changing my mind for 3 years- you wasted three years of your life thinking I was the only thing that could make you happy. And when I tried to talk to you about it- you refused to change or try to.
I even just suggested you travel alone for like a week to find yourself- you refused that. You said you would only travel with me- and that I hated.

You never wanted to find yourself.

I really really hope you want to find yourself now. I hope you have forgotten all about me and o hope to the bottom of my heart you find happiness.
I hope you have given up on loving me and learn how to love yourself.

You'll always be my friend.
I hope you are well.

>>18485682
Out of curiosity, initials?

You gotta love it when people only consider accountability when it becomes a threat on either their social standing or their livelyhood.

No one ever considers owning up to their bullshit until it risks making them look bad to parties that have power over them.

There's a cat that sometimes comes and hangs out with me while I'm walking my dog. My dog is afraid of it. Today the cat kept trying to hit my dog's face and my dog got really scared. Should I kick the cat in front of my dog the next time I see it to show my dog that the cat can go fuck himself? I wish my dog would just bite the cat or something but he just barks scared and today he screamed when the cat touched him. The cat belongs to some people that live on the next block.

>>18485609
They post their furry shit in websites that aren't related to furry shit. They are the infection of the internet. Kind of like bronies but Idk much about those freaks.

>>18485718
Just splash it with water. Don't hit animals...

>>18485722
That's a good idea. Yeah I guess I couldn't bring myself to hit the cat anyway, maybe the cat doesn't even realize he's bullying my dog.

>>18485619
Yuck

>>18485608
If it's any comfort I always assumed Ancient Egyptians were Black and Brown skinned.
I've never had a coversation or argument on the matter either and I'm surprised that people out there actually think Egyptians were at all white...

>>18485713
Tonight I'm a C

>>18485718
>>18485722
This, because if you get seen doing it you can get charged with animal cruelty unless you are literally defending your dog's life.
Cats are, well, pussies. You're bigger than the cat, when you see it, yell at it and run at it. It'll fuck off. Make it scared of you, and if it's just a violent cat, go find it's owner and inform them that their cat keeps attacking your dog and if they don't contain or control their animal you'll call animal control on it. Most cities have ordinances about free roaming pets, and even if yours doesn't ALL have rules against violent and dangerous animals.

>>18485619
>Tfw no nationalist qt waifu into fire safety and ending ngo ship trafficking to have like 4 kids with

>>18485739
Yah I guess you are right. Although nobody really enforces any laws like that where I live. But I'll just try to scare the cat away like you say.

>>18485725
Only time I ever hurt an animal was when this big black lab charged out of nowhere and attacked my 16 year old shih tzu while we were on a walk. I fucking kicked that thing in the jaw so fast because it was on my dogs neck.
Even still I felt a little bad though. I understand the dog was probably just defending it's territory, I about kicked the door in of the house who's yard it ran out of demanding to know if it was their dog. It was, told them what happened and they better get a fucking leash or fence on their dog before I sue their ass.

Thankfully my dog was fine, just fucking terrified. Had to carry him home he was shaking so much.

>>18485739
(>>18485745)
I hope it eventually stops following us because I used to pet the cat when it was friendly until it met my dog and started attacking him.
>>18485750
Yeah I get what you mean but you did the right thing. A friend of mine once had to visit some house for his job, and the idiot owner left him alone with a really violent dog that attacked my friend. My friend got bit really bad so he had to defend himself with a wrench against the dog. Now the owner is trying to sue my friend for "attacking his dog", kek.

>>18484036
>>18485329
What initial are you?
Most importantly, were you ghosting earlier than writing this note?

>>18485754
Yeah, unfortnately not all animals get along with one another. Being scared of your dog doesn't mean it's a bad cat, it's actually pretty rational because unless you have a chihuahua or something your dog is likely bigger than the cat, which is pretty threatening in the animal world.

Introducing animals can be rough, and introducing 2 adult animals is even harder. Since it's not like its your cat or anything, I'd just keep distance between them. Always keep yourself between the cat and you dog, and if you see it charging or moving toward you, make yourself big and loud. You might carry a small spray bottle of water with you when you walk your dog the next couple times. It won't take very many sprays before the cat associates you with the spray bottle and stays clear of you, then you won't even need to bring it with you.

>>18485736
Tonight?

>>18485780
i'm not who you're looking for. sorry.

>>18485754
Lol reminds me of that news story of the boy who fucking jumped his neighbors fence to get his ball and got attacked by their dogs, and mommy's trying to sue the neighbors and get their dogs put down for attacking their precious baby angel.
I was like, kid was fucking trespassing. Teach your kid not to fucking trespass on other people's property and you wouldn't have this problem, they had a fence for a reason.

>>18485200
I don't think that kind of study can be acomplished just with a dead brain. If you really want to help, it would be far more helpful if they could scan your brain while you are still alive.

I want to just fucking kiss and hold you. You're such a good person regardless of all the mean things I've said

It's unfortunate that instead of trying to move forward and improve our relationship you would rather create more distance with no regard for anybody but yourself. I'm not waiting around for you anymore.

Abbie I love you

>>18485797
Shit. That's insane, I hope she doesn't get away with it and that they don't do anything to the dogs. I hate hearing news like that but I think I've seen one or two similar cases on the news some years ago.

>>18480695

J,
I'm sorry for everything.
I don't know if I ever loved you.
Even though I rarely think about you anymore, it still hurts when I do.
Like a knife twisting in my gut.
You deserved better.

P,
I think about you every day, even after all these years. That night we spent together a few months ago was wonderful, and it made me realize how badly I wanted to melt back into our old life... and also how easy that'd be for both of us.
I wish you'd give us another chance.


- S

>>18485817
I highly doubt any judge will side with this woman given the kid was breaking the law himself and its not like the owners of these dogs were negligent in any way. Their animals were secure and contained on their own property.
Hell if I were the judge I'd be slapping the parents on the wrist asking them "And where the fuck were you when your child was breaking into your neighbors property? Why weren't you watching your children?"

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I can feel and hear myself scream while I have nightmares. I had a dream about waking up out of a coma (like the matrix). I could feel that I was in another world but I couldn't see anything. Everything eventually faded into a hospital where I was running with wires attached to me and people trying to calm me down. They were freaking out that the coma patient had woke up and didn't know what to do. I just kept screaming "HELP" over and over again until it eventually turned into a cry of "Please wake me up, please. Help me. Help. I can't wake up." I eventually could see clearly but then the world fell away from me. I wanted to wake up out of the nightmare so badly but I just couldn't. No matter how hard I screamed I couldn't wake up.

>TFW that was actually reality and I almost escaped my dream prison.

>>18484700
>beta male delusion

Lmao, can't wait for you to be crying here when she inevitably admits you were just emotional support while she was looking for a better branch to swing on.

I wish I never met you so I wouldn't have fell for your lies about loving me.

>>18485845
I've often felt the same, burning feels... that's anger and resentment talking. Love is inspired and unspoken in moments of genuine thanks for having the opportunity to share with another soul. It mightn't last forever, it's awesome to get to experience it all the same

I still can't believe that every song ever written is about me.

Just.. holy shit.

>>18485744
She's out there

>>18485893
It's not worth the hurt I'm going through.

I'm convinced all you kept me around for was sex and nothing was ever genuine between us.

That video parodying the singing competition shows like american idol and the voice...

What did that mean? When it turns out the little girl really wasn't the singer but someone backstage. Does that mean you haven't been letting people hear how I really sing? Or does it mean that singing is a "hidden talent."?

There is also that Kerli song that goes "Nobody knew she could do that." and that other song that goes "You're talented you know, more talented than you know."

Years in college I was with my ex in the car when lightning crashes came on the radio. I always sang along with songs but I kinda half jokingly put all my heart into that beginning wailing part and she said "That was actually really good." Was that meant to plant a seed?

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>>18485929

>>18485941
>>18485929
Same, my bitches. Same.

>>18485929
>>18485941
>>18485970

Bish same!

>>18485390
are you much taller than most of people?

>>18485835

Well fortunately I won't be crying at all because the world doesn't work like /r9k/ says it does

get laid my dude

I hate that starting a sentence with your name is just a recipe for me getting terrified that people are going to think I'm perpetually not over you. Like they all internally sigh and think "here we go again" the moment your name leaves my mouth. You were a person in my life with thoughts and interests who I had conversations with, many of them relevant to ones I have now and it's shit that I pretty much have to pretend they didn't happen, or that I know all these random facts/places/bands out of nowhere, so people don't go "huh, this again, babbys first breakup, he's still on about it"

They probably wouldn't be wrong, sure. I realise the fact I'm posting here kinda illustrates the problem. But Is that really the worst thing to admit? It would probably be simpler if everyone knew. I mean 'm not a miserable person I don't think. It's not like I'm failing to feed wash and clothe myself. All considered I'm actually doing pretty well. But to show that sort of weakness seems completely beyond me.

>>18484700

Holy shit you're a real piece of work. Sounds like you and that girl were made for each other. Have fun friend.

stop saying i love you. stop telling people you're gonna marry me. sort your fuckin head out. i am mever going to let you get in my way. or anyone.

>>18485929
>>18485941
>>18485975
(>>18485970 here) can we all swap stories?

>>18485834
wait, what?

>>18486020
You first anon.

>>18485811
Kinda hard when I am blocked, if you are the person I hope you are.

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>>18485834
>Please wake me up, please. Help me. Help. I can't wake up

>>18486021
I have REM sleep disorder where I act out my dreams. I was dreaming about being a coma patient lost in a dream and becoming aware of that dream. So in the dream, I was screaming HELP over and over again as well as "PLEASE WAKE ME UP I CAN'T WAKE UP PLEASE HELP ME."

But I was also screaming those things in reality. Think of a soldier with PTSD screaming from their nightmares.

I also have multiple seizures a night.

I have a degenerative brain disease and it's killing me. My brain is literally disintegrating.

Eight years to the day since the best and worst day. I still feel the same.

>>18485682
Share your story anon. I relate to this.

>>18485682
Maybe if you asked me directly, instead of being obfuscatory about what you wanted you'd have found out I wanted the same.

>>18486020
>bf when I was 16
>Both of us were eachother's first sexual partners.
>Built up to 3rd base tier sex stuff at a decent pace, but once it started it was basically all we ever did, all he ever wanted to do.
>date for 9 months, his family is moving.
>Tell him I'm willing to try long distance if he is
>Because I'm 16 and retarded enough to think that would work.
>But if he didn't think it would work out I'd rather break up now and get that closure while we're still physically together.
>Swears to me we'll make it work, he moves, we stay in contact, I make plans to visit him
>Foot the cost of travel all by myself. Blew like, 600 bucks on a plane ticket.
>Visit for a week, blow him all week long, attempt to have sex but I was too nervous.
>Ask him if all we were was sex partners, since we never seemed to do much else. Ensures me no it's not like that he loves me.
>Go home
>Short time later get a text message break up
>Told me he wasn't feeling it from the second he moved, that he never actually loved me he just told me he did because it felt convenient.
>Basically waited to break up with me until after I visited because he thought he was gonna get laid
>Immediately hooks up with new girl, I'm certain he was already starting to see even before dumping me just due to how quickly it happened.
>Like, his relationship status on fb changed from my name to this new girls name within an hour.
>Never get over it
>Never had a bf since
>I'm fucking 22 years old.
>Numb the pain by throwing myself at every dude that looks at me thinking if I bang them fast enough maybe they'll stay and maybe I can grow to love them.
>Have a very fucked up relationship with sex.
>Think about killing myself every day.

>>18486055
Initial?

CG
You're a goddamn monster. You've abused me, took advantage of me financially, talk shit about me and my ma, hit me for just huffing and puffing and threw random shit at me jsut for talking back to you during our playtime. You blamed me for breaking your nails when it was you that broke them when you threw that stuff at me and that I had to pay to fix them. Then you claimed that if you wanted you truly wanted to be a bitch to me, you'd empty my bank account and throw bologna at my car to cause the paint to peel off and send me back home. I accused you making that duplicate profile of me on social media becuase only you and I have that particular picture of me and then preceded to tell the only one friend that knows you that you hit me which, again, is only something you and i know..Then you get angry and tell me to have a nice life and that you were done with me only to later tell me that someone hacked your profile jsut that day and much later admit that everyone knew that you punched me so that indicates that either you had someone else do it or one of your friends decided to act as a social justice warrior and hack your profile. Either way fuck you sadistic bitch

>>18486060
R, I doubt you are who I am looking for though.

>>18486064
is R from your first name?

>>18486066
Yes

>>18485997
>getting this upset over hearing the truth about his slutty nigger gf that he settled for

LMAO

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Regan

I'm so fucking sorry. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me.

I know why you stopped loving me now...

>>18485815
Leave me alone you creepy fuck, it's getting annoying now, he's a better man and lover than you'll ever be and you were never anything more to me than a walking dildo anyway.

>>18486080
If this is in relation to this >>18486066 the I must apologize and inform you I am not your R.

Z

I don't know if you read this board but in case you do just know how much of a disappointment you are.

>tfw can't post on /adv/ from pc
>Connection error.
>every time

>>18485246
"Alright", as in "okay, let's try this thread for once, instead of making my own thread for it"

Guess not

>>18484700
>>18485997

The relationship you're in doesn't sound healthy. I hope it somehow works out but you're two months in with lots of fighting yet already talking about having kids? That's pretty crazy honestly.

You admit you think you're too young and inexperienced and by the way you respond I think so as well. How old are you exactly?

When I look back upon your past, N, I can see that you've come so far. You were that fat, annoying, friendless loser with parents who care not for you, but for projecting their own selfish desires unto you. You withdrew yourself from the rest of society in a desperate attempt to shield yourself from the vitriol and abuse of your peers, family, friends, ect. You worked hard on acquiring an education, lifting weights to transform your body, develop your game so that you could get laid, save money so that you can buy guns, ammo, other shit, and travel the world. You've accomplished more than the average individual and have accumulated a respectable level of success. Yet, we still feel like such a failure. Yet, we are alone without friends, family, a gf. All I want is my team tactical (coined after my favorite COD 4 game mode). A group of 2-3 close friends that I can rely on, trust, and call my brothers. I also wouldn't mind having a girl to give mutual support, love, and care. I would trade every dollar, every muscle, a gun, and my left testicle just to have that and a simple life. We've come so far, further than most, but we still have a long ways to go before we achieve the happiness we've always longed for.

Best Regards,
N

>>18486111
Correction, I just saw you said you were talking about plans. Still dude it sounds like this is a shaky relationship. It sounds eerily similar to bad ones I along with other friends got into when we were younger.

>>18486026
1/2 here it goes.

Started talking to someone back in 2013-2014. We met playing vidya back when Xbox 360 and modern warfare 3 were the best thing ever. He had a purple emblem and it was the first one I ever saw (purple is my favorite color) so I invited him to an XBL party with my friend and I, we clicked. We had a lot in common and he taught me new things (futa, traps, loli, pee fetish, vomit fetish, and more degenerate things) so I started swapping photos I found online through skype. Being a dumb, gullible twat at the time, I used my bulimia to become closer to him by sending videos of me puking. We would stay up playing vidya and drink together. At the time he was seeing someone from outside the US and I had a live-in boyfriend; we both knew about each other's s/o's (this connection continued for another couple of years).

One day he said he would like to live with me (he had been "single" for a couple years at this point). I said I'd pay to pick him up and I'd take care of him so he could relax -- it was very stressful because I knew the entire time he was hiding things from me but couldn't prove it and I lashed out verbally a lot, he would lash back sometimes physically. He would turn what I said against me and use it to manipulate me. He said 2 weeks after he moved in that we weren't dating and although it broke my heart I couldn't bear to think about kicking him out because I knew what it felt like to be homeless. So he wound up becoming sick of me and left after 6 months the same day I picked up a second job to keep us a float.

Hey, stop making assumptions and just talk to me, how about that? It is so much more tiring and time intensive to try to clear up the situations and things that you think up in your head than if you just ask and I can tell you exactly how things are. Like. I'm too tired for this today.

My Z

I know you don't read this board, but I have to be honest with you: I'm not going to stick around long enough to be a prep cook.

I'm actually making plans to go somewhere else.We never really got along because you just kinda kept pushing me away when fucking R,D, and M try to open me up. It's unusual that the fucking wait staff are trying to get along with me sometimes but hate my fucking guts the rest of the time.

This feeling, I cannot bear longer. I don't want to feel any more an outcast than before. I want to belong. I need to belong. I don't belong here. I got my goals ready, but they're going to take a while to enact. Expect me to stick around a few more months unless shit really goes down. Sorry, man, but I'm just not cut out for this. I need to become a not-loser and I know many ways to redeem myself. I have time and energy, and I realize I have to put it to use before I just expect my body to die when I'm older.

It was good when it was good, but now it's decaying to shit.

>>18486026
>>18486131
2/3

pulled a Sam Hyde and moved to his city shortly after hoping to prove myself that I cared about the relationshit. The last time in his city was awful: he would phone my best friend in my home state and talk about me with my best friend to get info on me to manipulate me. This caused my best friend to stop talking to me for days, sometimes weeks, because what he said about me to my best friend (which were lies I proved through screenshots later on). He would become jealous and insecure when I made friends although it was alright for him to hangout with other people (girls) and ghost me for days at a time knowing that he was all I had. I didn't care that he had female friends, but I knew he wouldn't share that he was banging/spending time with me and I put together he was hooking up with other girls. For example, one night he promised he would take me out on the town to celebrate Halloween and he fucked another girl instead, she left her costume and thong at his apartment. Yet I cut off all ties with family and friends so he wouldn't feel neglected and hopefully see how much I'd like to spend time with him. I stopped eating, could barely sleep, drank mass quantities of alcohol to cope with the bullshit.

When I became sick of all the neglect and decided to leave I came home to regroup. A few months later his ex-girlfriend contacted me and we swapped experiences. He was telling her that he was going to move to her country (many times he said this while he was living with me and even though he was in college and couldn't physically move to her -- he wanted her emotional support on the side while he fucks a bunch of girls) to be with her, marry her, start a family with her. He led us both on for years, and we were both too nervous to contact one another even though I left the ball in her court to find me using social media (she's a tech wizard).

>>18486026
>>18486131
>>18486137
3/3

Her and I still chat but not about dude anymore, those conversations about him didn't last long at all desu..mostly because I shared with her what I've heard from a therapist about this 2 year long experience (that's how long him and I spent time together *in person* give or take) and it has helped her so much. We are much happier now and honestly, there's many experiences I've left out of this post because it makes me appear to be a vindictive girl. Some huge stuff like experiences and small stuff like he would tell her I'm psychotic and crazy (even though I paid for a lot of his shit, let him punch holes through my walls and doors, never phoned the police or anyone about him hitting me, or when I allowed him to live with me for 6 months practically rent free -- I will give him credit that he *did* pay once, not all of it... but only because he didn't want to become homeless and have someone for sex, and also bought him many nice things and drew him many pictures).
I laugh about to this day: he said to his ex, "Y isn't a degenerative slut but she has mental problems" and that he never shared with the girl that he "loved" he is into futa and traps.

Life is crazy sometimes.

>>18486133
I can relate to this anon.

I still just want to die. This is going on for far too long. I'm so fucking tired. And you guys tell me an end date every time but you're just fucking with me. You laugh at me for falling for it every time but can you blame me? I just want it to be over. I don't want to be lonely anymore.

You told me it was Bree at first, but that was probably just to fuck with me. Or maybe it was and you have some kind of voting system going on.

If it was Claire though that would be super rad. Even if just as a friend I would love to meet her. Shes as adorable as she is talented. Which is a llloottttt.

But I

I just don't think it's going to be enough, I'm never going to be ok. I'm never going to be happy. I'm broke and there isn't anyone in the world that can help me. I know this.
I jsut want to die

>>18486133
"Things you think up in your head"

Please.

You know what I want? I want to just go to bed one day and wake up when this is all over. Like, go to sleep as normal but when I wake up you have already done all the surgeries, for my eyes, hair removal, hair cuts, everything. I wake up a completely different person.

I would love that so much.

I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want to go home.
I want to live among the stars.

I'm so fucking sore. On the bright side I just figured out a back exercise that I think is going to finally give me more lower back definition.

>>18486160
You'll get there some day anon.

>>18485993
Yeah, but I'm only 6'1".

>>18486165
It's been nearly a year though. How much longer do I have to suffer?

Please, end this. Either do the things you've said you were going to do or please make it painless.

I want it to be over. I want to die.

>>18480695
You never feel the pain of heartbreak and a break up throughout the day. Nah, you mostly keep busy. Run your errands, keep your mind on the task at hand. Most of the time, this is just us running away from the thoughts and feelings we have about our ex-lovers.

No, in the day you're safe. The day protects you. But when you lay down at night, laying alone in your bed with thoughts. Thats when the pain catches up. The pain you were running from seizes your identity and it becomes overbearing. You toss and turn in bed, just because your thoughts wont let you be.

The night is a heartbreak's worst enemy.

I just want to see you so I can cuddle with you and make you get out of this rut. I know we can make it through this together if we tried.

>>18486236
Then tell me so

I hope you realize that you've ruined my entire life by stunting me socially in every way. How can you call yourself a parent when you can't even let your child breathe?
The moment we move to Canada, I am living on my own and going out whenever and wherever I please. I'm a legal adult, and you have no power over my life anymore. Maybe I'll come see you when I need my hair done.

>>18486240
What's your initial?

alright fuck it lets play

dear Lucy

i love you but will never love you as much as you love me nor as much as you want to be loved. and despite i broke up with you i still want us to be together, but not marry you like you INSISTED WE SHOULD. you are the best girl (out of 6 in my life lol) i have ever had sex with. i really miss the two of us drinkin wine and having sex all night long. i will never forgive myself for fucking that stupid fat ass bith a year ago, and will never probably find someone that will forgive me like you did. you trully loved me and i fucked up. i miss our good days and wish we could make some more memories for another 4 years.

dear Claude

i really liked your hips and your exquisite vagina. your breath stinks though, that is why i stopped texting you. i hope you've gotten help since then.

dead Gabrielle

FUCK YOU YOU RUINED MY RELATIONSHIP I DONT WANT YOU DEAD BECAUSE YOU ALMOST WERE BUT I HOPE I NEVER SEE YOU AGAIN. well maybe we could fuck another 3 or 4 times and THEN YOU CAN FUCK OFF.

dead Rose

you were cute and i really wanted us to get somewhere, but shit, your family was fucked up and i wasnt gonna help with your problems anyways. i hope you are doing good and am sorry for lying to you.

dear me from the past

you should have kissed Andrea, you should have accepted Mei's friend request, and you totally should have banged Rose that night when you were alone. you should've studied more too, you lazy fuck, now look at us.. *sigh*

>>18486251
R

>>18486255
Not the one :(

I think I made you feel bad again. I just really want to see you again and hold you again and tell you how much I love you. Please just send me a text or a phone call.

I got a few tattoos but whenever I see a woman with tattoos I might be physically attracted to her and might try to have sex with her but I instantly reject the thought of a serious relationship with that woman. I guess I just have old school views on gender roles. Not like super strict but I just miss the good old days when women were more traditional in there appearance and behavior. Like what wrong with not dressing like a slut or dying your hair a new color ever week? It just seems trashy to me and I feel like if I were to ever have children with a woman like that she would be a fuckin psycho and not teach my kids how to be decent human beings with principles and an understanding that while you are free to do whatever you want you have to realize that it's an expression of who you are and it affects the way you are perceived, whether that is good or bad. And I prefer to present myself in a certain way and if I'm going to date a woman well the type of person she happens to be says a lot about me as well and yeah, I give a shit.

Phew, felt good to get that off my chest. Now, who's offended? :)

Good relationships take time and effort and it's sad to me how quickly you were able to give up on us.

>>18484747
I knew it was hopeless, you probably have forgotten all about me and intend to never speak to me again. Makes sense I suppose with how I have been acting.

I also see you are spending much more time with that person and inviting them to do the things we used to do, I really wish I was them right now.

second fourth of july without you my love.

last year i spent the holiday crying in my basement watching full metal jacket and drinking so much goddamn whiskey

this year i've traded in the whiskey for 5mg of klonopin on an empty stomach

i talked to you a couple days ago for the first time since august. you told me that you thought about me a lot and regretted messing up. i told you that i missed you and you said the same

i haven't heard from you since. i know you're alone at your house as well right now because i see you on snap maps.

if he's feels this way and i feel the same then why will it never be the same? this is a heartbreak and a half man

>>18486269
Nah, I feel you I'm the same way. I think tats are trashy on dudes, I would never date a dude with a tattoo because to me it reflects impulsivity and poor judgement, not good traits in a provider. I prefer a well dressed man, respectable, not in these weird dudebro tanks and hitler youth haircuts.

I didn't give up, you have me nothing to work with. I'm waiting for you to give me something to work with.

>>18486271
Btw
>>18486298
Isn't to you, you just made me think of it

>>18486298
What does this mean

A,

I don't care if all you want from me is my body. I'll sacrifice it all if I can receive more kindness from you. I know you know that I'm pretty fucked up, but you don't know the half of it. I don't care if you date other girls, if you fuck your ex. I wish I had some self-respect, but the truth is, I don't really care about anything - you and me included.

>>18486281
I respect that. I did have poor impulse control when I got my tattoos, I was 18 years old and trying to be cool.

>>18486314
Exactly. My friends have the most fucking retarded tattoos that they always got with a maximum of a single day's notice.
I know damn well theyre not gonna be that in love with some random tv show that's only relevant right now when they're 60.

Or the biggest retards of them all, the ones who do their trashy homemade prison tattoos while drunk/high at parties.

It's a shame, because I know I'm likely gonna have to settle. Find me one single person in my age range that doesn't have a single tattoo? I've been looking for years. They all start permanently mutilating their bodies in their teens.

>>18486314
>>18486328
Only tattoo that someone I know has gotten that I found at least respectable was a friend of a friend who got a tattoo of her daughter's newborn footprint on her stomach.
I can at least assume she will always love her daughter and therefore that tattoo will never be ugly or meaningless to her. She also had such a hard time getting pregnant and was basically told she was sterile, so she likely will never get to experience being pregnant again and got the tat to remember that experience, the feeling of her daughter pressing on her from within. She was a kicker apparently.

99.9% of all tattoos I see are trash though, just bs little things they got because they like whatever pop culture fad at the moment that they will never like or enjoy in even 5 years.

Haaa she wanted me to get a job so I got two
Now I work all the time and get very little rest or peace because of her demands
And then I hardly got any of my paychecks because she chooses to play with her money and then take all of mine for her responsibilities
The very least she could do is share some of her tabs to keep the pain from overwork I get being saddled with her toxic manipulative behavior but that's off the table as well.

So nothing. I get nothing. She takes everything and I get nothing in return. I can't even ask for anything because that's "negative" and it makes her feel terrible to be expected think about somebody other than herself.

>>18486346
>mexican wife
I'm running off to Japan where the only tattoos are on the criminals and yakuza where they belong anyway lol.
The Japanese sometimes won't even let you in their shops and shit if you have visable tattoos. Though unfortunately I think the culture is shifting. Japan is usually only about a decade behind us on social issues and shit. But at least that means it's gonna be the next generation of Japanese youth ruining their bodies and my age range will still be rather clear, unlike my American counterparts.

>>18486361
Kick her the fuck out. Change the locks. Leave her shit with her people. Ghost her.

The fuck are you doin?

You know its insulting when you come up with these negative scenarios right. Does that fit with anything else you know? No? Alright then so why am I getting like interrogated about It?

>>18486361
>share some of her tabs to keep away the pain from overwork & the depression I get being saddled with her toxic manipulative behavior but that's off the table as well.

>>18486381
Unfortunately I moved in with her in an unfamiliar town and she's just been a continuous leech on me. I want to leave but I can't save money and I don't know anybody who'd let me stay with them.

>>18486141
I'm glad youre out of this situation. Sounds terrible.

>>18486269
When a girl gets tats, her value to men decreases. It also decreases to women smart enough not to get all kinds of shit inked all over themselves. Girls have been brainwashed to think that every stupid decision they make (even obesity) is a beautiful statement of wholeness and body-positivity. It's complete bullshit.

>>18486001
Don't worry, babby. EVERYONE does this.

>>18485286
I know this wasn't written by my ex, but part of me thinks it could have been, maybe because I wish it was.

To no one in particular

Sorry for being such a huge disappointment. I'll never amount to anything and my life is a huge waste. I'm sorry other people with much more potential and meaning to other people died instead of me. I desperately wish it could have been me. I'm fucked in the head, tried to get fixed, but it won't ever work.

Hopefully I can find the courage to kill myself before I waste too much more of other people's time.

Ben
I remember when we used to talk on the phone you are the first person I ever said I love you and actually meant it. I remember that it took you a bit to respond you're probably surprised. Yet it didn't say it back.
You said bye and hung up the phone. We were close you and I so so close. And now that I've left you since you used me now you want to come back. I remember in February you said to me that you missed me. I proceeded to give you the cold shoulder for 4 months. You don't think that I didn't notice you always looking at me when we occupied the same room. You always try to make yourself look bigger so I can look at you and notice you. I did yet I wouldn't give you that satisfaction of me acknowledging your presence.
God I hate you so much for using me as a crutch for validation you didn't even know how to love yourself. So glad that I left and that I Cut You Out of My Life. You drained me emotionally and now it's taking me so long to heal and be myself again. Please don't ever contact me never again.

>>18485718
don't walk cats through wolf territory

>>18486495
I think most of us can relate to this.

>>18486251
V

>>18486505
speak for yourself

dear life
you taught me a lesson today
i was pushing myself and acting like an asshole
and pushed away some people who were trying to get closer to me
i realized it too late
thats a harsh lesson to learn, damn
especially because she was so open to me and i was lost in my head
all i need is one more shot
if i see her again ill be good to go
but i don't know if you have that in the cards
so i guess i'll leave it up to you...

Hey Britney, you stupid road raging bitch. Way to make me a half hour late getting home. You realize I have to get up at 7 tomorrow, right? How come every time we go somewhere you have to throw fingers and shoot your mouth off? You look like a damn fool. And then you ramble about how other drivers should show common courtesy. You're the only discourteous one. I've never seen anyone try to start shit with you. You're an adult, grow the fuck up or get back on your meds or something.
Sincerely, Jen

I woke up again

>a woman on okc is responding to my messages
>she's too bright and cheerful
>tfw it makes me kinda mad

i'm supposed to send out messages and get ignored. why don't women get this?

God please show me your plan for heavenly peace

I have a horrible cold/flu atm, I'm praying it kills me.

I wish I didn't live here and that I had a garden or lived in a field

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Why do some men turn their back on love?

I made every effort and excuse to deconstruct a relationship with a girl who was kind, caring, supportive, and beautiful. She had solid principles, family values, and a great sex drive.

I felt that I couldn't give what I wanted to offer her in my current life circumstance. I moved from a cool apartment where we made good memories into my dojo (rent-free) so I could finally pay off debt that's been stuck with me for almost 6 years. It's a small room, I shower in my buddy's gym upstairs, and I cook in the office kitchen. I outright told her again and again that I couldn't support a relationship (sold my car+motorcycle on top of moving out of a functional living space) because I needed to focus on self-improvement, and due to the unconventional living arrangement. It crushed me when she told me after I suggested we take time apart that "I didn't care about any of that, I just wanted to be with you."

After months of meditation/reflection I realised that I needed to tell her I love her, how I felt for a long time. She loved me, though she didn't say it then..We were together for a year and a half, and despite lots of affection and care, I waited and waited on pouring my heart out to her. We made love last summer on a beautiful night, and the big three were on the tip of my tongue, but I thought "be cautious, wait". I let her know at last 3 months ago, but it was too late.

It could have been a healthy relationship, someone to finally bring to the family; but I insisted on being an island; alone to crank the gears without a loving person to balance out the stresses of daily life.

My friends told me how proud she was of me, how highly she held me; and I said no to that. I said no to a good woman. I decided that isolation was better than a supportive partner.

Guys; If she's good to you, make it work. Otherwise, she'll find someone else who wants to.

Pic related: I wanted the no gf monk life, and I got it. It sucks.

There's some hardcore evil nuns walking about

>>18486857
YOU FUCKING MORON. I WOULD JUST ABOUT KILL FOR A WOMAN TO TELL ME SHE DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT WHATEVER OTHER SHIT SHE JUST WANTS TO BE WITH ME.

WHAT IN THE EVERLOVING FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM.

you will never know how much you as a person piss me off. I keep waiting for the moment all this self improvement carries purpose larger than myself. I was born into the monk life, molded by it. I never wanted this shit.

you faggot. you blew it. how are we all going to make it if it was handed to you and you fucking blew it?


CAPTCHA FUCK OFF WITH YOUR NEW STUPID FUCKING GAME I'M TRYING TO YELL AT FUCKING MORONS. GODDAMN GOOGLE BEING EVIL AND SHIT.

>>18486864
what the fuck does this even mean?

whores of satan's synagogue? yeah sure there are. this isn't news

ahshit this is becoming an every night thing now. I don't want to go to sleep because the second I lay in bed and start trying to sleep I'm going to start thinking about having a woman there.

I imagine things really vividly and while indulging in the thought of the sensation of hair in my face, or the sensation of our skin touching, or trying to imagine falling asleep to just that good smell that girls have, is nice. the second that train of thought breaks and I snap back to reality I get that stomach dropping feeling.

I don't want to go to bed. I want to be working or something.

>>18486105
trying turning off your adblocker

Dear...
Why did you leave your email open on my tablet? Now I want to die because I found out you've been having online (gay I might add) sex. I've come to realize I'll never be anywhere near enough for you because I'll never have a fucking dick. I'm so tired of this world...

I can't help but be disappointed by my parents. They're still making the same mistakes they did years ago. I know that having good parents is generally a luxury, but it's hard not to consider how much better my life would have been if I had a real role model. That, and spending childhood obese really kind of ruined it.

>>18486758
This is the worst. Why does this keep happening?

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>>18480695
Part 1

(Thanks OP I need this. Mind won't rest till I vent)

For the most part, I live a double life. The one I show to the world, and the one that I personally live in.

To others, I'm this badass guy who's free and loves adventure and takes any challenge.

But to me and the small few that I let know about me know I'm horribly depressed and weak and essentially a failure.

To others, I'm brave for doing the many things I've done. Solo backpacking trip through Alaska, learning how to scuba dive, learning the basics of flying a plane, climbing mount Whitney.

But to me, I only went to Alaska because I was burned out, got my heart broken and somewhat suicidal (like I've given up on myself). I only got my fucking scuba diving cert/license because I'm in love with my lesbian best friend (same girl that drove me to Alaska. At that time, gave her a 3rd chance after fucking me over completely).

To others, especially my old students, I'm this badass who's gonna make it in my field (Game designer. By make it, become highly successful). After rising above the challenges and working in mobile development, starting a company with some partners and quiting to found another company who develops games for a huge video game console. Getting into a these exclusive game industry party's and clubs and becoming one of the "guys".

But to me, I didn't really succeed in mobile development. I made one shitty APP game that took 2 years to long to make with shitty art and design. I got suckered by two shitty partners and ended doing all the work to which hurt and burned me out. It ruined my relationship with them. They both were useless and pathetic and I've lossed a lot of money, a lot for a poor starving college kid. I only left the company because they were holding me back. So I took the new IP we were making and traded my shares of the studio for it. For the most part, Microsoft and and bunch of publishers love the concept of it. Which I'm still fighting to keep working on.

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>>18487344
Part 2

Truth is, I haven't fully touched it since last year's E3. I didn't even bother going to this year's E3 because I'd have nothing to show.

I had all these people who followed me and trust me. I was their leader. With my charisma and unstoppable will, we were gonna be the next badass ballers. But then I fell hard, and even after a year later, I'm barely now back on my knees. I'm not even standing. I've now lost my team and lost all potential investors and promoters. Shit I even had Adam Sessler from Xplay all excited for it. The idea of the game was something archaic. A type of game that has been dormant for a long long time.

So here I am with this IP in my back pocket. I've essentially gone back to square one. But the outside world doesn't know this, they just see some badass concept art or some promotional work that gets them all pump. I'm weak man. Lmao

To others, I'm almost done with my degree and can finally move on.

But to me, I'm nowhere close. I wasted so much time and took off to much time to try and find myself.

To others, I've always been this kind person who helps people. Either be people who gets their car broken down so I help fix it for them so they can go, or talking a person out of suicide because I understand the pains of life.

But to me, I only do things like that because I feel that everyone needs someone to aid them. I don't feel any pleasure or satisfaction helping people. I do it because life is hard and horrible, and that sometimes having one person there can make a huge difference.

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>>18487349
Part 3

So I've saved the big one for last.

As mentioned earlier, I'm in love with one of my best friends. She's a lesbian and ultimately, I'd do anything for her. Total neckbeard beta shit. I fucking hate it. I never wanted to love her. Actually since my last ex/fiance, I haven't let a woman get close to me since. My ex-fiance got in the way of my career so I left. But this girl man... this girl challenged me. She changed me and ultimately made me better, and worst.

I use to all be about the money. I use to be about the baller life, parties, loose women and the whole shebang. But this woman flipped my world upside down. She showed me the importance of nature, the great outdoors and our planet. She showed me that a life without love is not a life worth living. All the money in the world can't compete to the touch of a person who loves and cares about you. Trust me, it fucking drew my crazy. I was in denial at first. Thought she was insane. But then I started to see what she was saying. I started to get tough, I started being able to live in the desert, or the mountains or forest. I started seeing the world we all live in, I'm in a completely new light. I would stare into her beautiful brown eyes as I told her stories of my past while listening to hers.

I fucking hated it /adv/. To feel this kind of emotion. It kept me from my work. I started catching myself getting very protective of her and always making her happy. I hated it.

Always bringing her flowers and candy just to see her smile, to make stupid dumb jokes that would make her day better. We'd talk and hangout till like 4 am almost everyday. We would be in the wild more times than in the city.

This board is full of retards. Reading it gets kinda tiring. I used to reply, but it takes energy and feels like a waste of time. I guess I'll just let it go

>>18486495
>>18486505
me too

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>>18487359
Part 4

But my friends, the close ones. The ones that can read your face when you are sad for hurt and etc. They hated her. They thought she was using me. She doesn't have many friends. Not the ones who would go out of their way to help you. I have many of those ones. And like I mentioned earlier, she's burned me severely bad before. But I've forgiven her. Never forget, but forgiven.

So I keep our friendship hidden from the world. No one knows. I'll be gone for week backpacking through the mountains and come back and no one would know the wiser.

It just hurts that I can't be with her you? She fucking drives me crazy. She's gets overly emotional and I usually have to pick up the pieces.

Idk. I'm scared to lose her but at the time, it will happen. We can't be together. She only dates abusive manhater women and for me, I have my career...

I do this to myself and myself alone. I have a lot to learn and I still feel like I'm growing as a person. I want to be the best person I can be and push myself beyond my limits.

For the last year, I've focused on making myself a better person. I've lost 60 pounds, gained a bunch of muscle, started reading books on time management and begun trying to become more attractive.

I want more out of life than the typical job, with a typical marriage and standard life. There's nothing wrong with it. And in many ways, I envy it. But I want to conquer the world. Not rule it, but surpass it. Make it a better place.

But fuck that, I have shit to do and asses to kick.

I couldn't sleep and was feeling really sad, so I wrote this long as post to help me. Ended up spending two hours thinking life over. I feel better. A lot better. I was pretty sad earlier but I'm okay now. I still wished I could get a hug, but I think I'm gonna be okay.

Thank you /adv/. Keep being awesome. Feel free to critique my shitty life choices. I'm down for who's ever perspective.

Yesterday I realized that my ex-husband is gay. I won't even go into the dozens of "clues" that led me to this conclusion. I know he'll stay in the closet the rest of his life. I also know that he'll make my life a living nightmare until he accepts what he is. But I am convinced. He can remarry another couple times, have more kids, but nothing will convince me that he's straight. It's sad, but it makes things clearer.

>>18487362
I do get upset at all of the literal non-issues posted in threads like these. They're problems that would be solved easily with a little bit of introspection, or by reading some words of wisdom and applying them. When you have a real issue and spend months trying things for it not to budge even a little, it gets to you.