how the fuck do you move on?

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>in relationship for two years
>she has depression, suicidal thoughts, jealousy, asked me a couple times to try and physically abuse her, got mad if I ever told her to see a therapist or get on anti-depressants, became psychologically addicted to weed
>stress caused me to get angry, gain weight, misjudge tons of shit
>graduate from college and get a job across the state
>she says that I will find another woman and constantly talks about me leaving her
>return from Hawaii trip I had with her in August
>two months later she breaks up with me
>10 months on and I still can't stop thinking about her

I don't know how to fucking do it. I know this relationship was fucking killing me but I can't stop thinking about it nor the really fun times we had. Hawaii, a seahawks game, her being at my ER surgery, the dates. My brain is constantly reminding me of these good moments.

what makes it worse is that all my college friends are all the way across the state. They rarely visit so I tend to be alone with my thoughts which has driven me to hike a shit ton and workout. but those haven't killed off my feelings and I'm at a loss on what to do.