I want to be the one for her. I think by her confirmation my

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I want to be the one for her.
I think by her confirmation my life would turn 180 degrees and I could be happy again, solely for knowing I she wants me.

Now I'm very sensitive but I can't even open myself to my closest, therefore I am terrified to death of the answer I might get if I ask her what she thinks of me.

I think I've shown enough of me to get her attention, to say the least, but I want her interest. Online she never initiates any conversation and I hope it's because she considers herself modest enough to not seem desperate or interested in any guy. Now I know she has rejected a lot of guys, stupid a$$ guys who think they can get her in a whiff, but all I want is just something in the right direction. Even by her reaching out a finger will make me grab the whole arm.

I can make her talk and respond to me but even tho I see her name on my phone it feels like she isn't shedding any light with her messages. Jealousy kills me and I have a hunch she either has the kicks for some other guy or at least does not feel what I feel.

I don't want to be the one giving 100% of me to just get small replies which might not even mean anything to her. Tho I'd more than gladly invest 200% of me in her given the condition I get something back. It doesn't have to be much, but it has to say I want to keep talking you. Because right now I'm slowly deteriorating knowing my efforts and the one I've always aspired to be isn't enough.

So what I'm asking is; can/should I make myself the one for her? Or has she, like most people, already made up her mind and I'm chasing a phantom that could only be persuaded by someone with the right look at the right time?

I don't want to feel like this about a person. I want it to be straightforward but right now it feels like I'm getting laughed at or totally neglected.