people get turned on by normal stuff (kissing, etc) but I find myself finding none of that appealing, like that all sounds just awful in my opinion. And this may sound like I'm asexual (a person that hates sex and is terrified or doesn't want to have sex ever), but I'm not. Like, the kissing and the love stuff sounds awful because I'm bad with handiling my emotions. I normally don't feel emotions but when I do I shut it off or some how it takes over, and I hate it when my emotions win and I lose my ability to react with wisdom. What is this and why am I like this? How can I change?
Have you ever made out with somebody?
Because I used to feel the same way, even about sex. It felt like some gross impossibility because I just couldn't conceive of myself ever actually managing to make it happen, so I pulled mental gymnastics to make myself okay with it.
Until it eventually happened, and now I know it's just something that both parties "get into it" without any thought, and its very pleasant.
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No I have not, mainly because the thought of it disgusts me and I don't get any feels around that stuff..
What do you suggest I do?