Eat a bullet?

or find a way to see a therapist

>>18473432
Did that already, worked various weeks to come to the conclusion that I will have to deal with my family until I die or they die, they will never change and I must be the one that makes "the difference".

I have to "hold on" and be comprehensive, mature and think before talking/acting while they do the opposite. It's possible but it's a pain in the ass, lots of effort and just the mental jerking of "Oh they're wrong but at least you don't behave like them".

I will be (at its best) a middle-class, averge office engineer Joe, with mediocre payment and in result, a pretty boting average life while dealing with my parents since they didn't studied and they have no kind of pension, so I will probably live with them even when my ass is old.

Why bother? If that's the highest possible result I see more reasonable to die now that I hold no responsibilities than later leaving people without a source to eat or live.

I'll go again to therapy anyways, I have nothing to lose (except a few bucks)

>>18473444
Learn web development online during the course of a few weeks. Then look for positions far away/freelance online oppurtunities and when you secure one, run away. Leave everything behind. Only take your laptop and few clothes. Preferably have some money saved up (freelance).
I would say that this is achievable within 1 year easily. Restarting your life at 21 is not late at all, you will be fine, look at all those 30yo neets. You will also have experience with dealing with shit and you sound smart. Good luck!

We are both the fucking same. Overly protective parents, submissive weak mom, alcoholic unstable anger dad who likes to expand your failures in life. I bet your mom likes to reason like stuff that isn't going to happen to happen. I think the only thing different is me and my sister are close. You should literally talk to your sister because she knows the stuff going on in the house given that she isn't as crazy as the other members of your family. Also my grandmother and uncles live in the same house but they are absolutely insane too. We literally can't keep a housekeeper since they all fucking push them to their fucking limits I sometimes want to chain them and let them feel their pain. Anyways, I hope that good shit happen to you anon. Because it is gonna be.

>>18473470
This or in case computer stuff isn't for you, consider going >>/out/ and maybe >>/trv/ and prepare to just fuck off into wild/far away. I heard adventure changes people.

>>18473421
Um there's nothing wrong with your life other than you live with shitty people run away and live at a friend's house leave a note saying you are fine and just need to get away from them so if they report you missing the cops won't take it seriously and explain to your mum that your an adult and she needs to stop being a controlling nutcase

>>18473444
Go be a sales rep at Best Buy. Best way to overcome anxiety is exposure to the trigger. The only way to defeat the monster at your door is to face it and fight through it. Quit being a crybaby. Don't kill yourself just because you're too big of a pouf to tie your fucking shoes without mommy rubbing your back. Time to grow up. Face that demon and fuck his throat with your giant cock of bravery until the fucking suffocates or you're never going to get over it. Go go go go go now quit waiting for life to happen. Go make it happen. And go do something that terrifies you. That's wjat makes life worth living; contrast.

>>18473421
Just leave. If you want to study then apply to a university and live in a dormitory. Get yourself registered to a friends house so you can use that as a mail address so they won't figure it out. Then just leave.
This is the practical advice.
Emotional advice: actually, only you can deal with your own situation. Lot of things here are outside of your control, you can't do much about that. You have to deal with this shit and leave. That's the only way you can improve yourself.