Evil eroding my heart?

>>18471620
Nah dude, everyone has both sides of the coin, there's nothing wrong with going to strip clubs and telling assholes to fuck off (so long as they're arent crazy) thats kinda cool.

Vengeance and hate however can be toxic, dont get me wrong, its a part of you so embrace the thoughts but know that its probably a waste of energy and that you also have kindness, compassion and all that other good shit.

Also dont do anything a degenerate would do like stab someone or something, other than that you're probably good.

>>18471620
Perfectly healthy to exercise your 'bad' side every once in awhile. It gets emotions out of you that's been bottled up. Releasing stress is good. I'm not saying it's good to be angry all the time but to 'misbehave' and acknowledge it is apart of being human. Sounds like you're just processing emotions. Hell even really dark thoughts are normal. Actions are what draws the line. Stay mindful and don't act upon dangerous impulses and you can be as edgy as you want in your head. If you're worried about not using the energy in a healthy way, get a punching bag. Work it out physically. Some of the best role models have the darkest thoughts, mainly because math. The amount of effort you put out swells within you and needs to be realeased in productive ways, or it'll boil over. If it's an uncontrollable emotion you're feeling constantly go to a doctor about it. Tbh though you sound like an average person with normal feels.

I used to live with a poisoned mind like this. hypersensitivity to peoples comments are rooted in poor self esteem. Try addressing any issues with substance abuse or addictive behaviour i.e porn so increase self esteem and wellness