I've buried all of my mental health problems under a mountain

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2017-06-28 06:56:55 Post No. 18465465
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Anonymous 2017-06-28 06:56:55 Post No. 18465465 [Report]

I've buried all of my mental health problems under a mountain of drugs and now I have no idea how to dig my way out. I don't have the willpower to convince myself that I can get through any given day without getting high on something. I'll use almost whatever I can get purely because I have grown to hate being sober. I thought I was gay, but then recently developed strong feelings for a member of the opposite sex for the first time in years. Things were going pretty well, I think they liked me too but then they up and moved kind of far away, leaving me fucking confused and a little heartbroken. For the first time in a while, the thought of them wanting me to change was the only thing I thought would make me want to get clean. But, they're gone now and I'm itching to get higher than before so that I don't have to think about it.
Has anyone experienced this kind of thing? I don't know what comes next?

Anonymous 2017-06-28 07:01:29 Post No.18465480
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Anonymous 2017-06-28 07:01:29 Post No.18465480 [Report]

>>18465465

>i dont have the willpower to convince myself that I can get through any given day without getting high on something.

either get the willpower or get to rehab where you wont need the willpower.

>fall in love with girl
>become better man

a girl only makes you a 'better man' if you're still 'better' when shes no longer there. otherwise she only makes you a fraud.

Anonymous 2017-06-28 07:19:02 Post No.18465532
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Anonymous 2017-06-28 07:19:02 Post No.18465532 [Report]

>>18465480
I consider myself to be a high-functioning drug addict, if you believe that to be a real thing. I think going to rehab would just make things worse for me because at this point no one has any idea that I'm using. Once everyone found out everything would just go to shit.

I'm not dumb enough to think that changing superficially for someone else will really change you as a person. I just thought that if they didn't like me being on the stuff and wanted me to get clean, they would help me through the hard part and after that I would be fine to cope with it on my own regardless of if they stuck around or not.

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