GIOYC -- Get It Off Your Chest

>>18464144
I dislike the fact that this thread keeps taking up a spot in /adv/

I'm shitting piss.

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>>18464148
This and "Ask The Other Sex Anything"

>>18464153
>>18464148
>complaining about containment threads taking up space
They consolidate a lot of wishy washy and dating advice posts you dumb faggots.

>>18464158
Let em know

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>>18464144
I'm in my mid-30s. Never had a girlfriend. Finally told myself it's because of my weight and lost 105 pounds. Learned how to dress better, and went to therapy to try and be less socially anxious. Now I'm better looking but the people I'm interested in still aren't interested in me.

There is a girl online who seems to like me well enough, but I don't think I'll find her attractive when we meet IRL. And it's like... I guess this is what it was all for. All this work and I've only gone from having no one to maybe having someone I don't know if I'm into. I'm still not good enough.

It's all my fault and I get that. But realizing you burned your own life is a hard pill to swallow.

>>18464174
Do you have hair? Is everything else in order as far as being an adult goes?

How many people are you going after?

20, never had a gf, never hold a girls hand.
Porn addiction problems.
Lack of social skills.
I have interest in shota, loli and incest type of porn.

Trying to overcome porn addiction right now.

>>18464174
>Do you have hair? Is everything else in order as far as being an adult goes?

Yes to both.

I'm probably not going after enough people. I went after one, got turned down. Now I'm going after another 2 online. I'm trying to meet people but it's difficult.

>>18464197
>>18464185
Derp hit the wrong number when replying.

Though you live, it's as if you've died, and I'll never get to see you again. Actually... this is worse, because I know you're alive, and that you're actively selecting not to be with me. Now I know... you're just like everyone else. How could you possibly be special to me anymore? You can't.
I was always so afraid that I'd become just another face to you, but I see now that wasn't the scariest bit. The scariest bit is that now you're just another face to me. Either way, it seems I'm alone now once again, proving that I am just as I have always been... alone in this world. Now and forevermore.

Damn you. Damn you all for this pain.

I really want an Asian boyfriend. I hope Azns aren't just normal. Fuck white people, black people, and mixed-race people. I feel myself about to dump the whole human race.

I'm so nervous and paranoid I could puke.

I bought a drawing tablet so that I could have another hobby to distract myself from thinking about you. But as my mind started to wander as my hands started to move I ended up drawing what reminded me of you. Everything I end up doing just reminds me of you. I want to forget. I don't want to think of you anymore. I thought I was over you when I heard you had a new guy and the only feeling I had in my head was apathy. A feeling "Huh. how about that"
But here I am at 2 in the morning thinking of you, hoping that youre thinking of me.

Most people go through this, I know. But that doesnt make me feel any better. Breakups suck.

>>18464620
What did you draw?

Hope all is well miss you

>>18464431
>Fuck white people
You should show some respect to the ones who made it possible for everyone to live a good life.

>>18464431
hello

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You're a whiny, lazy, self-obsessed junkie cunt with an absurdly massive victim complex. Take responsibility for your own shitty choices instead of blaming everyone around you. I hate you for the way you treat our mother. If she didn't love the memory of you as a child too much to kick you out, I would have physically removed you from our home years ago.

I've never seen a more unfilial person in my life. The only reason I keep this shit bottled up is because for the time being I'm forced to share a home with you, which I'd rather not turn into a warzone. You're a fucking dementor from harry potter. One sentence from you sucks all the happiness out of the room. You are literally the only force of negativity in my life.

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FUCKING FUCK FUCK SATAN'S FUCKING BALLS I AM FUCKING PISSED OFF

I DIDN*T FUCKING GET PAST THE FUCKING ENTRANCE EXAMS!
WHAT THE FUCK AM I GONNA FUCKING DO WITH MYSELF THE NEXT FUCKING YEAR?

I*M SO FUCKING SICK OF THIS RETARDED FUCKING SYSTEM I'M GONNA POP A FUCKING VEIN IN MY HEAD!

SOMEONE OUGHT TO BE MURDERED FOR THIS!

I wish I hadn't sent that last message.

I want to take someone's life at least once in my life time. I want to murder them in the worst, most painful way possible, but it'll have to be someone who deserves it.

>>18465078
Details anon?

The thoughts keep pouring on and on. I no longer am sure of what's mine or what isn't, other than me forcing myself to believe the other voices aren't me.
Wouldn't it be nice to go killing the criminals around? You want to get rid of the fear, don't you? The thrill of the hunt and the acceptation of death will make everything easier. You can do it for as long as you like, until you end up killed! Think about it, you can rid yourself of all of those voices, and still have fun while doing it.
Aren't you one of those, though.
We both know you only thought about this as you were writing this. You see me as different. You see each of us as different from one another as we steal the light for ourselves. You're going insane, you know it. We all do.
---I can just take my medicine. I can buy it, at least one box, it should be enough until next payment day.

But you'll be a slave of it forever.
---Everything's so tiring, A. Our head is hurting... Or is it M? What really is your name, and who are we, really? I know it's tiring. I'm tiring, you are. We all are. Our heads hurt. It's the illness, the disorder. But it's part of us now. We can't rid ourselves of it.
Please, leave me. I don't want to kill myself. I just want to silence all of this, to pick up my pieces and remake myself again. Please...
Go masturbate. Don't think about it, just do. Do it again. The rush will help. You can also eat after. There's no shame eating a lot after it, you can just start your diet later. Your nose's wounded and hurting, and so it your mouth. Give yourself some pleasure to forget all of it.
You are speaking weird things to them again. Aren't you afraid of what can become of it? Of what you'll or may become, saying those shameless things? It hurts so much.

Everything hurts. There's no silence. Maybe there never will be. Stop thinking about that, just focus on one thing. You're losing it. Maybe i already have. So many things to think about. I just want some silence.*

Last time we talked you told me I could always write you but to be fair that was 9 months ago.
I want to write you and tell you that I have missed you but I'm to scared for what your answer will be. Fuck.

gosh I fucking hate parties and I don't want to go to your damn college. why can't you let me be a nerd in peace? I know you have good intentions but seriously, I'm not interested in that shit.

*Sigh*' wow.
I never thought I would end up developing a crush on you. Especially a chick like you. It seemed like you you more qualities I disliked than liked at first. Now its the opposite. I feel so indifferent about the whole idea of this.

I imagine you would say the same.

I'm never going to meet the girl of my dreams. The next best path is to enlightenment.

I've buried my mental health issues under a mountain of drugs that I have no idea how to dig my way out of. I thought I was gay, but recently developed strong feelings for a member of the opposite sex for the first time in years. It seemed as though they liked me too, but then they up and moved an hour or so away, leaving me confused as fuck and with a fairly mild case of heartbreak.

It sucks that there's nothing I can do for my disease but wait, and the nature of my disease makes passing time difficult. See, I'm clinically depressed, and I can't enjoy anything, but my insurance doesn't kick in until mid-July. It took forever just to get it renewed, and I know I can wait 'til then since I've been waiting since December, but still. Besides exercising for the momentary pleasure, what can I do? Sit here, rotting away in sloth, listening to the same music and lurking on /v/ all day and masturbating because there's simply no pleasure incentive to do anything else.

I guess that's what bothers me above all. You can really be fucked by forces outside of your control, and all you can do is sit there and take it. Better that I learned it at 18 than later on, but still.

I'm so fucking high strung right now. I'm being paranoid, but it's about a sensitive subject that I don't trust anyone to talk to about, except someone who I haven't had contact with in half a year precisely because I wanted to stop being a negative nancy and stop bothering them with all my shit all the time.

I fuck hate that I can't really unload to anyone about this. I'm just going to have to ride this out, and rationally I'm pretty sure nothing will come of it. But my mind just keeps going on about the unlikely negative scenario. This is exactly like having a fear of flying.

Why isn't she in love with me? I'm the most interesting person she's met in her life

Oh no I'm crashing.

I can't stop thinking about him and waiting for him. It's just fucking me up mentally seeing him with her so often as I'm alone sitting there, waiting.

>>18465705
What's so special about him? He probably sucks and you fail to see it. Everyone fucking sucks.

she's perfect and im not

I'm not mad & angry at you. Please remember that. I have forgiven you, I want you to be happy. You deserve to be happy. It was wrong of me to be so cruel. I know I've said it before but I don't care. I miss you

>>18465812
Just because her ass is more shapely and she looks fit enough to be a belly dancer doesn't mean you're off my list.

Hell, when I'm calling it quits, I will ask you out. Until then, I'm going to keep shit hidden.

I made a mistake and I can't go back, I hate myself even more now and am struggling to live with myself. Because of this I've lost motivation to become better and try and change things, because I can't change the past I can only change the future, and I'll have to live with what I've done and what I haven't done.

A plastic grocery bag blew out of my yard, so one of my neighbors decided to go all the way around the complex and return it to my front stoop. I don't know why this makes me so fucking mad. It's my own trash but it pisses me off that instead of just throwing it away they made it a "thing" by returning it to me. Who fucking cares that much? I hate living by so many elderly people- they either want favors or have some racist/gossipy shit to share with me I'd rather not hear.

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I'm never going to have a body I find attractive and it's really difficult to just come to terms with that fact.

Tfw you want the freedom of being single, but
>don't want to cheat
>don't want an open relationship
>don't want to screw anyone else
>don't want to leave SO because I will be a crying mess if i do

>>18464144
Depressed faggot who is good at school has a couple of frens and has got everything but life enjoyment.

Also has got headache for like 3 years now. Always tired. Never motivated.

"Sometimes quiet is violent"

-Tyler Robert Joseph, Car Radio

I got out of a really shitty 5 and 1/2 year relationship last year and had a pretty tough time getting better after that, but this one girl was always there for me. She's the kind of person who lights up a room with her smile, and people love to be around her. She works really hard at things she's passionate about and she really cares about me. She brought me back up to feeling like myself after so long of feeling worthless and shitty. We got together. I've known her for 8 years and if i was with anyone else i would not be able to trust them.

But starting the beginning of the year she started going through her own depression. She works freelance and she's only worked like 1 month this year compared to having 80 hour weeks last year. Now she's at the point where she's giving up on work and everything in general.

I want to help her and be there for her so much because it hurts to see her like this. And it's hard to get her to open up to me.
But when she does after like an hour i totally break down myself and my own issues come up and i just start blaming myself as if I'm the reason she's depressed and feeling guilty for wanting the her from last year. And then i get like really suicidal and have panic attacks.

And i know that those things just make it worse and i used to be so good at holding that shit inside with my ex but i just cant anymore.

>>18464149

Better than pissing shit, mate.

>>18465447
Maybe she is...

>>18464431

Ten pounds says this poster has a neon hue, most likely purple, in her hair.
It also says she is more than a tenner overweight. In fact, she's the reason a spelling error on my part jut caused me to coin a new term to describe her weight; uberweight.

You're only uberweight if you're fat enough to have a reality show based on how fat you are.

I bet she has crusts in the folds.

This is the kinda bitch that hates white men because the media said so, hates black men because they actually have standards (contrary to what she believed) and is holding out hope that asians want her skank ass.

The ching-chong asians won't, but if you mean "asian" as in "allahu ackbar" kind of "asian", then keep dreaming.
Rapists can be as picky as they want, life is their buffet. Why settle for you when they can rape someone better?

The final battle of good vs evil is currently raging in my mind.

It's devolved into a dark, grimey trench war stalemate.

I'm going to be 100% honest with everyone. I don't I can do this.

>>18465961
I guess courage wouldn't exist without doubt and fear though.

>>18465951
Why did that post trigger you? Just let it all out man

I've been over 6 months trying to get a job and I'm never hired. None a single interview. I feel like a complete useless, pathetic piece of shit. I have even thought about selling my organs because I really need the money, I don't know what to do. I've been thinking that passing away could be the best for me.

It feels pretty bad that I have never and will never feel loved

>>18465981

Because her post wreaked of kraut mentatlity.

They are the wurst.

>>18464144
I'm not self-important enough to write hypothetical letters to people who wouldn't recieve them, or to think my sins are darker than the next person's.

I cant handle being alone anymore man. But every person ive ever had regular contact(be it friends or a girl I was dating) with has screwed with me in one way or another. Maybe I did them wrong without knowing? Or did I just have shitty experiences that snowballed into more shitty experiences that led me into acting like a dick without knowing? I honestly dont know and I cant figure out a way out of this, cause obviously I cant change who I am.

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>>18465951
Yeesh, the weeb was cringy but so are you dude lol.

I really got depressed about how she didnt respond to me for one day after our date
Listened sad songs, thought it was over, even shed a tear
Now she responded and next date is positive
Fucking girls

Gun is in the glove box and I might just end it tonight.

This world is a joke.

I spent so much time and money trying to get your dumbass to like me
flowers, videogames and almost went to go to another state just to see you for a few days
you come back home for a week and you don't even make an attempt to hangout with me. I feel so fucking stupid. I have no one to talk to about this and I hate it. The only step is to move on and forget you because even though you say you care about me
actions speak louder than words
and my aunt was right: these white ppl don't give a fuck about me

i was so stupid for thinking we were best friends. your ex's had sex and left and i tried fixing you..

this is what i get?
i fell for you and this is what i get. pain and suffering. I want to say fuck you and move on but what i'ma do is pretend we're friends. i'll move on and leave you in the dust when you try reaching out again

>>18464144
One day you can't stop talking to me, you want to know how I'm doing, we joke, it's nice, and you even make me understand you do want to see me again. After all these months, after we tried and we failed.

And then you just disappear for days, a week or maybe more. What should I assume from this? What game are you playing?

I am a joke for liking once again a guy who doesn't like me back.

I wish I had the courage to kill myself, I wish when I tried back when I was 15 I succeeded. I'm a detriment to all those who know me. I'll never be happy, I'll always be alone. Why do I bother.

I really wonder what your plan was if I had actually waited. I really wonder why I suddenly felt like telling someone that I didn't love you anymore. And I really wonder why I was so stuck up on you afterwards and broke your mindset as well as mine. Now it's all gone and I'm all alone,just like I want me to be. I can't fuck up any lives this way except mine and that's fine.

>>18464144
Fuck the SATs and standardized testing, fuck college, I just wanna work in a fucking trade, is that so fucking hard to ask for. I can't fucking take school anymore, I just can't.

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Did I ever had a chance adv?

>I just enjoy talking to you and having you around you are such a nice guy

what to do /adv/?

Should I see it thru?
I really like her
we have a lot of similarities/like the same stuff
we talk a lot to each other

I really like her

>>18466227
It seems counter intuitive but if you want to ever get your penis wet follow this advice
Say
>Shut the fuck up, you dont know real me
>Being nice is just a mask so people fuck off and dont bother me
>Come to (place) at (time) and you will see who I am
If she actually comes (not a high probability, lets face it, nice guy means boring orbiter), then go full bad boy on her, imagine you are Lil Wayne or something

>>18464144

Co-worker, I dislike you. I've been to prison and found people more likable than you. I just wish you wouldn't bring your bullshit to work. I want us to be friendly or at least civil.

I'm glad I went volunteering earlier today. I learned a lot, and the people there were nicer than I could have imagined. Now I have something to look forward to.

I wish I would have done this earlier

>>18466250
I have cultivated for a year a bad-boy personality
I've basically gone full 180 on my morals and personality
I started socialising, taking drugs(did research before I did)
managed to get into a really exclusive friend group
attend their house parties
I did a lot of crazy stuff
made a name for myself
I am now well respected
not that I care but I love my friends
and they love me too
so I am pretty good on the bad-boy element

but I could not help but express my soft side to her
before I could even make the move

Now it is becoming a drag
I do not know whether its worth investing time to her
because there really is just two answers, a yes or a no

I'm asking him out tomorrow, fuck I'm nervous. I'm just asking him for drinks. But I'm like. What is he doesn't like me, how is he going to respond! How will I know if he's busy or it's just an excuse!
Okay. I'll stop overthinking. The only important thing is for me not to chicken out. If he says no, I'll just meet someone else, eventually.

>>18466368
Just do it, I believe in you anon. Don't let me down.

>>18465838
What did you gain from being so cruel? What have you been hiding?

How the fuck are some of you people so stupid it's honest to god incredible

Honestly you really cant be mad at me for using dating apps again and stuff. "We're not in a relationship, just playing it by ear and it keeping it casual" was your words verbatim.

3 months deep of hanging out with you and you know how many red fuckin flags I put up with? dude I could make a blanket out of these things. Where do I begin? Telling me about all the kids that I knew mutually you fucked, bragging about being an eskimo sister with another good friend of mine, being on your phone all the time, being a dipshit and letting messages from other guys pop up on your computer when we watch movies, even having the fucking audacity to swipe on tinder right in front of me after getting sore-assed for me doing it like a week into hanging out, and I cannot forget you being a drunk dipshit and hooking up with your ex right in front of me. Too be fair it was a girl but the whole principle of it, ignoring me to talk to some fucking dyke who was a total cunt to me at your party was kinda fucked up but whatever.

This is all shit you'd be sooooo fucking angry that id do but this whole "pussy power" shits got your head fucked up.

>>18466474
and I just realized how much of a dipshit cuck I am for dealing with this fucking girl holy wow.

I should have walked like the 2nd week.

>>18466474
>Telling me about all the kids that I knew mutually you fucked,

You should probably alert the authorities on that one

I want to try a relationship with a girl that lives abroad
She comes to my country every 3-4 months, and she told me she likes me a lot but I declined the relationship because I cant stand not seeing her often
Her ex lives in her current country and she is deciding between him and me, although she cheated on him for me
Did I fuck up by declining the relationship? I really want to be with her but I cant imagine seeing her only a couple of weeks before she has to go back

>>18466486
>cheater
never date a cheater man. Because when she finds a hotter version of you once she gets bored of you like she did her ex, then she'll just cheat on you.
She's proven she has no morals and no regard in the world for anything serious or sacred. You are a toy.

>>18466481
I meant like people/guys lol. I wouldn't put it past her, even hooked up with a friend of mine and his little brother. the girls a freak,

>>18466493
The thing is she broke up with her ex, I made out with her when she was alone and now shes trying a relationship back with her ex
Thats when she cheated, she said she isnt even in relation yet, nothing serious atm
She told me she is confused and doesnt know which one to choose, but she just left back to her country and Im afraid shell return with her ex and act as nithing didnt happen
What annoys me most is if she wouldve dumped her ex if I said yes to the relation

I'm 24, male. Had gfs before, and I know I'm a cool guy. I used to have social shyness before but I got over it thanks to my brother.
Had kisses, hugs, the works. Never had sex even once. 3 years ago, this bitch of an ex-gf of mine wanted to have sex, but turned cold during the whole fucking day. I was denied at the gates, as it were.
Since then, I feel like I'm afraid of having sex. Any time I start kissing with a girl, no matter if I'm legit attracted or not, it feels like my heart's gonna explode. Thanks to the bitch, I also have self-confidence issues on intercourse. I'm not bad physically; decent body, 15 cm dick and all that. And I'm positively sure that I'm not homosexual. It's just that I can't help but get really nervous.
Lies and deceit, everybody thinks I've had sex before. Except me. And I feel like I'm wasting my life away like this, since I have a pretty high libido.
Also, it doesn't help with the fact that my brother is a self-made man with at least 3 F.W.B.'s at all times. I love the fucker, he's like a father and mother to me, but I can't help but wanna bash his face in when he starts talking about women.

Oh god I've spent all of the electric money on wanking! what am I gonna do?

There was a spider in my bed so I nopped out of there and now I'm trying to fall asleep in my living room.

>>18466505
Thats not cheating, if that's true. They were broken up. So don't pretend she "cheated"
But I suspect you put cheated on there because she did indeed cheat, you're just trying to defend her now because you still have feelings.

>>18466528
To be fair, I kissed her again when she had "nothing atm with my ex"
She cheated, thats true, but I know her for a long time and she never has done that, at least that I know
She claimed it was the first time ever but who knows
This shit is driving me mad

Bunch of chickens running around with their heads chopped off

>>18466539
So she lied to you and said she wasn't with her ex, even though she did, and cheated. Is that the story you're giving?

Again, she has loose morals and doesn't care about stability in relationships, she'll hop on the next dude without even waving goodbye to the old one as soon as a better person shows up. You will be replaced too. Once a cheater, always a cheater.

P.S: all cheaters will tell you "oh this is totally the only time I've ever done this, and I'll never do it to you baby"

Fuck. I just don't know anymore. Humanity is fucked. I don't know if there is even any hope for us. Every fucking day I see new shit going down. Fire in London, Acquittal of another murderous pig, another black woman being gunned down by the cops. Then the corporate and Police co-opting of of formerly radical movements (Like Pride) and turning them into fucking feel good bullshit. Shit like Pride should be for the Liberation of Trans, Black, Brown, Indigenous peoples, or any marginalized population. Not fucking to show how the pigs and state are the "friends" of the oppressed. Today they'll act like they support you. But Tomorrow, they'll shoot you in the fucking back. Just like they have done a thousand times before. And then the fucking corporations, They'll sponsor shit like the mainstream Pride marches, only to then invest in pipelines and shit that will fucking fail, and in turn will poison the land, and kill how many? Who the fuck knows. We should never have had to face that prospect, but look where we fucking are.

Capitalism is a symptom. The State is the fucking disease...

>>18466552
Yea thats the story more or less
Fuck this shit, I am furious and sad at the same time
I really want her but youre totally right, usually I have that mindset when its not me involved, but the feelings are troubling me a lot
If I play the waiting game and she breaks up with her ex again anytime soon, should I go for it? I think I shouldnt but it could be that she meditated and chose me?

>>18466572
AND THAT'S THE STORY OF HURRICANE!
THE MAN AUTHORITIES CAME TO BLAME!
FOR SOMETHING THAT HE NEVER DONE!
PUT IN A PRISON CELL BUT ONE TIME HE COULD'A BEEN THE CHAMPION OF THE WORLD!
(harmonica and violin unleashed)

>>18466575
What part of once a cheater always a cheater do you not get mate? You should never go for her, because she'll just use you up like she did her ex, play wishy washy games with you while she's got another dude strung along while she decides which is the safer more useful bet, playing both of you at the same time while she decides.

That's exactly what's happening right now. She has 2 capable guys she doesn't want to give up, because of her weird travel schedule she can't figure out which will be the safest option. One of you is the fall back guy. She's stringing you along to keep you interested in her so she doesn't lose you to some other girl, in case she decides her ex isn't going to be the most successful bet.

She'll do the same thing over and over, just with you now in the ex's shoes, stringing along some other dude, keeping her feet wet in both pools, until she can figure out which one is gonna give her more for her "love".

>>18466572
I can't believe there are no such thing as black/gay/trans cops. It's incredible, how do they get away with putting on the cop application "No minorities allowed"

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I don't tell you about how I'm actually feeling. I keep putting up this facade that I'm okay when I'm not. You became my best friend and I'm so scared to lose you sometimes and I want to be together with you. You're with somebody already and I want to mature to be on your level of kindness. Goddammit. I love you, Melissa.

>>18466509

Use car batteries?

You probably shouldn't be plugging your nipples into the mains anyway though.

Respect? We couldn't jump in there quick enough, do you remember?

Are you 100% and 1,000% for her too now? Is that how it works for you? Tell me this: did you feel anything other than that blood rushing to your tiny penis when you last saw me alone? When I was kissing you so cautiously and gently and you were looking at me as if you had never known me?

Dude I'm so glad we didn't have sex that night. Would've wasted an entire minute of my life giving you pleasure when that's exactly what you wanted -though you said that we were still friends and you thought about me and just wanted to hang out. Fucking liar.
I hate you.
I hate you.
I love you.
I fucking hate you.

I'm glad I managed to catch you online and we could chat a bit.
I wish you would ask more questions. It's hard to know if you're interested or just giving friendly responses.

I just want to watch tv, cuddle and talk about random shit for hours on end with a girl, in the last 2 years all I've managed to get are some awkward dates and one night stands with girls who lose interest quickly.

Speed Demon

J
You are a shitty friend. Get fucked. Hope he breaks your tiny fucking heart. I never want to see either of you again.
You're DISGUSTING. Shove a cactus up your twat ya fucking fat cunt.

>>18466775
Tell us the story lad

>>18466775
Why would you fuck a fat chick

II-V-I is probably the biggest one

Recovering from bulimia. My measurements used to be 40, 38, 40 (US) and now they're 39, 34, 42. Thanks keto and curve enhancement pills.

m

I wonder if you still browse these threads.

A

I accidentally got the mini pill instead of the combined one. My libido is higher already. Fuck I hate the combined pill. This one is less safe but y'know, actually wanting sex might be nice. Of course it doesn't matter because I'm single! But I'm prepared in case my coworker wants to fuck me. I'd like that very much. Hah, yes, my libido is definitely higher, this is how life is supposed to be!

I cannot stop masturbating. Please god help.

>>18466040
Guns are illegal here. I'm jealous.

yep, I was checking you out today for sure. I know that's what you wanted. I had too many eyes on me to be blatant but you completely distracted me from the conversation I was having.

I decided I don't care about the work situation. like at all. thing is you make me not words good. like the other girls I can talk to no problem cause I'm not interested, you are obviously just, more. idk how this is gonna play out.

>>18467074
btw I'm putting this here cause I think you might be here and I don't have your number yet.

Being a good person seems pointless. The better I am the less people like me. It's like nobody takes a good person seriously.

I recently finished a creative job where I had to hire assistants. One of the girls just graduated and had no experience. She didn't want to do any of her duties, and just wanted to socialize and talk shit about me to other people. She doesn't have the technical skill, the equipment, the experience, or the professionalism but my boss seemed to like her more than me just because she was loud and social. I was kind and tried to teach her the trade but she didn't give a fuck.

Another girl in a different department was new to the business. She acted like my best friend to my face but purposely didn't invite me places and made it impossible to socialize with other people. When she asked for help I helped her, but when I asked for help she just ignored me. She humiliated me in front of coworkers a handful of times as well.

It's like as soon as I am nice to someone they lose all respect for me.

I love you illy I really do, i am terrified of losing you i know you feel the same way about me but why the fuck cant i make this work i am absolutely in love with you but every time that I'm alone i think about you and i just break into tears. I never get to talk to you because of your shitty abusive parents. I only get to talk to you for like an hour a month. Im tired of all of the bullshit, This isn't how a relationship is supposed to be. I don't really want to break up with you, I guess I'm waiting for you to break up with me but i know you wont ever do it. Our relationship was great but its all turned to shit. I miss you. I fucking miss you so much Ileana. I miss staying up late at night talking to you. I need genuine connection baby. I miss how things used to be. I want to make a future with you. I just need to fucking talk to you. I love you baby.

You ignored me for Overwatch our entire relationship

>>18467083
Initials?

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You lead me on. We even got to the point where we were snapping eachother on snapchat every second of the day. I started to have feelings for you more and more, but you didn't want them. Just when I thought all hope was lost, you begin to show signs of reciprocating those feelings back to me. We finally seem to be on the same page, yet the next thing I know, you tell me you dating someone now.

You used me. After all of the "I miss you" texts during the summer, you just drop it all for someone who isn't even as good looking as I am. You stabbed me in the back. You're dead to me.

in 26 years I've managed to never get hot sauce in my eyes, or pepper juices, or anything. today I got hot sauce flicked in my eye by my taco in the most unlikely way I can think of. this is my week. it's just wtf after wtf. something good's gotta happen.

>>18467194
are you exclamation point girl? I'm not the dude at your work that you won't see til tomorrow.

I don't know why I'm afraid of rejection.

>>18467228
actually now that I think about it, you're not the girl I'm thinking about and you're the one talking about asking him to drinks huh?

I need to leave this site.

>>18467241
I'm affraid of it because the girls that reject me usually go around and tell their friends that they rejected me. Shit like that happens in condensed areas

S

I love you even though you consider me nothing more than a friend. I want to leave you because lately, you've been ignoring me. You said I should give you some time for you to get your shit together - you are hung over some guy who has friendzoned you. But I feel as though you want to stop talking to me. I know you like me, but I don't know, I don't know anymore. I am conflicted. You are sweet, smart and beautiful - better than Z in all ways.

S

>>18467253
This actually would have described me (>>18467218) perfectly had the girl in my post not randomly found a guy and started dating him after like two weeks.

My advice, completely drop all communication with this girl, before you have your heart go from being drug on the ground constantly, to it being completely smashed. Please, I'm actually begging you, don't make the same mistake as me.

>>18466998
Only reason I haven't already is because it's someone's birthday and I don't want them to be reminded of it every year on their birthday.

man, I'm in one of these moods where I need to either get laid or someone needs to start shit where I'm legally fine with breaking their face. that's the amount of stress I'm carrying right now. been awhile since I've been at my limits.

I wish I had a real mother. What mother tells you you and your friend are fags, here are your panties, you're literally retarded, you cant sing, you cant play piano, your dad was just a sperm doner, (He wasn't a sperm doner) You'll always be bullied because you're a dork and that's why you don't have a girlfriend.

I'm just stuck in a place where it's hard to keep any enthusiasm going despite I know I'm doing what's needed but most improvements are far off into the future. It just feels like I'm stuck in a school-work-sleep cycle.

My immediate goals are
-Graduate college (in junior year)
-Visit great aunt this summer
-improve health
-improve wardrobe
-try to actually put myself out there as far as dating goes

But god is it just tempting to just lay in bed and read all day instead.

so you looked into me, found some super old stuff that I didn't bother scrubbing, and formed your profile from that. this explains a great many things to me about the way you've been thinking and stuff. if we had proper communication I would answer any and all questions like I've been doing and there wouldn't be problems.

You have no idea how much I wish I could help you right now...

K

I'm just a fucking wreak today. I just can't stop being angry at fucking everyone. I've made two big moves in the past couple years and I've finally realized people are the same where ever you go. I either have to deal with loud, overt assholes, or smug, passive agressive assholes. They're all pussies who don't dare act on their words, plenty of negative things to say, but fucking cowards. I just wish someone would fucking hit me. I don't even need to win the fight, I just want to be able to hurt these people even a little bit. I'm so close to really getting it. I've been out my parents house for years, I can get a job easy even if I lose my current one . And I'll graduate college soon so I can make more money than just enough to live. I just have to focus on not beating the fuck out of these petty Portland faggots and I'm golden.

>>18465885
Noted

shit, A, I want my hands and lips all over you. aaahshit does she like me or is she just nice. is this a bad idea? it's probably a bad idea, I seem to have a lot of those lately.

I'm really trying to minimize the amount of imagining you sleeping next to me so I'm not weird next time I see you...

Dear Mike Tyson,
Ever since childhood, I always dreamed of being as tough and strong as you were in your prime.

The fact that you were so huge, yet so nimble, was mindblowing to me back in my days of being interested in boxing. You mastered your craft to a point where you were nearly insurmountable.
It's not even just that, you were apparently some scrappy ghetto kid raised into the art of boxing, and then you hit the jackpot of life from there. This is the major reason why I idolize you, even to this day. Underdog stories are always my favorites, and yours was the reason why I even have willpower ever since was little. You ignited a spark within me that pops up once in a while to help me make it through my tough times.

I just hope some day, during your lifetime, I'll meet you and I dunno, share a beer or watch sports. Something interesting. I don't ever want to pass up a chance of meeting you. If you pass away and I fail to even witness you in the flesh, then that would be my biggest regret in life. Anyway, I hope life is going well for you.

With regards, a fan.

Life comes with tremendous suffering and I've failed to deal with that since adolescence. I finally have the balls to try to carry that weight but I've discovered it's heavier than I could have ever imagined. It's so difficult. But I'm not giving up yet. There's too many people to help and too much good to be done for me to leave now. I just wish there was someone to help me carry that weight.

i hate that i am so socially retarded. I'm blessed with good looks, i have actually been filmed by randoms girls as i was walking down the street but struggle with severe social anxiety and have no idea how to hold a conversation past discussing the weather.
its a shame that looks alone only work when your in high school.
social interaction is just all so foreign to me

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>>18467654
have you tried sending him a pigeon?

23 never had a gf. Finally have a chance of someone I like but because of all my bad experiences I can't fucking get myself to do anything about it. The main reason that I can't deal with it is because of the anxiety I developed around girls. When I was in grade school a lot of girls where interested in me but at the time I just wanted to have fun and play. These girls would not leave me alone for a second. I started to run away and be horrible to the girls. This turned out to fuck me real hard in the ass. I couldn't make friends with girls up untill college I literally shut them down the second they approach me. It doesn't help that I have turned to alcohol to deal with it. I think I might have developed a drinking problem that I can't stop. Been on the alcohol train for like 4-5 months. My studies have never been better but at this point the only reason I'm continuing on is because I want to prove all the people wrong that told me I wouldn't make it.

I'm beginning to realize that my want for a relationship is so dominating that it dwarfs any other accomplishments or goals in my life that are far more important.

I need to change this.

Not sure if this the right place to ask but
I've recently been really sick with a sinus infection for the last week and cut my drinking to 0 because medication. I've Been completely sober for 2 days, and only had 1 beer the previous one. Thing is I seem to be moving into withdrawal symptoms now, nausea/puking and shakes/sweating. I wanted to use this stretch to cool off for a bit but I feel like absolute garbage. When does the withdrawal stop? I'm getting a bit scared dudes. I don't want to seizure

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>>18464144
My girlfriend has extremely low-esteem and its getting to me. I'm the type of guy who flirts and compliments a lot and having her constantly shoot me down on even the smallest things is starting to get to me. Just awhile ago:

>"Hey your clothes are new today! They look good on you"
>"Nah, theyre trash. Have you seen your ex's outfit though? You should check her out"

and it doesnt friggn help that she brings up my ex to deflect things. She constantly compares herself to my past love life and its annoying. How can I get her to realize I left that shitty life behing and that I love her the way she is?

>>18468027
You have to tell her that she is the focus of your life. Tell her and express that fact. You should probably inquire her on why she's comparing herself, too.

>>18467228
>>18467245
Hi, I'm exclamation points girl! I didn't ask for initials, but I'm the one who posted about the drinks haha. Yes, I know I post all the time, but hopefully that stops soon. Orr maybe you'll have me whining about being rejected. We'll see!

> I need to leave this site.
For sure lol

I keep getting rejected from jobs in my field that I am qualified and skilled enough for, objectively more so than many employees working at the companies I've applied to but I lack any job experience so I get turned away and it feels bad and is hurting my self esteem.

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I hate myself.

I had relationships and as soon as everything goes nuts, I tend to vent out to my friends, all the time. I think I really bothered them, and also, I regret that I have ever let my personal life be known by someone else.

I need a girl, there I fucking said it, any sort of talking with a female my age or light touching is all I really need, it would make me so happy and actually begin to better my life like before, But. I'm not doing anything but sit here and whine about it, so please get me a girl I'll be waiting right here.

got blackout drunk at the club and found 3 long notes on my phone about how much i hated the place and wanted to die and don't even remember it

last thing i remember is being on the dancefloor and then being outside getting a taxi, no idea if i spoke to anybody while i was blacked out

some parts look like i was trying to type something out to show somebody and one mentions "telling her" about something, who i'm like 70% sure is just my female friend, but i'm really worried i majorly embarassed myself by trying to hit on a girl and suddenly becoming suicidally depressed

i know i'm probably overthinking but pls help me get over this regret

I fucked a girl and she may have ended up pregnant. I don't know since I didn't talk to her after that. Instead of confronting my problem, I ran away. Cut off all contact with everybody and moved to a new town for uni.

Shortly after I fell into depression due to guilt. I've never been good at opening up to people in real life so I never did. I bottled everything up inside me. I feel like because of what happened I don't deserve to be happy. I've convinced myself that I will die alone and have come to terms with the feeling.

Currently I pretty much live as a shut-in. I don't know how to have meaningful relationships anymore.

The sex is good but i never come. Right after we do it i masturbate at home but still kind of feel empty no matter how many times i try to satisfy myself. My bf asked me once if i ever thought about cheating on him and i said no because i dont want to hurt his feelings. I never really even thought of another guy id like to be with because as cringy as it sounds i always wanted the guy i see in movies and series thats handsome and good and dependable and will love me. I fantasize about THAT kind of guys. Then my bf said he thought about cheating before when we had a huge fight and he already had a girl in mind. It pretty much offended be because i was so depressed and lonely and tried to make up with him at that time and all he could think about was cheating on me. There were so many chances we shouldve just broken up but im afraid of being alone and nobody else wants me desu. Ive only had 2 guys who liked me but wanted to break up with me 1 month after. Im a piece of shit anyways haha and maybe people think im pretty fucked up. Everyday even though everything went well i still feel empty and i dont know what my purpose in life is. I feel like there is something missing and im waiting for the missing piece to come but nothing permanently good ever comes to my life

I'm going to finally tell her about him and his abusive nature in a bit and I'm really nervous to do so out of fear of what lies he'll tell her even when I pull up the screenshots.

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i'm really high up in the fashion industry, dress really nice, nice body, extremely nice house in burbank CA

but nobody knows that i'm a sperg because i spend a lot of time trying to conceal it in the workplace and in relationships

i'm guessing it shows because i'm attractive, nice house, nice car, but all of my relationships with friends and boyfriends fall out quickly

i spend a lot of my free time on 4chan, playing vidya, or taking my shibe to griffith park. i'm 23 and extremely lonely. my family and 20 year old brother live in the midwest so i can't even go see them regularly

feels so bad man

idk where else to post it so ill post it here

singles, i do it tonight
doubs i do it now
trips i do it now and tonight
quads i dont do it today

>>18464174
I'm afraid of this happening but I've taken a different tack. I am almost over the hump of accepting that I'll be alone the rest of my life. It's really hard but already showing some dividends.

>>18468027
>wow you're right she does look fantastic
>i think we should see other people

>>18468358
I can kinda relate. I'm friendless and a total autist too, except I'm also uggo, unemployed, uneducated and live with my folks.

I want to fucking die

I need to tell x first... Telling y first won't be good. I'm probably gonna end up telling y next week since we'll be alone together all day and I'm scared of telling x. But..... I know I won't be able to bring myself to day it. Fucking fuck.

I wish my mind would stop wandering.

>>18468562
Whoops. Do it, not day it.

I can't tell if I regret it or not

>>18468593
what?

>>18468562
Curious. What is the context?

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I feel like I am being spiritualy attacked at the moment
Damn you Satan. You will not WIN.
I'm not going down without a fight

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>>18468666
Just please kill me

>>18464144
I'm a fem faggot and should be put down.

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You guys are laying this shit on thick. Either it's a last ditch effort to get me to "do that", it's going to end soon, or shit is getting really bad.

Or all of the above.

I'm so fucking tired right now. Whatever you drugged me up with last night has kept me up all night and day. I"M SO FUCKING TIRED.

Pic related is my brain right now.

It was all for you.

It always was.

I spend the majority of my days holding in screams.

I'm a ticking time bomb, I really am. Something horrible is going to happen I know it. And when it does people will die.

† † †

holy shit

Holy shit

HOLY SHIT

That video made me cry. They are my people, they care. I am loved.

I'm still broken though. I'm sorry.

>>18468455
Rolling

>>18464148
GIOYC and Opposite Gender threads are containment threads

Otherwise this board wouldn't be /adv/ its be /tfw/

>>18468740
>don't go to school tomorrow

>>18468455
>55
Do what exactly?

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What's your bottom line, is it that tight little ass of yours? It better be.

Will he ever respond?
Pls respond

My coworker is full on autistic and doesn't have his own office. Nor do I. He's on the other side of a wall. He's a "verbal stimmer" so he makes those loud REEE noises all day long.

He's a nice kid. I read a lot about stimming and how it helps him focus but I can't fucking focus when he's making loud high pitched noises all fucking day. I'm too scared to tell my boss about it (I told him I was worried about it before my coworker got moved from the room he was in and he kind of shrugged it off) because I'm scared if I admit that I could be getting more done I might lose my job or have my hours cut.

Sometimes I can wear headphones but not all the time because of how my job works. I'm not allowed to play music without them loud enough to drown out the REEE because my boss complains that he can't focus.

I love my job. I fucking hate this situation, though.

That medicine saved my life.

Now you're saying it's what is killing me.

I don't believe you.

You're killing me, nothing else.

That's all there is to it.

I will fight you to the very end. You cannot control my life. You cannot tell me what to do. I create my own fate the way I want to. Wrong or right, it is my choice. Not yours.

You all know this.

Seven different robots, each with a unique personality.

How's your rectum doing these days?

>>18468867
I wish it was worse.

If there was interest it's killed now I think. I get awkward and stupid when I actually like someone. I could coach anyone here on how to be suave as shit and get the girl.... I just can't do it for myself.

>>18468886
Tfw there wasn't anything there in the first place most likely

>>18468886
Iktf anon

>>18468891
On the bright side apparently I can post from work. It's the only area I've ever been able to post from my phone

WHY DONT YOU LOVE ME ANYMORE

ok honestly I'm still a bit annoyed I can't like... fly or move things with my mind though.

Can you give the world a patch to let me do those things?

That would be just great.

Pay your bills pay your telephone bills, but fuck you call me all the time

>>18468915
every other time you tell me to do something it never works so I'm just not going to try to do anything like that anymore.

You guys are the ones that have to make the move. I'll be here, killing some time. I kill time like no one else.

>>18466193
I feel you. School is a joke

So I was right from the very beginning? Anything that can happen, will happen. The 5th dimension, a point where a species reached the singularity. Capable of infinite intelligence, technology beyond our understanding that can alter time and space itself.

Proof that there is a God.

I love you babe. I have been deeply in love with you for all these years. Not a day goes by without you on my mind. Not a morning without wanting to just crawl back into bed so I can be with you longer. I love you so much.

But damn, I want to fuck your sister. At least once more.

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>>18468358
>tfw just a security guard that works in Burbank
>get to see all the pretty houses, all the pretty people
>have to smile at them like I give a fuck
>go back home to small room in los Angeles where I live with family
>do nothing but play vidya and study math for fun, trying to workout because my knees are shit

I would kill to flip roles, family is nice and all but I would kill to be on my own. Even with them around it's lonely.

You were right, I'm blowing up like a balloon. I've gained twenty five pounds. You probably don't like skinnyfat DYEL manlets either, so I'm fucked.

I wish I knew what you wanted.

>>18469013
Can you go to college for math?

Did you ever read them?

>>18469038
Sadly I provide for family. They rely on the paltry sum I bring in. So I am pretty much waiting for the time when it isn't so. Kinda sucks, I know I am helping in this way, but there's little I can do for myself that won't cost them.

why are you being beaten up?

4Chan!

You need to reach out to me directly. You could always write, it wouldn't bother me. You're probably still angry at me. I'd love to start rebuilding things. I'm going to do my own stuff for a while, reach out when you're comfortable

>>18469060
halp

>>18469013
if you're a security guard in burbank i guess you've probably seen me at some point in your life

i know you provide for your family and college would be hard to pull off, but what about online college? i did a lot of online and community college before i had enough to move to LA from the midwest

if math is something you're passionate about college won't be too difficult at all. LA always needs math teachers. hang in there anon

>>18469095
Initals?

>>18468886

Same

J

I'm sorry, I feel like i'm losing interest.

L

L.V

I thought i was over you, until you popped into my dream last night looking for me and I accepted you. I can't do this, have feelings for you. I'm pissed off and feel powerless. This isnt even the first time this happens with you and my dreams. GET OUT.

L.F

>>18467228
No no just some girl who's got a crush on this dude I work with.
He's married and has a kid- so not sure why I don't just forget about it. Not like I'd ever pursue him.
Doubt he'd be here anyhow.

you see. I love you more than anything. I told you I loved you less than someone. you said the same. After that i sat in silence. I want you to hate me so i can forget about you. I know that you use me ....and I hate that. but I'm in love. my heart hurts whenever you hint of mentioning something serious. only to have it break when you joke about fucking me...I am just that. a fucktoy ...or are you mad at me too? was that time something you wouldn't allow to happen again??? yet I did it again.......we are both fucked up people....but I'm the loser here ...since i fell for you..you say you travel far just for me....but that's just a ploy....cause i notice that its near important days..........My mind is not stupid. but my heart is.....and I just ..can't take this manipulation game.......either I'm out ...or I'll have to force you to quit.

I don't know why I'm bothering to go into science. I can hardly keep up the maintenance of a day to day life, barely squeak by with my school time management, and regularly get distracted/unproductive at work. What makes me think that I'm going to be any better in a real adult big-girl job? It's such an effort to just get by. Maybe I just wasn't meant to live. Can I reroll my character?

Why do you seem unbothered by all of this?

Hi. Can I get a (You)? I'm feeling pretty lonely and worthless.

>>18469410
Hi! I'm in class so I can't talk much. But I read you, anon. What's got you feeling worthless?

>>18469366
Because all I wanted was a family and ice already resolved that if I can't have one my destiny is to dissolve all the power structures that prevent me from having one. Either or, I'm resolved to the end. Everything else is irrelevant at that point.life or death, life death or becoming someone with no place in life, those are the options and ive come to terms with it

>>18469410
I can talk with you if you have discord acc, anon

>>18469415
Oh hey! I appreciate it. I'm mad at myself because it seems to be such an ordeal to convince myself to do all the things that one needs to do to keep your life running smoothly- All those chores and self care that people somehow do every day.

>>18469420
I don't have discord, unfortunately. I appreciate the offer, though.

Never give up.
Never surrender.

You told me you loved everything about me. You told me I could tell you anything. So when I feel down and negative, why are you running away? You're a liar. You don't love me, you love the way my attention makes you feel. I'm an emotional, neurotic wreck. So I guess I should hide that part of myself from you. I guess I need to mask my feelings to keep you around. I will because I love you, but fuck you

>>18469436
I think everyone struggles with that. Don't beat yourself up. Also, of course if you're lonely it's gonna get harder. Humans are social creatures, we're made to need interaction. When I had no friends it was so hard to keep going for me. Hang in there, and look for small steps you can take to improve your life

I commune directly with God. She listens to everyone but it's only me she talks to.

I cast my doubts aside and accept fate. I am The Holy Spirit.

>>18468886
c-coach me senpai

>>18469472
>Also, of course if you're lonely it's gonna get harder. Humans are social creatures, we're made to need interaction.
That's true. I just moved out of my hometown to live with my S/O, and I don't yet have any of my own friends. That'll probably get better once I start my job in two weeks.
>I think everyone struggles with that. Don't beat yourself up.
I don't know if that makes me feel better, to be honest. If the day to day maintenance is this awful for everyone, why would anyone want to keep living?
But I do recognize that that's just my depression talking. I have had times in my life where I have a routine and habits that kept me on top of everything. But my new schedule (or lack there-of) and environment means that I have to start those routines and habits from scratch. I just wish that I could have it figured out right now, rather than having to wait for the ball to start rolling.

Quick, should I do it?

>>18469522
Yeah

>>18469524
Someone will have to battle my 'tism tonight

Cheers anon

>>18469530
Good luck!

>>18468651
I'm in a serious relationship with x but have a crush on y. Even though we aren't really compatible I've had a crush on y for a number of years. I would tell x but x has anger issues. I'm scared about what might happen if I say anything. I don't really have anyone to tell this to outside of y.

But I'm being selfish... I don't want to stop being in a relationship with x. Not after everything that has happened. But I've caught myself thinking "I always ask myself why I'm feeling so down, x isn't that bad" then x gets angry and the cycle repeats. That's no way to live. Y... doesn't get angry like that.

Honestly, I just want to die.

>>18469561
If you've had a crush on Y for a few years, you should really end your relationship with X. Nothing is going to change and X sounds bad for you.

Going through a lot with someone doesn't always mean you have to stay with them. You can leave X, confess to Y, and learn from your experiences with X once the pain has healed. It's better to end it now before things get worse.

>>18469561
Is X an angry person, or are they just going through some hard times? That is something to consider too.

I wish this Lexapro would start working again. Or that the psychiatrist would have actually talked to me instead of just putting me on pills and shooing me out. Or that I could walk back into college without having a panic attack. That'd be pretty cool.

>>18469504
Spelling this out for myself actually helped quite a bit. Thanks for talking to me, Anon. I'm gonna work on some other things now.

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I'm so lonely. I am changing my life because I have to, but I feel so unmotivated. I still really want to drink. I feel like I'm never going to be happy or feel love again. I never actually felt like I needed a hug before.

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I'm moving into my first very own apartment tomorrow with my boyfriend. We already live together, but we live in his parents' basement because we were just trying to get started and save up. Now it's finally happening! Yesterday we got the keys. Today I spent a few hours there setting up the phone/internet, and generally just.. being there. soaking it all up. Our own place. We can just paint walls if we want. Nobody to tell us no. We can get new things, arrange it how we want, walk around naked. I don't have to worry about answering to people if i want to go to the kitchen. Take showers together, have loud sex, not worry about privacy. All our own. We're finally starting our lives. We're going to get a cat, and name it Samurai Jack. Cook meals together in our own kitchen.

I'm just really excited, /adv/. After so long of feeling trapped (for other reasons other than living with his parents) it's finally habbening

Seriously, which "bunny" has the dick? L? B? That other girl said she was a bunn too but I have never talked to her in my life.

You spent the last year badgering me with messages about getting consent before sex and now you want to force me to have sex with a dick girl. You realize this is rape, right? I don't want to do this. I mean, I have seen some pretty attractive girls that ended up having a penis but that doesn't mean I want to have sex with them. I do not find penis attractive at all. I don't find the idea of touching another person's dick fun nor the aftermath of it.

I also super DUPER don't want anyone to fuck me in the ass either. That sounds like the worst fucking thing ever and that's not even counting my disease. It's just going to be awful for me no matter what.

This is coming from someone that was born as both genders as well. I don't find boys attractive, I'm sorry. Please don't force this on me. Why would she even want to do this knowing how I feel about it?

>>18469618
psychiatrists suck at their job.

It's the facts of life.

>>18469473
>She

Mate.

That's the devil.
I'd know. I met her in my dreams. Let me guess, looks like a slightly hotter version of whoever you're crushing on?
Wearing a little more revealing clothes.

Tells you harsh truths you don't want to believe, but in the end you end up going "shit, you were right".

It's cool, you want to feel important, still nice to be chosen by the devil.
If you're lucky, you'll learn a thing or two.

Then again, if you're a jew, she is your god.

Guys... is the reason you turned my fan off because it was pulling mold from the attic into my room?

You really need to tell me more about this shit for my health. Dropping little hints is awfully shitty.

I'm just going to assume that none of this is going to cause me any real damage. But it's still shitty for everyone to completely keep me in the dark when it's my health on the line.

>>18469679
Congratulations anon, I'm happy for you! Best of luck to you two!

>>18467289
If I get into university. I will have moved away from all of my family and friends.

I can finally be free. But I don't think I got the grades to kill myself.

I'm stuck in this shit town forever. Destined to live until cancer and heart problems kill me.

>>18469679
I'm so envious.

>03:03
It was freaky. But thank you

I'm quite lonely even though I have a large group of friends. Stereotypical "jock" play football, attend parties, shit like that. Just got out of a relationship and I'm ready to move on. There's this insanely cute and smart girl that I'm super interested in; however, one of my friends likes her and he has been on a couple dates with her. He is moving away in about a month and I know I could get the girl if I went after her. Should I wait till he moves or say fuck it and make my move while she's still single?

>>18469809
It's been a long road anon. I've been in a place where I never thought this would happen, so if you feel like that, know that there's light at The end of the tunnel. I believe in you!

Fuck I failed. I feel like destiny sometimes wants certain things to happen and others not to. This time, it wasn't like I wanted. Damn it. Now to wait a month and a half for another chance.

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What is your problem? I've been your only friend for the literal full entirety of your life and did you recently just decide that I'm not worth talking to?

Stop pretending to be aloof, I know that you aren't busy. I think it's pretty fucked up how I've known you for so many years and you completely disregard and ignore my messages now because it seems you're too busy altright posting about how bad all women are, how degenerate everyone else is and how aryan you are.


You know what faggot? You're fat, hardly ever went to school a day in your life and abandoned your toddler sibling with a heroin addict because you're too lazy to take initiative.


Your newfound hatred for women is because you've never been laid for reasons all your own and reasons you could have fixed. You blame women because you need a reason to justify your inadequacies. You pretend to know all there is about female behavior yet I know for a fact you've had little to no interaction with any your age and you're a kissless virgin.

You hate everyone who isn't white yet you contribute nothing to society and are ungrateful for some of the nonwhite people we know who have reached out and helped you immensely with various things.

I loved you like a brother and considered you my best friend so I overlooked all of these things. These days it seems that you've lost touch with reality and are willing to disown the very, very, few people and the only person who is willing to make the effort to hang with you because of your pol meme-tier ideology.

Fuck you. I'm really disappointed in you. Enjoy your loneliness.

Was that suppose to happen? That was the first time people were able to directly communicate with me.

It was the best feeling in the world.

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE
WERE GONNA PARTY LIKE IT'S NINTEENNINETYNINNNNEEEEEE

>>18469679
I'm really happy for you. That's awesome. I hope this can happen to me one day. Enjoy it and don't take it for-granted.

also holy shit are you people fucking dense.

I do not take heroin. Heroin is 30x stronger than what I have taken. Seriously, how the fuck is this so hard for you people to grasp? Why do you constantly try to blame all my problems on medication?

You fucking know exactly what is wrong with me. It's the constant abuse, psychological torture, and rape of my rights as a human being that has me so fucked up.

I live life the way I want to. Set me the fuck free and let's get this party started.

my gf doesn't give a fuck to me and i don't know why i insist in this relationship

>>18466368
A girl I've been talking to asked me out for drinks today. We havent seen each other for months and I'm afraid of messing things up.
I need to stop overthinking. If she doesn't see me as more than a friend, I'm okay with it. I'll try meet someone else eventually.
(Even though she's the only girl left that will talk to me right now...)

>>18464174
i'm really younger than you (23), but i was shit socially until my 20. i started picking up girls on apps and internet and used it to get better socially, maybe you should put this "looking for a gf" aside and try to train

this is what i would tell some friend my age, but i guess being mid-30 would really make me afraid of being alone forever

there is nothing wrong on training to get better socially as long as you don't hurt anyone

good luck anon

>>18464191
would sugest what i said on >>18469973
also, try therapy. porn addiction is a real thing and is fucking destructive, it's hard. i was a game addicted and needed therapy to overcome

>>18465024
are you, by chance, brazilian?

>>18469679

Congratz anonette! I envy you both. =]

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>>18469935

I'm proud of you anon.

I had ONE FUCKING JOB and it was not cheating. How did I fuck that up. And I don't even regret it because there was just so much attraction between me and that girl. We did nothing but kiss and hold hands and some light touching but fuck, it shouldn't have been hard to stop myself. I hope the truth will never come out but the girl is terrible with secrets.

Wait... did I have sex with Cassie?

There are a few moments in my life that feel like memories but I don't know if they were real or from a dream (I have incredibly lucid dreams).

There is also the fact you people constantly drug me against my will. I know a few times I have completely blacked out while at a party. I'm being told I was drugged then but I don't know...

Seriously, you people need to start talking to me NOW. This is not ok. Why are you doing this to me? Why can't you be open and honest with me?

I saw a post on here that went something like "You need to remember. If you can't remember, you will be made to remember." and I have a feeling that it was about me.

I have a feeling that there is a lot of repressed shit that you guys are hiding from me.

Do you think you're protecting me? Do you know how stressful this is for me?

That feel when the cute man you could have had sex with but hesitated because he was fat dies. ):

>>18470046
You sound paranoid dog.

>>18470036
If you don't even regret it then you are a cheater all the way and deserve what you get.

>>18470075
I lost my virginity by being raped.
So no, I'm not "paranoid".

>>18470095
If you're reading posts in this thread and you think they're about you, that's a sign of paranoia.

Do you really think that was the end of me? You and the other two should stop feeling secure and free. Nothing but communication has changed. I still follow you and watch you, I know where you sleep and who you talk to. Like I said nothing has changed. Soon you'll get the best of me.

This is the note I would leave inside their room.

>>18470100
to be fair there's conversations happening here that would look fucking insane to you but to the people having them are entirely mundane.

also, SUCK A DICK CAPTCHA

>>18468308
You sound exactly like my ex. When I was considering dumping her for another one (not considering for cheating) it was because she was to useless on her own. It annoyed me how much she cried and depended on me. It annoyed me how every day I tried hard to make you happy even though you would still cry. In my 3 years of dating her I rejected two beautiful women who where a better natch for me and she still feared me cheating on her. So in the end of the day I just dumped her for derpina. Have you done anything for him to consider cheating? Or was he just an asshole?

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON?!

>>18470100
That makes absolutely no sense. What the fuck are you talking about?

>>18469692
Abort mission. Sounds manipulative and crazy. That's some psychological bull shit. I'm not referring to the act but to her wanting you to do something you clearly aren't down for or comfortable with. Boundaries are boundaries.

Just chuck it in the fuck it bucket and move on.

also yes, I got tricked into this job pretty much. I've gotta make it work for now, it's possible I could work it into something decent but basically it needs to work in the short term until I find something better.

mmmm, you're gonna put me in the backup bf zone aren't you? I don't orbit

you're cute, I want to talk to you more when you come back. also I am in the same situation you found yourself in and I need to gtfo of it. also you dropped that "I'm single" line for a reason. I should have gone for it but I had some hesitation being at work. then they pissed you off now I'll probably never see you again.

I wish I knew whether you hated me or not. That would make things a lot easier.

I have compartmentalized things a little too much.

Of course, I am responding to this realization by compartmentalizing it.

Ever sinse we broke up i did not mourn. A part of me even felt relieved, because i was so tired.

But ever sinse you're gone i've been less and less motivated to pick up my life and do something. It's comforting feeling needed. Feeling supported. We were in this shithole of a world. But at least we were in it together and somehow that made it look like less of a shithole.

I hope i'm strong enough to climb out of that hole.

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I just want a simple, easygoing girlfriend.

Someone who's agreeable but not a robot. The kind of person who knows what she likes, has boundaries but doesn't mind the mundane or the obscene. Not quite an enabler, but certainly an explorer. The kind who could still us a pick-me-up every now and then. Has principles and goals, but doesn't mind bumming out every once in a while as long as that isn't the dream for either of us.

I think I do meet people like that but they're either married, taken or eleventy billion miles away. Sex isn't the most important thing, I just like having a companion who puts the option on the table that I can just talk with about off-the-wall shit.

YZN7CZF8T3U

free 48 hour cr pass

I think that I need to distance myself from that. I don't know what that story was but it was too weird.

you're going to end up being like this girl T I knew a long time ago. and that explains the bf too. thing is you're just more subtle.

I got your number. I see this shit. we're going a completely different direction. I don't have time for all that.

I hate falling in love

Too much heartbreak throughout the years, always in the losing end no matter how much i try to better myself.

I just.....can't take it anymore, i hate being strong with my emotions all the time, and im sick of losing control and crying like a baby.

>>18470095
So did I but I don't think people I know IRL are trying to talk to me through 4chan.

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>>18470300
Are you tokking to me?

>>18470300
What makes you think that there are some people on 4chan assuming that people irl are talking to us?

I fucking want to kill myself because I'm a 22 year old autistic fucking virgin that can't just talk to a girl like a normal person. I'm fucking pathetic desu. My friends constantly make fun of me for it and I'm the only one out of all of my friends that's a virgin.
But it's simple right? Just walk upto a girl, talk to her and see if she likes you right? Nope! I'm not allowed to talk to girls because of feminism.
Feminism taught women that any man that approaches them is just trying to fuck them. And the worst part is THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I AM TRYING TO DO.
DO YOU SEE MY PROBLEM ANON!? DO YOU SEE WHY I WILL NEVER BE HAPPY!?
I'M A LARGE, FAT, UGLY NIGGER THAT WILL NEVER FIND LOVE IN THIS CRUEL WORLD.
ALL I HAVE IS MY THOUGHTS AND EVEN THOSE AREN'T FRIENDLY.
i want to die.

>>18470339
You're 22.
You have 6 years before the clock starts ticking.

your friends (I'm assuming that's who it is cause I caused a bit of a kerfluffle) are shit at bait.

Love, you're my 11:11 wish every single time. What I'd give for you to belong to me. I think about that morning last week where I sat on your couch trying to wake myself up before I got to work, thinking about how much my breasts ached from the teeth marks and bruises you left behind the night before. You sat at your kitchen table mulling over a crossword puzzle. And I was so tempted to cross the room to kiss the corners of your mouth so I could taste the remnants of your morning black coffee on your lips. But I didn't.

Are hopeless romantics like me just doomed to die? What would you think of the thousands of colorful words I wrote out to you in places like these? Oh, but I keep them to myself because I know they wouldn't sway you enough to turn your life upside down for me.

You are the most beautiful person I've ever spent time with. I love you. I fear the day I lose you, because I can't see myself ever recovering....

too much of a coward to post my feelings on an anonymous burmese basketweaving forum.

In a significant bit of debt.. but trying to pay it off. And am ignoring my credit card. 24% APR my ass. Once paid off fully I will switch cards to one for 14% or less.

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I need to accept that no matter how much I cry, how much I suffer, how many pills I take, or how good I am at anything I will never be fixed. I will always be fucked up and broken on the inside and nothing in the world will fix that.

What I wouldn't give to be numb again. Numb and functional. It never lasts long enough.

boring.

also captcha can really go suck a dick.

Ivan where ever you are imma ride that dick till youre unconscious.

I'm such a fuck up. I'm in love with my fwb. He's into sleeping around, I'm very monogamous. I broke down from anxiety cause he wasn't responding to me for a while tonight, sent him tons and tons of texts. I think he really feels bad about what he does, I think he ended up driving home drunk since he felt bad. I really feel like a terrible person, but I just really feel for him, and I really don't understand sleeping around. I don't know what to do. It's a bad situation, and I only have myself to blame... I think I'm a terrible person. I don't think anyone's like me, I've never met anyone who wasn't just into hooking up. I really don't know what to do

Everybody leaves me eventually because I either care too much or not enough. I don't think I'll ever be happy with someone. I don't know if that actually ever happens, where two people feel they both need and want only each other... I've never seen it, but I have hope, but maybe it's just a hope that will kill me.

I honestly keep thinking about castrating myself, I feel so alienated from everyone else on a romantic/sexual level

Cheated on gf of 6 years with a mutual trap friend.
I only saw pictures and webcam, but I did it for a month.
Got caught, hate myself.
I just want her to be happy and hope she can forgive me some day.
I still love her and I really don't know why I did it.
She moved out a month ago.
I miss her every day, but I can't blame her.
I feel like a monster.
I'm trying to be a better person for myself and for her.
I truly hope that I can earn her love again.
I'm afraid I will never.
Didn't think I would ever do something like this.
Guess I don't know myself at all.

>>18470169
Stop replying to that guy

>>18465242
I was rlly young when I gave up on ever finding anyone (and it wasn't like it made me depressed. It was like a "I'm getting out of my depression and making myself better for me" kind of thing.) but literally a few months after, I found the love of my life. Get healthy, love yourself, pursue the things you wish you would pursue. Get off this damn website for a couple weeks, and delete your social media. Take care of yourself and realize that a pussy is not everything. That's basically the only way you'll find somebody who lives up to your expectations kek. Give it up, for your personal well-being.

>>18465881
Are you trans or some shit? Just work out you fucking pussy. It's good for you in more ways than "mah self-esteem," too.

>>18465996
You're fucking looking for it, man. All I can picture when I see people grasping at straws like this is a douchbag with a meninist shirt behind the screen.

>>18466028
Was this supposed to be a joke?

>>18466250
You're trying too hard. I know it's funny but nobody is going to take this advice

>>18466368
It's alright, even if he's not the one. Stop dreaming, and it wont hurt. It will be easy after that. If he says no, there's nothing to it. Now you know.

>>18466478
...Yep.

>>18464158
This.

If it wasn't for douchebags, there would be douche everywhere.

>>18464144
I have this friend, that happens to be my boyfriend's best friend. We're fairly close. I see him as sort of a younger brother. He's older than me, smarter than me, but is naive in his own way. It just so happens I was attracted to him before my boyfriend. This is a guy I have dreams about, but it means fucking nothing. Because not only do I see we would be incompatible as a couple, I love my boyfriend too much, and we have different types of sexual lives. When I see his face I still mostly see an innocent little boy... I just don't get it though, because I also want to stick my face in his neck and lick his ear lobes. And then when I picture him taking his clothes off, I don't like it. It's like a violation. Even in the dreams it's never with genitals involved or without clothes, yet it's like I'm lusting over him. What the hell is this? Cuddle lust? It's obviously a little more than cuddling because the thought of making out with him makes my toes curl, and my cheeks blush.

I don't want to meet my """""stepfather's""""" son. I met one of his kids a few years ago and I built a kind of alright relationship with him but then his dad did some real bullshit to hurt my mom (and my entire immediate family, really) now I don't like the dude but I tolerate him because he makes my mom happy.

anyway his son is staying over here for the summer so he can work which was already kind of annoying, now he's trying to bring one of his other kids over here to spend some time. we don't have the space for all these motherfuckers and I really don't want to associate with any of his other kids. I'm working on moving out now but that won't be until spring next year at the earliest. am I wrong for being stingy about this?

>>18467504
My mom isn't mean to me (she's submissive to everyone. i mean even hobos. we've had meth addicts in our house) but she's mentally fucked and was always too doped up on her anti-depression medication to actually be a parent to me. She is better than she used to be, but she will never actually be a parental figure to me. I just love her, take care of her, and take money from her.

>>18468259
just ask somebody for details. even if you aren't close, info is info

>>18468274
...You will always be affected by this is you don't confront it. You wont notice it someday but it will always affect you.

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I have fake profiles on online dating sites like OKCupid with the pic of a male model solely to hurl abuse at and harass random women with demeaning comments. I find it cathartic.

This wouldn't happen if I didn't build up a disgusting vibe of being used, thanks to Tinder. For every good pussy I manage to bag, I have to wade through 30+ people who have a "dance for me, this is a job interview, maybe I will bless you with a sight of my nipple if you're entertaining enough" vibe to me.

The fact they don't reply. Or they unmatch you for not putting the right sort of effort they like into your messages while they don't bother learning how to converse or relate to people themselves. Less than 5% of the women are as interesting as 95% of the guys I meet even on the street. It has made me start to resent the opposite sex and I need to stop this because it's wrong.

>>18470639
Are you sure you aren't just paying attention to the women you're attracted to? I doubt you consider the ugly girls as "counting." Considering you're at least basically straight I'm sure you don't do that with the men you meet.

Also, how can you think it's wrong if you actually believe 95% of guys are interesting while with women it's only 5%?

>>18470651
I do consider everyone I meet. Just because they're ugly or I'm not attracted to them, doesn't mean I can't be friends with them. The uglier they get, the more likely they are to have something interesting going about them like a hobby or nerdy interest but for the major part all I can deduce is that "they all like reading", that's the biggest factor. I'm actually also bi, just leaning towards straight so while I don't factor most men romantically I can admit when they are "dateable" due to their personality.

I think it's wrong because if I continue down this path I will just be some creep who hates women and thinks them inferior. It's objectively wrong to mistreat someone else on such a basis, yet I can't seem to stop myself from letting my dislike of these women not spill over to my general view of all women. It's like a overflowing vat.

I can't help but feel like I'm being persecuted for existing. I go on dates, but the relationships always end there. Am I not good enough for a sustained relationship? The women I meet always say I'm too depressing, that I bum them out, but I can't understand why. I do everything I can to be the best role model I can be, yet for whatever reason, I'm still the bottom rung of the ladder. What's wrong with me? How do I be someone worth knowing?

>>18470623
Where do I even begin? I've been holding on to this for 3 years now, I know for a fact she did not have a kid. But that doesn't make me feel any less guilty.

You're not very nice to me

>>18470676
I'm sorry.

>>18470676
You know how sometimes you have a broken item you try to fix over and over but it's always temporary and the repairs seem to lose effectiveness over time until it looks awful? That also applies to people.

Nobody is obligated to be nice to anyone. be better. If that fails, find others who treat you better for being better.

>>18470658
Are you in CS or something? Otherwise I don't know why it matters what their interests are. I'd say it's mostly mentality and personality that makes a person interesting to be around.

I seem to feel that way about everyone I meet, who is around my age. It's just fucking college kids. I was wrong for initially judging you. It's all personal experience. You know it's not right, and I don't know what else to say to that.

By the way, you're speaking to a female. I hate to say it because 4chan culture condemns it, but I feel it's relevant and possibly healthy for your current mindstate right now.

>>18470676
Neither did you.

>>18470699
What's CS? I tend to agree with the personality bit. I find personal drive and a certain passion to be a lot more attractive and interesting than just having a million hobbies but I can respect both as I myself juggle both. Obviously I find it relatable.

Thank you, it does help. I do have some female friends who are ridiculously hard-working, interesting and down to earth but again, I think I need to stop trying to find a date via Tinder. Despite my few fantastic moments, it has been an overwhelmingly bad experience.

My arrogance has markedly increased as well. I'm in the film industry, yet I'm deemed not interesting enough to talk to by fucking wageslaves in restaurants. I notice it in the way I think and type sometimes, like this, I choose not to edit so you can see it.

I must not let it get any worse. Just a shame I have no other means to meet single women, so I'm afraid the price to pay is loneliness. Perhaps it's for the best as I don't want to hurt anybody.

thou I wanted to gf went and got a bf
I have justified suspicion to believe thy lady's bf is arriving to attend thy lady at moon break.
Feeleth bad shieldbrother.

>>18468608
It was just a kiss, but it was nothing like my mongolian cartoons. Am I really asexual after all

nobody care about your problems bitch I want a 4gb graphics card

I send the girl I like a message with a joke, and hope she will respond. I get socially awkward and nervous whenever I like people, and usually crawl back in my safe space instead of persuing it. Even if she doesn't message me back, it is at least a step forward in my personal development.

Online dating has left me in despair.

>>18470743
you wanted a gf but got a bf? lmao nice story

>>18471122
It sucks

I'll be there in 3 weeks? You should stop fucking pushing especially when I make more than you and your mom combined

I'm not going to be here any longer. This job sucks ass and it's only going to get worse if this is the path we're going.

I couldn't care less if my ass is gonna get kicked awake and I'm working half to death. All I care about is the benefits working at the military when compared to working in a fucking restaurant setting. It was great working here a few months ago. Now? We're under threat of hours being cut. Eventually, this will escalate to people getting cut off. I'm still technically a newbie here, so the reality is that I'm on the chopping block first.

Fuck that shit. If I'm this expendable, then there's no reason for me to stay. I'm sorry guys, but I just won't stand for this.

I feel confused about my ex
On one hand she really broke my heart in so many ways
But the fact that she has a rebound right now confuses me
I'd hate to see her sleep with another guy and I really hope she doesn't

It's been a while since the breakup
2 months to be exact

I just can't stand to see her with this guy and I wish I could do something about it

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