DMs gone wrong

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Hi guys,

Let me preface this post by saying that my household life is absolute shit right now. I don't want to get in to too much detail about why, but it ties in with what I need help with.

Today I came into work feeling like shit because of the aforementioned. My buddy also works there and we, as well as the rest of our department, uses a messaging application to communicate important information or talk to each other via direct messages. Today, since I was feeling like shit, I went off on a tangent about another employee in a direct message to my friend, despite the fact he really hadn't done anything wrong. To make a long story short, the employee I was complaining about happened to see these messages and notified a superior in the company.

The higher-up he had spoken to had then talked to me privately about the fact that the employee had seen my messages. He wasn't necessarily mad or anything but he told me simply to "be more careful next time". By the time we had finished talking, the employee had already left as his shift was over.

Now I'm in a position where I feel extremely bad about what I've done. I am in a position where I can not justify my decision to talk poorly about this employee and I feel extremely bad that he had to witness the vulgarity of my messages. I feel absolutely awful and despite the fact I apologized numerous times over text message to this employee and also to the superior mentioned earlier, I still can't help but to feel absolutely fucking terrible about the situation. Other managers have told me that it really isn't a big deal, it won't be held against me and that I made the right decision by apologizing, but I cannot suppress the guilt and hatred I have towards myself.

How do I overcome this feeling of guilt and hatred towards myself?