Years of depression/anxiety

I don't know what to tell you, other than that it doesn't any get better with time.

I'm 24, and because of stupidity I got kicked out of Freshman year of high school. My mom enrolled me in a home school style charter school--the type where you just show up once-twice a week to turn in packets and leave--and this isolation began at 15.

I'm a community college drop out NEET with no one in my speed dial/phone directory, no hobbies (can't even enjoy Vidya) anymore, and I leave the house once a week just to buy my groceries/toiletries and 'people watch' at Wal-Mart, just to make sure that people actually do exist.

This loathsome post is not one that you wished to hear. But let me tell you, it can get worse. Don't end up like me.

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>>18455522
Well bud i have steady income, my own car and motorcycle. Some people might consider me "on my way to success" but in all honesty im fucking miserable. I hate my job, all i fucking do is work. I work 6 or 7 days per week, 10 hours per day. When im not at work all i wanna do is get drunk or high so i can forget about how shitty my life is. I have friends but i feel very distant from most of them and feel like im only becoming more and more distant from them. I used to love playing music and riding my motorcycle but now it fewls as if something i used to love is nothing but a chore if i end up doing it. I hate my life and wish i had the balls to commit suicide. I feel empty, there is no purpose or reason to my life. I simply exist. I feel lost with no direction.

I know this isnt going to make u feel any better, but i hope you know that there are people who have similar feelings

>>18455522
eat to fill the void

>>18455522
I guess playing games can help you meet a lot of people. No clans/guilds/whatevers to mess around? The first thing would be to make you feel less shit; an okay social environment could do that. As long as you're at home you're pretty safe anyways. You could always think about how you're yet to be as fucked up as someone who hurts animals or other people, that point of view can be easily overlooked, but its true.