I need to stop doing this, but I just can't stop smiling/laughing, when I have a conversation with people and when I look into their eyes. I can't hold it somehow even if it's a serious conversation. I need to hold eyecontact in this job if I want it. But it's impossible for me. It's like that since I was a kid. When the teacher said "Look at my eyes, when I talk with you", but when I did that, I couldn't hold my laugh, thus she punished me even more.
No one takes me serious because of this. I hate this and I want it gone.
What is wrong with me?
You're reacting entirely naturally, just more strongly than people usually do. It's normal to smile/laugh when you look someone in the eyes, babies do it all the time, children play games where they look each other in the eyes and see who has to laugh or grin first. Your reflex just seems to be stronger than it is for most other people.
>>18449674
I see but I can't hold eyecontact with people and I can't control it
Maybe try containing it to just a smile?
I'm just like you. It's awesome, laughing is the best.
What can I do to cure this
>>18449774
You could practise, I'm pretty sure the first step is to NOT think that you mustn't laugh, because if you think that you invariably will.
You could also try looking near the eyes but not directly in them, like the forehead, ears, nose, mouth, eyebrows. Maybe that would help.
What job do you have anyway? Maybe you could talk to your boss and see if there's an alternative for you?
>>18449807
I work in an insurance company....
>>18449812
I can see how it's a problem then if a client tells you their house burned down or someone died, and you have to give them a big happy smile because you looked them in the eyes.
Is there any chance of you getting a different task in the company?
>>18449849
Not really, I got it since 4 months...
I don't know what this disorder is called so it's hard to find any help for it.
>>18449858
I don't think it even is a disorder. It's just how you are.
>>18449948
Really? Wouldnt you find it weird?
>>18449992
Not really, I'd say it's just a character trait.