It's a long and complicated story, but to condense it: He was dating a girl for nearly a year who didn't want to commit. He started seeing me. I had a crush on him for nearly a year, and in the month I've dated him, I feel like I'm in love. His happiness is my ultimatum. I want to commit. The girl he dated before me has just declared she wants to commit to him now. He's choosing between us tonight. My heart is frayed. I want him to be happy, and not to be with either of us out of feeling of obligation or guilt, but out of who he can see a future with the most. He doesn't want to hurt her, he doesn't want to hurt me. He's deciding tonight who to hurt anyhow when he sees her in person.
I haven't shown him how I hurt, because I don't want to manipulate him. But I need to vent something. I'm falling apart...
The post field was too long, but yeah, what I had meant to preface with in the title was that he's deciding who to be with, tonight.
She's unstable and mildly bipolar, but he's felt for her longer. He used to say he saw a future with me, and that he's never felt this way with someone before, but he seemed to shy away from such commitment after she told him that. He confirmed that I'm back in the race for him again, like I had feared.
I think regardless of my efforts, he will, like he's done before, put love before logic. But who am I to dictate what he does with his life? I just want him to be happy.
I'm quite certain I'm going to be the one who loses. He's done nothing to reassure me. I'm so hurt...
when will you know how he will decide?
i would keep you both
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I'll know tonight. I have no idea how he's deciding. Gut feeling I guess. I'm crushed.