Fucked up thoughts and self doubts

>>18419879
Also one more thing - I'm severely addicted to porn, despite how I'm making really good love to my partner and always keeping her satisfied from a sexual and romantic point of view. It's the rest of my life she and I both find troubling outside of that.

I feel solving my pornography addiction might also help out a lot.

>>18419879
>that filename
Lies and deceit, all of it! They are clearly clothed. Dismissed!

>>18419891
Lol, I just remembered the photoshoot my dude, you can have more of the real thing here: http://tettie.livejournal.com/638514.html

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>>18419879

Sounds like you desire instrumentality with your company and your love life.

>>18419902

Whoa. Deep.

Give her a job at my business? I shudder at the thought of what she'd wanna change through me...

>>18419879
I don't quite understand your problem.

We all play several roles in life - worker, friend, lover, family member, etc. When you are wearing your "Boss" hat, 100% of your loyalty must be to the business, and if an employee is not serving the needs of the business, it is not only your right but your moral (and fiscal) obligation to fire him. (When you're wearing your "Friend" hat you can regret having to do this, but the "Boss" hat takes priority)

If anything, that clear thinking and dedication to the business should impress your girlfriend.

>>18419898
>actually posts link
You're alright. I guess I'll give my two cents then. How long have you been with your gf? I feel like she shouldn't abandon you if you've been together for a long time. I'd just be truthful about how things are going. I mean, if your business isn't doing so hot, she'll find out eventually, and then you have to deal with the baggage of withholding info from her.

>>18419908
>When you are wearing your "Boss" hat, 100% of your loyalty must be to the business, and if an employee is not serving the needs of the business, it is not only your right but your moral (and fiscal) obligation to fire him. (When you're wearing your "Friend" hat you can regret having to do this, but the "Boss" hat takes priority).

At the business, I do in fact wear that hat. I've done it several times firing previous employees. I'm doing my best to learn from each firing I had to conduct, to avoid having to do it again (it takes longer and longer now for another employee to fuck up, but I still have to fire one yet again, which hit me hard today).

As for my gf, it's a bit more complicated - when I was younger, I wondered why dad would never share news of his work with my mom. Now I see why, but it's too late. Now my gf feels doubts about how I run things, constantly worried about how little money I've made so far (we've been operating at a loss for a year since we started now). I understand her desire to know how I'm doing affects her expectations for the future, and we're all entitled to be selfish about our careers, but it's driven me not to tell her much anymore. I've said enough already and all she has are doubts and worries despite my reassurances.

>>18419916
>if your business isn't doing so hot, she'll find out eventually, and then you have to deal with the baggage of withholding info from her.

It's quite the opposite. I've told her too much. I feel pressured to just keep nodding and brushing off everything she's worried about.

We've been together for a year and a half now. I've made it clear to her I don't keep exes as friends or keep friendships for the sake of returning together one day, because I've learned to love myself too much to wait around for anyone who doesn't see my potential and worth yet. But she feels unhappy, despite saying she loves me and wants me in her life. I just refuse to roll over that easily.

>>18419916
Also, have a bonus gallery and vid:

http://www.tribute-to.com/playboy/elizabeth-ali-in-naked-car-wash/
https://www.xvideos.com/video16250835/naked_car_wash_elizabeth_marxs

I need to stop finding so much to fap to, it's killing me.

>>18419923
Hmm, so you regret telling your gf about how work has been going and now your afraid she'll leave because she's uncertain you will be able to provide for her in the future? Never been a business owner myself, so I can't say I know much about this situation. I'm guessing that you can't just "quit" the business suddenly, since you're the boss and all.
>>18419934
You are a saint.

>>18419946
Correct. Think of it as a Catch 22.

I'm assuming you have your fapping habits under control? Because I certainly don't. I still have this conspiracy in my head my overcharged sex drive and incessant masturbation is affecting my will to work and succeed more.

>>18419957
Eh, been cutting back on the fapping recently. Wouldn't say I'm "under control" but I just don't got the time. I don't know if your fapping habits is sapping your will to work. Nofap seems like a meme, but I guess try it if you want. Supposedly raises testosterone so you feel motivated.

>>18419987

Yes, considering I go to the bathroom at work a lot to fap. It just keeps getting worse - unconsciously, I feel relieved that I'm not losing much time or effort to quickly fap, but IRL that's not true at all.

I just googled nofap. I hope the first site is what you meant. Thanks.

>>18419957
Alright, I've been giving it some thought and how bad is quitting your business really? I'm assuming if there was a simply way of turning things around, you'd have already found it. You said you've been working at a lose for a year already, so why not just cut it off before you hemorrhage more money?

>>18419996
No problem. Never tries it myself, but all the testimonies from people saying it's "life changing" seems like it's bit over the top. Yeah, I think cutting down on fapping would do you some good. Might not solve all your problems, but going to the washroom for a quick fap seems a bit excessive if it's a regular occurrence.

>>18420020
Let's say my continued existence where I am now in life relies heavily on the continued existence of this business. My only option is forward. I know that knowing when to quit is an important skill, but I feel it's too soon to quit.

A lot of my friends (who are now my employees) rely on this business to survive. Before I can even sell it, I have to ensure its survival and success.

>>18420031
Alright, that's fair. Only you know how to run your business. I still think you should voice your concerns with your gf. That's why you have each other right? Maybe I'm a bit naive, but part of being in a relationship is that you have someone to lean on when times are tough. I think she'd appreciate you being honest with your fears and insecurities.

>>18419923
I haven't had the pleasure of dealing with owning a business yet but I've dated a decent number of women and married one myself, been together for 8 years, going on 9 this coming November.

If your partner is so concerned with money and whether or not you, as a couple, will make it financially, she needs to get a job, do some freelance work, or something, to make money. Someone who actually loves and supports you would be willing to jump through at least some hoops to help make your dream/business successful. Maybe she has, maybe she hasn't. But it sounds like she was originally hopeful you'd make a bunch/decent sum of money and there wouldn't be any cause for concern. Now that reality has deviated some she seems ready to jump ship?
I'm sorry, but that's not a partner.
Maybe she's just an anxious person, maybe she was a gold-digger-hopeful. I don't know but my experiences tell me she probably is a little bit of both and may not be a good match for you if she can't handle a little bit of struggling.

>>18419879
taking part in therapy isn't "giving up"

>>18419879
>I've offered her several chances to break up with me
You're doing this to yourself. Every minute you spend doing this woe I'm not a real man shit is a minute you guys could have spent paying attention to her.

That's it.

>>18421187
I pay attention to her every second, every day. It's just that I can't meet her expectations.

>>18421162

I had therapy here in the US, it's ridiculously overrun with pill rushes and "you gotta think more positively mang" bullshit

>>18420092
I feel my fears of her being that sort of person might be more in my head. I just feel if I shield her from what I have to worry about, I don't have to lose her

>>18420092
Also, she does have anxiety, yes.