Needing validation from the opposite sex- lacking interest in

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I just moved in with a new roommate and he's been inadvertently aggravating my insecurities. Despite generally being a cool guy, he tends to brag repeatedly whenever he gets sex. I used to be fairly successful on tinder a couple years back but I slowed down and ultimately quit the app when I noticed how much of my limited energy and attention I was squandering on trying to get laid. Now being constantly reminded that he just goes out and gets sex and then resumes working on his life goals makes me feel a bit deprived. I'm starting to notice an old side of myself that I had thought I'd grown out of. Around girls I'm whinier than I was, more pity seeking, emotionally fragile. I just want girls to make some sort of sign I'm desirable, I've been trying to coax them for pictures or one night stands. I feel like I'm being pathetic, not for these behaviors per se, but for being so easily made jealous and affected by my room mate's conquests.

There's this girl that my sister introduced me to that's totally the type of girl I see myself dating but I keep loosing interest in her in favor girls who are more forthcoming with emotions, easily manipulated, likely to give me sexual satisfaction. This girl is authentic and smart, I can tell I won't be able to manipulate her as proof to myself of my own finesse. I can tell that she won't play the games that would let me unhealthily ease the stress of immaturity. Around her I have to be vulnerable and discuss my true interests, I can't pretend to be someone I'm not and as much as I want it, I feel simultaneously repulsed.

I know I haven't asked for any direct advice but if anyone who reads this has some perspective or insight to add, I'd be grateful.