What is going on

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Ever since I got "shocked" into being disgusted with porn, girls, and sex, I've been doing nofap. I'm now on day 6, and I feel ok overall, but every night I just feel miserable and lonely. It's not so much me being disgusted with girls or sex, but rather I feel like I am missing out by being a virgin and not being able to have sex. But heres the thing, I just don't feel like jerking off anymore. Before id masturbate like twice a day, now i just dont fucking care enough to anymore. I'm 6 days clean without any effort besides feeling crappy and dejected when I go to bed every night.

What the fuck do I do? I've looked at porn multiple times today and I literally couldn't care less. I didn't get hard nor did I want to.

But last night I dreamt that Ariana Marie and Sophie Dee (two pornstars im familiar with) were sucking my dick. So, yeah, im on some other shit apparently.

I have no idea how to stop feeling so lonely and shit. I've tried MEETING girls but its hard as fuck. I literally have liked like 100+ girls on tinder in the past 2 days and got 0 matches when I used to get a decent amount. I tried OKcupid, Bumble, got nothing and one match on bumble but you cant message the girl has to and she probs wont.

There's this nice girl in my class that I talk to and she seems to like me but I swear I just don't get an appropriate opportunity to ask her if she wants to study together for the next test or something, you know, some excuse to be together. Like I swear im trying I just dont get a good opportunity to ask

Holy fuck just end my shit senpai