Depression

>>18384964
Don't get blown up down there or ran over

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Meditation and exercise.
Helped and helps me handle it.

>>18384964
I'm on mirtazapine + sertraline.

Go outside daily, social contact daily, exercise daily. Meditation too. Cut out all my abusers out of my life.

Helped me after ~20 years of being suicidal. After that long a time I thought I couldn't improve. Even after I started feeling better, it still took years for nightmares to stop. I'm a normal person now, though there's further improvement to do.

It takes a long time though.

>>18384966
I'm going to a poor part of Europe so I should be fine.

>>18385068
Oh cool. Does it ever go through your mind when their around you..boooom

I'm similar I suppose. I don't really feel anything with a strong conviction except eternal sorrow. I was on 150mg of Effexor and I just tapered myself off to see what changes. I don't think much has changed. I wasn't really happy on drugs. I was just numb to reality. Now I'm depressed but at least it's realistic. Happiness breeds complacency. There's a reason every civilization cycles through hardship and plentiful. We're coming to the end of the plentiful stage and soon hardship will fall. Happy drugs can only last so long.

>>18385068
>should be fine.
Lol no. You just gonna be robbed by gypsies instead.

I don't know about you but my depressive cycles end eventually. It may take months but I know I'll eventually have a period of happiness. I've tried taking lamictal but it didn't help me too much. My bipolar depressive episodes and mania are mild though. Just hang in there. Try moving somewhere else before you kill yourself

>>18385106
Yes avoid the local bars and don't be out too late

>>18385110
That might help. I live in Florida and I can't say I like it.

>>18385106
>>18385113
Are they really that bad?

>>18385110
I've always wondered if I have bipolar. When I first started Effexor I had a massive manic episode but it eventually died down. I was supposed to go to a specialist over 9 months ago to get tested but the lazy cunts never contacted me back even after I checked in every couple of months.

>>18385119
I gave up on the psychiatrist I was seeing. She'd reschedule constantly and it was hard to set appointments around my work schedule. The best way to find out if you are bipolar is to have a MRI but who can afford that? I have been diagnosed bipolar by two psychiatrists so I probably am but I will never feel totally sure unless I have the brain scan. For the last couple years I've been trying to identify and recognize when I enter depressive episodes but it's hard because I've been like this my whole life. Trying to understand your own mind is hard.

Try a government ran, cheap clinic. They don't have the most experienced staff but regular, private psychiatrists can be pricey.have your parents or siblings brought up that you might be bipolar? I had a few relatives tell me I probably am which convinced me to get checked out.

>>18385115
I live in GA and hate it. Try the Midwest. They have a lot of comfy, small towns

>>18385141
Not really. It's kinda hard to notice at the time but sometimes I just realize how fucked the world is and how there's no much point in trying to do anything and just accepting the bullshit that is existence. And then other times I'm marginally happy. I try to chance my life for the better but I always end up failing because I become depressed again and stop trying. It's hard to really know I suppose. When you think of bipolar you think of someone who can't control their emotions, someone who goes from woe is me to everything is right in the world. I'd say my manic episodes are probably more general naive happiness that seems to be common in most other people I look at while my depressive episodes are nihilistic realism. I honestly don't even know anymore.

>>18385118
I dunno, but I won't go out at night alone in the shithole I live in. Fuck that.

>>18385144
I don't want to sound like a pansy, but I'm a mixed guy. Is racism bad in the Midwest?

>>18385118
Yes that bad. Economy sucks over there so lots of criminal things going around to make a buck. Just go on about your business don't . Try not to carry so much cash

What is the problem? Is it the people around you?

Cause sometimes it is about how much others hurt you. You may not have a disease, only react to something.

>>18384964
?

>>18385183
I don't have anyone.
>>18385222
I was diagnosed with dysthymia when I was 17 but I never had enough money to go back to a therapist. I'm 23 now.

>>18385172
There are some subtle racist things going on but as long as you aren't a shitty all around person no one will give a fuck or treat you differently.

It's practically a style to be gay there though. Every girl is scrambling for a gay friend. It's the weirdest fucking thing. They try so hard to be hipster central and "progressive" it's revolting, but that was just on campus.

The only racist people I ever met out there were people who grew up next to a reservation that was notorious for breaking into houses and stealing from farms.

> don't be a shit person
> work hard
> be honest

>>18385288
Okay. I bet it's cheaper to live out there too. Florida is starting to get ridiculous

>>18384964
if you could choose to be happy or continue the way you are now. what would you choose

>>18385318
Yeah it's much cheaper. But depending on where you are, there may be less to do unless you have friends with pontoons and kayaks and atvs and shit.

Try to pick not a remote place in the middle of buttfuck nowehere.

>>18385325
I'll definitely consider it.

>>18385113
Huh, that's what a couple I know were told when they went to the USA.

>>18385943
Well the US is shitty. Everyone knows that