Should I just kill myself? What advice would you give to the

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Should I just kill myself? What advice would you give to the 1 person god chose to give an impossible life to. I honestly think God is just trying to convince me to kill myself and I might today.

>born in small town
>literally no one around me forced to sit aound
>literally sit around until it hurts
>sit some more
>get so fat i get stretch marks
>eventually become so fat my giant is just a giant stretch mark
>eventually become aneroxicn and bullemic to lose weight
>lose weight
>still not a single girl in my town
>try to pick up hobby
>spend hundreds of dollars on it
>no one here does it so i quit
>try to walk around
>no one here so I quit
>every girl I talk to has been drunkenly raped or raped when high
>every guy I talk to is mentally ill and molested by their dad or something
>everyone here is a mentally ill scitzo fuck you cant even talk to without them yelling at you or making fun of you despite you being their only friend
>forced to hang out alone
>get fat again
>have to puke it all up again
>can't even attract rape victims anymore
>no jobs
>even if I find a job it's part time minimum wage with like 15 hours a week and 25 percent income tax
>have to spend 5 bucks on gas 5 bucks on lunch then tax takes the rest of my check every day leaving me 25 WHOLE cents to save to myself after working 5 hours
>managers scream at you like a slave to work faster because the store is so poor
>make no money
>college town so rent is 700/mo for a 1br
>closest city is 3 hours away
>it's a small town with 1 mall and 0 stores
>everhthing here costs twice as much
>parents used to beat me
>hairline receding faster than I've ever seen
>body is so full of stretch marks and body hair I can't even lift up my shirt
>everyone here is so mentally ill they just yell at me and try to fight me even when I'm acting nice