Is it possible to ever get over residual childhood trauma? I'm 20 and i live a fairly good, balanced life (i go to university, have ambitions, a social life etc) however i've always struggled with dealing with aspects of my own emotions (mostly guilt/doubt, stress and self-image) as a result of a lifetime of depression and anxiety related to a rough life from an early age. My self-esteem is up and down and I feel like it effects my relationships with others because of the way i react to certain things, despite trying my best to be a chill dude. I find it hard to leave behind me and i feel like i can't even begin to open the conversation with my SO, friends or housemates because its a heavy subject and i'm terrified that they'll see me differently.
How fugged am i?
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>>18308954
this looks like something that would be recommended to me on daytime television desu
>a rough life from an early age
share a bit about it
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>>18308965
I don't want to get too detailed for personal reasons but i'll share some stuff that i remember stuck with me
>only child w/ with single mum
>suspected she and her partner at the time were using drugs
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>when i was around 10 police raided our house searching for what i layer discovered was Ice
>had to watch her try and make my school lunch in handcuffs
>homelessness/poverty there after
>when i visited my father his partners kids beat me up and psychologically fucked with me
>developed severe depression at age 12
>a few years after in high school my best friend committed suicide
shit only started getting better during late high school but i still had/have rocky relationships with my parents
>>18308984
Thing is i feel better about not turning out retarded because of this stuff, but i also feel pathetic for dwelling on shit that happened years ago.
I'm not sure if i'm trying too hard to suppress all the emotions/stress attached to these events or not, even up to the point that its messing with me and causing issues
>>18308920
You should be able to trust your partner and good friends with some of the deeper stuff, particularly your SO.
Housemates aren't as important unless they're acting in a way that is causing you some serious problems.