I have nothing to live for. Depression made me lethargic for

>>18308803
>Nobody will ever hire me even for a minimum wage job.
I'm homely from neglecting my appearance for years, all of my teeth are rotten.
I have no money for a haircut or decent clothes for any interviews, let alone go outside.Nobody gives a shit, the government won't help me find a job

Rock bottom. It can only go up from now. 8h a day you go searching for a job - make that your job. Also wash up and tidy yourself first, you'll feel way better.

>>18308803
here ya go, give this a spin.
http://www.mediafire.com/file/stl5ctg1ptogszt/MWTD.zip

I was like you before: low confidence, victimizing myself for pity, claiming depression everytime something hard hit me then resorting back to my bad habits until people said it was too late for me to change and become a responsible adult.

After hitting absolute rock bottom; being homeless, I realized I had nothing to lose. I applied for a job at McDonalds, full-time, tiring, but kept my mind occupied. I slept at a public library until I could rent out a motel, which was for a month sleeping there, of course the first few weeks I was still a whiny bitch and gave up trying to read books and think of a future for myself.

Eventually I went to my local community college and I'm studying mechanical engineering; so far I've passed with A's in all my classes, and I'm hoping I could use my sob story to get into a four year with a free ride, most likely not possible. Started going to church again and reconnected with my family, they told me I could move in with them, but I'm seeing if I could continue being independent and show them I can be responsible with my life.

But life is getting better, I've lost a lot of weight and made good friends, and I'm sure I'll get into a decent school; finding a career in that field will be tough but I got nothing left to lose.

>>18308803
>What's the fucking point?
Half-life 3?

I can't think of any serious goals.

>>18309168
well done !

>>18308803
>What's the fucking point? Suicide prevention Lifeline is such bullshit.

It's bullshit because they don't to tell you the truth; you are fucked. I've made it out of NEET straight into wageslavery. It's only marginally better.