Depression worsens, desire for self-harm does too. Need some advice

Are you a neet or where are you in life?
If you just sit home all day that could be a major problem.

>>18299520
stop buying into the cutting yourself meme. smoking is pretty popular too. want to take that up?

>sad anon wants to hurt himself
>wants to hurt himself
stop this shit

you're not even posting about your supposed boatloads of problems, just talking about cutting yourself. that shit just clownin' dog. how fucked up is you?

actually address your problems. the only way to cure this feeling is to try and solve/come to terms with the issues that are bothering you

>my girlfriend of five years would be devastated
yeah don't fuck this relationship up
you don't need to use drama to get your issues addressed. YOUR FEELINGS ARE ALWAYS VALID AND IMPORTANT. If you believe your feelings are always valid and important, there's no need to cut yourself for attention.

>I'm not doing it for attention
it's probably not a conscious decision. You're caving under adult pressure and regressing to things you did when you were adolescent.

now enough side tracking. address your issues.

>>18299533
Nay, finishing up first year of college this week. Have a shitty part-time job in fast food, makes me miserable though. When I'm at home I try to keep busy, clean, yard work, play the bass a bit, World of Warcraft, getting into witchcraft, chill with my gf as often as possible, our schedules line up nicely so not really an issue.

>>18299546
Sorry, not really used to talking about them. I think my main problems stem from being molested when I was younger and repressing that until I was 16. Got a lot of hate towards my parents now and the whole thing fucked me up sexually.

Besides that I just think I have something going on in my head. My mother has some mental issues so that could have some sort of part to play. Some days I just wake up and from the second I get going I feel just gray and dead.

I feel like my life has no purpose. School feels like it isn't going to go anywhere. Feel like I can't my gf happy/can't be the person she needs. Hate my fucking job, and the last one I quit because it was pretty much the same shit just a different fast food store. Want some sort of work that feels fulfilling, something really hands on.

>>18299550
try taking a hobby to the next level. videogames and music seem easy to take to the next level. try being more ambitious about the things that you like. I guess that includes your girlfriend too - maybe do something special for her.

these are just some ideas to bring some more joy and ambition into your life. people aren't satisfied by education and career ambitions alone. you have a lot more going than most people, so make the most of it while you still can.

>>18299559
well you aren't going to college for fast food service, right? you said you were graduating?

regardless, there are some niche places to work. flower shops, vending machine service - some nice niche jobs for the time being.

try to reduce your stress and increase your mood, if only for a limited time. you'll come up with better ideas this way.

some people are clearly driving people around on uber just to turn their anxious energy into something productive.

>sometimes just feel grey and dead
that's more relatable than you think, but unfortunately nobody who can commiserate with you on this is going to be much help.

it's important to climb out of this and join the living

>I feel like my life has no purpose
>I can't make my girlfriend happy
I don't know where to start with this

>>18299578
Done with my first year next this week. I want to get a masters. Dream is to be a professor really.

Life just doesn't feel like it has purpose so until it does, not much to do about that I suppose.

The whole being molested really fucked up my sex drive once I remembered it happening, and its definitely impacted our relationship sexually, and Im an emotional wreck when it comes to mentioning that event.

>>18299593
oh, your first year. you clearly need counseling. it sounds like you have a lot going for you, and some serious trauma at the same time. your life can either be amazing or total shit depending on how you handle your mental health - yes, you in particular. so get on it.

>>18299597
That is the answer (huehue) I kinda expected. I know I need to, but I just have such a bitch of a time talking about my emotions. This is easy because comptuer, but I can't even talk about this shit with my lovely without freaking the fuck out. Must sleep for now, thank you so much for talking to me, just needed something./someone. Have a good night.