/gioyc/ - Get It Off Your Chest / Vent Thread

>>18291557
I have finally come to terms with the fact that you never cared about me as much as I cared about you. I still remember your tweet " If I ever develop Schizophrenia, I swear I will shoot myself" when my world was falling apart. Thanks for showing me that you never truely cared about me and only saw me as a place to put your pain. For two and a half years I helped you with your demons. Your shitty past, self harm, and two suicide attempts. Honestly it broke me. And when my demons started to show you did fucking nothing. You only ever cared about yourself. 3 years on I feel alot better about removing you from my life. You turned me into a cutter, I cut you right off. Hope you are having fun making someone else's life miserable you black hole, you consuming aberration. Have fun living a life of organized chaos I wont be around when you break down.

I'm a really thirsty man who has no idea how to channel that into someone reasonable.

Help meh.

I have... (had?) a crush on someone who's now in a relationship with someone else.

I don't know how to feel.

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FUCKING ANSWERRRRRR
RRRRRRRREEEEEE
COMMON NOBODY IS THAT BUSY
HOW IS IT THAT SHE DOESN'T EVEN FUCKING GET ONLINE
RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

>>18291557
My life is shit, but I have absolutely no intention of putting myself through a lot of effort and painful change just to become a normie.
Fuck your positivity, your responsibility and your "enjoy life" bullshit.
I'm weak, both physically and mentally, and I'm not fit for life in this world; just give me some more time until I grow tired enough to actually go through with killing myself, and please spare me all your fucking optimistic bullshit stories about "taking life into your own hands": it's deeply insulting.

Was sad about my crush finding herself a boyfriend until I actually saw what a cringy spotty lanklet he is.

Lmao, you do what you wanna do girl.

>>18291665

You're acting kinda bitter but ultimately, that spotty lanklet got the girl you were crushing on. He was a better choice than you.

I need to find something new. Despite my recent progress in meditation and improving my health, I still spend most of my free time lurking /v/. I don't even care about video games, not in the least, but it's more entertaining than anything else out there. I try things like listening to philosophy podcasts or creating music, but it's always boring, and I just feel like coming back to this site even though it's productive. Oftentimes at work I have romantic visions of getting wrapped up in some hobby, but once I'm at home I forget all about it.

And it's not like I'm limited. I have money, but I don't know what to do with it. Even mindless consumerism is no longer pleasurable. I bought a PS Vita in January and bought several games, but I never even touch it. Currently I'm just saving up cash to possibly go on a vacation overseas, or maybe even try a meditation retreat for beginners. The nice thing about apathy is that you generally only desire one thing at a time, so there's never an opportunity cost for doing things.

Honestly, I'm doing way better than I was a month ago. I feel like talking to people again. I just need to have patience. As always, this part of my life feels like a transition period. If I keep meditating every night and exercising thrice a week, I should be fine.

>>18291681
I got to fuck her several times before that.
I was bitter and confused, until I saw what she's settling for. He probably lets her peg him, lmao.

I am worried about a fuckton of (emotional) shit and no advice on this site is even remotely helpful
I feel like total shit all day, not "depressive", but still
I wish I could just fall into a coma or sleep every free minute so I don't have to worry about my shit

Went to a bar to hang out with a girl that I like, and ran into a girl that I would have done anything to be with. She also sent me into a massive spiral downward and fucked up my life pretty good. Just seeing her fucked up my whole night. I just left the bar that moment and have felt shitty ever sense. Don't even care about the current girl now cause I remember how fucked I am and what's the point in trying. Fuck

I don't want to go to college. I can't imagine sitting in school for 8 more years, or any years, for that matter. I can hardly make myself get out of bed in the morning or go take a piss. Sigh.

I have a paper due and I am fucking around on $chan, twitter, facebook all that bullshit

>>18291687
Maybe that's what she's into. Whatever it is, that dude she's with has something you never had. That's got to be tough to handle.

Being the other guy in a relationship is the fucking worst. Because you know the girl is at home getting fucked by her bf when she's not with you.

>>18291795
There is no "other guy" you deluded fuck. It's their relationship. I know you're not supposed to judge people in this threads, but do you actually think your fixation on a female constitutes you being a part of her actual "relationship"? Her boyfriend is fucking her because they're together. Find another girl and get over it faggot.
That mindset is pathetic.

I was listening to a song and felt imcredibly sad and went to YouTube to see the comments and everybody was talking about the nostalgia that the song made them feel and there was a comment that stuck with me that said, remember when You were happy as a kid but didnt know you were
And it made me sad because i miss the days where i was a kid and i wasnt aware of how much of a loser i was

>>18291788
It was for about a week. I'm good now and know I can do better than her.

>girl fucks me over
>through weird circumstances chat with her exes and many ex-friends
>find out this is what she does (uses people, leaves, finds new saps and trash talks old ones)
>be angry for past two years since it seems like she'll always get away with it
>check her Insta today out of curiosity
>she looks like she's aged ten years, has no friends and is fat as fuck now

I shouldn't feel happy but I do.

>>18291795
I fuck women in relationships all the time but never give one shit about them. In fact I want them to go home so I go about finding the next one.

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I've been thinking about suicide a lot lately. I really need to talk to someone about it, but I'm too scared to. I don't have anyone in my life who would care anyways, no friends or anything. I feel terrible.

>>18291881
Those anonymous helplines are a big help, apparently. You should start there.

Also doctors can give u meds if you're depressed or whatever. They can give you the motivation to get better.

i can't keep living this way. i feel way too alone. i often want to die because of the isolation but i have no reliable way to do it and i feel like a coward. how can i not be so alone?

I cannot do another weekend of taking care of a 3-year-old and an immature 56-year-old. I mean seriously... Between my Father griping about how people drive to screaming that he'll shoot my animals because they pissed him off; I feel as if I need to go back to the hospital just to get away.

But I don't want to use the system like that. If I go back to the hospital, I want to get help, not a vacation. But I don't know what else to do.

Sure I can move out, but on what? $60? Right. I'm not going anywhere and I'll be damned if I'm going to live in the projects; I'd rather suffer at home than to live there. I'm a nervous wreck already and being there would only make things worse.

I want a Xanax, but that means I'll pass out, and that'll just be so inconvenient to my Father because that means that he'll have to take responsibility and watch his Grandson for a couple hours.

I dread the weekends.
I dread when my Father comes home.
I dread when my Mother will come home from Physical Rehab.

Maybe I do want to off myself. But then what? I don't want to hurt my Mother and to be honest, that's the only person I care about right now and I don't want to destroy her because I was too weak to handle life.

I just need a fucking hug, a joint, and a quiet weekend.

You dwell in a corner of my mind
I check how you're doing, sometime
I was burning, far away now
Still it's so warm, my love

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the owner of these eyes is a qt3.1415+ 10/10 but obviously I'm never going to tell him that
I'm sure he knows anyway
Still can't get him off my mind
Oh well

My life only stagnates and the harder I try the more jaded I feel. More and more things lose appeal everyday.

I lost my confidence, I cannot flirt and the only thing that gives me a drive is also my poison in life.

I got my first speeding ticket today. Kinda bummed as there goes my spotless record. If I take the silly course they advise, do I have a realistic chance of having my fine reduced? Or should I just pay my fine outright?

Today I felt sexual attraction for the first time. I'm 24.

People can read my fucking mind, and this is driving me insane. I can no longer answer for my own thoughts. I do not recognize them as my own anymore. I am not myself mentally, but that's what people will listen to, which makes me fucking mad both at myself and at everyone for being on fucking top of me for every shit thought I have. I just want to fucking chill in this world, but instead I got fucking fucked with the knowledge that something real strange is happening with reality and the way we perceive it. I don't get shit anymore, fuck me. I just wish my mind was healthy and sane. I'm fucking lost and lonely in a brand new and strange reality.

Got an insight regarding approaching women, i was looking at this from the wrong angle, instead of approaching one and try to prove or impress her i should go with the mindset to see if i like her instead.

I used to feel like a madman but now I feel like a pussy. I dealt drugs and did stupid shit but now I feel like a pussy. I used to fight every fucking day but now I feel like a pussy. Fuck getting fat and older. I need to go back to working out. I don't like feeling like a pussy, people who live like this are strange. Fuck being normal.

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I fucking hate foreigners.
They should all get out of my homeland.

I'm drinking alone in my room for the first time in nearly a year
You sent me back down the same path you arguably saved me from
Just talk to me, we can work something out
I offered you everything you ever wanted and you turned it down
why?

This woman made a complete fool of me and I kinda fucked up my life for her then she dropped me as soon as I stopped being useful to her and I'm just sitting here like: "Well fuck.." My ego is utterly shattered.

>>18292211
Same.
Fuck you, Elizabeth.

>>18292201
"Foreigners" is too general
There are foreigners I like and foreigners I don't, but to hate all foreigners is just plain stupid

I super want this to be over.

This is the weirdest shit. I want it to be over so I can fucking talk to someone about this. To know what is going on.

Why is it so important for me to do this alone? To drag it out for sooooo loonnngggg?

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>>18292227
>I want it to be over so I can fucking talk to someone about this
...wut?

>>18292230
>that filename
Lmao why is it so specific ` ` `

Ugh, I met the perfect girl today at Free Comic Book Day. She's cute, into comics, and anime
I got her number. One problem, she's moving to California in 3 months. My life is a fucking joke. I meet a great girl, but can do nothing about it. This always happen. It sounds fucking whiny, but it's just frustrating since I always have bad luck with girls.

Are you guys going to tell me whatever happened to Punkey?

Did she die and you guys didn't want to tell me?

I tend to have a history of my pets just "disappearing".

What about that dog my sister had that time... the australian shepherd? She was just the sweetest puppy and i potty and leash trained her in a week. She was WAY too hyper though.

How much shit are you guys going to come clean on?

Like, Renee did steal my drivers license that one time right? This was in the planning from the day I met her.

>>18292297
>. I meet a great girl, but can do nothing about it.
Ah it hit too hard
I will ask this fucking girl out, it is now my life purpose really for the next week
But damn, every time it feels like its better to do it later
But got to push through

>>18292309
Do it. I can't ask her out, because a 3 month relationship isn't worth it, but you should ask your girl out, anon.

I feel like shit because of my inability too overcome my phobia of driving a vehicle. I've heard people inform me, again and again, that "Practice makes perfect". I've 'Practiced' for 3 years before giving up and developing other means of transportation. My practice consisted of driving on mostly empty roads in Iowa. I could handle driving just fine, but intrusive thoughts crept upon me every time I saw another driver incoming from a different lane. My brain would scream "A thousand pound box of metal is driving towards you at around 50 miles-per-hour, and the driver could be texting, reading, nodding out, having a medical emergency, or just about anything to cause him to collide with me" right before shutting off and going into fight-or-flight mode. I would pull over and cool off, but it just isn't manageable. It's quite like what happens when I get blood drawn and I see the needle (or tube with my blood in it) in my skin. My brain shuts down and I lose conciousness. I've tried every coping mechanism or medication you can think of and I've come to the conclusion: Driving just really isn't for me. So why does this bar me from succeeding in a work environment if the work environment is a desk job. Why must I fight harder than the common man too produce a livable wage? Why must people look down upon my sort comings when I succeed in everything else I set out to achieve? I feel cheated by myself. It really hurts my Ego in almost every social standing and I don't feel I have any options to fix this problem.

>>18292340
Thank you for encouragement.
Also, at least you can afford to crush and burn such short relationship.

>>18292355
Just stop thinking?

>>18292140
Someone please help me. And don't fucking tell me to fucking take my meds, please.

I fucking hate my job. I'm trying hard to get another, but I guess I'm not good enough.

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I feel old and cynical at 21. I worry what I'll be like in a few years. I'm basically at a crossroads, by the time I'm 30 I'll either be happy and productive or I'll be even more bitter and dysfunctional

>>18292297
Three months isn't nothing. If things go well you could look back on this summer as a fun time in your life. I don't know, what I'm saying is give it a chance.

For the past 7 years of my life I've had severe episodes of depression. It may just be self diagnosed but each time I have an episode I contemplate suicide.
I've realized now that I really should just end it. Sleeping tablet enema here I come.

>randomly meet up with girl I'm dating for a walk outside
>she has a light jacket and is cold, I have a thick coat and practically steaming
>she brings up how cold she is a few times
>see my chance and do the romantic movie thing where you put your coat over her shoulders
>halfway through, she grabs my arm with a half-panicked half-laughing "no!" as she wraps the coat back over my shoulders
ehe

Seriously though, is that a weird thing to do in real life

ive acknowledged i have a guilty pleasure of "traditional masculinity" and though im not fond of the rugged machismo which encourages a dominance over women, or a sort of hive-mind mentality that calls for a strong alliance with other men to the point that individual thought isnt feasible anymore i do agree that values like individualism, ruggedness, and a tough build are pretty cool

rip teddy

also acknowledged that i pay more attention to the idealized concepts of things rather than the reality in front of me which is why i find everything dull and disappointing but i dont want to lower my standards

it feels good to be alive sometimes desu

>>18292441
no it's a pretty normal thing to do

>>18292441
Yeah she sounds kind of autistic

>>18292414
I mean, I see your point, but I'd want a long term relationship with this girl. But I get what you mean. Maybe I'll try it. Not sure.

>>18292211
>>18292222
How did she fuck up your lives?

Well, that was your last chance to get me to do that fucked up anal porn.

You realize that I'm going to buy the adderall off the streets when this is over... right? You aren't going to be able to prevent me from not getting it.

What makes you think I will want to be on your team if you never offer me anything other than more suffering?

You might as well just fucking kill me now.

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It is the end of my senior year and it was one depressing year. I got /fit/ towards end of last year, summer, and this year. I had only ever had a crush on two girls. One was a hipster girl who just didn't try and got ignored, the other was the popular cheerleader type, prettiest in the grade. Got a double date with the second one, got ignored after it fizzled out and she found some other guy. Started spending time with hipster girl. Hanging out in woods between our neighborhoods, sitting around campfire, listening to music. Ask her to prom, and she says yes. Starts using friendzone type words like "bro." On prom night, she "jokingly" talks about hooking up with me. Don't really want to cus I want to loose it with feelings, start being weird about it. She gets drunk and starts talking/complaing about her exes and how she still wants them. Comfort her and take her home. Next day at the woods be upfront and say I have feelings for her. She says she's "not really dating guys at the mooment". She has a date lined up with some stalin-look alike with a jawline. Ignore both of them.

19, and never been in a relationship. Freshman, sophmore, and junior sucked because horrible acne and average bod. My guy "friends" are just attention whores who just fucking mope when something doesn't go their way waiting for comfort but never go out of their way to help me when I need it.

At least in a fraternity in college, everybody knows that their just paying for friends

what happens when the counter-culture becomes the culture it was trying to counter?

>>18292607
>culture
>counter-culture in response of culture
>counter-culture becomes the norm, and thus the culture
>repeat

>>18292607
we get loosers who are just as inefficient and dependent on stimuli as the culture they tried to counter

Human beings as a whole aren't about shit. Im done trying connect with others. I'll just stay by myself from now on. Sorry Mom and Dad, but no grandchildren from me.

>>18292607
Late capitalism

There is a big part of my life that I lied about. Now i'm worried that it will come back and haunt me.

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I want two things right now.

Snugs...
and a blowjob pleaasseeee.

Also, just so ya'll know I only have sexy times after I either bathe or at the very least washup. Being stinky when around a pretty girl makes me extremely self conscious... even in my current state.

so.. u-uh...

Any Indiana girls out there?

I haven't posted in one of these threads in years. I feel like killing myself and I also feel like talking about it, but I don't think that I'll go through with it and therefore don't deserve to.
I ran out of weed earlier today and I'm finding it kind of difficult to deal with the mess that I've gotten myself into. I'm addicted to heroin, I've made quite a few enemies, after having been abused and having talked about it. People seem to be actively trying to stop me from going to the doctor or just talking to anyone. I'm not going to go into this, it just makes me want to die. I wish, I had a gun. Everything would finally be over. I wouldn't give a shit, if noone were to come to my funeral, I wouldn't care, if people were to make up reasons as to why I killed myself, in order to avoid responsibility. I'd be dead and they'd still be alive and miserable. It doesn't really look like I have any other options left. I can't seem to enjoy anything I do anymore, except crying, which is only possible, when I'm drunk and listening to music that is way too loud. I wish, I had gotten drunk today. I'm most certainly not looking forward to withdrawing, but I have to try. I know that I'm going to be even more depressed, when I'm without heroin, but I'm also kind of curious to fully experience life and sobriety again. I don't think I'm going to last for very long, though. Please leave. Also, please stop acting, like you were ever there for me, when I needed you. Because you weren't. (Bye.)

>>18292140
I'm not telling you to take your meds, but please take into consideration, that you might be experiencing a psychotic episode. This means, that no one is actually reading your mind, but it is your own mind, that is making you believe that they are. If you listen closely to your own thoughts, maybe you'll realize, that the things that "they" are saying are just things that you are thinking. Maybe read Escher and Romme. Also, get enough sleep and eat healthily and abstain from taking any drugs.

What's helped me personally, was to think of them as imaginary friends. They can't actually harm you, but you may take what they are saying into consideration. They can actually be quite helpful at times. Once you've learned to control them, you can also make up protective (voices), someone in your mind who will stand up to the ones, who are insulting you, inside your head. Just think of what someone like that would say to the intruders. It may sound weird, but it works.

Additionally, there are some great resources for people with psychosis online, maybe google for "cbt skills psychosis", if you're also experiencing hallucinations, maybe google "hearing voices network".

>>18292751
Heeeyyyyy...

>>18292789
Also, try to distract yourself and to stop thinking negative thoughts. Maybe listen to some music or watch a comfy movie.

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>>18291557
Same, op. On Tuesday I crashed my Hyundai shitbox into the backside of the car in front of me in traffic. It was my only reliable transportation, and now I'm gonna have to work my ass off to get a whole new front end slapped on just so I can have a life again. If I can't, well, my chances of getting a job, finishing community college and getting my life sorted out are basically zero. Here's hoping my minimal wrenching experience is worth something I guess

I really hope Monday night goes well. I'll miss you while you're gone

>>18292789

If people are not encouraging you to get clean, they're not your friends. Programs like AA work for a reason, and rehab is a place to start, and a better place to withdraw.

You'll know when you are ready. The worst part is reaching out to get help, and there are literally hundreds of people, maybe thousands, in your area that quietly will be more than happy to point you in the right direction. Go to an AA meeting. Listen to the stories, remember that those stories are from real people who suffered and dealt with the same feelings of hopelessness and emptiness and now find reward in helping lost people find a better way forward.

If you want it, it's out there for you. The hardest part is only hard in theory. In practice, it's a phone call or a walk to a church basement or coffee shop.


Killing yourself is not a solution if you care about anyone at all. The better a person knows you, the more suicide kills them. They end up hating you and your memory for what it does to them. You kill yourself, but you poison them in the process too.

>>18292790
Sigh, if only I weren't a prisoner. I wonder if they would even let me...

What would happen if I went back to the hospital? Now that I know what those girls were trying to do... would they still want to take the sadness out of my eyes, even if for just a little while...

I thought about her a lot last night and then I had a dream but she was only a side character in a much bigger story, a voice amongst a group of various people I know, and we definitely weren't together. Then I woke up and I had this feeling like I've been digging in my mind and I hit stone, and there's nothing else I can explore and think about. I'm hoping that's progress.

Do you think girls like guys with long hair? To pull on while working tongue magic?

I really want sex right now for some reason.

I know you are all living in the houses around me.

Why oh why can't you all just come knocking on my door?

The early bird get's the worm, hehehehe.

Seriously, I only have so much time left on this earth. Knowing I'm going to die or be brain dead in 10 years... I just want to get going. I want you to give my life back to me.

I want to fuck all the things.

So let's get started for fuck's sake.

This girl i stopped talking to awhile back just texted me. We used to be best friends and hooked up a bit, didnt fuck her. She fucked me over and cucked me. But she texted me asking if we can talk. I ignored it and she sent me a huge text saying that she's sorry for leading me on. Also saying how she used to be really into me and apologizing for shit. Don't really know how to respond. I hate her still but I do miss her. What would you guys do? Keep it mind I don't know if I'm all about patching things up right now

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I'm dying to know what is going on. I'm absolutely biting at the bit to just KNOW. To know if what I think is happening is what's really happening. TO know that your messages of my destiny of being pampered is true. That all these messages "You're so god damn nice, you inspire you inspire, oh worthy one you are admired."

I'm so stressed out though. I can't focus. You tell me to be patient but at the same time you have told me that a part of my torture has been you guys getting my hopes up solely to cause them to come crashing down. You have told me you broke me on purpose. You have told me that all my suffering and misfortune has been strictly by design. So why, WHY would I want to get my hopes up again? Why would I get my hopes up for the date you gave me? So that day can come and go while nothing happens? To break me even more? You all realize that you have already pushed too hard. You have already gone too far. I'm broken. You broke me already you. Why keep going?

Can you understand why I just want it to be over? Why I am so fucking stressed out? Why I have no motivation to go out, exercise, eat healthy, or even paint? Why all your advice falls on deaf ears? It's because despite all your messages about how I won, how it's all going to be easy from now on, how the dog days are over... nothing has happened. I'm still miserable. I'm still suffering. You have yet to give me anything nice. To give me anything to look forward to. All you give me is more gaslighting bullshit. It's not over. The dog days continue. I haven't been given anything nice. This isn't easy. Every day it just get's worse and from what I can tell... there is no end in sight.

This is torture. Please, end it. Just end it. I'm so tired of crying every day. I'm so tired of waking up wishing I was dead. I'm so tired of hurting.

It hurts so badly.

i'm sincerely worried that if i even had a gf that i wouldn't be able to securely speak with other girls
like my awkwardness would probably be noticeable
i'd accidentally fucking fall in love with someone else
i gotta stop with this loser shit

>>18292853
Stay strong anon.

I had an emotionally manipulative ex that tried to get back with me several times, mostly by guilt tripping me, saying she'd learned her lesson (even though I know nothing changed because that's not how people work), even tried to make me jealous by dating one of my friends. My dick said go back, and damn if I didn't miss dat ass, but in my head I knew I'd just be going back to more of what made me cut her off in the first place.

Never a good idea to get back with a girl you've got history with because people don't change.

>>18293011
>Never a good idea to get back with a girl you've got history with because people don't change.

Meh. I don't know anon's situation and it's entirely possible you're right but I think that's a pretty absolutist position to take. Beyond a certain age that might be true, but I did a lot of stupid or callous things when I was younger that I'm horrified to look back on.

I am so burnt out by grad school. It's so mentally exhausting, I don't think I will make it all the way to a PhD. Very strongly considering I just take my MA and run. I can't live without academic interests but the post-baccalaureate lifestyle is murder on my mind.

Just one more week until I turn in my term papers for this semester and u can enjoy a little break for summer (of course I still have a bunch of shit to research/write over summer but at least I have no courses to take).

I'm also fucking sick of oatmeal.

>>18293011
>>18293020
Well this isnt the first time shes tried reaching out to me. And I hear from friends that she often talks about me and says that she misses me. I don't know if I'm ready to patch things up with her. I feel like I could use this to get with her, i also really don't know what she expects me to say to her right now.

>>18293020
People may change on the surface, they may realize their faults and become self aware about them, but they never really change. I know because I've tried to change myself only to realize much later, to my dismay, that I'm no different than the self righteous, arrogant know-it-all prick that I was when I was a fucking teenager. My ex is still the stubborn, unempathetic, overly attached child that she was when we were together. Maybe it is just my experience, but that has to count for something, right?

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>sexting fwb
>she tells me this doesnt have to be a one time thing
>tells me she wants to cuddle and fall asleep together
>only likes it when i call her baby

uh oh

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I'm getting over not seeing you guys slowly but surely. Eventually you won't me echoing in my mind every 5 minutes and finally I'll be at peace.
I've always enjoyed solitude, it's the only time I'm in control of my emotions.
I miss you slightly but you will move on and forget little old me, don't worry.

I was a really awful boyfriend to my ex. She cheated on me, the circumstances were very unusual but I broke up with her. I treated her even more like shit and then she moved on and has a new man. I feel empty and sad and I miss her.
I miss you Elise.

>>18293077
I'm really happy/proud of her now though. She's much better off without me and the guy seems good. I just wish she didn't hate me

>>18293077
>>18293083
>cheated on you
>youre somehow the bad guy here

for fucks sake anon

>>18293086
She claims he blackmailed her into it. I have no excuse for myself

>>18293091
youre out here slobbering covered in snot typing these posts out while your ex is getting fucked in the throat baka m8 you gotta let it go

she'll probably cheat on him too if she cheated on you

dont be so rough on yourself having your gf cheat on you is no one's fault but hers

>>18293094
thanks anon. although I'm not at that level of being a sloppy fuck

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>>18293099
and you never will be my man

youre gonna look back one day with a happy gf by your side

good luck out there anon, wherever you are

>>18291917
Your father is not responsible for your spawn, fucko. Welcome to being a mom. Suck it up. You were woman enough to open your legs. This is what you get for the next 18 years. Get the fuck over yourself.

>>18293103
thanks anon. you have my well wishes

>>18291557
I just wish you would talk with me. Honestly if I could just get some answers I would stop pestering you for good

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Virginia Sucks donkey dick to be single. It's an log truck up the ass strict laws and rules, depressing, cold year round.
The hotest unmarried girls are A. 17 B. Not from here and gay C. Fat lazy cockroach shit smelling sacks of human garbage.

I wanna go back to Georgia at least the sun is out all of Virginia feels like a ghetto where the sun don't shine

>>18293137
where in VA

this guy i've been talking to , (we aren't a thing or anything but we say I love you and all that, we have kissed and etc) keeps getting pissed for the smallest of issues
example
we had a little argument and I'm pissed
he calls me a butt
i don't respond
he calls me a butt again
I don't respond
he yells SAY SOMETHING
i yell back SOMETHING
he punches the wall like five million times and as of now he is not speaking to me
This is the reason why I do not want to be in a relationship with him, he keeps getting pissed for the smallest of reasons and it annoys me so hard
I thought he was changing but he didn't and once again he is mad
I get those cute little "You fight like a married couple" thing
but this is definitely not like that, when we argue it is usually because apparently I do something wrong in his eyes and he gets pissed and does not speak to me for an hour or more then we talk again.. I love him but I don't

>>18293144
Virginia Beach

Sounds 10 times nicer than it actually is. My uncle owns a shop here so I'm living with him for 2017 to "Expand my horizons"

>>18293160
I live in NoVa. Dont know what to tell you, this state is ass

>>18291557
I really like you Anonette and i'm not afraid to show feelings in public since those stuffy asshole can all go get fucked
But you don't show me anythign and it's really getting me down

So i'm going to start fishing again because i really don't know where this is going and i don't want to be hurt again

>>18293210
Have you ever considered some people just arent into pda? Its really quite embarassing to have a guy hanging over you and trying to constantly fondle you in public. Girls are supposed to be the touchy feely ones. Drives me nuts when my man gets like this. Im not talking about holding hands like he full on tries to rub down my legs and shit. Its weird.

Hey "I". Would you like to do something with me? How about you talk to me instead of looking at your phone. What is it about me that you don't like? I wish I wasn't an awkward potato and could get to know you. I love how cocky you are, it drives my competitive side crazy.
Should I show my interest to you? Or should I not bother because we don't have chemistry. You probably don't find me pretty, so there's no point.

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Idk what it is anymore. You see, I've lost who I am. I used to try to be a nice guy, but in recent months I've seen how it had only gotten me fucked over. I used to fear letting people down, I used to try to impress my bosses, but now it's like "why the fuck should I care?" I just feel myself turning into an asshole that doesn't give a shit who I piss off. I think I finally see myself as worth more than a punching bag, and I'm finally calling bullshit when I see it. I've lost my sense of fear.

A lot of shit is going on in life right now, and I'm constantly on the edge of breaking down and just balling my eyes out. I have so many crossed wires and fucked emotions I don't know what or who I am anymore.

>>18293137
>>18293144
>>18293191
Agreed. I live close to VA Beach and Peabody's is a cesspool. Did you see all the Stacy's yesterday? Fuckin gross. There's a bunch of military dudes that don't know what the fuck they want, too. It's depressing for a monogamous female.

>>18293242
Huh i have been a bit handsy the last few dates, but she never seems put off - she's always laughing and says "you're so embarassing" in a joking way

I was more talking about things like saying "i like you" and other signs of this going anywhere

>>18293280
I use the exact line in 2 scenarios
1. I've achieved maximum uncomfy with whatever the person just did
2. I'm not sure how to react because person is very attractive imo
I don't see how this would help but maybe it'll give you some type of comfort????

>>18293286
>laughing and joking
>maximum uncomfy
man women are weird as shit
She always goes in for an arm grab or some form of physical contact when we walk places so i dunno

Oh well she seemed to be distacted/mad this week so i've just left her alone after getting a frosty reply when when i asked "you feeling ok?"

>>18293302
Have you tried giving her space to come to you?

>>18293304
Doing that now desu, kinda bored of always being the one initating convos too

I'll be seeing her at work on friday, and i'll probably just wait for her to come to me if she wants to talk

>>18293105
Her post pretty much sums up the entitlement women have these days.

Hey R,
I want to demonize you. I don't know how to cope with how things played out.

So it turns out our mutual friend was a sociopath and pathological liar; he wanted us to distrust each other and disconnect from one another. But the universe had other plans, and every time I looked away from you or took steps to cut you out of my life, you said something so specific, so niche, I couldn't help but to think there was something remarkable about our connection.

It's too bad so much psychological and emotional manipulation fucked us up. I'm so sorry for yelling at you.

When I found out how severely we'd been lied to, that you were told I was a compulsive liar, the best I could do was plant seeds. Metaphors that I claimed would only make sense later.

I wish we could talk again. So I could explain those metaphors, show you that we're capable of love and understanding.


Sometimes, terrible things happen to us and we can't do anything about them.

But this time, let me show you something better. We weren't hapless victims. We made it through together.

I just wanna leave my home. My half-brother disgusts me. My mother's son. I hate him so much I wanna vomit.

But if I do leave I'll have nowhere to go at all. That piece of shit is staying here, as a worthless neet, and a constant bother to anything I do.

He spends a few years as a hobo in San Francisco, and acts like being in an actual home with his family is what's killing him. But he's totally willing to spend their money on useless shit.
He acts like a fucking bum, just sitting around, staring at the television, and being on the internet. Hes became a fatfuck in a few months, munching on candy all the time.

The worst part is when he acts like some kinda respectable man. He acts like his opinion is worth something, that people should listen to him. And he gets so upset when they don't. He thinks he so tough, he thinks he can get everything he wants. Nothing good ever comes from giving him what he wants.

I just wanna beat him so hard until he finally shuts his mouth for good like the stupid retard he is. If he ever insults my father I'll kill him.

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How do I get over someone that's no good for me but I find unbelievably physically attractive?

As stupid as it sounds I fell in love with looking into her eyes. Countless nights of lying in bed after sex just staring into eachothers' souls intertwined put some spell over me that wants it again so badly

>>18293419
>nice pale skin
>white grill
>ice eyes
>RED HAIR
Bitte

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>>18291557
I think I'm a complete asshole. I have no sympathy for anyone, no real interest in their opinions unless it's about something practical, I do no favours, I give no gifts nor accept them... I just give zero fucks about everybody. aside from me. I call no one, I message no one - they just message me. I love when they complain to me about something in their lives because I get to tell them how much I don't give a fuck.
I love my life though.

>>18293426
I'd have to think long and hard about the question of "Was it worth it"
She was wanted by every single man that looked upon her.
Those eyes hold so many secrets, so many half truths, so many lies. We both fell fast and hard without even knowing one another. So much money in hotel rooms while she was escaping her vindictive possessive boyfriend, warm summer nights in the back of my car, promises that were never held
I'll never forget about her as much as I try. I haven't tried to find anyone else so I guess I have myself to blame.

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Just gonna post this here, maybe an Anon will throw me some advice.

>Kinda know grill through friend of friend
>run into her a couple of times eating
>ask her today if she wanted to get something to eat, half interested, half friendly.
>says she can't , but that'd she like too
>end up planning brunch tomorrow at 11am

Finals end in five days boys, and I don't know if she lives near by me. Think I can get anything out of this, or she's just being friendly?

>>18293448
Go for it. Maybe something will come of it if it goes well

>>18293448
You have nothing to lose by going, just have fun and slip in some flirting

I'm irritated that you told me you wanted to blow me, but won't unless I play your stupid games. Fuck your games. I'm married to someone prettier. You're only good to face fuck like a degenerate pig; the ultimate taboo.

That aside, I hope things get better for you. And that you lose some damn weight holy shit.

>>18293506
lmao, it's you again.
Well, you had your chance.

I had a feeling sometime soon you were coming back.

Admit it, you're so thirsty, you wanted to get this far. That pretty face ain't doing favors to your 'needs' aren't they?

I'll give losing weight a chance, but you damn well remember your words. If you come back to thirst, you ain't getting this back.

>>18293518
I'm guessing this kind of scenario happens often?

>lmao, it's you again.
No, it isn't.

>Well, you had your chance
Obviously, and I declined. Not sure about your story, but she was thirsty as fuck for me. That's why she blurted out wanting to suck me off so suddenly. Who doesn't want to be sucked off - no strings attached? Thankfully, there were strings, and that made things easier on me.

Still frustrating to hear it and not get it.

>>18293582
...oh, so you arent my girl.
sorry, mang.

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I am so damn lonely.

>>18293593
I would rather be lonely than be heartbroken and lonely

>>18293601
I wish somebody told me this a year ago

>>18293639
Same.

>>18293648
What's your story ?
Sometimes I wish time would turn back for a few weeks. Could have done a lot more to save my relationship, but every decision I made is the wrong one.
Now that it's all over, it left me felt more empty that what I have ever felt in my entire life.

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>I'm supposed to graduate and get my bachelor's degree in a few weeks.
>I have a 20 page research paper due for my Senior Seminar class due on May 22
> I have a 12 page research paper for my Research Methods class due on the same day
>haven't even started yet
>if I fail I wont graduate this month
How fooked am I, m9s?

>>18293658

You've got plenty of time, if you just get to work right now. Work smart, work hard, and it's doable. Wallowing in self pity will get you nowhere.

>>18293658
Proper fucked if you keep shitposting and praise Kek.

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>>18293663
32 pages in 15 days. you're right, its doable

>>18293651
see
>>18293419
Fell for a girl who I didn't know much about. Was informed by mutual co workers that she's a habitual liar and manipulator, sent someone who worked there through the meat grinder in a fling when she was upset with her boyfriend only to go back to him.
The first "date" we go on is to a bar and after a few drinks we tell more about eachothers' lives than we had told anyone that we had known for years. Both grew up in a broken home, her mother dropped her off at a friends house and skipped town for years, her father a controlling jesus freak and a step grandfather that molested her and her sister. My mother attempted suicide by hanging 8 times and made me and my siblings watch, my father was a broken man with a rage inside of him for choosing the wrong life. We left the bar and hugged for what felt like forever before driving off.

Every day after that we spent our lunch breaks together, she'd walk up to my table in the break room and nudge me as I'm sleeping away the insomnia from the night before to look up to the most beautiful woman I'd ever seen in my life. It would be like waking from a dream to a better one.

We were strictly platonic at this point, knowing she had a boyfriend. She would tell me stories about how he's controlling. Wouldn't let her cut her hair, have friends, have a facebook, hang out with his friends, do much of anything at all. How he couldn't please her and she'd have to resort to a plethora of sex toys she'd acquired while they were together. All of it didn't make sense for someone that seemed so perfect. So genuine. But there was a reason for all of it.

After talking for weeks about unhappy she was she told me she's breaking up with him. She was done with being treated like a doll. I asked her out on a date to a movie a few days after, being assured they were done.
They weren't. While we were going on dates, falling in love, having sex, she was still with him. I assume keeping him in her pocket .

cont.

>>18293673
We continued going on dates until I asked her to make it official which she immediately agreed. When it became official that's when it all happened. Her other boyfriend found out and spread revenge porn on the internet of her. Images she sent to him in confidence. Hundreds, for all of our coworkers to see, to talk about, to masturbate to. We didn't realize until she was getting messages on facebooks from people warning her and it all added up. Male coworkers were paying way too much attention to her than normal. Staring her up and down all the time, even the elderly ones. When she saw what he did she broke down into tears, into a rage. She had to go and ask him why he did it to which he didn't reply and ignored her. We went to the police a few days after and filed a police report and he was arrested. He spent a week in jail and was later released. To make an extremely long story short, she let alot of things get by about her past life to me which caused me to repulse. The fact that she was a cam model for like 7 websites, doing hardcore porn with him. How they were still having sex while we looked for apartments. How I wasn't the first guy she was seeing while she was with him. She started regretting getting him into trouble and told me she was still in love with him. She lied to me and used my car to pick him up from court and she saw him while we were living together and still having sex. She tells me she wants to use my car to see her mother and she spends the night there and wants to go out again the next day. I call her mother and she wasn't there. I pack up her things and tell her she isn't living with me anymore. We don't talk for a week but I still have feelings for her. We start talking, she apologizes and we start hooking up again. I'm unaware she's seeing him again at this point and she tells me she got an apartment. This entire time I'm tricking myself into believing what she says because I had a rough time in my childhood

cont.

>>18293682
being trusted because I was a liar. I lied about every little thing and it feels better than most things to have someone put absolute trust in you. So that's what I did, against my gut feeling. Little did I know that the entire time from when I kick her out when we're hooking up, she got an apartment with the guy that tried to ruin her life. The guy that made a website with pictures of her on it, on like 5 websites too, and a fake facebook linking all of them to which he added all of her family in an attempt to destroy her.

I think that's what hurt me most. The fact that I lied to myself for a year straight and it finally came crashing down on my head. I paid for her car to get out of a towing yard when it got totaled which wound up getting repo'd anyway, her cellphone bills, etc

I did it because it felt so real. I think at times it was, she just wavered. She didn't know who or what she wanted. I don't know if it's a psychological issue. I guess that's why I don't blame her as much as I should. We've both had a horrible life but I got involved with a girl that had been in a 4 year relationship since she was 18, living with the guy. I don't know why I thought I could lift her above what I could provide myself. I fell flat on my face when we couldn't get an apartment as soon as we wanted but when I had learned she was fucking him when we first started dating I got deflated. Why would I want to put that much on the line? So I just continued having sex with her, which was amazing. She came so much during sex and was into anything and everything.
She calls me a month ago telling me she's going to kill herself because he doesn't want to be with her anymore and I talk her down. I assure her that he wouldn't be there if that were the case but he apparently told her that he wishes she'd run in front of a train.
Just recently she calls and asks me to find her weed without asking me how I've been or any conversation otherwise

>>18293690
So after I tell her I'm not able to (which is a lie, why would I want to see her just to watch her walk away with whatever guy she was with) she tells me to never contact her again or she'll be happy to get a restraining order. I lose my cool and call her a slut, a whore and hang up the phone. I call back like an idiot and I ask her what is wrong with her in the head that makes her think what she's doing is okay, cutting off contact just to prove that everything we had been through means literally nothing, the last year spent of my life, mental state and money being pointless to which someone takes the phone from her and hangs it up.
She shows up on my suggested friends on facebook after not having one for a long time and I ask her if we can talk. I don't know why, maybe it's the person I am but although I don't care much about her in that way I'm still worried about her well being. I feel like there's a person underneath all of the lies.
She messages me back saying "That's a big fat no, I made this facebook using my real name trying to be honest but I had a feeling you would find it. Look where I am now. Leave me alone."

What did I do to deserve this? Is it because I'm too kind of a person? I don't attempt to destroy her relationship with her family or treat her like a piece of shit? Maybe that's what she wants but I refuse to do it.

I'm just a gullible idiot with too big of a heart ripe to be picked and stomped on. Serves me right I guess

Mother. Fucker.

>I want to die
>but I can't kill myself because it would hurt her
>she is the reason I want to die

Man life sure does kick ass right?

>>18293706
?

I get home from work and you're still standing in your dressing gown
Well what am I to do?
I know all the things around your head and what they do to you
What are we coming to?
What are we gonna do?

Blame it on the black star
Blame it on the falling sky
Blame it on the satellite that beams me home

The troubled words of a troubled mind I try to understand what is eating you
I try to stay awake but its 58 hours since that I last slept with you
What are we coming to?
I just don't know anymore

Blame it on the black star
Blame it on the falling sky
Blame it on the satellite that beams me home

I get on the train and I just stand about now that I don't think of you
I keep falling over I keep passing out when I see a face like you
What am I coming to?
I'm gonna melt down

Blame it on the black star
Blame it on the falling sky
Blame it on the satellite that beams me home
This is killing me
This is killing me

I used you as a fling for easy sex and kinky sexting while my girlfriend was sick and too far away from me, you caught feeling and i ignored it i should have cut things off to prevent it from hurting too bad but the sex was insane even after a year and a half i cant get our sex out of my head. The first time i entered you we were both gasping for breath, our parts were made just for each other desinged to give us mind blanking orgasms. I will never forgive myself for the way i hurt you i keep everything you sent me the messages, the love letters, the blanket you hand knitted me i will never forget you

I have to be the poorest person in the world despite having multiple fucking movies be based on me and countless albums.

It's a bit odd being so incredibly lonely despite being the most famous person on the planet.

What the fuck even is my life.

And

Why can't it just end already so I can start anew?

I don't know if I should hate my parents for psychologically torturing and emotionally abusing me my entire life or love them for raising me right.

I'm a true disaster.

>>18293730
Stfu, just post a photo to instagram and interact with followers

You dumped me because you wanted someone to share your feeling for your Christian god. Is this actually a fucking good reason to destroy an otherwise amazing relationship? I don't fucking believe that's the reason. 3 weeks later and already dating another guy. Thanks for being a lying cunt. Everything seems like it was fake now. If it was possible I'd have converted for you, but I guess you thought it'd never be genuine anyway. So full of shit.

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>>18291954
>>18293419
get a room

I can never be with the person I love. Even though we talk, we can't ever be together. And I will be sad and broken because of it for the rest of my days.

>>18293783
why can't you be with them?

>>18293787
It is complicated, but sadly true. I would rather not go into here. It is what is, nothing can change it.

>>18293788
Same here. I feel you.

(... wouldn't it be funny if we were each other's person?)

>>18293806
heh. highly unlikely. that would indeed be funny

>>18293788
Story?
Or a reason

>>18293815
sorry. i cant

You said you would message me, said you weren't sure but you might feel the same way. It hasn't been long enough since then to be worried that you haven't, but I'm worried anyway. Please, I need you more than anything.

>>18293831
Can you just do it yourself for once? It takes two to tango.

>>18293834
Fuck off, you don't know shit.

>>18293838
Suit yourself then.

there's like 1000 posters on /adv/, max
it's highly unlikely anyone is talking to anyone else directly through gioyc

>>18293841
Sorry, I'm a little on edge. My current situation is a little unique and it would be really weird to send her anything right now.

K,

We had a great first date. I think we both caught a bit of feelings. Things weren't the same when seeing you for the first time after Christmas break. You were acting uncomfortable and physically apprehensive. I've only just recently learned you were still in contact with your ex the whole time we were "dating". I was your rebound, your second choice. That was a fucking shitty thing to do. I honestly expected better from someone like you. Now I see that I have to exercise better judgment moving forward. You've left me wary and cynical in finding someone I can open my heart to.

You were truly never really all that great anyway.

>>18291806
For some reason whenever I drink I love listening to the music I liked as a teenager. Always happens

I thought it would be great to be with you, we had great chemistry. Oh how I wish that I never got in a relationship with you, my life went to shit. I lost it all while you became happy, I dont know whats driving me insane, is it the fact that I know that you are a lying whore or the fact that you act like nothing is happening. I had a good thing going before I met you, had a lot of friends , my parents were proud of me, I had my dreams with me. I worked day and night for it to be achieved, but when i met you. I set it all aside, all of it aside just so we could build something for the two of us. Now Im in debt, jobless, no friends, my parents act like they dont know me. I want to kill myself so badly when I think of whats ahead. I have nothing left while you went and fucked off to take a vacation posting happy pictures of yourself and your friends. God damn you, I hope that you get whats coming for you, I want to yell so god damn hard until my lungs collapse for this fcking mistake that will haunt me for the rest of my life.

I want to restart my life.

I get these weird moments where I suddenly become extremely paranoid of anyone or anything and my heart starts pounding, I look for weapons and feel very anxious

The triggers seem to be random, im a naturally distrusting person already, and ive always been anxious and depressed but before the past few years I never experienced it.
Sometimes I can wake up in the middle of the night and become so scared that I hold a knife and wait for any would be killers.

when i look back at it it feels so crazy. what the fuck is wrong me.

>>18291806
Take LSD 100 mg
You will be pleasantly surprised

Fuck my looks are the only reason for my anxiety
Sometimes I just don't want to leave the house because I look like shit
I cannot do anything to it, I wish I had another body
Arghh how can good looking people even have anxiety

I can't stop fucking fapping and I'm terrified of God's punishment. Christians say that in situations like this you have to pray to God to help you get a partner but I still have no luck (I know I have to do my part myself besides praying but still).

I think I have a cheese addiction.

i don't know if you really get it

>>18294050
What exactly?

My grandpa's best friend just made a nasty comment about my tits.

Do men ever stop being pigs?

When I was 16 my babysitters husband offered me 100 dollars to let him watch me play. I took it. He provided toys and everything.First time he was just jerking off next few sessions things escalated and we start to fuck. This started happening often. Around the 8th weekend we went to a sex shop to pick toys, he walked me into a back room strip me into bra and panties and start to play with me. There where few guys around watching us and jerking off, when we went back to his house he fucked me like crazy. Later one he wanted to go again but this time to let the other guys there to touch and play with me. I was shy so i told him i'am not up for it tho i really liket it when all this old men where lusting over me, we continue our home sessions till i was 19 and moved to another town.

>>18294065
>"nice" guys incoming

Also, don't take shit from people like that. Personally I think it best to just ignore them, since they'll always be around one place or another and it's hard to teach someone like that to get a fucking filter.

>>18291557
You wanted me out of your life and that's what you're going to get.
I know you're here and I hope you read this
Have a good life

>>18294065
Hey give an old dog a bone.

>>18294090
He told me I have big and perky tits, I told him that his tits are pretty perky too for someone his age (he's fat). Everyone laughed and it wasn't too bad.
But it was embarrassing and inappropriate nonetheless.

>>18294118
I'm into older guys but 85 is a bit too much for me.

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>>18294123
How old is enough for you?

>>18294116
(You) wanted it first. I've just given up and moved on

no need to call me a pussy for calling your friends to help you get home when you cannot stand up because you are too fucked up. im not looking for praise but I could have been some piece of shit that would fuck you unconsciously. your friends just like ditched you and I at your apartment. I spent the whole night making sure you didn't choke on your puke.

no need to tell me about you and your friend fucking one of my good friends from high school either, no need to talk about how cute other guys were at the party or anything like that while still wanting to dance with me/make out/other stupid couple shit.

I don't know, last night left a bad taste in my mouth. drunk emotions aside, I think you have some issues you need to sort out.

im too fucking nice for my own good. its always been my kryptonite.

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>>18294140
30 would be perfect. But everything over 25 is acceptable.

It's not going to happen.

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>>18294157
If your age is appropriate I might hit you up.

i was talking to this girl on facebook and she seemed very interested in me and being really sexual with me
then halfway through a conversation she read one of my messages but didnt reply
the day after, i asked her if she wanted to hang out and do something interesting but she hasnt even read it and it was about 3 hours ago

what the fuck lmao i was basically about to fuck her and now shes completely blanking me

I know what I want out of life, but I also know that it's untenable for me to ever hope to achieve it.

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>>18294178
Is 24 appropriate?

>>18294193
Perfect. Tell me that you live in DK.

>>18294166
What do you think isn't going to happen?

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>>18294213
Nope. Is everything over? :(

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>>18294224
Sorry babe, but long distance never workout, but I'll be here if you need support.

>>18291557
i just want to fucking kill myself, but not at the same time.

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>>18294230
When I'll be there in August, I will think of you anon.

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>>18294244
That's nice of you. Sorry to keep your hopes up.

You're lucky I need you as a reference for my job in the future, otherwise I'd never want to see your fucking face again, you goddamn whore! How the fuck could you betray him like that?

>thought life would change and personality would evolve after graduating hs, graduating college, getting career, buying house, etc

>Still stay at home and play vidya and browse/shitpost on the boards

Life is funny that way. I really need to learn how to talk to people and find some real hobbies

>>18294214
Doesn't matter, it didn't.

>>18291557
One of the people so cherish most has been diagnosed with a few months to live, if that. It's hard to predict how long but at the moment every day gets a little worst. I seen him two weeks ago and the change is incredible, he didn't seem so sick then.

I know I have to be strong because things are going to get much worst quickly but I already feel exhausted. I can't muster enthusiasm for things I was excited about before I found out. I have a new temp to perm job that I'm fucking up because I don't sleep and I can't think straight so now I don't care I'm just going through the motions until they don't need me anymore and I'll go on benefits or get a new job. A part of me hopes I can go on benefits so I can spend all my time with him.

I just don't care about anything right now and I'm tired whether I sleep or not. Is this normal or am I being a pussy?

>tfw forever alone

So I finally got the courage to talk with her. I thought she'd be a bit older though, she looked at least 23 maybe? She's actually 19 and kinda tall for her age, taller than me. I'm 31, though I don't look it, she thought I was 27. We both work at this flower factory. Both have really cruddy hours, pay, etc. We seemed to get along well though, even offered her a ride home because she was using uber the entire time to get home. She declined though, for reasons, but I got the feeling then I made her quasi uncomfortable. Not so really, we spoke a little more later and she was pretty happy to talk with me. But still, she's young.. very mature for her age though, doesn't speak English, but meh.

It took a lot out of me to socialize with her, the anxiety was biting kinda hard. But she said she liked me too, when I made her aware I got a good vibe from her. Kinda empty now.. resting from 11+ hours of work laying here... I don't honestly believe anything can come of it. She also had her face in her phone quite a lot, though we met eye to eye as we spoke, she seems kinda.. I dunno, disconnected? Maybe it's just normal for her in a totally non-rude way.

>>18294275
It's your normal.. so yes, it's normal..

It just feels unreal. I've known you this long, and like three months ago to move to be with you. I can't believe it was a meme that made you disconnect from me. And it just feels like there's a different meaning to what you said, but I know there isn't. I was gonna be there, for real. I don't know how to cut you out of my heart. I don't feel good about it.

Let's see what tinder has in store for me today!
Cute normies. A guy using tinder to promote his photography business lol...
"I'm a Scorpio" thank you for letting me know you believe in dumb shit.
"I love listening to music" wow me too! And everyone else.
Welp, no more people in my area. I didn't swipe right on any of them. Great job anon, that's how you get a boyfriend! At least I'm meeting new people on Wednesday.

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I've had issues building up over time with the girl I'm seeing. Felt like shit enduring them, but the idea of bringing them up felt like shit just the same. Why make a big deal out of it? Why cause all that drama? It's just me picturing things, right?

Problem was, I couldn't stop picturing things and eventually I just had to ask:

>seriously, Anon? Just let me live my life. All that creeping of yours is pissing me off. Sometimes I wonder what I ever saw in you. Hell, I wonder if I ever did.
...was what I'd imagined would happen. Turns out it wasn't that bad.

>seriously, Anon? Just tell me sooner if something's bothering you. I had no idea this was on your mind that much. We can work this out!
Maybe, just maybe, this wasn't too bad an idea after all.

>>18291826
SEETHING

I wish I had something to look forward to doing in my free time. I have literally nothing now. I've tried a ton of things and nothing gives any satisfaction or pleasure.

It hurts

Should I text her and ask for one chance to make my case?
She told me she still loved me, yet acted like she wanted nothing to do with me last time we spoke
I understand that, though, she has a shitty life right now so it's understandable she'd act short but it makes me confused as to how she really feels
I want to take her out of there and give her stability and start our life together and she once told me that that's what she wanted as well
I don't want to upset her by contacting her when she told me not to but she means far too much to me to let our relationship go without a fight and I still believe that I mean that much to her too even if she refused to say whether or not that was true, so I don't know what to do

Every girl I've asked out has rejected me, I feel like a useless piece of shit waste of air

>>18294494
Women are complicated, chances are likely that it isn't you and it's the girls youare associating with.

>>18294485
You won't know for sure unless you try.

>>18294539
>women are complicated
Yeah but pretty much every guy I know seems to have figured it all out

a few days ago i met a girl online on rocket league, first we were just playing for fun but after that she said she wanted to add me and play more with me, i said ''ok'' (why not you know). one 1 day later we talked a lot about ourselves and the shitty things we've been through as individuals, she gave me her number and i gave her mine, after that she told me her name, where she comes from (rostock-Germany)and send me a picture of her, i did the same. i told her mine name,where i live (den bosch-netherlands) and i send a picture of me aswell. we started talking again about ourselves when she suddenly said:''im glad i met you''. at first i didnt know what to say to her, i started blushing and said:''im glad i met you to''. later that evening i was curious if she was real, so i searched her name up on the internet(no results). after that i searched her steam name: Loranay, i found a deviantart link that belonged to her. i found her name and lastname and searched here on facebook and found her (havent told her that i found her on fb). the past few days were awful and fun, she is ignoring me mostly when i want to chat with her, or she keeps it short without any reason but she always has the time to look at my messages. what should i do? i feel a real connection between us.

>>18294494
What the other guy said . Dude , some women are just suck. Same goes for men ofc. Keep in mind that the more pretty she is , the more likely her personality is so be shallow , it's like the graph of 1/x . Unicorns exists but they are few and far between . I was rejected three times until I found my first girlfriend freshman year of college .

I honestly thought everything is okay. When you said "we're here now", I honestly thought that everything will be different, and that everything will finally look up to what we have between us. This sucks. Being in love with you sucks. I want to let go of you so bad but I can't, because you're everything that I wanted. I can't believe that I can't even tell you the hurt I'm feeling. I can't believe that I can't even let you feel how much pain you caused and are causing me. I can't believe that instead of telling you how much this situation hurts, I'm posting this anonymously instead. I can't believe that we're stuck in this routine where you drop me out of nowhere and I'm forced to deal with waiting and trying to be strong, and trying to act like nothing happened whenever you come back. Sometimes I feel that you're taking me for granted because you know that I'll always be here for you, because you know I'm hopelessly in love with you. I wish you know how much I feel. You can't be that insensitive. You can't be that insensitive. You... just can't.

>>18294539
I know, but I fear that what I come to know may be the confirmed end of our relationship and that would frankly destroy me
How would I even go about it? Do I simply ask to talk or do I start to say what I think immediately?

Should I message her? She said she'd message me, but it's been almost 24 hours. She's literally autistic, so even if I sperg out a little it would be okay. What should I say?

>>18293448
This guy again

>went on psuedo brunch date
>it went well , said she had a good time
>didn't really kiss or anything , but flirted a bit
>said she'd be down again
>going to hang out Tuesday again

Alright honestly guys I'm a KV but I've grown a lot over the past year and am not completely fucking autismo , just only a little bit . Found out she lives about 45 minutes away from me . Should I take things slow and just kinda ramp them up a bit each time we meet? Or just act casual on Tuesday as see where it takes me ?

>>18294573
Blind side her with a call. She'll think it's an emergency and will probably answer. If you text her and spill your feefees she has the opportunity to ignore you. If she does answer make sure to ask her if she's well and how her life is going before you start with your melodrama.

>>18294598
I feel like that's a dick move, especially with what she might be going through right now
I don't want her to feel pressured into talking to me or agreeing with what I have to say, but I just need her to listen so I have one chance to explain myself

Once upon a time, there was a prince and two princesses who both loved him. Without him asking, one princess sacrificed her homeland to be nearer to the prince, and would have sacrificed everything, yet he chose the other. The second princess was mean, vile, and ugly on the inside but the prince did not realize this until it was too late. Ultimately, he had her banished.

Feeling hurt and betrayed, the prince returned to the first princess who knew nothing of these events. Upon his confession, she tried to be supportive but as time progressed, she remember his advantage of her generosity and love. He claimed he never loved the other princess but she instinctively knew he had never intended to share his kingdom with her. The open wound of his betrayal suddenly scarred such that she could no longer view him as her future king. For this princess then, the darkness again and a silence.

>>18294648
I was giving you some options lol do what you wanna do

>>18294653
Go back to her homeland, faggot.

AGHHHHHHHHHH! I HAD THE SHOT BUT THE SAFETY WAS ON. I WAS GOING TO KILL THE BASTARD BUT THE FUCKING SAFETY WAS ONNNNN. THEN OF COURSE I HAD TO MAKE ALL THESE EXTRA MOVEMENTS TO TURN IT OFF WHEN I COULD HAVE SIMPLY PUSHED IT IN. THEN THE FAGGOT FLEW AWAY. GODDAMN IT. I ALMOST HAD THE CUNT. WHY DO GUNS NEED SAFETIES? I WAS READY TO KILL BUT THE FAG PROTECTOR WAS ON. THAT FUCKING BIRD WILL LIVE ANOTHER DAY. OR ANOTHER COUPLE HOURS BEFORE I FIND ITS BITCH ASS AND ANNIHILATE IT. I'M COMING FOR YOU FAGGOT. THE END IS NEAR LITTLE SHITHEAD, I CANT WAIT TO MURDER YOU

>>18294557
Yes. They can.

I wish we could talk already. I'm tired of waiting so long.

Please stop bullying me...

>>18294720
If it's warranted I say man up

>>18294710
Don't wait on people, lad

>>18294710
Me too, why do you have to play so hard-to-get?
>>18294720
You start to bore me.

I'm kind of a filthy slut

>>18294746
Eh,the only call you that because they can't have you.

It's been one year since we last saw each other.
I wish I could say this to you face to face: Thank you. Thank you for eight years, yes, including the one we've been apart.

I'm middle class, I don't have a job and I'm depressed but my parents are paying for my college and therapy so I have no excuse to be a lazy depressed piece of shit for a while. When will this end

Post book, buy doll, check hospital appointments, amend rent deficit, don't drink and drive, don't take drugs, be careful of calling the Police, paid the gas bill, don't flirt with people that don't like me, clean my teeth, write out a C.V., find a job agency that employs people with schizophrenia, keep my fingers crossed, go for a walk, wait for reply

>>18294710
Me too darlin, me too.

How can one girl be so talented and so insanely beautiful?

Leave me alone and stop egging me on for a response. It frustrates the hell out of me how I've left you alone but you refuse to let go. The fuck is wrong with you

>>18294890
Because you're the best I've ever known! No one can compete!

I felt horrible all day, I just wanna cry but I dont wanna explain myself to anyone.

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It's a bit frustrating when you guys are able to capture my essence better than I can right now. All the fashion shoots with the girls dressed up in my style, posing in my fashion. You even manage to find girls that perfectly match my design.

It's hard for me now. I can't focus. I can't create. I have no inspiration, I have no more muse.

>>18294890
Initials?

>>18294901
Anon, you don't make sense and should figure your heart out. I don't want part time anything with anyone. It's all or nothing so continue giving me space and leaving me alone until you know what you want.

Thanks for allowing me to rp there, man.

>>18294918
WS. was me, too: >>18294921

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Erikson%27s_stages_of_psychosocial_development

>tfw i have come out on the negative side of every single psychosocial crisis

christ, unfucking my mind is really going to take some time

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What will you do when I grow a big head?

When I realize that you are all just the weathermen, I make the wind blow.

I wonder if you all will like as much when I'm happy.

>>18294921
I understand that you need space and I know where my heart is. It is you that need to figure that shit out. No pressure.

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I know what these are suppose to trigger in my mind.

A Knight's Tale.

Oh worthy one you are admired.

Could I lift Thor's hammer?

Pull the sword from the stone?

What if I choose not to?

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I've become a nazi basically.

Hitler was right, Sieg Heil.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kzIRG525l6s

>>18294961
Dad sure had a way with words.

>>18294951

>I don't understand this post

>>18294974
aww look at them, pretending to not know again.

Like as if it ever worked.

You know what I never fucking understood?

ICL would say shit like how she wanted to support me and give me love while I looked for another girl. That she was ok with being my practice girlfriend.

Yet she looses her fucking mind whenever it comes to M.

>>18294653
once upon a time the prince realized real princesses don't cuck themselves so hard with a loser that is clearly not boyfriend material desu you fucken faggot.

learn a new song, memorise some complex symbolism, pick up a prescription

>>18294994
This guy gets it.

>>18294961
>those edits of hillary and bernie being "the same politician" like trump isn't a neocon puppet
you kids are so fucking embarassing

You could have chosen me. You should have chosen me. But you didn't. And now you think I'll just run to fuck you again bc you think our fucking was something special? It wasn't. You're not the only one on this planet who makes me moist bw my legs. You lied to me about her, you ignored me while you were with her, and you cry to me about her- I deserve better than second place so fuck off. I have no intention of stringing you along, I'll tell you straight up we're not going to fuck again. If they don't chase you after a mile, they don't chase ya- I've gone 2

>>18294185
im the same guy who posted this

she replied in the end and now we are hanging out soon

>>18294974

Ignore the dude, it's just a crazy guy that has been spamming 4chan for almost a year.

>>18295020
You guys are as shit as time as you are a lying.

Don't wave at helicopters as often, be wary of things

>>18295020
>>18294974
Plus he gets very aggressive, so just ignore. It is not worth your time.

>>18295035
Don't go chasing waterfalls?

>>18295053
I legit don't get aggressive at you morons. I get confused as to why you keep trying.

I guess this is the only way you could get my attention?

The entire world is pining for me after all, so take your little moment of fame I guess.

if you have ever thought you got an emotional repsonse out of me you are wrong.

Grey Kitten, you need to stop wearing sunglasses. You are quite beautiful and very stylish but it is a crime against humanity to hide those emerald eyes from the world.

You are a disgusting being and I pity you.

>>18295079
what did they do to you?

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>>18295002
>calling people kids on the internet to affirm your own superiority.

Trump is a zionist kike puppet. So is Hilary.
You murricans had a choice between shit and crap.

>>18291713
I am in college and I am burnt out.
You have decided wisely.
If my mind wouldn't hesitate I'd have an average paid job by now but I am somehow anxious that I'd never have enough money to live alone for 3-5 years.

>>18295092
>wanting to annihilate a race of human beings to affirm your own superiority.

which one is worse

I don't know why she always hangs around me on parties mate, and i don't know why you would think i would dare to make a move on your girl
stop being a jealous teenager, you're in your twenties for fucks sake

I just jerked off without realising I was still in a Discord channel. Oops.

>>18294494
Just thank god you're not some worthless phillipino that I have to deal with at work. Unlike you, he's genuinely your description.

As long as you have a job or education of some sort, you're worth the air you breathe.

>>18295121
That is what the jews desire for europeans.
Why should I have any pity upon them?

>>18294653
Yep...

My very close friend I crushed on for almost a year turned out to be a lesbian. In a honest talk we had she also pretty much confirmed that she'd be perfect for me and most of my worries were misplace. I told her we will always be friends. And I will keep that promise. But I'm slowly loosing it. It's just one thing away from something awesome. From finally feeling complete again. One thing that won't ever change, no matter what I do.

i've just went to bed and my heart is racing, thinking about random stuff from my past.
idk why but i feel so nervous, as if something was about to happen. don't know why though.
also there's a girl that's driving me crazy. i don't know why i let other people have so much power over me, maybe it's because my life is so boring.
oh, and i think that i'm starting to overcome my depression, these days i've been feeling alright and i feel so powerful right now.

A few months ago my mother tried to kill me after a stupid argument we had about leaving the house. I still have horrors of her running towards me with a knife while I lay on the floor of my brother's room shaking and crying for my life. My sobbing sister was trying to protect me by pushing her away and pleading for her to spare my life. After it ended my dad didn't give a shit and of course took up for my mother. I felt a deep sense of betrayal and hatred for my parents since. I have constant lucid dreams about them where I end physically hitting the pillow by me and yell in my sleep. The day before that incident happened I had a strange dream about them I never had before, now it seems it comes every other night.

I always used to get irritated with my parents but love and forgive them after no matter how many arguments we had in the past. But I can't shake this feeling and I just have a deep hatred for them. I genuinely hope they'll die or I finally find a way to get away from those controlling cunts.

>>18295199
I'm tired of my mother wishing I'd get raped or killed because I want to leave the house at a later time at usual or go by myself. I'm tired of my parents threatening that my life will be ruined and in shambles if I mention I want to move out and taking my passport, credit cards, ect if I try to leave.
I hate them so fucking much. I hope those old fat shits die in their sleep.

The best thing I can do is wait until the summer comes and get a job. They condition my siblings with a sick psychological-emotional dependency on them and physically limit us but then complain about all of us depending on them. I don't get it.

So when are we starting?

Can we please please please please please start it soon? As in, right the fuck now?

Did you put in my prescription for me?

if not.... then I'm not fucking any people with any dicks. How fucking awkward are you going to make that? How the fuck do you think I'll ever even get in a situation where I'll be fucking a dick?

After all this time, what makes you think I'm still going to do it?

Keks, <3

>>18294494
Women are NOT complicated

Mentally exhausted from dealing with some much smarter than I am but more naive.

Many people consider me the most interesting man in the world.

I consider her the most interesting woman in the world.

I don't live in France but I'm disappointed Le Pen wasn't elected.

im going to be dead in about an hour and none of my friends care

goodbye all

Worked up the courage to say "hi" to her in passing today.

Still wonder if I've expressed too much interest and am now therefore "creepy" in her eyes.

Saw her looking and felt her stare on me again at the end of the shift. Kept my head down.
Pretended not to notice.

I should've kept my mouth shut.

>>18295341
Don't kill yourself.

>>18295348
No, you should've said it. You did the right thing.
Think about it this way, anon (and any other anons in a similar situation):

Do you remember the last time someone awkwardly said hi to you in passing, be it a stranger or a co-worker you don't normally talk to? She probably took it in stride, and since it doesn't sound like you two talk a lot, worst case is that she's just as unsure and nervous about what to say next as you.

If you end up catching eyes again, give a nod of acknowledgement and go back to work.
If asked to explain, just say that you're trying to be more outgoing and getting to know people at work. Even if you are interested in her, this is still the truth: You're trying to get to know her, one of your coworkers.

I'm sick of not getting (You)'s! >>18295424

>>18294274
story?

>>18291557
Dear cute girl at work,

So, if anyone had asked me last week what our relationship was, I'd say professional acquaintances. I'm not really looking for a relationship at the moment, and besides, you and that one other guy seem like you have a good thing going. Which is why I thought it weird that you started sitting by me during our big group lunches, instead of him. I thought it was a passing arrangement due to the seating arrangements, but you haven't moved.

That's not really important or my business. Point is, we didn't talk much, despite our regular proximity.

And then last week you started talking to me. A lot. I thought maybe you were just joining the conversation at 'our side' of the table, and I just happened to be in the way. But then all of your responses keyed off of things I said, not others'. When I directly addressed you at one point, you shifted your entire seat to face me (or at least, my direction) which was far more necessary than a normal shift towards talking.

If you're interested in being friends, or something more (is the 'girls playing with their hair' still a thing?), that's cool. I'm just sitting here scratching my head because our interactions went up a thousandfold over a few days, and I have no idea why.

It's amazing how one small thing can completely destroy my mood and make me feel like a sad sack of shit.

I've slowly climbed my way into becoming a person worthy of being alive. I'm thinking positive and have found a way to control my depression so that I can sense when its coming (like it is now) and prepare to fight it. I've lost nearly 200 pounds, I go to the gym and am getting fit, running 3 times a week. I went from barely being able to run for more than 3 minutes at a time to running a 5k. I got a job, part time and min wage, but I'm working. I'm controlling my alcohol intake and trying to read more and spend less time on the internet.

Yet because I graduated two years ago my mom constantly snipes at my lack of finding work "in my field" as if everything in my life will be ok if that happens. Fuck, if she even knew a fraction of what I had to go through to get to where I am now, just to feel like a normal person...

If she ever found out how suicidal I was and for how long, she'd have a fucking breakdown (which is why I never told her). She's always seen me as lazy and unmotivated, and for most of my life I was. But she never took the time to think about WHY I was like that. Because I got good grades in school she never balked at my lack of social interaction, severe obesity, and inability to get a job.

I hate her, and I hate how she makes me feel about myself. I know I'm doing well and progressing, even if I'm behind my peers and where I "should" be. My life is different than other peoples just as much as theirs is different from mine. I need to move out. I need to live on my own, to become truly independent, even if I can never go out to the bar with my friends, or see a movie, or buy a videogame because I'm so poor. My life will improve ten fold if I can just get away from her.

Fuck
I'm going to do it
I don't care what happens
I need to be free
If you act cold to me after this then you I'm better off without you anyway
or at least that's what I'll tell myself to feel better

Phone up the agency,

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As an American, I'm tired of outrage after outrage in politics nowadays. Both sides of the spectrum when the primaries started last year have been freaking out over every little thing, and even now I can't browse the internet or listen to the news for 10 minutes without being hit by a "Trump is going to kill us all" or "Leftist anti-fascists are the new fascists!"

I wish people would realize that Trump is just a more or less harmless idiot who doesn't know how to govern and that electing a highly controversial candidate would naturally spur on a political backlash.

>>18291839
The life of a narcissist is a very sad one, case in point: you. Enjoy your middle age in hell, bitch.

>>18295547
>doesn't know how to govern
>beat 16 opponents and the entire media

You might like to pretend you're neutral and/or enlightened, but you're better off being honest.

>>18295582
That's not governing that's campaigning.

>>18295582
alienating yourself from the media isn't beating it
also,
>>18295591

>>18295591
That's most of what politicians do in this country.

She has been a part of this from the beginning, hasn't she? Her art includes hints going back years...

You were all in on this. All of you girls.

All of you.

So, who is the one? Who will be the one to bring me in the the 3d world?

Which one of you will wake me up?

Who will bring me back to life?

I can tell you who I want it to be, but I don't have to. Everyone already knows.

She was the one to make that post, wasn't she? Saying "You told me you didn't want to be in any new relationships but I know that isn't true. I am your whole world, after all."

This is all so strange.

Are you girls in my cult?

what do you think of me?

>>18291602
Welcome to the club, partner.

Sit down and make yourself comfortable.

i'm so fucking bored of everything, the dysphoria is overwhelming
i hate the fucking persona i've built for myself and wish i could just reset and rebuild it. it takes me less than an hour to regret things i say/do, like I'll do shit that if I saw someone else doing I'd probably think they were a fucking loser
why do I live and feel this way I just fucking hate it

>>18292607
Tattooes and ear gauges on 63% of these unique little snowflakes.

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>>18291557
I'm scared, guys. I don't know what I'm gonna do, I feel like I'm slowly walking to the edge of a cliff.
Sometimes I feel love,
I know a clever gook.
She talked to another clever gook the other day, laughing with her tongue exposed and her lungs almost rhythmically stretching with shallow air. Her whole face moved.
She wears heavy glasses, she has messy hair, she always reads and is quiet. It's like she's like me, she understands me, she's tolerant.
I felt sad. She almost looked like a normie, and it disappointed me.

Can anybody relate
even a little?

I'm done. 25 struggled with smae and embarasment my whole life and sometimes more than others really tried to change myse,f and rid myself of this fucking self hate and anxiety that pepetuates narcicissm and ultimately avoidant behaviors. my whole life i've been put on stand still or "chill out" by my family so whenever im wierd in society or i feel someone i wanyt to be close to judges me on even the most superficial thing i fucking freak inside hating myself or removing myself from people.

I tried so hard to be nice to myself and others it got me NOTHING UI FUCKING HATE THIS LIFE

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>>18295729
She looks at me like I'm a drop of oil on her scratched glasses, I talk loudly in other groups to be heard by her,
I act edgy and talk about how much I want to die
and sometimes Im telling the truth
All she does is look in shock for three seconds
Like a dead baby were before her on tape, she's not arrogant
Shes authentically disturbed, perhaps even cringing

I always looked at love and felt alone, it's too normie a thing, it's superficial, it's not important,
I don't even love that much,
She just makes me sad

>>18294073
That's hot as fuck. ( I'm a straight femanon)

>>18295758
My spic mom has no friends, and the white ladies treat her like a joke

>>18295777
I think I'm done,

>>18295716
i've never felt like i deserve happiness, i've never done anything to deserve happiness, and i'm doomed to stay this way forever
i deeply hate how i act and my history as a person
it's the only thing that serves to define me

I'm fucking tired of life. It got so complex so fast, and I just don't get what's going on anymore. In less than 9 hours I'll be at my fucking job again, fuck that. Tomorrow night people will probably be in my fucking mind again, which is nice but also fucking shit. I'm fucking shit. My mind is fucking shit. I am not my mind, but whatever. I want to get drunk. I want to get high. I wish I could skip tomorrow's work. I wish my mind would be sane again. I wish I didn't think my thoughts are being broadcast. I wish people would understand me and hug me on the street when they're reading my fucking mind. I wish the world wasn't a fucking dystopia.

>>18294995
That's really the best you can come up with? Gutless twat.

My drawings have improved so much. I actually look at them and think "Okay, I can draw". Still suck at colors, backgrounds and tons of other things but hey. My characters are looking nice

>>18294890
No one's egging anyone. People are supposed to vent here. You are projecting.

Àaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Tomorrow I'm getting a tattoo and I haven't decided if I'm covering my shitty chest piece or getting a remembrance piece of Beastie on my arm.. She is doing well but I'd like to get a commemorative piece before she goes. I hate thinking about her situation but the piece will bring good memories.

Yeah, nah, you're a lying cunt.

All of your photos have that fake smile or goofy face that you use when acting happy.

You dropped the your last 'man' because you got bored with him, despite protesting for months that you and he were perfect and never going to change.

You picked this one up like three weeks later?
I guess he was even more perfect than the last one, because you got married in less than a year later. Definitely not rebounding hard on that one.
I wonder how long it's going to take to get bored of this latest bad boy. One year? Two? I guess it depends on how prideful you're going to be before admitting the mistake.

You've got the self-awareness of a brick, the emotionally maturity of a thirteen year old girl, and daddy issues so glaring we could plant the stick up your ass in the ground and call you a lighthouse.

Everyone was supportive, even if they see the signs, because they know you won't listen. Nobody called you a slut. You figured that one out by yourself. It's called a conscience.

>>18294304
She didn't come to work today.. and I felt like absolute shit and still kinda do.. I'm hoping she didn't quit the job.. I'm so.. confused.. everything tells me she may both be into me.. and not into me. I also feel guilty about being attracted to a 19 year old girl at my age, and told myself I'd only date girls between 25-32, given that I'm 31.. but she seems so mature.. I wonder what her family would think.. I hope she returns tomorrow.

I hate living like this. My anxiety makes mr feel like im acting in everything i do. Nothing feels natural i think and worry about everything i i had so much failures and lost opportunities that i cant count them i feel like i should've found a solution a long time ago and i feel so incredibly alone because of my everything sucks and i hate my fucking life

bread

I hope you haven't forgotten about me.

>>18296365
Second.

But I realized that those missed opportunities resurface in the form of new opportunities, you just gotta run into the right people.

I am so tired of you John. I mean it. You PROMISED ME that you would make an appearance tonight, but did you? NO. I wasted my entire night waiting for your ass... I could have been sleeping but the fucking idiot in me was hoping to see you for the first time in a month.

Thanks for reminding me that the promises of men are pure shit.

I want to be with a diabolical, haughty, wannabe noblewoman.

One that demands her feet licked at least once a week.

I can live with that.

I can't do this anymore. The waiting, the worrying, it's killing me.

>>18296666
iktf, anon.
>phone buzzes
>jump a mile in the air, freak the fuck out
>maybe it's her
>email from some spam site
>go back to wanting to die

>>18296666
Nice digits

Should of known when he first started sharing his kinks with me that I was just the first person he felt comfy confiding to, that he would always look for someone else he could move on to that would accept him for what he is. He had a great body i want to sissify and the most beautiful ass. Fuck me, man. When I'm not busy, I watch him follow other girls on instagram and ignore my facebook messages and wonder if he sends that kinky shit to them as well. I'll never find a slave quite like him but I've moved on. Have fun, sailor.