I have really bad issues with depression, alongside anxiety issues caused by my antidepressants. Today, I fucked up and accidentally sent a group chat I'm in for the leadership of a university club some porn I had downloaded on my phone, and now everyone fucking hates me even more than they already did. Ive been at work all day and ive just been reflecting on how I have practically no friends, I hate my degree/internship, I hate my school, I get little enjoyment out of anything besides anime, videogames, and porn, and I can't shake the feeling I have that I should just end it so I don't end up continuing to be such a miserable piece of shit for the rest of my life. Should I go try talking to a therapist, is there something else I can do to try making myself happy, or should I just accept I will never be satisfied with my life and just end it?
>>18286359
Talk to a therapist. Stop the video games and porn. Exercise more and pick up a new hobby, preferably a social one. Set yourself ambitious goals for your career in work for them.
what porn was it
>>18286369
It was a page from a F/SN hentai doujin
>>18286365
Thanks for the advice. I do exercise a fair amount and am in decent shape but I get no enjoyment out of it, and I have no idea what activities I could try that I would enjoy at all, let alone social ones
>>18286384
Just prep for the race war that will bring joy back to your life, just the idea of crushing nigger skulls with my bare fit is enough for me to work over time and get a brand new ar15
>>18286487
What the fuck are you talking about?
>>18287128
>>18286384
>I have no idea what activities I could try
Volunteer worker at church, soup kitchens, hospitals, in crisis areas abroad, volunteer firefighters / ambulance worker, etc.?
It will make you happy as well.
>>18287190
I used to volunteer pretty often, but I never really made any good connections with people from it, probably because I'm completely unlikeable
>>18286359
You should learn how to spell, for starters.
>>18287135
/pol/
>>18286359
Dude I grew up with a bipolar mom that had depression as well a dad that grew up in a broke ass household and they faught my whole life up until I was 14 they stopped but I was still damaged now I know this is not about me but I felt like I had no freinds and no one liked me and I was worthless but dude wait a couple years and things will change now all that go volunteer bullshit is stupid do what you love try sports even if your not good go pickup mountain bikeing or somthing and I know what it feels like to be depressed and alone but try going out to a party if you feel like killing you self try shit do drugs. Not crack and heroin and stuff but try lsd and molly and weed get drunk and have fun
>>18286359
Find people you share interests with, online at least if you cant irl. I also suggest saving for attending to a uni for smth you find fun.
I am pretty much the same though tge only reason i have friends is because i managed to find peeps that share interests with me. I also follow my dream career path. Nothing makes you happier than hanging on with others that like the same stuff as you do and working a job you love. Do you have any idea how many guys like you are out there ? If at least a few of you would gather then you would pretty much have a group of friends that you actually enjoy spending time with.
>>18286359
Also drop the antidepressives. Most of the time they do more harm than good.