A horrible week

Take some time for yourself to feel better. It's worth it and it will help you do your school work when you feel better. Hang in there.

>>18262939
The first time I went to uni, I had a break down during exam season and I stopped going.
I get that feeling
But you mustn't give in
That breakdown FUCKED my life.
It's almost been 10 years and I'm still recovering.

I know what that must make you feel. It's like "Holy shit, this is so important but I can't feel anything".
I'm not trying to put pressure on you.
The truth of the matter is that it is easy to do.
You can do all of it very easily.
You just need to get into "go mode"
After class, go straight to the library and do all your assignment, plog away on your essays and do your studying.
Then once that's done. Come home and relax.

You need to find your "go mode".
The second time I went to uni, I blazed through it.
It's all in your head mate. If it's in your head, you can beat it. It's like that ballerina illusion. Which way is she spinning? However which way you want her to be

>>18262983
I know this "go mode" you speak off. I had it last semester and it was probably the best semester i had socially and academically.

After my depression I lost this "go mode" and i am trying to retrieve it back.

Cause of my depression. I feel that i am too sensitive. I try not put a stress of my self until i recover from my depression. But its difficult since no one knows of my depression and the fact that i am trying to cover for it. It just too much stress on me

>>18263048
I know just that feeling.
When I had my depression after my first stint in college, I couldn't telly anyone about it
I mean shit, after highschool, I was pegged as the one who was going to go places.
But I fucked up. I couldn't advertise that I did, of course.
So I stayed to myself.

I got out of it by finding the small things in day to day life that were "beautiful in themselves"
It sounds gay, but that's how I thought of it.
Leaves blowing in the trees.
Clouds in the sky.
Sitting under a tree and reading.
Cooking a good meal.

Things that were good just because they were. What I was and who I was didn't change how good they were. They were just good and I got to experience them.

Do those things. You can recover and get back to school stronger than ever.
Everyday just spend a little time being empty of your life and doing things that are just good because they are.
To be crude, do things that Hitler could do and still be worth doing

I was going to comment with my advice.

Reading >>18262983 is all you need to go along with.
Good luck.

>>18263199
I will say this: beware negatively reinforcing bad habits by choosing leisure before work.

If you can consciously decide to put away distractors for the sake of getting your work done first, you will be so much better for it.

>>18262939
matrimony