How does one with depression and depersonilization succeed ?

Focus on one of those at a time. They're all HUGE goals, and anyone attempting to tackle them all at once is going to find themselves more stressed and depressed. Pick one, and then establish goals within that list and focus on that.

Instead of "I want to get /fit/," say "I want to lose 15lbs." Focus on the latter, not on the nonspecific, difficult goal of the former.

It sounds cheesy but it works.

oh and
>go to college

>>18243330
How old are you OP?

>>18243435
I'm 18

>>18243458
Do you have a high school degree? You're not in a bad place right now honestly if you're just 18 and at least have that. If not, getting a GED is easy.

>>18243465
i have a high school degree but i feel too much of a brainlet for college and it worries me

>>18243528
What were your grades like? And do you have anything in particular you want to study? In general, basic college shit for an associates or bachelor's degree is really easy so long as you do the work. There are some real retards out there that have college degrees.

>>18243532
my grades were good but i flunked in math a bit, i wanted to go for software engineering because programming seems cool and i know i can improve in math if i try hard enough

I've done all of those things except feel happy. That ones impossible.

Adderall