I'm a slut for a comfy bed

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How the fuck do I become a more resilient person?

>feeling horrible, light-headed
>faint but ever throbbing pain in clit, extremely distracting and makes me just want to run home and lay down (fairly random; for some reason it occasionally happens when I'm feeling fucked up)
>6 hours of sleep the night before which for some fucking reason is enough to render me into a dysfunctional wench; area around eyes is discolored, dark, like smudged mascara, and I can't seem to think or speak well
>coffee doesn't appear to work
>feel embarrassed about my appearance, feel like a walking bag of trash, don't wanna be seen by anyone
>not even being sick
>end up skipping two of my classes because of this so I can go curl up in my room
>actually love my classes
>doesn't stop me from being a goddamned fretful flake

I feel like a textbook case of the person who's a slave to sensation and feeling. I loathe myself for it. I literally am the type of person who'd easily sleep in through work and lose my job...and I'd not feel a thing. Obligations aside, though, there's some thing's that are important to me, ones that'll spawn regrets if I always cast them away for the sake of my fuzzy comfort zone.

I know I am a fuckin awful person.
How do I unfuck myself?