Feedback on Loneliness Problem?

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My paranoia, perfectionism, eccentricity, and outgoingness bordering on aggressiveness is the reason why I'm alone. As you know, these traits aren't easy to change overnight...and they almost don't feel like something 'wrong' anymore. I feel uncomfortable all of the time, and a very specific set of requirements have to be met before I can successfully associate with a person as a partner or friend.

I also feel like life isn't real, and looking at myself in pictures makes me extremely upset, despite the feedback that I look average.

It's basically neuroticism and disorganization, from being cast out by my family, being forced away from my hometown and having so many nervous breakdowns. I'm twenty-two now. I'm starting career training, finally, but the boredom of thrifty life is starting to get to me.

I wasn't able to hold onto my girlfriends/'fuckbuddies'. I wasn't able to live in one place long enough to establish a friend group. My family is intolerant of *any* kind of extreme emotion, and besides, they're the reason I ended up like this (abusive father, nobody signing the federal student aid forms...). I really loved a girl in my hometown, but the disruption to my life ruined that relationship.

I've been gaining and, for lack of a better word losing friends for a really long time now. The only time people seem to want me around is when I'm listening to every word they say and potentially fucking them. My coworkers are going to be old Latin women, nice but without much in common. Should I go on OKCupid?

Between OKCupid, Meetup, and VolunteerMatch, I should be able to get human contact. All of those things take time resources and money I barely have, though.

There's people who say dating sites don't work, but they'll discourage you from anything here. I've seen them work. At least Tinder undeniably results in some sort of success, provided you have good pictures. Either way, MeetUp and VolunteerMatch should have enough human contact to keep a person sane?