unsure and confused about future with ex girlfriend

>>18206053
op here still, hit word limit lol
i know she has exams in under 2 months and she's under a lot of pressure because she is doing a lot of subjects
maybe it'll be after then?

also i should add
>she also thinks that im her true love
>the last thing she said to me in person before i left to go home after seeing her was "i love you" and the last thing i said to her was "i love you too"
>we kissed a lot the last time we saw each other and talked about our entire history together a lot, all the memories and that
>she's most beautiful girl i've ever seen and the loveliest girl i've ever met

>>18206053
That was too much text for me to answer another relationshit thread. Give us the pertinent bullet points there buddy, and cut out all the superfluous storytelling.

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>>18206070
>ever putting yourself on standby for someone
You're so lovesick it hurts to read. You're 18. You two do not love each other. You are not in love. Deep infatuation =/= Love. If she's changing into someone you don't recognize, and she isn't even willing to keep you around to work on herself, leave. Waiting around and watching her change while simultaneously trying your hardest to be with her will only leave you a heartbroken mess. Don't wait. Move on.
>t.18 year-old that wasted ~8 months waiting on a girl he "loved"

>>18206617
theres 11 arrows which arent that long and all of them mean something

>>18206630
well i do love her regardless of what internet man, she was my best friend as well as my girlfriend, she understood me in a way that none of my close friends ever have

>>18206828
Then why are you here if not for advice or testimony from others in a similar situation.

She also is playing the field, seems like you are her fallback if a better opportunity doesn't come around.

>>18206839
>If she's changing into someone you don't recognize, and she isn't even willing to keep you around to work on herself, leave.

whenever we hung out towards the end, we would always end up having a big argument and that would make her feel like shit for days, and it would carry over till the next time we saw each other, making there always be tension

>She also is playing the field, seems like you are her fallback if a better opportunity doesn't come around.

she said to me that she's not looking for a relationship whatsoever, but instead wants some time to fix herself
and she isn't a slut who wants to fuck more people and see some bad boys but i see how you could think that but it's not that way

It's called honey moon phase. It ends after 12-18 months. That's the "love" people like to think, but in reality it's just infatuation. Once it ends, those good feelings aren't there to hide all the negatives in the other person. That's when fights can start constantly breaking out.

Real love is hard work, dedication, and nurturing a relationship until you both die. It doesn't start until the honey moon phase ends. Hers ended, yours didn't.

The key point is, she doesn't want that relationship. It might be you, it might just be she's 18, immature, and won't be ready to commit like that for awhile. But really if you're having fights already then it's probably not going to last. I know you think you won't find someone like her again but you will.

>>18206857
i've been in other relationships and i have had the phase and that spark die before but it wasn't like that

>Real love is hard work, dedication, and nurturing a relationship until you both die
i agree, and it look like she needed a break between us and as much as i hate it, i knew it would be the best thing to do because if we carried our relationship on at that time we would have ruined it by us being dumb
i cant stand her not being mine but im willing to do this to make her better
it's not that she doesn't want our relationship, i don't think she can handle any more pressure than she already has right now