I offended a friend in highschool and i feel shitty about it

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I had this really attractive female friend in high school, who took an interest in me (as friends and because we were into the same music). She even said she was interested in meeting more of my family after becoming friends with my cousin at her job. She even became worried about me when got into problems in schoo with friends and grades.

During the same time, i just had a bitter break up with my horrible gf, and was petty enough to be completely over showing respect to women. I also heard her talking about leaving our group of friends once high school ended. Out in public i cringily hit on her while she bent out to take something out of her backpack.

I still feel terrible about doing that because it was really obvious that she enjoyed hanging out with me because i was clearly not like that before. When we became friends two guys came to hit on her, she was clearly used to dealing with the unwanted attention. I feel like i let her down.

Maybe i'm whiteknighting her because was really beautiful, with the same body as pic. I really like to not be a perverse kind of a guy, and i always remember having done that to her.

The last time i saw her was when i ran into her in community college and she hugged me, then the next time i saw her she was awkward and just said hi. I get that she couldn't have been too dissapointed if hse hugged me, i still am mad at myself that i offened her like that.

I remember being a kid and seeing other beaner kids being casually perverse and hating that kind of careless and direct disrespect. I feel like i've failed my childhood self.