What am I doing with my life?

>>18176959
Part 2 -

So within the past 6 months I realized just how much I was wasting my life and how lonely I was. I don't really have a clue on what I want to do in my life. I say I want to do something with Computers so I started studying for the Comptia A+ certs on Cybrary. However I am half-assing it because I'm not even sure I am passionate about it. I picked up drawing and it has been about a year ago now since I started it but once again I half-assed it. I do workout, I like to go for walks along the river and I like hiking. However I really need to break my addiction to Twitch streams. I waste more time watching/listening to Twitch streams than actually playing games these days. I have only one friend who I've known for 18 years but we don't really talk much anymore and I have only seen him once in person in the past 10 years. I have acquaintances at work and a few gym buddies. It really hit me about 6 months ago though. Basically my little cousins came in from out of town and for the longest time I was trying to see them. After trying to get a time frame to where I can spend time with them it had been like 3 months. So I was super excited to see them. They came over for 4 days and I had a great time with them. My quiet room was filled with the girl's non-stop yapping and the boy playing COD. Then I took them back to their dads and I didn't make it down to the end of the street before I started tearing up. Pretty much had tears running down my face the entire drive back home. Then when I walked into my room and opened the door I felt how solitary my room actually was. It was extremely painful to just sit in my room and do anything because of how quiet it was. Family told it me was time that I finally realized how lonely I was and that I should get out and do things. My grandma offered to pay for a couple of college classes but I wasn't really sure what I wanted to do. So now I am studying for Comptia A+ cert.

>>18176963

Part 3 -

I just started getting into dating. Been with two girls, granted only went on 4 dates with one and 2 with the other. First girl I believe faded on me because even though we really liked each other we had no ALONE time for us. Due to her situation that she had with her landlord, she couldn't have guys over. Due to my situation of living with my mother and grandma, there was ALWAYS someone home. We would have fucked but I got cock-blocked by my mother coming home and knocking on my door. The girl got nervous even though we continued making out but she didn't want to go further because my mother was home. Second girl, long story short, was just too much of an age difference and her parents didn't approve. However the main thing was comparing how much they actually did in their life compared to mine. First girl worked two jobs, volunteered for a preschool and tutored kids after school a few days a week. Second girl was studying for two majors in college and volunteered for an elementary school two days a week. And here I am "working" two jobs and watching twitch streams while half assing to study for a cert.


What the fuck do I do to "get out there"? I tried finding some meetups but it seems like no one in anything I am interested in actually goes to any of them. Example being "Event on X day 1 person showed up (out of 150 people in the group)".

life sucks doesnt it

>>18177008
Tell me about it.

im finding myself in a pretty huge depression too. And i live alone, have a good job. All that shit for which you are looking. Use your job to fund and fuel your passions. Sucks we need to work like 5/7 days, thats like, 67 percent of our lives. But its the world we live in. What are you passionate about? And nothing is a perfectly fine answer.