VENT thread

I already did my bench presses today.

Every morning when waking up for the past week, I stick my gun to my head and contemplate pulling the trigger.

>>18173640
There wouldn't be a reason to put a gun up to your head in the first place if you weren't already planning on pulling the trigger. There's nothing to contemplate.

There's no need to rush, man. Life will always end too soon, you can count on that.

>>18173635
My now ex-fiancee who i've known since childhood broke up last week because she cheated on me with my "childhood-best friend"
Bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks.
people are fake as fuck

Fuck mosquitos man. Fuck those tiny little bastards! Flying around your ear at night then the minute you turn on the light they vanish like ninjas. Having to go through weeks of itching and scratching hell every time one of those fuckers bites you. And you know you're not supposed to scratch but then you reach your limit and you do it anyway, causing yourself more pain. Thanks god. Thanks so fucking much for creating these freaks of nature. I bet you were baked when you thought of this idea and it would be freaking hilarious.

I'm so in need for a gf. It's the only thing I can think about lately. I can't even chill platonically with women anymore, whenever I see a female I find vaguely attractive and/or mentally inspiring I feel a sting in the back of my chest that pushes me to profess my interest, when ironically my first reaction is to act as distant as possible because I know women will shoot down a needy guy like a fish in a barrel. That's when they push me away the most because they think I'm an asshole to them for some reason.

I can't focus on anything, I feel life is pointless without a partner, my personal goals are empty and vapid without a special someone. I'm so needy for affection the last person I had romantic interest in still haunts me. I can't talk to any women because I'm always afraid I fuck up and spill my spaghetti how starved for affection I am.

I'm ready for the conspiracy of my fucking life to come clean already.

I'm suffering every fucking day and you assholes continue to just... keep this bullshit up.

I'm not going to get out. I'm not going to be able to do fucking ANYTHING until I learn the truth. So why are we waiting? WHY?

>>18173744
Invite more spiderbros who eat mosquitoes.

If you're lucky their webs will also catch your nightmares.

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>>18173771
That'd be a great idea if the spiders where I live were a tad smaller than in pic

>>18173777
>Straya

Your mosquitoes must be huge and I wonder why you haven't dried up yet.

>>18173635
I am desperately in love with my ex's sister, who is married to the single biggest hipster douche man-baby on the face of the planet. He picks fights with her, manipulates her emotions, contributes nothing to their relationship, and cheated on her shortly before they got married. Every time they visit, they get into a huge fight, and I end up consoling her while her stamps around huffing and puffing over whatever stupid thing he's throwing a fit over. Usually it's because he wants to do something, like going out and getting high with his friends, but instead has to spend a single night dealing with her family. I want to kick the fuck out of him, and reasonably could do so, accept it would just mean I wouldn't get to see her any more.

I really felt like she was on the verge of leaving him when she got pregnant (he became extra shitty because all the attention wasn't on him anymore), but now that the kid is here, she feels like she has to try and and stick it out and try to make the relationship work.

The best part is, while I sit around and wait for their marriage to fall apart, so I can throttle the fuck out of that slimy piece of hipster shit and his shitty, middle school peach fuzz mustache that he just can't shut the fuck up about, I have to face the fact that we aren't ever going to be able to be together, because of the awkward family situation.

I still like her

I'm going to explode if I don't get some sleep

I think I'm not ok

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pic is how I feel.

I just want the truth, holy shit.

Sure, I'm super hyper mega rich and having that money would be pretty awesome but... I just want the truth.

I want to talk to a real doctor, a doctor that one lie to me. I want to know what medicines you are giving me. I want to know why you won't let me take stimulants despite having 0 energy... something caused by my diseased fucking brain.

I really want to know how much money I have though.

I really want to know when you're going to turn me into a lady. I want this more than the other shit by far.

God why do I randomly want to kill myself so badly sometimes?
I was painting my house and was fine and all the sudden it is morning and I can't stop thinking of the balloon helium tanks I saw at Walmart and how nice it would be just to disappear.
What even am I anymore? What do I even care about? I used to care about love but now I can hardly care about that, I care about anime but that gets stale, and I care kind of about my friends but I know just like my past friends have that they can replace me at any time once I talk to them less.
I am a disappointment to my family and I only live for superficial pleasures, trying to have the nice life I never got to have during my childhood and teen years. I want something more fulfilling but what even is more fulfilling?
I don't believe in god and most romantic interests wouldn't get all my emotional trauma that I have so I feel like it is so tiring trying to start the cycle over again trying to look for someone who really cares. There is nothing and noone to really motivate me, I just am empty and trying to fill my empty self with "fun" shit like cool clothes and nice food.

i never had the motivation to change or make something of myself. i couldnt have done it for myself.

then i met her. she was genuinely nice to me. the first woman who did not seem to hate me for what/who i am. Over the course of a few months i got my life on track, got my first real job.

then out of nowhere she met someone. told how excited she was to meet up with him. my heart was crushed. that happened a few months ago. i still feel like shit. i still feel like shit. yet i think i deserved it.

It does get better eventually, does it?

I can't stop thinking about you.
I see the distance growing between us. Even before this all happened, I saw the rift.
I tried my best to stop it, but truly you were done with me before all this.

If this was truly what it took for us to break up, and if what you feel for me is now hatred and not love. I have to move on. I know I hurt you, but if you can't look beyond our past so we can try to talk like mature people, then I have to move on.

I have to move on for the sake of my own sanity. You won't tell me directly, and I see you dodging the question every time i ask it. Yet, you continue to answer my small talk. I don't understand why.

I'm not going to be your toy, and if you are trying to set up a 'friendship' you should know better than that.

I have to stop looking at my phone, running my life shorter everyday over all the stress. I don't know what you want, but it's clear it's not me.
It hasn't been me for years. I could see it in your eyes every time we met. You felt obligated to give me of your time. I never asked to be your only priority, nor your first, not even 2nd or 3rd. I just wanted to be a part of your life. I wanted to be supportive and encourage you to follow your dreams. I wanted to be there for you.

Why couldn't you just be honest and tell me you didn't want me? Instead of letting things get to the point they got? I'm not sure I even want to try again. I'm not sure you're the same person I loved. I changed, I know I did. But, do you see you did as well? Do you see that you are flawed as well? I never hated your flaws, they made you who you are. Like mine are part of me. Yet, if you only would have been honest about things, I would have more than willing to change for you.

Because I cared and loved you. You? I'm not even sure why you held on for this long, but if it was to hold things in and let them turn into resentment between us, you need to rethink what you want out of a relationship.

I need to grow up. I know I do.
But so do you.

Please stop trying to "hang out" with me.
I'm not interested, and my future/schoolwork is genuinely the only thing I should be focusing on right now. I may sound like a bitch, but 30 minutes is a lot of time to spend with someone I'm not interested in when I could be reviewing for my next test or writing up my report that's due soon.
You seem like a chill guy, but there's something in my gut that doesn't feel right about you. It's weird how you've kept pursuing me even after I turned you down on three separate occasions with obvious "I regret trying to be friends" vibes.
I'm sorry.

>>18173877
You didn't make it clear enough.

FUCK YOU, /ADV/, YOU IGNORE ALL MY POSTS.

>>18173887
we all come for help. thats the problem i guess.

>>18173884
How do I make it clear without making it awkward? He and I are lab partners for one of my classes and the labs run at least 1 1/2 hrs.

I just want to buy a helium tank and die. I wish I had someone who could actually help me. I am trying to keep myself from going and buying it. It would be kind of nice to sleep forever

>>18173910
Tell him with a straight face. Don't patronize him and don't be pissy about it. Just said it as it is.

I dont want to exist anymore

>>18173910
Him: You want to hang out?
You: No.
Him: Some other time?
You: No. I'm not interested in hanging out. I just want to be lab partners.

>>18173925
>>18173912
>>18173838
Seek help, anon. Talk to your friends or family. Call the suicide hotline for your country. What you are feeling is not normal. Your circumstances likely don't justify your death. There are people that care about you, and whatever you're going through right now will eventually get better.

I'm so fucking concerned with rejection and my own faults that I've never asked a girl out yet wanting female contact more than anything

>>18173942
I'm also extremely concerned with rejection. I decided to ask girls out anyway. To this day not one has gone on a date with me. Two have said yes but cancelled it later, the rest gave me some typical excuse like "I'm busy." which makes it worse. I don't think I can take another rejection, I feel like a useless waste of oxygen.
According to my friends my standards aren't even too high so I don't get it.

I'm so nervous about moving to Arizona. It bothers me almost every day and keeps me up at night sometimes, and I can't tell my girlfriend because she's so excited about it, and because it's a great career move for her. It's the best PhD program she could've gotten into. But I know that my undergrad degree will be absolutely worthless when I finish up school there, and I am currently set on PhD-track Physics. At the same time, I don't want to be away from her for five, or even just two years while we earn or finish our respective degrees.

>>18173956
You're not the waste of oxygen bro, they are. There's definitely perfect girls out there for us we just need to find them

>>18173942
>>18173956

What about rejection scares you?

>>18173930
>Talk to your friends or family
My closest friend is autistic and probably couldn't hep me because she is bad with emotional things, and my other hgood friend has issues of her own and talking about how much I want to die right now would just make her feel worse about her situation. I know she has enough trouble trying to stay positive and trying to get things together as it is
My parents are abusive and wouldn't understand. I don't know the rest of my family members enough to talk to them because I have only seen them at like 2 family gatherings
>call the suicide hotline
Believe me, I really want to but I don't want them to send cops to my house and make things worse. I know they like to do that here
>whatever you're going through right now will eventually get better
I have been having depressive issues for so long and I feel so unfulfilled and I don't know how to find an actual meaning in my life. I want to find some kind of drive but I don't have any drive to do anything beyond work and living life doing whatever. I try to do hobbies and hang out with people and try new things but I don't think there is a reason for anything and I don't know anyone who wouldn't get over my death in a month.
I just don't see how things would be different if I just filled my room with helium and died watching some TV show
Thanks for responding though. I don't even know what to do or who to talk to that won't either call the cops and make my life worse or is not already having suicidal issues of their own

>>18173986
The fantasy i think up in my head not being a reality

>>18173992
How often do the fantasies in your head come true to begin with?

>>18174000
Never, I'm self aware and know that i'm holding onto nothing, still doesn't help me fearing rejection atm

>>18173986
I guess the realization that I'm not good enough for some average girl to just hang out alone with me for a while. That I'm not good looking enough or interesting enough as a person, like I'm only just someone people can tolerate being around to some extent. Especially if I get to know someone and I start thinking we get each other and have stuff in common.
I feel like I'm placed at the bottom of a list of guys, I mean I know it's not a competition and that I shouldn't compare myself to others but it's like I'm below the guy that manages to ask a girl to hang out with him alone for a while and get a yes. Like I'm only good for myself or for favors or deeds that don't require my actual presense.
Every new rejection feels like a confirmation of this. I also have the problem of paying too much attention to people or getting too attached to people so if someone has an idea of me that is too diferent than mine of them (like "I don't like you that way") it feels pretty bad to realize it's like that.
I know it's different for guys and girls but I myself only ask someone out after knowing them to some extent and when it seems we really get along. If a girl asked me out like that, even if I weren't interested in being in a couple with her, I'd say yes and give the date or whatever it is a shot.

>>18173992
I know that feel. I get pretty worried when mental images of what could happen in the best case scenario just pop up into my head, unconsciously, because I just know that what happens in real life will be the opposite or at least not like that.

FUCKING FREE MEEEEEEEE

>>18174038

You sound like a funny guy anon

I don't know what's wrong but I feel weird around you. Like I don't love you anymore :( I hope it's temporary and just a hormonal thing.
The porn thing I think has finally completely turned me off you. It's lame but I guess the comparison is evident between a healthy man like him and a creep like you can be. Preferring porn over your girl is creep mode 100 to me. I think that thought alone made me stop loving you like I should not to mention how I want to vomit every time I touch your soft penis.

I really am tired of trying to understand people so I don't feel so weird and out of place with others. People can't be understood, and I can't change, no matter how much I want to.

>>18173988
You need to see a psychiatrist. You have clinical depression. Yes, it is exacerbated by your lifestyle. Try exercising more, taking walks in the sun, and eating more fruits and vegetables. If you make these changes and also start antidepressants and a regimen of mental coping strategies (journaling, therapy, meditation, etc) you can overcome your depression. I used to be in a very similar position to you. It's a long road to recovery but you can reach a point in your life where wanting to die isn't this omnipresent feeling but just an occasional niggling in the back of your mind. Life is worth living, you just have to learn to see that again.

>>18173635

I ended a 10 year relationship because of the connection we had.

You sparked an entire new life in me that I haven't felt in years....I wake up every day feeling more and more like the me I have in my head or want to be and it's all because of you.

...so why don't we talk anymore? Or rather...why do you send me these random "I still feel like we have this soul connection and fuck the world" messages out of the blue...

You're lovely and amazing and fucked up and I'm those things too.

We should be those things together.

I know you have a lot of pressure at work and you're scared that my relationship isn't over - but I'm in 100%.

I hope you come back to me someday.

We could set the world on fire.

I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I'll always be alone. It hurts, and it's my own fault. It's getting slightly easier. I wish I had the courage to end it all. I don't belong here.

>>18173785
Wait I'm a bit slow...are you a guy or girl...?!!!

Hey is this for relationship things mainly or could i get advice on a traumatic disturbing breakdown I had.

>>18173795
Get professional help please and don't harm any innocent persons.

My best friend is a 14 year old girl that I met on Omegle under the 4chan tag. I love her dearly, and it's a pure platonic kind of love that you'd have for a good friend. She's constantly depressed, though, and I wish I could help her somehow. I hate seeing her suffer like she does. Lord knows she helps me all the time by being in my life and telling me she loves me.

>>18174247
shoot

>>18174247
Nope anything goes.

>>18173635
I don't know what the fuck i should do now with this girl so story in short.

>Meet girl
>She is in depression and takes medication
>She has other disorders too
>Start to do things with her freqeuently
>We already went out
>She said over and over that she really likes me and that I'm her best friend
>After our first "date"
>She invited me to her and to a party from her best friend
>We get along pretty good
>Randomly she messages me and asks me what look i gave her in class
>Only say to her that she is pretty and that i like her very much
>After sometime she just said
>"Hihi <3 you are my best friend"
>Talk to her that i need clarity and that i want maybe more
>She says that it is really hard because she needs to get over her EX and trust problems because of her EX
>Says: For now let's stay friends, but maybe it can develop into something
>Well she didn't change her behavings a bit and we still have much fun and meet ourselfs

Is this even worth keeping up?
I mean she said let us stay friends but maybe it can develop into something.

>>18174253
How does one meet 14 year old girls on the internet?
Asking for a friend

I really fucked myself up
>can only get off to pictures of little grills in swimsuits or underwear with camel toe

What the fuck do I do

>>18173748
In this life, few people understand the very real thirst within the human spirit.

Even when in their presence, unknowingly they give you life and energy, with a few words they so easily disconnect the plug.

Life is unforgiving, anon. Even compatibility I feel is a disingenuous wash. Once others have their emotional needs met by whatever means, get ready to lay low on the sidelines.

You can become the shitty person others do become. But your life will have no real meaning, and you will hate your decisions.

I find myself screaming at the world. If she knew how easy our life together would be. But she doesn't care. Probably has somebody.. makes me wanna be an asshole and just take her from him, but that's beneath me.

So I'll probably wait 5-10 more years to feel something again... my body withers, my spirit dies in this industrial wasteland. Shit jobs consume more and more of me.

And it's my fault.

Unless things work out in my favor, you're probably gonna be worried about me and _ being alone together at the house most of the time, aren't you...? You don't have to though. But I feel like it'd be weird for me to bring this up all of a sudden in case I was analyzing your past actions a little too deeply.

>>18174038
For fuck sake! Stop giving others the responsibility of your happiness, grow a a pair, stop whining because life is unfair and crappy (bohoo life gave me a booboo and ir is because the world hates me booohooo), it is crappy but it is worth it when you decide to take control of your life and actions. Be a fucking adult, believe whatever the shit you think you are, nobody is judging you for whatever runs in your mind. What is not ok is to continue over and over to make excuses from your own lack of hapiness. Also... Honestly man... Go out of that room, get any job to keep your mind busy and do your stuff! Man up and stop the never ending martyr state!

My best friend sent some shit to my psychopathic ex fwb and I finally got the details. I'm fuckin weak.

Bro tip: don't fuck psychopaths

I'm a Christian. My religion says I'm really not supposed to masturbate (I think). But every time I finish masturbating I get a sudden burst of inspiration and creativity that I can use to compose music, write lyrics, even get new ideas for college assignments and all sorts of stuff.

>>18174443
What makes you think your culture is worth saving?

I don't think I know the difference between falling in love with an ideal of what it might become and falling in love with a person.
Recently a girl moved in with a female friend of mine, and after meeting her once, barely speaking to her, she smiled at me a couple of times, and I think I fell in love. Can you love someone you don't really know? Is that love?

This happens from time to time, and I spoke to this girl a couple of times again, and we had a good night out drinking (not alone though - in the company of my friend and a couple of hers). Now I asked her out for a cup of coffe, she said yes, but I still don't know anything. I don't know what to do on the "date" tomorrow:
1) I fear she isn't regarding it a date
2) I've been like this all my life (23 yo atm), and I always end up being rejected because - I guess - I don't know how to act interested or show my interest at all.
3) I am afraid of doing something weird or stupid, because I feel that all people at my age are much more experienced in love (and sex for that matter; im a virgin ofc). So I expect to make a fool of myself if I try to flirt (I don't know what to do). I actually fear what she will tell my friend, with whom she lives, if I for example tell her "You look really nice today" and then that maybe is a weird thing to do and everyone will know how I did something that odd or something.
4) I would love to be able to just hold her hand or place my hand on her thigh elegantly without it being weird, but I ALWAYS feel awkward doing so no matter how sober or drunk. That way she would know my intentions for sure, and I would be rejected if she wasn't interested, but I don't think I can take being rejected, cause I am in love with her (or at least the idea that I am)


5) I fear I will always think like the above. Irrationally fearing stuff that really isn't to be feared and fearing being judged by someone who is actually my friends and for something which is what I actually feel.

>>18174349
it's not

>>18174449
Someone please react

>>18174481
Whatever you do, try not to do it out of desperation.

Carnal needs are better met in the presence of that which one can truly appreciate.

You are more likely to find someone you respect, far before you find somebody you truly love. Finally when you discover the person you could have loved, you will see yourself trapped in mediocrity.

It is a castigating feeling. Sometimes it's better to be alone, than in bad company. Worse even to make of yourself a bad company.

>>18174496
You'll be fine if you remain honest and transparent. If you feel you have to become someone else to conceal your true nature, eventually it will manifest itself in other ways. Transparency is a cure. Sadly, for some people a remedy is worse than the illness.

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>>18174320
Thanks for summarizing. It all depends. If you can potentially see yourself in a relationship with her and don't really seek attention from any other girls, then you can continue to keep up with her. But she stated for now she isn't ready and rushing into something after being damaged from an ex is something that will potentially damage the both of you. She's not only looking out for her best interest but yours as well. You could always cut back with hanging out with her and see if she pursues you that way you'll feel like your feelings are being returned and validated. If I was in your shoes I'd worry myself over the fact if I spent way too much time with her as a best friend she would only feel comfy with that so I'd keep some distance. 7 days a week, 3 days off, 2 days on, 1 day on, another day off, and switch it around a bit. But that's just how I would personally handle the situation. Ex's suck and dealing with a breakup sucks even more.

Do you know if her ex was a good person or some sort of psychopath?

If he's a good person it'll still be hard but a cleaner break than dealing with a chick who dated a psycho that has manipulated her and broken her trust that won't let her go because he doesn't like the idea of her being with someone else. Sorry for the long response but people on this board are bitching they never get replies. Good luck, anon.

Fuck you.
If you hadn't strong armed me into taking antidepressants because it's soooo hard for you to see me sad. I would have never been in a state of mind to think I could try to be normal and I wouldn't have to deal with being heartbroken again. Just because you think it's so awful doesn't mean I wasn't content with being depressed for years. I'm not you, dammit. I can't do this. I can't leave my room.

I have no idea how to respond to your comment.

>be 26 year old
>mildly successful
>smoke weed habitually
>my dealer doesn't smoke, but talks up cocaine
>has asked me before if I'd be interested
>i turn him down
>find out a bunch more people I know snort cocaine
>start to become mildly interested
>want to EXTREMELY low key try cocaine
>feel like it would help me with my depression and work ethic
>could never tell anyone ever that I actually indulge

My friends use him as their dealer, too. And, I just don't want word of mouth to spread that I picked up a little powder.

But, he's about the only resource I trust enough to get it through, and the other guys I know would be too loud about it.

Should I just go for it, or just keep smoking marijuana?

>I don't smoke marijuana at work
>I would like to bump powder while at work

>>18174511
Don't because it could bite you in the ass, be turned against you, or you could possibly come to regret what you've said in whatever state you're currently in.

>>18174512
I don't recommend doing any drugs stronger than marijuana but I have heard of people using cocaine for prolonged periods of time and their life was great at first...and then turned to shit in less than a year. Prepare for the worst possible case scenario. Again, I do not recommend but it's your life, anon. It would be a temporary fix for a long term issue with shit consequence.

>>18174310
WARNING DISTURBING CONTENT
Ok, this is going to releive me so much ive been tripping so bad for so long, if someone gives me good enough advice Ill pay them later on when i get a job.here goes nothing.

2 years ago I had a job at a decent fast food place, it started out great exept ive been living with parents my whole life that would push me by doing it in a condesending way and at the same time have high expectations of me, and my childhood was pretty bad, lived in a bad neihborhood in a house filled with waterbugs and gloomy/grimy af. Had an extremly abusive mom that perfected the art of extreme guilt tripping, and a love bombing dad, went to this creepy religion/cult jehovuh witness which summarized all things in life that are shit and subconcously mollest your subconsious, and mom would scare me with shit like"your going to have to fight the devil one day" and "if someone breaks in here and points a gun at your head and tells u to bow down to a false god, you let him kill u mkay" said the shit like it was going to happen.and the repressed part happens here so put on your this some fucked up shit helmet, ik its not the worst but it fucked me up and i need to know if im worthy of life,along with what happened in my breakdown ill explain later.

Ok heres the fucked up part, I saw caught my dad watching porn, and one time there was this naked bitch getting food eaten off her body and i think me my dad and my bro where watching, then another time I walked past the bathroom and they forgot to close the door while doing it. This led me to be hyper sexulized and experimented on my sister and pressured my innocent brother to join, it was because the lack of value on life that made me have incredable amounts of fuck this life mentality and where in a place ready to get tourmented.

Cont

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>>18174449
>Recently a girl moved in with a female friend of mine, and after meeting her once, barely speaking to her, she smiled at me a couple of times, and I think I fell in love. Can you love someone you don't really know? Is that love?

Can't answer that fully. My view is that you can become to fall in love with someone once you get to know them but this sounds like infatuation to me.

Since you don't know her, maybe treat it as hanging out and becoming a friend instead of telling her it's a date. It could scare her away since she doesn't really know you. Once she feels comfortable around you and you've spent more time with her getting to know and understand her better, you could ask her on a proper date.

Hope this helps and good luck, anon.

>>18174523
Thanks for the advice but, is this not exactly how you get friendzoned?

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>>18174520
Your parents have caused you to have severe mental problems. Please seek professional help. I'm afraid no one on 4chan can give you sounds advice if anything you'll be trolled and become much worse and act out on severe lewd behaviors. Bless your heart and good luck, man.

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>>18174531
You can't control being in or out of someone's "friendzone" but you can *try* to make moves to help you along the way.

Becoming a friend is the first step of pursuing a relationship with someone. Unless you meet them over the net and you're both interested in a relationship right away. You could always ask her friend/roommate for advice on how to approach the situation. She would know more than us.

>>18174451
Please seek professional help. I'm afraid no one on 4chan can give you sounds advice if anything you'll be trolled and become much worse and act out on severe behaviors. Bless your heart and good luck, man.

>>18174449
You aren't in love.What you're experiencing is infatuation. You're in love with the idea of being in love because you think it's an eternal infatuation, and it's not. Love is hard, and taxing and draining, and not all that fun some times.

Don't worry so much. She's just another human being. The first date is just to get her interested enough to get her to go out with you again. That means just being nice to her, and having a good time. Don't put any extra pressure on yourself because this is a "date". If things seem to be going particularly well, don't be afraid to walk her to her car afterwards and try to hold her hand. Fuck, if it seems too much to just go for it, just say "I'm really bad at this sort of thing, but would you mind if I held your hand?" Awkwardness is less of a put off if you own the fact that you're awkward and can joke about it.

I'm gaay

>>18174548
are you into male chastity by chance?

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>>18174536
way to copy/paste my comment

>>18174531
The friendzone is a construction of dudes not willing to face facts and move on from a relationship that was never going to happen in the first place. The only guys that get stuck in the friendzone are those that didn't stand a chance to begin with. If she likes you, you won't get stuck in the friendzone.

>be in relationship with guy
>he's really nice, treats me well, great sex
>mess around online, big into RP chat boards and stuff like that
>comment on one of my friends pages "I love you <3"
>boyfriend sees it
>he calls me out on it
>I say I share an account with this friend that he's met before, and that she talks to him
>he says he doesn't want to see that again from my page
>agree and move on
>he never really brings it up again except jokingly
>really makes me feel bad
>'cause I still talk to that guy, and some others from the RP board
>boyfriend isn't always around, so I exchange pics and have cyber sex
>i don't consider it cheating, and he'll never find out
>or so I thought
>he fucking hacked into my emails and saw that stuff
>now he wants to break up

I just didn't realize it was cheating, it's not like I fucked anyone else.. These are just my friends for a long time, and we've always messed around like this.

I want to learn how to be manipulative so I can smooth talk my way into getting my disability check increased.

>>18174578
let your disability do the talking for you.

>>18174507
Thank you Anon.

The girl said that she was really emotional with him and trusted him really really hard.

She trusted him so hard that she called herself a slut and a bitch because she fell for it.
She even said that she felt like being raped by him, but they didn't have any sex.

She said that it was all her fault.

I told her that the boy was just a fucking son of a bitch and that she shouldn't worry about him.

She then only replied that i'm very important for her and that i'm the one that brings her to laugh and is there for her.

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>>18174571
isn't this considered emotional cheating? regardless, it isn't something you should do especially since your boyfriend asked you not to after you were caught doing it once. he doesn't trust you now and you've put him in that spot yourself. you should have listened to his wishes because he's in a place where he believes if you really cared about him--you wouldn't have done it a second time. you chose your erelationshits over your irl bf. i pity you.

>>18174588
she did put herself in that position but it's comforting you can feel sympathy for her. that's a good thing and i hope she will come to a place where she can rely on you for more than just a friend because you sound like a great guy. the only part i would change is dissing on her ex. yea, he's a piece of shit; but continuing to relay that to her is going to cause her to be down on herself and think about him. she'll run to whatever is familiar to her--her ex. be careful.

>>18174578
>>18174586
this. please don't become a manipulative person though. it will come to bite you. geezy petes...

>>18174571
It doesn't matter if you consider it cheating, it matters if your boyfriend does. You're trying to get out of this on a technicality, and that doesn't work in a relationship. More importantly, you knew it would hurt him and kept doing it. What's your excuse for ignoring his feelings?

>>18174603
Would have never thought that smart sounding words and advice could come from 4Chan.

Thank you Anon.
I will keep meeting myself with her from time to time and will look how thinks will develop.

The party about i talked in the greentext will be this saturday she promised me a dance.

What i find curious is that all this shit happend in 2 months.
I still can't believe how she can call me an important person in her life, if i just started doing things with her for like 2 months, but i really went hard for it even draw a picture for her in her depression phase because she always darwed stuff for me, made her really happy and she keeps this fucking picture in her room.

>>18174557
Thank you! The friend zone is such a ridiculous concept

22 years old in a few weeks, stuck at my fucking shitty community college, because I didnt have good enough grades to transfer to any of the universities I wanted to (both known for Physics, which is my intended major). Should I just change my major, or go to some other shitty school that isnt known for Physics, but atleast offers it as a major? Or stay at the community college and improve my grades and keep trying to transfer to 1 of these 2 schools? They're both ranked in the top 20 schools for Physics majors in the US

>>18174620
I didn't think he was that into me.. He's a little bit older, and I thought he was out of my league anyway.. I don't know why I did it, maybe in self defense?

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>>18174622
very sweet of you, thanks for that it's brightened up my day! you're welcome and I'm glad to be of some help. I hope you two have fun together on Saturday. keep your head up and don't stop smiling. if she gives attention to someone else, try not to become possessive as it may scare her off [just a forewarning i don't see it happening.]

due to the way you treat her it isn't surprising how quickly she's opening up to you. it appears she's beginning to be able to trust someone which she hasn't felt in a while. it's a good sign she's hanging your artwork up. a couple that draws together stays together.

>>18174634
poor excuse to emotionally cheat on le bf, anon. he trusted you and you hurt him. pick up the pieces and move on. he probably views you as an immature child now.

>>18174628
it all depends on how passionate you are about your major. don't look for the easy way out, continue challenging yourself. good luck

My obsessive autism has ruined my life. The only things I can have a conversation about are niche video games, guns/shooting, and politics. I'll push my pessimism and political views on anybody I get close to, and I'm yet to meet someone that doesn't just get pissed off being around me. Even my own brother has stopped listening to me.

>>18174642
Fell in love with Physics back in 5th or 6th grade when I first got Gmod. Used to spend hours just building shit and fucking around in single player. Not sure if this means I am passionate, however

Doesn't matter if one thousand people say i'm smart if i don't feel smart. Tired of failing menial tasks.

I like trans women. I consider myself straight.

>>18174691
so does that make you a gay male, or a straight male?

I could receive praise from a countless number of people, but I just want to hear praise from you.

>>18174707
Straight male, because trans women are women.

>>18174712
interesting

You broke my heart but I caused it and I wish I left sooner.

>>18174723
Pretty much this in reverse, but keeping the wish I left sooner part.

I'm going to miss you all so fucking much. You're the people I've been waiting to meet my whole life. And I might not even have the guts to say goodbye. Secretly, I both crave and fear affection. If I left without saying anything, how long would it take before Mia found out? She might not even know until the end of the semester. I am still in love with her. I love everyone, too. So so much. All of you, you who are so warm yet individual, critical but gentle, your hearts replete with creativity and ambition and kindness. I just want to spend lots more time together now that emotionally I am finally able to. Why must all good things come to an end...

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I genuinely feel angry at myself whenever I do not work up the nerve to talk to women and since I don't talk to this one a lot, I'm angry a lot of the time.

>>18174438
There is nothing in the bible about masturbation. Not one single thing.

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I'm in love with someone I met in wow a decade ago. We've had a great friendship and stayed in contact throughout the years. We've only met a handful of times irl but each time has been more amazing than the last. I saw him a couple months ago and I realized I had fallen in love with him. I can't tell if he feels the same about me because he's a gentleman to all women, but something tells me he might.

I think he's my soulmate. He's way out my league. I have no fucking clue what to do about this.

>>18173635
I have absolutely no motivation whatsoever. I pretty much have to be forced to do something to get better, and I don't enjoy anything as much as I used to anymore. I hate most people, I would honestly be so content with being around 3 or 4 people a year. I don't actually want to do anything with my life, and if someone tried to end my life I wouldn't fight them on it. I just want to be young forever without any worldly responsibilities. I just want to be alone.

SHE FINALLY CALLED ME DADDY
IVE BEEN WAITING SO LONG FOR THIS DAY

Why can't I write a fucking post on 4chan today?!?!?

>>18175108
Are you banned?

Why are girls, and people in general so confusing?

I met this girl in class, we didn't speak much, but she seemed to stare occasionally and sit next to me randomly. Once or twice she kinda positioned her self to show off to me. We began talking, but I would always initiate it, but she would be receptive to the conversation and would keep it going. After a few weeks I asked her to get lunch (Wasn't worded as a date) we met up, along with another friend of hers, and just sat in the garden talking about shit.
On the last day of class, she seemed very cold and distant. We haven't spoken in person since (Been 9 months?) But we have been texting occasionally, and the conversations at shortest are an hour, but most are 2+hrs. We talk about most stuff except for emotional stuff.
She also has been trying to motivate me to become an EMT like she is. But for some reason she shys away from getting together when I try. She would say stuff like "Definitely, but I'm Busy" or just won't reply to it.
Then there's stuff like this... I was walking, and she was sitting on the edge of a tree planter talking to someone on the phone. (Probably her sister, she does that quite a bit) I then sorta scratched my nose, and out of the corner of my eye, I saw her kinda begin to smile. I don't know if it was from the call or if it was because of me
Another time I sorta turned my head randomly and saw her standing right there waiting for class, and it seemed like our eyes just sorta met and held for a few seconds. This happens sorta regularly.


1/2

>>18175115
Then recently this, which I think indicates that she see's me as a good friend, maybe more.
I messaged her about a week and a half ago about how I am finally starting the process to become an EMT. (She has been heavily pushing me to become one) But there was no reply. I gave it three days then just sent her a message checking to make sure everything is alright. Lead into this short exchange. I honestly think its telling that she did respond and open up a bit about what was bothering her.
"Hey, I just wanted to check in and make sure that everything is all right"
"I'm good, we had a rough call the other day"
"Oh... Wow. Hopefully it wasn't too bad"
"It was a call for a suicide, it was kind of rough"
"Damn. I really can't say much beyond that I'll be here if you need to talk to someone"
About a week later I message her, and end up telling her how I feel. She simply says "Well I really appreciate your honesty. I'm just so focused on myself and what I'm doing with my life, I don't have the time to pursue anything with anyone" (Again, I don't doubt she is actually that busy)
Though I messaged her asking for advice like 2 weeks later, and she responds and spends 2-3hrs giving thoughtful, almost motherly advice. Not an ounce of awkwardness there at all

2/2

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>>18174556
You're very welcome!

Millennial here
WHY IS EVERYONE MY AGE A FUCKING DRONE WITH NO COMMON SENSE. FFS I am surrounded by narcasists with no ability to think, only to giggle and annoy me. It sounds cliché, but I genuinely think I am some fucking old man trapped in a 16 year old.
The girls are the worst though, only caring about how their ass looks in a dress and have no real personality.

>>18175148
In HS they are the worst. Though in college they seem to mature right quick.

One of my close friends is a girl, and she behaves more like a guy than anything else. Appearance is near the bottom of her priorities. Even having a social life is near the bottom as well

absolutely fucking disgusted right now. All I see is his pig face spouting his shit all over me, for no reason, it just gets him off. Smug, smarmy, ugly motherfucker, and I can't stop thinking about how much I hate this fake asshole, tryin to look all good to everyone, meanwhile he thinks he can take shit out on me. Fuck people like this. I know I'm not the only one who has to deal with a prick like this on the daily basis; but, hell, why me?? I can't get out fast enough from this situation. I should have left years ago, I should have known. That's the only place I fucked up, because other than that, his fuck up is merely existing. Can't imagine anyone fucking kissing that hairy asshole of a mouth he has. I'd rather chop the skin off my face with a rusted knife than do something like that with him. Please, please, please hurry up and get creamed by a semi, you fugly shit for brains loser. Because if I call you out, no one will believe me. No one would; they all think you're fucking perfect. And I'd just be wasting my time. Wasting my time just having your shit ugly face on my mind. And the same again tomorrow.

I fucking hate one of my friends. We're both 20 and we met online cause we had common interests (we both like music). So we start talking and at first she was really into me (we're also both not straight) and I wasn't feeling it. At one point she confessed she loved me but this was when she was high on pain meds after surgery.

Anyway, we live in the same city so we would always go to shows together (she was my ride). I'm the more social one so I always tend to meet people and introduce her to them. Slowly she started copying my exact style and basically stealing all my other friends. Lately she's been such a bitch to me. She likes one of the people that I introduced her to more than she likes me. In fact, 90% of our friends that are our age she knows through.

She befriends a lot of high school kids who are 15/16 when she's 20 which is fucking creepy. Some of them even have crushes on her and 3 times she almost dated someone who was 15. She literally flirted with a 15 year old girl and used the excuse of "she looked 18" to justify it. I can't fucking wait until we go to our last show together so I can drop her ass. I feel so uncomfortable with her hanging out with high school kids.

We are both 20 and in college it's literally not that fucking difficult to hang out with people your own age. Not to mention she dorms at her college and has 0 friends. I guess my biggest issue is her immaturity and how much of a pedophile she is.

Also we were supposed to go to warped tour together but she was like "sorry I didn't think you wanted to go with me and my other friend" you know what bitch, I don't fucking want to go anyway.

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>get partnered with a guy in class
>end up doing his entire assignment for him
>get his number
>text him 2 weeks later asking for his social media
>he responds that he deleted everything
>end conversation

I've accepted I'm going to be alone. He looks like a fucking Chad so he's either lying or he really is that paranoid.

>>18175148
>WHY IS EVERYONE MY AGE A FUCKING DRONE WITH NO COMMON SENSE.
>FFS I am surrounded by narcasists with no ability to think, only to giggle and annoy me.
>It sounds cliché, but I genuinely think I am some fucking old man trapped in a 16 year old.

you sound like a 16 year old trapped inside the body of a 16 year old m8

I tried to kill myself a month ago like and now I'm too afraid to try again. I'm also too ashamed to talk to anyone I know so I've been ignoring everyone in my life

>>18175121
This is the opposite of confusing. She isn't interested in you, but she's trying to be nice to you. Let me repeat this: SHE ISN'T INTERESTED IN YOU.

>>18175350
So many others Men and woman seem to think anywhere from 100% Interested and Shy, to confused to just being nice.

So...

I wonder if I'll ever be strong enough.

I can't let go of my ex. This is ridiculous. I do nothing but think about getting her back or if we will ever get back. I constantly wish she would just come back and talk to me like some pathetic fuck. It's almost been a year. I remember back when we first broke up reading about other guys on here who have been stressing about their ex for a year+ and wishing desperately that I would not become like that and that's exactly what happened. I don't know what to do. I'm so stuck.

>>18174248
Why? He's not entirely wrong. Also the only one his political standpoint will hurt is himself, seeing your country and society fail is quite taxing.

Keep getting this feeling in the pit of my stomach thinking about my ex. I hope everything's okay with her. Don't know why I keep checking my Facebook messages for something from her - I've been blocked for months now

>>18174550
So, what are you gonna do? I don't agree with you entirely but I get your point. What choice do we have?

Here's what I'm trying to do: Milk the current system as long as it works. Continue on working on my degree, learn any useful skill I can. Stay somewhat fit, found a family if i find the right person. Be a decent man and part of this society. Europe won't fall in the next half century. And if it does, well, I can't prevent it. Groveling over things you can't change makes for an unhappy and less productive live.

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>>18173635
>start talking to girl last week
>hangout a few times, usually for hours at a time
>really like her, she's great
>asks me what my intentions are
>tell her to hopefully start dating
>tells me she's actually exclusively dating someone
>also tells me something about how she could see it possibly happening, said she wasn't hardcore friend zoning me
She probably met this guy around the time I started talking to her, my friend saw her on tinder in class about a week before we started talking. So am I just her fucking backup plan or some shit? Fuck. And the worst part? If I am her backup and things don't work out with that other guy, odds are I'd still fucking date her. So much anxiety and wondering and such, and all for possibly being some kind of fucking fall back?

theres too much filipinos in my city, 80% students in the schools i go to are filipino, the other rest are either other asians, black, white, etc. people

btw im the other asian

>>18175353
But she's not interested. If she were interested, she wouldn't have said "Oh I'm sorry anon, I'm just so focused on me right now...".

That's a brush off. There is no confusion to that.

Just got an email notifying me I'm on academic probation for how badly my grades tanked this last quarter.

I really wish I hadn't let shitty people do so much damage to my quality of life. I hadn't anticipated how destructive the situation you all created would be on my mental and emotional health.

Sure, we make sacrifices for those we love, those for whom we care deeply. But all of this for what?

You aren't even happy. We don't talk anymore.
I guess things could have been worse if I hadn't intervened but still.

Was it worth it?

>>18175411
Except even before she said that she made it known in other ways that she was.

>>18175384
>>18175372
Same.
It's been 8 months now. I went back on okc, deleted it, then made a new account but I don't really know what I'm doing because I compare everyone to her and I'm not really interested in any other women even though I want to be, just to have some pointless dates.

There's an album by a band she liked that came out after we broke up. Its genuinely a good album but it gives me heart palpitations when I hear it now, just knowing that she probably did too.

>>18175449
I feel you. I went on tinder once and left a few days after when I realized I don't have any interest in other girls. Before I met her, no girls took my interest at all. Now even more so. I've given some girls a chance to get to know but I never end up feeling anything. I decided to just stay by myself and not pursue anyone. It would be really nice if someone came by that could make me feel the way she did. Then again, I don't want anyone to make me feel the way she did.

>>18175474
>>18175449
reach out then.. stop being stupid and letting her go, anon.

>>18175420
Take the school to court, man.
You paid them to teach you, and here they are punishing YOU because they didn't do a good enough job. Fuck that.

The only fucking industry in the world to get away with bullshit of that scale.

>>18175480
If only you knew the situation. It's impossible to just go back and be like hey...let's see each other. That used to be possible but not anymore. I also learned something, pride is something you NEED to learn to have evem with your girl. I used to think that I needed to throw away my pride when ot came to my girl. Nope. That only made things worse. Of course, it needs to be in thr middle ground.

>>18175449
>>18175474
I know those feels. Had sex with 1 girl but when she caught feelings and told me, I confessed I'm not over my ex. Though it may seem like a girl like her won't come along again, did you expect this girl to come along? No. The next girl will take you by surprise too. Just be patient and focus on healing. With all that's gone on the past year, I call this chapter of my life Recovery

>>18175488
Ha, I wish. They taught me fine, I just didn't do much with what I was given.

Spent most of the quarter in my room, ruminating.

>>18175499
>The next girl will take you by surprise too. Just be patient and focus on healing.
Yeah, I remind myself of that sometimes. It's hard to imagine and doesn't help in the moment but it hives some kind of piece of mind

>>18175372
Might as well add a bit more.

After we broke up and cut contact, I tried to be alone and "let time heal me". How fucking sneaky my mind could be. I was more forcing myself to heal. I was surpressing my feelings unknowingly. I ended up getting myself into $7000 debt. I used to be extremely good with money and have a lot of it and I knew how to make a little last a long time even when I wasn't working. I spent to get my mind off things no different from how a crackhead smokes dope. I work 5 hours a week at my new job. Final nail in the coffin was losing my drivers license. I waited too long to do my highway test and when I ended up doing it last minute, I passed in terms of points but failed due to disqualification. I've been like a caged dog for months now. I have nothing now and I'm probably going to get kicked out of school at that.

There is a little good though. I'm doing better without her than I was before. Honestly I don't know if I'm lying to myselfl. I jist know I still want her back and I'm doing everything I can to be up on my feet by myself and okay.

>>18175541
If anything you miss the companionship more than anything. I do too. Realistically, her and I weren't good for each other. It just hurts to be alone sometimes and it makes me want to go back. But we were raging alcoholics and didn't fit too well together. We just furthered each other's depression but together. Think of the bad times too when you reminisce, its only fair. If there's anything you need, its to get out and go hang out with friends or make friends, as cliche as it sounds. I need to do the same.

>>18175560
Too broke to go out with friends. You're absolutely right about everything though. People say I'm extremely realistic and logical as a person. I try to force myself to just except that we just weren't good together and I just miss the companionship. There's something about those two thoughts that just don't sit right with me though. I don't fucking know why but I just can't accept that I just miss the companionship. I ask myself, if that were the case, why do I not enjoy my time with other girls half as much as her? Why when I'm with others I still would rather be with her. Why don't I find my time with other girls enjoyable? I mean, of course I enjoy it, but not nearly enough for me to care to want more. Why don't I find any girl half as interesting? I don't get it. I've honestly met some pretty amazing girls. It's starting to piss me off that I'm not integrated in any of them. And about the not being a good match for each other...I'm constantly fighting with myslf about that. A lot of things lead me to believe it was just bad timing, and "maybe in some year it will be worth trying again and who knows, it might work out beautifully", but a lot of other things tell me no, you're just not right for each other. I'm living in a fanta-sea world.

I haven't dated anyone for more than 2 weeks and I'm about to turn 21. All I do is lock myself in my room all day when I get home from work, whenever the few friends I still have from high school ask me to do something I have to force myself to leave my house. I want companionship and I'm not scared of talking to women but I'm so fucking boring and never have anything to talk about so I never bother talking to anyone the few times I do leave my room. Maybe whenever I move out of my parents house and buy my own place something might change, but I feel like I'm going to be doing the same shit for the rest of my life.

my divorce was three years ago and im still not over it.

Every chick I have been with has been worse than the last. I turned down my ex wife trying to get back with me as it was obvious she didnt care or respect me enough to own up to her cheating to my family and prove she really wanted me back.

Im worried I am going to die alone...but it will take forever as I am only 30

>>18175595
Though. Thinking of the bad times does help. It doesn't make me feel like "I need to drop this" but rather "leave it alone for now".

You are my sushine, my only sushine
You make me happy when skies are grey
You never know, dear, how much I love you

Please don't take my sushine away.

>>18175599
I believe you did the right thing. Although something like your reason may seem small, I think her not owning up to your family about it shows she's not serious about committing, not mature enough to see the gravity of the situation, not serious enough to leave the bad behind and start new, not able to sacrifice her pride for the greater good. Overall not capable of being a proper wife. Maybe in time man.

>>18175595
Well you spent so much time with her and invested so much into her, it only feels right to still be with her. And of course it'll feel wrong with other girls, because they aren't the ones you spent all that time and made all those memories with. You just need more time to get over her, but sitting around alone with your thoughts will certainly slow down your progress. I'm doing the same thing, sitting alone at home on 4chan all day - the place her and I met. Ever seen Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind? Gotta get rid of anything that will remind you of her. Don't force yourself to move on, but don't be afraid to get out of your comfort zone a little. Make peace with her and yourself. Learn how to be alone again. Don't worry about other girls right now - just ain't the right time.

It's soon, but I can honestly say I have a hard time finding someone else that can compare to her. Sure her crowd was a little rowdy and she was a little inattentive, but I wasn't perfect either. I really saw myself being able to say "I love you" again because of her.

>>18175596
Don't rush or worry about dating. What I mean by that is get to a point where you no longer crave companionship. Work on yourself as a person and your confidence. You're boring to talk to because you lack it so you all your content in convos are neutral so you dont risk saying anything that might scare her away. You have internal problems that you seek the fix for in others. You're needy as a person which is why you crave companionship. I'll tell you where that'll lead you. It'll at some point find you a great girl who sees your potential and whe things are going well, she'll suddenly tear your heart out when she thinks you didn't fulfill your potential. She'll think she got to know you and see that you aren't what she thought you were. She won't be wrong but she won't be right because it's a matter of you not getting rid of your bad qualities in order to expose your true character. It sounds cringy as fuck but it might apply to you. You need to be in love with yourself and your life to a point where you don't NEED. a girl. Focus ln your own shit. Then find a girl when you feel like you can say whatever the fuck you want, act and do as you please when talking to a girl, within reason obviously. My point in saying is to genuinely just be yourself without restrictions. Be able to make your good qualities shine naturally when talkig to others.

I am a hot mess. Didnt wanna make my own thread, but can someone answer something? I signed up to a job agency not long ago (UK) and on the second day I had a 'moment' (read: im batshit crazy)

I decided i couldnt be there anymore and took off without speaking to anyone. Have been ignoring calls and emails from people. Can I get arrested for this?
Also, am I a bad person?

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>>18175613
>Ever seen Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind?
Yes. Fuck that movie. It wasn't nearly as emotional as I thought it would be but itwas very impactful. Yeah I think what I need is to make peace with her. I got to a point where I got a tiny bit but it feels like a lot was held back. A LOT. I guess it's not the right time. I spoke to her briefly after 6 months of not talking to her and it was decent. She "apologized" for "the mean things she said". Yeah, not the right time. Lots held back. Regardless, that was a LOT of progress. I hope we'll be able to talk more in the future. Maybe the situation just needs time. I just can't see when the time will be right. I have almost ZERO reason to ever talk to her so...nothing can happen? What will happen? How will it happen? The more we talk the worse it gets so not talking is the best option...again, I'll just wait and keep focusing on myself as I have been in the meantime. Lol. She used to make me feel like life wasn't such a real piece of shit. Lmfao.

what is up my krusty niggas it's santy claws

>>18175433
Oh. Did she ask you out? Did she tell you that she has feelings for you? Blatantly flirt with you? Did she kiss you? Grab your dick? Respond positively to any of your attempts to spend time with you? Has she made any effort to spend time with you? Has she actually spent any time with you at all outside of your class, other than the one time you had lunch with her friends? Ever give you any sort of indication other than generally talking to you and making eye contact that may or may not have been intentional? Has she done a single god damned thing that actually lets you know for sure, without a single doubt that she is interested in dating you?

No. She hasn't. Because she's not interested in you. You're living in a world of denial anon.

>>18175637
You sound confused. Sort it out. Sort what out? Figure it out.

>>18175637
Arrested? For what? For not being somewhere you don't want to be? I'm not a legal expert in the UK, but I think you're fine.

Are you a bad person? Couldn't tell you, as I don't know you. Does this one thing make you a bad person? No. Crazy, for sure, but not bad.

>>18175433
I read everything. Anon is right. You poor naive young inexperienced soul. Just drop her and let it go. I'm sorry but this is the way it is. There is NOTHING there. She's trying her best to tell you without being blatant about it becauze she feels that's too harsh. Just forget about her.

>>18175644
Word, I tried to kill myself after watching that movie. Heartbreak is a bitch. I don't recommend talking to her anytime soon. Come to peace with things in the sense of learning to accept that it's over. Don't think of possibilities for a future relationship right now, let the future decide that. Putting down everything you want to say to her on paper and burning it could help. Man I wish you were nearby, I'd take you out for a beer

>>18175646
Maybe I am. But you have to remember, this is a shy girl who's never had a relationship before. And she's always responded positively to my not funny teasing and did the same in kind.

Then there's the randomly finding me in a college campus of 9k and sitting right next to me for no reason before we even began talking. And the eye contact from 25 ft away where she sorta slowed down with what she was doing

Honestly I just feel that there's too many coincidences here

>>18175657
Thank you dude, its really good to have that clarification. Been having money troubles so running from work isnt an ideal situation but I really felt strongly that i needed to leave. This is where im weighing my inherent responsibilities against my free will, which ive always struggled with. Like i said, im a hot mess

>>18175659
Probably, but I wonder. Why do some people seem to think that she's just shy or nervous but is interested? Guys and girls alike mentioned it as a possibility?
Also, >>18175667

>>18175673
>>18175667
Not even that anon, but dude you're way too desperate. She doesnt care

>>18175660
God damn dude that's rough. I hope you're doing better. My friend once led me to a video he watched when he went through a similar situation as me. I never cried that hard for her even until now. I'll never forget the name of it- strangers again. I might watch it tonight.

Yeah writing definitely helps. I started doing that for a lot of things after her. I should start writing things I would say to her again. Don't think about a future relationship with is something I've heard a lot, but let the future decide...I really like that. I never thought of it that way. I'm going to keep that one in mind. Just stop thinking about it and let the future decide. Don't hope for it to happen in the future, just let time do its thing. God damn I really like that.

>>18175678
Eh. I basically accept she's not interested. But I noticed, here everyone is "she's not into you" while elsewhere like on Gag or other sites people seem more split. Which some saying she's definitely into yo, to others saying she's unsure, to even others saying she's just being nice.

So.. The jury seems to indicate that anything is still possible. Again, I accept that she's not into me. I'm just venting herw

>>18175667
I'm not going to say you're wrong in your observations, but answer me this, if she was shy but interested, why would she try so hard to brush off your obvious warming up to her and obvious advances in such a SLY manner? Why?

>>18175689
It's more so that she doesn't, via text atleast. She even seems to gradually open up more and more each time we talk. She doesn't cut conversations short usually, even if there's a way out for her.

It's just in person she doesn't. But that could be tied back to the shyness, as some find it easier to text than talk in person

Two years ago, around this time, the first chick I loved broke up with me. I almost killed myself.

I'm so much happier now, I'm dating someone new and I honestly play on marrying her. But fuck, I'm still feeling weird about my ex, almost like I want her dead but not really.

>>18175693
Holy Christ dude she brought her friend with her when you asked her to have lunch. I don't care if she was the shyest bitch in the world, she wouldn't do that if she was at all interested. Believe me, if she was shy and interested she'd either work up the courage to say yes and go alone or reject you fully. She's not stupid. SHE KNOWS BRINGING A FRIEND TO A CHANCE TO GET TO KNOW YOU BETTER ALONE WOULD ONLY HINDER OR SLOW YOUR RELATIONSHIP PROGRESSION. She wouldn't do it in any case if she cared at all. To be honest she doesn't sound shy at all from what you've said. She sounds like she's too shy to be mean. She sounds like a huge waste of time too. She doesn't sound valuable in any way from how she's approached this situation. She's not mean or a bitch or stupid in any way, just another basic bitch and waste of your effort. You've looked into this far too much. Learn from this.

>>18175681
It was a strange time but most of my recent problems have all had some connection to alcohol, so I've just cut down on drinking and the problems have therefore mostly gone. But yeah man, one thing I really try to incorporate into my life is going with the flow. Don't worry so much about the future. Employers ask me where I see myself in 5 years and I don't even know where I'll be in a week. And I'm not worried. Just learning to live in the now (with some respects to the future of course). I believe in you, man, I know we'll get through this. This is the hardest part but it's only temporary

>>18175705
I wasn't expecting that dead part and I burst out laughing in a creepy way. Regardless, reading that made me feel a lot better. Thanks.

I really fucking hate people. I can't stand myself sometimes, but I atleast think I have some good qualities and base morals that could be built upon. It just feels like people are either degenerate retards or if they do have some sort of common sense/values they are either conservative racist/religionfags or far up their own ass and think they are superior. Where's the fucking middleground?

>>18175712
Again, from how shit went, I think it was an attempt to make it less awkward for us, as I knew them as well (she's done it when we spoke in person in the past) besides she stopped talking to them soon after for reasons unknown. Also she seemed uncomfortable with him in general, so I do think it was entirely her idea.

I've known girls who brought a mutual feiend/acquaintece to a hangout to just try and make it less awkward at first. So...

>>18175721
You're welcome L

Starting to regret being in a ldr. Been in it for about 8 months now and it's much harder than I thought it would be. I'm not usually one who desires to be around people a whole lot or crave attention from my SO; and my last relationship was a shit show so I honestly was pretty skeptical of this in the first place. All I knew was that we were friends who would occasionally hang out over voice chat until he decided to ask me. I wasn't even expecting much to come out of it, but as it turns out he's so stupidly perfect it's frustrating. We barely get to talk anymore because of time zones and uni. I feel like I'm in a serious relationship with my phone who texts me every so often rather than an actual person. We've only spoken to each other once over the past two weeks, and it's only been getting less frequent. I didn't even feel this lonely when I was single. We've had multiple discussions about this, but there is simply not much that can be done. We are both just so busy and it doesn't seem like it's going to slow down anytime soon. It's just a frustrating situation to be in and I don't know if I can do this for an indefinite amount of time. If there was an end in sight I'd probably feel better, but there's nothing.

>>18175667
This is like one of those crazy conspiracy theories. You're taking random events and assigning meaning to them that isn't there.

> she's always responded positively to my not funny teasing and did the same in kind.

You mean she's being nice to you. Probably because she's a nice person.

>Then there's the randomly finding me in a college campus of 9k and sitting right next to me for no reason before we even began talking.

She had to sit somewhere. Why not next to you? Do you think she's attracted to every other stranger she's say next to at college?

> And the eye contact from 25 ft away where she sorta slowed down with what she was doing

First, I make eye contact with dozens of people each day. Often without meaning to. It doesn't mean I want to date any of them. Also, at 25 feet, you can't even be sure she was looking directly in your eyes. She could have been looking generally in your direction.

Listen, I'm really not trying to be a jerk here. I'm just trying to be realistic.

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>>18173887
Former devout christian here

Stop following the bible to the dot. It's not meant to be taken literally. It's a guidebook for life, not a manifesto for existence.

A good christian praises the lord. You technically don't even need to go to church

And no, the bible says nothing about masturbation. It says to not commit adultery, meaning don't look at porn or fantasize about people you know.

>>18175718
Yeah dude I've stopped drinking altogether. No drugs or alcohol nothing anymore. I feel like it only holds me back. I hope we get what were looking for in the end. That's it. Whatever brings us the most happiness. Honestly I'm believing more and more that I'm just in need of that closure you mentioned. I don't know why but I feel like I don't want to let this go even if it means taking away from my happiness. Like I don't want to leave Intel it's settled.

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>>18175751 meant for >>18174438

>>18175740
Eh. Maybe, but all atleast seem possible. I'm just looking at all the pieces added together

The teasing was mostly horribly unfunny jokes that shouldn't have called for any laughter or counter teasing.

The think with randomly finding me is that the room was almost completely empty, and she decided to sit next to me when she could have sat elsewhere.

You have a point with staring, but how she slowed down when she looked over? That seems a bit strange. (happened countless other times as well. Even when walking bast at 5ft away. Same thing)

Fuck maths

>tfw the company that I've been working for has been jewing me for the past two years
>get fed up with them and apply for a masters program
>get accepted and will start in September
>meanwhile at work end up writing the software for a one off system that is pivotal to the whole project
>the other guy that was involved with project quit
>literally the only person in the world that knows how to operate this system properly and can troubleshoot it
>company's jewing intensifies
>daydream about quitting
>know how bad it will fuck them if I leave and something goes wrong (only human error could go wrong, my code is flawless (sarcasm))
I'm so close to walking out on them and fucking off for 4 months until school starts. Salary be damned.

>>18175608
The other night dear
As I was sleeping
I dreamt I held you in my arms
When I awoke dear,
I was mistaken
So I hung my head and cried

I really want the truth. You all tell me that the truth is awful, that you just don't want to tell me because of that but...

I'm suicidal. The thoughts are constant and I'm reaching my breaking point.

Can the truth be worse than what will happen to me if you don't tell me?

Seriously, I'm prepared for anything. I truly want to know what the fuck has been going on. I want this shit to be over.

Tell me now.

Im gonna go on my fucking bike tomorrow and socialize im tired of being fucking lonley.

I want to fukk my ex mostly because she was my first and all, legit had sex every time we met. I would do a hooker but I'm in the us and 20 so I have no idea how to go about it.


Plz cum back laura I want sum fuk.

I don't believe in god, i hate existing, and i can only stand a handful of people, I constantly set the bar for myself to high and always disappoint mysef, no matter what I accomplish i always feel empty a day later, ive jerked myself into impotence and apathy, and no matter how much i workout and i change my appearance my insides still rot.

Fuck porn stars. Fuck them. They commercialize sex, an intimate bond between two human beings and then complain when they are not seen nor treated like real people. News flash, you wont. You never will. People may say they do, but they do not. They were first introduced to you through sex and will always see you as such. Why do you think that is such a black hole of a profession? No amount of progressive thinking will make what these commercialized whores acceptable to the mainstream. Why do you think so many of them try to get into more 'innocent' professions like teaching later in life? Guilt. Shame. A need to atone for all the deviant actions they have done. Because they are pathetic and not worth anything after using their bodies as calateral to pay for shoes, clothes, a home and whatever other shit that doesn't make their profession worth it.

Fuck all pornstars. You are not people. You are a commodity to be used and thrown away like the tissues guys use to clean up after they wipe from watching you.

I just want a girlfriend. Why the fuck is this so much to ask? What am I doing wrong?
I want to be happy. It looks so nice. I want to try being happy. I want to know what it's like to not be alone.

>>18173635
I am aboriginal in Australia and I hate aboriginal. I have begun to lean right now and have noticed everyone I know believes in the left so hard that they shun me.

I now stay to myself and have gotten through uni , I am getting everyone one of my siblings through uni and into the workplace

>>18175955
I hate this fucking place

I feel a deep silent rage beginning to bubble to the surface. I'm a trapped animal. Life is constant misery, I've never done anything but suffer and try to survive. It's getting harder and I'm beginning to sink faster.

The window is closed now. If I'd had the means, if I'd been smarter, faster, had the strength, I could have avoided this years ago. Time is up. I always was ever so slightly too slow, in all things.

>>18175963
Go for a walk out in the forest.

I hate myself for not being able to convey my feelings. I know the time isn't right since you just got out of a long relationship a couple months ago.
I love being able to cuddle and hold your hand so much but I don't feel like you care as much.
It depresses me how much I give a shit about such small things between us.
I hope you don't friend zone me.

>>18175963
I feel you dude

Eat a dick.

>>18173635
I hate how unable I am to connect with anyone romantically. I know women are interested, but I just don't know what to do. I can talk to people just fine, man or woman, but as soon as I get a romantic feeling from someone, I just kind of close up. I don't mean I get quiet or awkward, I just don't know how to escalate. Do I ask them for their number, do I ask them out on a date right there, in front of all my/their friends? I dont know how to date, I've never been on one. What makes a date different from just hanging out with someone? I wish I were in highschool or college because then it would be understandable. Im in my mid 20s, way past schooling. My future is hopeless unless I get it together.

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God fucking damn why are millennials so fucking lazy.
>project team leaders send email reminders
>professor sends email reminders
>entire slack channel devoted to a project
>google drive EVERYBODY HAS ACCESS TO 24/7
>every class is an opportunity to do shit
>said project is for the whole class
>kids not working on the class project have their own assignment
>they still refuse to do said assignment, or forget that it even existed
>due date has been pushed back 3 times
The kicker:
>class is almost entirely college juniors/seniors
>tuition is almost $30k/semester

Pic related. Every day.

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How filtered is my internet?

From what I can gather, this board is "real" but my posts don't show up on the "real" boards. Then all the replies I get also don't show up on the real ones but to the people paid to fuck with me can.

I have to wonder if you guys filter out emails, messages, or whatever that get sent to me.

I have to wonder the scale of it all. How do you get people to not drive up to my house... or to not try to tell me the truth? I can see huntington being completely fake and filled with actors but... what about Chicago? San Francisco? Sarasota? Salt Lake City? Mexico City?

All I can imagine is that in the "real" world there are harsh laws that prevent people from interacting or informing the "stars".

What the fuck is going on? I have too much evidence, too many weird as fuck situations that have gone unexplained or ignored for me to be convinced this is a delusion.

The death threats from fagotron, the harassment on my social media, the footsteps in the attic, the hacking of my computer and phone, the shit my parents have said, the footprints on the roof, the disappearance of RenRen, the posts that are replies to shit I was saying outloud (being recorded)...

This shit has BEEN PROVEN to have happened. There are the countlesssss patterns that you guys won't admit to but just with the shit mentioned above would be enough to confirm some kind of conspiracy around me is going on.

So fucking tell me already. TELL ME FOR FUCK'S SAKE.

Chink cunt fuck off you ugly bitch. Your disgusting pig face needs to be bricked in.

why are you becoming something chemistry related if you don't even like/enjoy chemistry?
y'alls mindset of vocalizing it every time we have a lab is a pain in the ass. stop trying to create a hivemind and fuck off already, you guys are just dragging the lab group down.

also to the person who somehow persuaded our group to use a different sized test tube when the directions explicitly state for us to use a certain size: what the hell? the reaction didn't fail to occur the first time around because of the size of our tube; it failed because the vapors containing our products/reactants kept escaping and our overheating of the solution. the tiny test tube didn't have enough surface area for the reaction to properly take place. keep your shitty suggestions to yourself, whoever you were.
however, it is partially my fault too because I saw this mistake and didn't correct it (for petty reasons, mainly because the last few times I would make corrections you all looked at me like I was being a helicopter parent).

twenty one pilots suck

>>18173863
Initials anon?

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You CANNOT just fucking be so incredibly rude to me and say such rude shit IN FRONT OF OUR FRIEND and then dare to FUCKING TELL ME I'M THE ONE CAUSING THE SCENE. I didn't properly hear what you said. I was concentrating on like 2 things at once. I said "I did." In a MILDLY ANNOYED TONE. AND THEN WHEN I CALL YOU OUT FOR IT LATER YOU FUCKING PATRONIZE ME.
Oh, and then you have the gall. The fucking gall to assume i am bitching about you to another friend. No. I talked to her about unrelated shit. I said you could read it. You refused to because "you respect privacy". Bullshit motherfucker, you have gone through my messages a couple times in the past. I never chewed you out for it.
Then you have the FUCKING GALL to bitch to OUR FRIEND about what I apparently fucking did. Saying you "don't deserve to be treated like this". I READ YOUR MESSAGES. YOU ARE A FUCKING DICK.
I'm starting to think you're an abusive piece of fucking shit with a very sweet exterior. I AM VERY PISSED. YOU WILL KNOW MY WRATH.

I feel really broken as a person. Like everything I used to be fell apart, and I chose this.

I read that the only way to stop the cycle of abuse is to stand in its path and give someone the love they need, not the love they deserve.

I loved this girl because she needed someone to care for her.

I hadn't anticipated how difficult it would be to clear things up, to prevent unnecessary suffering. Outmaneuvering a psychopath who weaponized my own words against me, who used my ideas and insights to gain the trust of someone I cared for, then manipulated that person into hurting me constantly...took a lot more out of me than I expected.

I can't convince myself it was worth it.
I did what I fucking could to get this girl away from a lying, manipulating piece of shit, and ended up being collateral damage.

Man up, move on, yeah. I get it. I've put so much strain on my friendships talking in circles about what happened. I'm stuck in a self-destructive cycle and I feel like I can't pull myself out.

I hate this.

>>18173863
I know how you feel, friend. Stop wasting your time and energy on her.

>>18174729
Faggot

>>18175985
https://youtu.be/X5yVQwbunUU

Something significant has to change in my life but I have no idea where to look. I can feel it stirring in my body constantly, draining me for energy and it's driving me crazy!

>>18176215
Seriously what is with the alien stuff?

What does that mean? Was I born in another country? My earliest memories are from when I was 2 and those are from my "home town" in Indiana.

Or am I like... an actual fucking alien from outer space.

It has to be the first one. Hitler moved to south america and... somehow I ended up here. If I was born from outside the US then my birth certificate and SS and all of that bullshit are a coverup. Which... what is my real name then?

And what's with the bits about me being a god? Being immortal?

What the fuck is going on?

Why won't yall tell me?

My family doctor put me on lorazepam (an anxiety medication) to deal with my immediate insomnia problem, and now it's 6:45 AM and the drug has had no discernable effect on my ability to get drowsy, or fall asleep, or anything really. I don't have anxiety, but he figured it was worth a shot.
I used zolpidem in the past and it worked perfectly for me, but he doesn't want to prescribe any more because he thinks I'm "too young and healthy" to be taking sleeping pills.
I'm getting sick of this doctor and his habit of rushing through appointments and stonewalling discussion of my actual concerns, not to mention never being available for follow-up.
Is this a common problem? If I can't get my doctor to sit down and seriously discuss which medications work/don't work for my situation because he doesn't want to hear it, who am I supposed to talk to about this??

fuck I want freedom. I want to know.

I just want to know... I want to know so fucking badly and you people continue to fuck with me.

JUST TELL ME.

I will not be able to function normally until you tell me. I don't care to do fucking anything anymore KNOWING that it's all fake, it's all made up, it's all lies.

>>18176233
This is how doctors fucking are. Even though you have use a medication that solves all your problems in the past they will refuse to listen to you.

It has to be an ego thing. Doctors are fucking full of themselves and will never, EVER backdown from something.

>>18173643
This.

My brother is bringing his girlfriend here for the weekend. Worried she'll find me far more attractive than him and that we might bang. Sex drive is also through the roof lately. But I think I can keep it together.

>Steadily been dropping 1 kg/week.
>Lost 15 kg.
>Still got 50 kg to loose until ideal weight.

I have seriously no motivation left and can feel a binge eating coming.

The women I love went back to her emotionally abusive ex to give them another chance and left me in wind while we try to be friends and I hope it falls apart for them again. What the fuck is wrong with me?

>>18173635
Why are women so fucking insane?

Fo a week I've been speaking to a girl and everything's fine, we're hitting it off, there's some sexual tension and the flirting goes both ways.

Then one day, she flips out, calls me out about not knowing about guy-girl friendship and other nonsense.

I can't even discuss what the hell I possibily did wrong because she keeps dodging the questions.

Eventually she must have cooled off because she's all funny and flirty again for no reason.

What the fuck is even going on? I'm really confused about what to do/think.

>>18176360
Honeytrappen

>>18176360
Could be lots of things.

>Bi-polar
>There's another guy that she thought she had a chance with and didn't want him getting the "wrong" idea
>Thinks she can do better
>Isn't sure if she wants to get intimate
>Had a bad day

Who even fucking knows, man. It's not even women these days, everybody is just shit at communicating.

What I'd do is back off for a bit, and let her come to you. Cut the flirting, ignore the advances. If she really wants you, make her come to you so she can't shrug off the responsibility when ever she deems it convenient.

>>18176389
Just keep in mind man, even if you like this girl, your time still has value. If she's just going to be fucking around with you, don't waste your brain cells contemplating a romantic relationship. You stay invested in one person, you have you pass up others, you know what I'm saying? It's never the end of the world.

>>18176389
Yeah I was actually on the fence about backing off for a bit for fear of following her trend of insane shit about only talking to her to fuck.

She's clearly toying with me and it's more than annoying. I'll follow your advice. Let's just hope she'll end up knowing clearly what she wants.

I met this guy mid last year, we hit it off as friends but now we're in a place where we both like eachother. He's admitted to me several times that he likes me, I want to tell him that I do as well.

Unfortunately it's hard for me to get a word in because he's started playing overwatch a fuck ton and he takes ages to respond, so the anxiety I would get when waiting for a response would be crippling.

I pushed a girl in 5th grade, as a fat kid.
She took my hat, and I begged for it back.
The principal and her mother held me in an office for several hours telling me I was a terrible human being.
My dad (thank fuck for him) worked night shift and couldn't be reached.
My mum worked in a factory and couldn't be reached.
So I took it until my dad came along and saved me.
Before that, they called me a rapist and molestor and other names and things.
I've been living in fear for 18 years, despite the mother and principal being gone.
Its permiated every part of my life as a crippling doubt, despite having a successful job and other friends.

I thought I'd just get that off my chest.

I haunts me.

I hate girls and the only reason I'll get a gf now is to hurt her. I already did it to one girl, but I want more girls.

>>18176403
How long has it been since he started telling you he liked you? Sounds like he got tired of waiting for an answer and decided to change his mind.

Honestly, it's not the kind of thing to say by text. Ask him out for a coffee or something and work out the courage to tell him you're interested. If you're worried about self-consciousness pick a small place where there's not too many customers.

>>18176402
What happens, happens.
Nothing is ever as easy as it seems in retrospect, so there's no point in regretting doing what you think is right.

>>18174334
Honestly, it just sort of happened. Really, just put your interests in on Omegle. There are teenage girls for just about every interest. Hell, I found her on the 4chan tag. I thought it was bait at first, but we've been friends for 8 months now. We've talked on the phone for hours, and she sends pictures and videos and things. It's really nice.

>friend starts learning guitar
>doesn't even practice for a month, start spamming me with clips of him playing shit, asking for feedback
>gets defensive every time I say something constructive and starts showing me screens of others saying how good he is
>to top it all off I'm fucking donedeaf and without any musical knowledge or education
Dunno what to do, I can't say anything remotely critical but I also can't pretend that him learning a few chords is making him slash

>>18176424
Just start linking him to super technical shit that'll convince him he's shit and that he needs to quit playing immediately because he's a shame to the practice.

Andy McGee was the one that got my friend to quit.

>I don't feel bad because they did it to me with drumming, because I was more focused on rythym and blues, they kept linking me to all this polyrythym industrial metal double bass bullshit

I think I've got feelings for my roommate/best friend.

So I'm a bi male and I've never been in a relationship before. This is mostly because I'm not really looking and because romance and shit like that make me uncomfortable.

I've never really had a crush before so these feelings are just fucking me up.

A few months ago, I moved into student housing with a random guy. We get along extremely well. He's like a brother to me, no joke. We've told eachother things we probably have never told another person and as cliched as it is, he's become my best friend. The only one in the world who knows me as much as I know myself I guess.

The thing is... I'm getting too attached. He is 100% straight, and I would never try anything with him. I value our friendship wayyy too much to want to fuck it up. But man, I get weirded out if I don't talk to him at least once a day. When he talks to me about the girls he talks to, I get oddly uncomfortable. And even worse, I've become really emotional over the last few weeks.

I shrugged it off, trying to ignore it but yesterday I think I had a sex dream with him in it. And it's just fucking me up.

Any help guys? I'm at a loss here. I've never had a best friend before so maybe it's just a natural attachment issue?

>>18175642
eyy bbe u wan sum fuk?

Recently met a girl. She's not the most attractive but she called me hot. I'm 21 and never been in a relationship. We started texting and things were going well but I can already tell my clinginess is going to drive her away. Why does the world have to be so cruel I think it's really shitty that I will never be able to attract women by being myself.

Is it normal to not be able to feel your balls when you squeeze them?

Like squeezing them hard?

I'm a little worried.

>>18176415
It's sad people like this exist.

I just wanna eat candy and relax on the beach.

>>18173635
I have almost daily vivid dreams of pouring a small glass of bleach from a bigger container so that my couleges can see what it is before I chug it in front of them, I keep the bottle in my bag at all times, even now.

>>18176481
You and me both.
Years go by.. you die a little inside.

I hate my life. Nothing worked out as planned. Something or someone always got in the way. Not giving up yet. Some people are so vindictive and care more about themselves and their feelings than anything else.

>>18176233
Get a new doctor. Keep in mind this is a business for them and making you have to come back to try new things is another paycheck.

>>18175983
A generation that has had everything instantly handed to them and has never worked for anything in their life is lazy...hmmm wonder why. This is coming from a millennial

>>18175765
I fucking love math

>>18176415
Hurting people who did nothing to deserve it sure will make you feel better.

After living as a NEET for 5+ years with an online girlfriend for 2 consistent years, then going full blown normie with my own apartment and job for 5+ years with a real life girlfriend for 3 consistent years...

I felt a lot more love, and affection from my internet relationship than my physical one.

gonna break up with my gf next week, im not in love anymore but she is

>>18175148
You only interact with shallow people.

I don't want to get a job. I don't want to be a man.

>>18176681
Not a lot of choice in this world, unfortunately.

Can't live outside the system due to the system's regulations.

It's fucking spring its not supposed to be this cold.

I NEED A BETTER JOB, FUCK THIS FAST FOOD BULLSHIT.

>>18176342
don't be a dick anon! just don't

I'm tired. It feels like I wasn't built for this world. Sometimes everything I want is to drink cachaça, but I was interned for it already and I don't want to end up in there again. I don't know how I'm going to go to work every single day a couple of weeks from now. I'm not ready. I wish I could drink. I wish I didn't feel alone even though I have my parents supporting me and friends who care for me. I wish life didn't feel so shit and overwhelming every single day. I wish I hadn't become a zombie. I wish I could decide. I wish I could act. I wish I met someone who could love me. I'm tired.

And she still wonders why I'm so insecure
She giggles because I sleep with a body pillow
https://youtu.be/_Lpn1o_-hCo

Your constantly changing circle of friends should've been a warning but I wanted to believe there was some good in there.

Turns out you're just a cunt.

>>18173635
Fags are really annoying. They feel like special snowflakes when in reality they are just another homo taking it in the ass.

You cannot tell them when they did something wrong in the office because automatically you're a homophobe. Talk about double standards.

Fucking subhuman pieces of shit, keep your sexual preference to yourself, being a faggot doesn't define you. Now I know why in some places being gay is a fucking crime.

>>18176233
Lorazepam has 4 principal effects: hypnotic, anxiolitic, muscle relaxant and anti-convulsion. It won't have a direct action over your sleeping troubles.

I'm just scared that I might have done something to hurt you, I know you're having a hard time, but I don't know why you're being distant to me now, is it because I'm jealous when other guys try to hit you up? I know you're mine, I can't help how I feel, I'm sorry, just give me a sign, you're everything to me.

Never really been a happy person. Then she came into my life, for a couple weeks I truly felt love, something I have never felt before, as well as happiness. But then she dumps me, says she still loves me but she needs a break. Then she moves away unexpectedly. I cried like a fucking baby, I've cut myself. I know I will never find a perfect girl like her again do I still have a chance, I'm just stressed as fuck. She started calling me babe and daddy again. I don't know what this means, she started calling me those names again after I asked if she could do a long distance relationship and her saying that she couldn't. She is literally my world and I don't know who I am anymore. If she loves me back why can't we be together? I cant imagine ever being with anybody else nor would I want to.

>>18176230
Dude... Looooooool... Maybe there is a very good reason why everybody is avoiding you. You nutz!

I wanted to kill myself on Tuesday, but I hate my job so much I'm going to do it tonight.

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> be me
> finally get field research job
> least experienced
> teammates have to teach me everything
> keep making mistakes
> can't physically lift as much
> was initially rejected from the job until the other person flaked out
> received birthday note that specifically mentioned "we are glad you're working here!"

i am the weakest link. goodbye

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>Be 22 year old female, can hear EVERYTHING in the house from my room
>Family is really fucking loud when I need to sleep
>Dad does the washing up in kitchen beneath my room, crashing plates/mugs/cutlery together for no fucking reason (even after I wash up and put everything away)
>Bathroom adjacent to my room, my wall may as well be a sheet of paper; can hear people stomping around/slamming the door/everything at 2, 3 and 4 in the morning
>Can't/don't want to become a coffeefag, feel ill when I consume caffeine
>They won't keep the noise down at night when I have to get up at five every morning (due to them working shifts, not 9-5)
>I'm quiet as a fucking mouse, they say they never hear me get ready or leave for work
>Car + insurance raping my salary every month
>Trying to get a new job, will barely be able to eat if I move into a houseshare (rooms without mould are at least £500 per month)
>I'm going to have to get a boyfriend using online dating, never been in a relationship before, just to move out
>Going to have to give my virginity to someone that I won't have shared enough time with to trust, just so I can get a solid night's sleep
>I just want to live on my own, have piece and quiet and be able to sleep without interruptions for 7hrs a night
>Family keeps saying they'll be quieter, they don't want me to move out because I'm helpful, etc but never make any effort to change
>Called everyone into the front room today and told them that they never used to be like this, but since this is becoming a problem and they won't respect my simple request; I will begin to destroy anything they use that wakes me up at night
>Plates/mugs/toilets included, they're taken aback and the house has been quiet for the past hour


I hate this situation desu, it genuinely feels like I'm not getting any respect from them despite always being there to help. I never ask them for help and I always do everything on my own.

Why?

I swear to god if it's you hiding behind Gasai I'm done with this place. But if it's the guy who tripfagged while wanting a figure of her it's okay but I'm afraid it really is you.

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>>18176967
>he doesn't lift

This is where you went horribly wrong.

>>18177048
>she doesn't lift

FTFY
I'm getting better but lifting 55% of my body weight and carrying it innawoods is still tough

>>18176681
You're too old to be thinking let alone typing that. But go for it, live up to your own expectations rather than your capacity.

>>18176403
Apprehension, not anxiety. Jeez you kids really need to occasionally go outside and socialise with people

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>>18176342

This is really dumb but I've been chatting with this guy on facebook who I know is gay and we have mutual friends. I'm straight but we have a lot in common and he's kind of been flirting with me and I've been reciprocating it. I don't know if I'm ready to do anything with another guy but my body is telling me otherwise. Just fuck my shit up I don't know what to do. I don't think I should

My entire life is waiting now. Wait through my classes, wait to arrive home, and wait to start enjoying myself, but I never do. I can't believe music sounds like shit to me now. There's just no reaction. I tried a chicken biscuit for the first time in a while last night, it tasted like nothing. I've lived the past week like this and it's just soul draining. If I have to spend another few months in this exact same cycle of emptiness, I have no idea how I'll survive. I'm seeing a doctor in a few days, I really hope he'll help me out with this. If it gets worse, it might ruin my life.

>>18177191
Does he make your butt tingle?

>>18177199
I don't think so. Just my dick and my chest so far

>>18177229
So go fuck him, settle your curiosity, douche first.

>>18177237
Well shit anon. You're convincing but what do you mean douche

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I'm on the exec board of a political party (locally)
I rolled in politics 4 months ago - started with spreading stickers - being proactive led me to the right people and from there on it went up. I blitzkrieged through the ranks and was offered to become the chairman of my chapter by the national board.

problem: the current chairman is in that position for the past 35 years, he's like a second father to me and has taught me everything. The party top is looking at me to purge him and I know that if I don't my career is over before it even started. The fact that I'm here says enough about how desperate I am, anyone has an idea how to solve this ethically?

>>18177255
Do you want shit nuggers hanging from his dick or yours? No? Pump some warm water into the undiscovered land and get yourself clean.

>>18177266
good god gay sex sounds bad

I really liked you. From the second I met you, there was that immediate spark of chemistry I hadn't felt in 8 years. You told me on the second date you weren't looking for anything serious.
I liked you so much, and I was so tired of being alone, I accepted your offer to be fuck buddies. You had a handful of other girls splitting your time though. I knew this. I accepted this. I was just happy to be a small part of your life. The few nights you spent with me, I was on cloud nine. They were easily the best nights of my life.
Then you got busy. You stopped having time for me, had better people to see. I knew what our relationship was. It's my own fault for being so stupid, so desperate. You haven't spoken to me in weeks. I miss you so much and I feel fucking pathetic. You never really cared about me, yet I cared about you a lot.
I can't even pass the blame onto you. You were nothing but upfront with your intentions. I just never told you mine.

It just hurts so much. I know I'll never have that loving relationship I crave so much. I know I'm going to at best always be the bottom rung of the number of girls a dude is shacking up with. And I'll always be booted off the island easily.
I wish I was more attractive. I wish I was more wanted. I wish if all I could ever amount to is a dude's fuck buddy I could at least be the top girl.

Crush comes over in a few days and we're likely to do stuff and I'm so fucking nervous I'll screw it up because I'm terrible in bed or somethibg aaaaagh

>>18177334
Just because I'm an asshole, I want you to think about some things. You don't have to reply, I won't read it anyway.

You say you crave love and affection in a meaningful relationship, about how you're always just fuck buddies and at the bottom of the list for the guys you're into.

I want you to think about the non-family men in your life. I want you to think about what and how they may have felt or currently feel about you, and how you have responded.

I want you to think about these things because the universe has a way of making sure we all get the bad we've got coming our way for the terrible things we've done. And it's sure as shit making sure you're getting yours.

I'm 22 and haven't had a real gf, porn was always enough for me and I figured I'd want to wait for the right person. But in the last year or so I've realized that I had been more pr less sabotaged myself by setting my standards too high. It doesn't help that I'm into anime and vidya and my job pretty much gives me no contact with the opposite sex. I'm working towards bettering myself: I'm trying to eat better and quit choking the chicken for a while, and there is a girl who i think is cool and I'm comfortable talking to. I've known her from high school and shes probably nerdier than me, sort of a girl next door look.

The only problem is she's the sister of one of my best friends, one that I'm roomates with. I heard through another friend that he'd be cool with us hooking up, but since the only other relationship I had ended pretty badly, I'm second guessing if I really like this girl or if she seems appealing because she's always around and I think she's in my league.

I don't want to start something with her and end up messing with her heart because I don't know what I want and possibly messing up my friendship in the process.

>>18177354
Try not to overthink it, if you worry over what might happen you won't be ready if something does happen. So just act like you would with any of your other friends and pay attention to his/her body language.

I think I've never showed my real thoughts on life to anybody. I'm lonely, since I was born. Maybe a state of mind, because I have a caring family and a lot of friends (shitty friends and good friends, but who knows, for me everybody is shit).

I secretely play music, read a lot of books, draw, I love cinema.

But I am really motivated to let all this things stay in my mind, not everyone could understand me, the way I see life and how deeply disturbed I am from the presence of others.

Talking about women, I don't think they deserve my way of being, they can find better boys, definitely. And I don't deserve their needs, I can live better by myself, and that is what I do.

I am pretty happy, I don't see the point of the rat race, even if I like to be financially indipendent, I have to admit that.

To others, I tell that I feel like shit, I don't want them to be jealous. I see them so fragile, and sometimes I feel pity and I am overwhelmed by a strange sense of compassion: better to sacrifice myself to make them feel good, than showing my well being and making them desire what I have.

This will last till I will get a terminal illness, I suppose. I ask myself if this kind of joy I'm talking about is real happiness, or real happiness comes only from sharing. Probably will never know.

Space is essential, and I've discovered that greater the space, less responsibility for others I take, and the most relieved I feel.

Sorry, I am a shitty son, partner, friend, to secretely not really caring for all of them, and for never ever really wanting to know them for real. But I suppose that's my destiny and my ultimate reality on this planet.

>>18177042
A girl posted as gasai

>>18177386
You are both whiny idiots who sound like you deserve each other.

I don't know why you told you lost feelings for me without having told me you actually had feelings for me in the first place. That's so backward and fucked up.

We could have built something. More importantly, I wouldn't have been stressed for five weeks about whether you were still being manipulated and fucked with by those two pieces of shit.

Fuck, you could have made my life IMMENSELY easier by just saying something.

I really want to hate and resent you. You fucking suck.

On the other hand, I just want us to clear things up and be amicable.

I don't know. It's been months. Everyone keeps telling me to suck it up and move on, and I agree. The obsessive overthinking essentially consumed most aspects of my life.

This isn't okay. Just make it easy for me, for once. Fucking hell.

>>18174243
Guy last time I checked.

I can't take this shit anymore. I need a drink.

Pls get me through this. My body is dying.

>>18177630
No matter what, I'll always be there with you. I know you need a drink. I need one too. I'm not sure if we're going to manage not drinking, so good luck to us. No matter what, I'll be there. Do not forget that, ever. Stick to your plan. Go to work, you need it. Talk to your friend, he'll know how to help you, I think.

I'm constantly losing things. My workout hoodie, my phone, my mind..... Just to name a few examples

You ask me a question about my past and receive an honest fucking answer. Yet, you get fucking upset about it and decide to ignore me? What is your fucking malfunction bitch!?

G, you really confuse me, you know. I still don't know what you really think about me. Am i an annoyance? Usually if i have to ask myself that it means it's a yes, but then why do you keep looking at me like that? Why do you act like i matter to you sometimes and sometimes i don't? I'd imagine you just want to make me a beta orbiter, but you never ask me for anything; in fact, when i do try to help you you usually push me away. And speaking of pushing me away, why is it that sometimes it seems like you're just trying to get away from me, yet at others you seem like you're yearning for my attention? Please, i just need a definitive answer. You are the cancer destroying my life.

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>>18173635
Man it just doesn't seem worth it anymore.
I stopped doing things that hurt me and sacrificed all of my well being for a girl that i thought i'd spend my life with, and as soon as the affects started to affect my looks and finances after 2 years she leaves me for some dude she met at a concert.
Now, im back to being fit and attractive, and financially stable and it just feels empty again, i dont even think i can put all the work i did into another girl and i know i'll never take the one that left me back.
I wont give up, but it almost seems like theres nothing to work for, because she absolutely fucking lusted after me for years, her social status was fucking 100x lower then mine, and she honestly wasnt very attractive.
If a girl that had that much to gain from being with me, left me for another dude, i dont stand a chance.

>>18177386
I don't have any males in my life that aren't gay, related to me, or already dating other people.

Trust me, my case is not one of those "girl always chooses chad over the niceguy best friend and then whines about it."
I know for a fact there are no other men in my life who are interested in me and I'm just ignoring them. Unless my friend who has been dating his gf for 6 years is just pretending to like her and actually likes me or something, in which case wow that's shitty and why would I want to date someone like that.
Or my gay friends are pretending to be gay and making out with/dating dudes in front of me to keep up the ruse.

If there is a nice dude who wants me, he has made no effort to approach me or make his existence even known.

im at a play right now where my gf is dancing it. WHY DID I DRAG MYSELF TO WATCH THIS HEAP OF CRAP IF I KNOW MY GF THAT IM ABOUT TO BREAK UP IS IN THIS.

>>18175985
You've probably heard this a lot on this board, but you sound like a schizophrenic.

>>18176230
This will be our last clue. Don't make any more questions or we will have to dispose of you. Do not try to inform friends or family; they already know and will only inform us of your dangerous behavior.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NAh9oLs67Cw

The answers you seek are all in here. You just need to keep an ear open for them. This is but the first stepping stone. The rest of the road is just waiting for you.

It's sad people are messing with schizos but then again a Mongolian boy pussy pictograph trading forum isn't an ideal place for them to post the shit going on in their domes

>>18178015
>Mongolian boy pussy pictograph trading forum
The fuck websites do you browse?

I made out with a 14 year old I met on tinder last night. I just found out.

>>18178055
enjoy the van ride m8

>>18177852
I was with a girl who was extremely compatible with me. After she dumped me, I thought, if this one, who is so compatible with me, will dump me.. Just who the hell wil it take? So I realized what keeps people together isn't compatibility, it's simply WANTING to be together. Far beyond the compatibility and shared interests. Two people have to really WANT it to be.

Sometimes I feel the abundance of options overwhelms us. And we should perhaps move to a disconnected place once we've reached a point of agreement.

Too many faces, too many opportunities, too many options, too much temptation. The only honest way to combat it, is to leave those possibilities behind. It's not easy to convince oneself, or anyone else to do such a thing.

>>18178100
Then again, there are simply spiritually strong people, and others not so much. But we are all weak one way or another.

>>18178094
No way I could've known unless I checked her ID

>>18178143
you think the feds will care or buy that story?
You know how many episodes that same line is used in to catch a predator?
Kek.
Better hope she doesn't rat on you.

Besides, 14 is young. You should have known by looking at her. They look like children at that age.

>>18178143
Shit happens bro. You live and learn.

>>18178037
Reference to 4chan m8

Okay vent time.

My boyfriend is pathetic, fat, and physically unattractive to me. He puts in little effort in the gym and makes up excuses for not wanting to do his exercises, mainly abs (go figure). It's very frustrating especially when he stops me during a set to ask me an unnecessary question to avoid doing his exercises. I'm fully aware of how lazy he is, a literal man child, and I wish he was the person he had portrayed himself to be when we first started dating. He tells me I can change him but he needs to change himself... His laziness and physique, his poor work ethic and insecurities has pushed me to become grossed out kissing him and feel shit about it because he thinks I'm so wonderful and attractive. He will stop working out just to insult guys with aesthetic physiques in the gym. It's truly a sad thing to witness and I become so embarrassed for him and for myself.

Inb4 cheat/break up...not interested in either of those options. Just needed to vent my 1st world frustrations.

>>18177446
I meant her,if that wasn't obivious. It's just bugging me that if it's really her,why she would still post here even though I haven heard from her for some years now

>>18178204
I wonder...you sound very, very familliar.
By chance, your name wouldn't start with an M, would it?

Liam, I am so so so so so sorry for killing you, I wish it was me who died instead of you, every waking moment. Im such a fucking prick, please kill me someone, because i dont have the guts to do it myself. I cant look at myself in the mirror anymore without feeling an intense feeling of disgust and anger towards myself. You had a future, i am just wasting my time. I should be in prison, but the officers didnt have any proof. Maybe if i did go to prison i would feel better about myself, and not consider suicide daily. Liam, please speak to me, send me a sign. I regret everything, im soo sorry, from the bottom of my heart. PLEASE forgive me, please.

>>18178204
Have you tried actually talking to him about it instead of being a cunt complaining on 4chan? Maybe he has issues you're not aware of. Maybe he wants to do certain exercises and feels uncomfortable with doing what you want to do.

His comments about you changing him are not meant to mean you do the work. He clearly means you are changing him for the better and inspiring him. Maybe he stops you during a set to ask questions because he legit needs the information. He might make fun of others because he is insecure. The fact that you don't want to address that to him means you're only making it worse. Insecurities should be worked through I'm sure you're chock full of plenty of them.

So to take away. Stop being a bitch online. Sit the dude down and fucking talk to him. Let him know what he is doing is not cool and you want differently. But with your demands also accept that you need to work with him. Get him to acknowledge his insecurities but also offer to help him with them and above all acknowledge your own.
You're in a relationship and you don't want to cheat or break up so major fucking props for you. That being said it will not work out unless you talk about your issues in a reasonable sensible matter, if he gets upset acknowledge that. Tell him you realize he is and you feel that it's something that must be talked about. Also you need to not get upset yourself. He will be defensive.

Work it out, talk, explain, that's how you succeed. Not venting on a Mongolian Boy Pucci catalogue forum. You're post has actually helped me. It's made me realize I need to follow my own advice and talk more with my girlfriend.

>>18178251
I'm not the female you're lookin for m8

I fucking hate myself, it was much better when I was an ignorant piece of shit instead of becoming self aware

>>18178303
How did you kill him?

I've shown nosiness, needless and conceited attempts to bear your burdens, all while ignorant of context, compounded by my pigheadedness. I apologise.
I have nothing but gratitude to you for revealing those flaws to me. Whether I am too unrefined to be a positive influence, in spite of temperamental differences, is best known to you. I'll keep striving to better myself either way.

>>18178456
Same

>>18178438
I had a car "accident" and slammed his side of the car into a telegraph pole. He died immediately, I only had a minor whiplash and a bruised forehead.

Alright I know I'm drunk. But I love him.

We're too much alike. I know he would never read this, but this is to him...

I'm sorry. I have a PPO against you for stalking me. But hey, I know more about you than you know about me. Two can play that game.

Not just the sex. I miss sitting next to you. Sharing the silence, the taste in music, the art interpretation and creation. I still have your paintings, dear. I watch your video and I love your passion. I love that you want to impress me. You always do... most of all, I love your voice at the end that calmly said you made it because you're still in love with me. It's nice to hear your voice without it being choked up with tears.

Who knows if you're for real or not? Everyone's a liar at some point. I believe you. You're improving yourself because I sort of gave you that swift kick in the ass.

I love you. I don't care what you have or don't have. We're nearly the same.

I'm so proud of you. Tomorrow morning I might feel different...but I doubt it. I've felt this way a while. It's just a Romeo & Juliet story. We're both immature...only the difference is, we're actually in love, not just infatuated.

Gah. I miss you.

I'm an idiot. I overthink things or I don't think at all and let my mouth run. I love you I really do. But I feel like I keep fucking everything up? I care for you a lot so much so that its crazy. Some things you say hurt me and I don't know how to respond. I just take it and laugh it off. You don't mean to upset me I know that. But it does upset me and I get all retarded either feeling rage or cold despondency. I try not to let it show but I'm bad at that. I wear my emotions on my sleeve when it comes to you. I want to improve myself and be a better man that you inspire me to be. I don't know if it's wrong to feel that way because of you some would say I should do that for myself. But fuck them. Everyone needs their star in the sky. Their source of inspiration.

Im an idiot no question. But I really do love you I hope you can forgive me for being a jackass. Because at the end of the day I'll always be there for you.

I'm depressed too. Dad said if I spent one more night at your house I would be kicked out.

You still have a job. You just need to prove you're okay.

>>18177258
What kind of politician are you, if you can't derive the decision from your principles and convictions? Are you climbing the ladder to achieve something, or just for the sake of the benefits? Is there corruption within the structure, that you'd be perpetuating by breaking your principles?
A good father wants his son to succeed, and isn't jealous of that success. Constant rejuvenation of the old order is the fundamental human condition.

This week broke me spiritually.

There is no love anymore, only fear.

>>18177988
I would love to see you faggots try to dispose of me.

No one is going to do shit because none of this is real. All of this is planned.

Suck my dick, I'm a shark.

>>18178706
Lol

i guess im cool with being friends but please stop leading me on, feeding me this whole "ive dated so many douchebags, its nice to be with someone cool", and goating me into not hanging with other people while you go out to parties and stuff.

I can already feel the toxicity of this situation so just stop bullshitting me so no one gets hurt

I have to be the only person in the world that would be against going back in time to kill Hitler.

Please, if you have that ability do not do it. I know like... a lot of germans died and a whole bunch of jews but if Hilter dies then I will not exist. Please do not kill my great great grandfather.

ALSO,

I'm going to have to deal with all this fucking LGBT bullshit now, aren't I? Fucking christ.

>>18173635
im totally a serial cheater. 8 years with my wife, 2 years of dating. been cheating for 10 years. i say about 20 0ther women, all unprotected sex, most of them i came in. a few were 1 time things. most were for about 6 months. ive become so accustomed to different pussies that not cheating feels alien to me. she went out of town for 4 days for a death in the family and i invited my fwb over and fucked her. next day i invited a married couple over and we both used his wifes pussy for hours. recently juggling a seperated woman and a married woman.

Just tell me the truth already, I need closure