It just hit me today that my life was empty. I talk to people

OP, your problems aren't simply that you can't commit and that you never mastered anything. Firstly, I don't recommend being in a relationship as you are, because to master being with someone, you have to master being on your own.

Secondly, I want you to describe your day to me. When you get up, what do you do? Tell me everything. Even when you eat.

>>18128159

I used to be the same way when I was your age (32 now). Don't get into a relationship, if your not happy with your life as is then work to change it. Find things that interest you and do them at least once a week. Actually find a couple of things, the more the better. Even simple shit like learning to cook, find ways to learn things. It's also not just trying new things, but trying to have a more positive attitude in general. Work into it, don't go overboard or you'll just stress yourself out.

You'll have more things to talk about and you'll actually feel good talking about them.

I wish I had taken that advice, I wasted years feeling like you do. Plus all the not great relationships I lingered in because I wasn't happy but couldn't see a better way.

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>>18128222

I get up, I shower, usually bike to uni to go attend lectures. I eat breakfast on weekends or if lectures begin late. When I'm back I usually work on assignments. If not - I'm working on my current game project. Or if I'm really tired and nothing works I kill some time watching letsplays. I know how to cook and like it. Before this semester I'd often spontaneously meet with my friend and go to cinema, but lately amount of uni work drained us both and we just don't meet much outside of classes. I attend extracurricular lectures, am learning python and soon I'll be having a group project to work on. I'm a coauthor on a research paper and generally have my days pretty busy. It gives me satisfaction and I don't feel like I don't have enough to talk about. I'm looking into things that interests me. I'm learning new tricks for gamedev, learning new coding languages, trying out new recipes in the kitchen. I think I'm doing pretty good being on my own. I have been on my own for a year now and I feel happy about my days. It's just that I am not really happy about my past that I cannot change. I sometimes wish I was someone completely different, my life went another way, and so on. But when it's not one of those episodes I feel pretty good about myself and how my life is going. I just want to stop coming up with reasons to delegitimise myself

>>18128289

Yeah honestly you're doing way better than most of the population. Learn from your past and move on, there's no point in dwelling on it. I wasted a lot of time being an addict and a generally shitty human being.

Sometimes you read this shit and just have to roll your eyes. Fuckin /adv/ man