I am not sure if this is depression or autism. It's a strange

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I am not sure if this is depression or autism. It's a strange line of thought, but I've been rolling this around in my head for awhile now. For starters, I have depression, as in actually diagnosed clinical depression and bipolar on top of that, which I've been dealing with my whole life. However, I honestly think I might actually be autistic to some degree, which isn't out of the realm of possibility because my brother is an aspie.

I'm 27. I've never had a girlfriend, I've never had sex, and frankly I just sort of freeze up in those situations. What's worse is even my brother has a girlfriend he has had for 3 years now. I'm totally oblivious to hints and flirting, I sperg out about stupid opinionated shit, and I never feel like I belong in social situations. I just pretend, and its tiring. I don't have many friends, and the friends I do manage to get, I usually end up completely ghosting, and it doesn't bother me.

Recently, a friend I grew up that I hadn't seen in like 8 years got in touch with me, and we hung out today. He was excited and I could see it, but I felt nothing. Sometimes, I just felt weird. I'm currently waiting for him to finish up with something at his apartment, then we're going to hang out at a bar, and I'm not really looking forward to it. I'm not actively against it, but it's just kinda neutral I guess.

I don't know. This shit just kind of floors me, and I don't know how to react.