I've concluded that I cannot form intimate bonds with people. For example, none of my friends are really good friends with whom I share my ideas, feelings, etc.—and vice-versa. This stems, I think, from an extreme self-consciousness wherein I feel like no one wants to hear my problems, beliefs, etc. And because there is no exchange of intimate sharing, bonds do not form.
How can I get over this? Opening up to friends is daunting to me, but I have no one to talk to, to tell them how I feel—except, of course, the internet in this case. Has anyone gone through anything similar?
I think this is part of why I'm a virgin at 22 years old—I'm not a total shitbag, or super ugly, or super socially awkward... but I am incapable of making deep friendships and incapable talking to women whom I don't know.
I am introverted as well and feel as though I do not have anything relevant to share with other people. I am in a relationship, but feel shadowed by my BF and his friends despite the many talents and experiences I have to share. I feel like I will never be as good as anyone else around me, so I have given up on my hobbies (I have been a dancer and musician for decades, and used to be a damn good PC gamer before filthy casuals took the fun out of it).
I came to 4chan tonight because I also cannot connect with people and have been severely depressed for years. I came here hoping to find an overdose cocktail that isn't impossible to obtain.
>>18116851
>I think this is part of why I'm a virgin at 22 years old
There are guys out there who fuck women whose names they barely know. This isn't the reason you're a virgin.
>>18116851
Talk to a doctor. Also could be schizotypal personality
>>18116885
I've had a few times when it was likely that I could have sex, but turned it down cuz of various fears—of judgement from peers, the person, and in general. What do you suggest?
>>18116886
Not OP but I have all the same symptoms (even managed to hold onto my virginity at 26yo, lucky me!). Is it shizotypal if you still crave a proper relationship?