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I fuck up everything, I'm a shit person. 2017-03-10 11:34:08 Post No.
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Hey guys,
Ok, so, I seriously fuck everything up, literally everything in my life I fuck up, somehow or another.. its really starting to fuck with me and I don't know how to deal with it properly, with my own stupidity and shit I do.. am I just a bad fucking person?
So, I fucked up university, because of laziness, depression and anxiety, I just.. fucked it, I failed 2 years in a row, because I was to busy drinking and getting fucked with friends, in my first second year, I suffered from really bad anxiety and depression, to the point I honestly believe one thing could have resulted in me killing myself, I went on anti-depressants and they helped me with how I felt, but didn't stop me from fucking everything up. I still didn't do Uni work, and I still fucked up my relationship at the time..
So my relationships.. I was in a 2 year relationship with this girl, we broke up after lots of arguing, lots of fucking up, everything fell apart.. I got stupidly drunk and argued with her really badly and we broke up.. I then spent months begging her to come back.. badgering her? Like wtf is wrong with me..
My most recent break up, I moved in with her, just for a short time while I waited to find another place over the summer, we started falling apart, arguing.. he friends Mum died and she was really upset about it, we argued about that, I felt like she was sad all the time, for months.. I told her other people handle it better.. which was stupid of me, but for some reason at the time I thought it was right.. we argued all the time, because she was angry at me all the tine over little things.. she went away for a while and told me she didn't think she loved me anymore, when she came back we got really drunk together, got into an argument, apparently I started shouting at her, asking how she got so fucked up? If she was raped by her Mums boyfriends.. seriously wtf is wrong with me?
I feel awful about it, and that was months ago. how do I stop fucking things up?
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>>18116490
I just don't understand why I keep fucking things up, its not just things in this post..
I never want to hurt people, but I seem to hurt literally everyone around me, and its starting to isolate me and I'm starting to isolate myself..
I just feel like I'm a piece of shit, a complete fuck up. How do I sort my shit out?
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>>18116490
what you do now is you drop out, you get a job, and build a new life.
stop worrying about relationsihps that end. they all end. its the nature of relationsihps.
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>>18116490
Idk, do you have ADHD?
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>>18116490
You just have to try harder. Good things only come from effort.
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>>18116686
I am getting a job, I'm moving, but I'm scared I'm just going to fuck it up.. like I have with uni..
>>18116695
I don't think so, I haven't been diagnosed with it.. I've been worried I'm bi-polar or borderline..
I just want to try and understand why I do so many self destructive things.. and how I can tackle it properly, my lifes a mess, I'm a mess..
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>>18116788
life is really just a series of fuck ups that you just try to build up from again.
as long as you dont go homeless and can pay your bills, you're human
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>>18116983
But I mean, the shit i said to my ex, Im not as hung up on her, as I am that i can't fucking sort it out, I can't believe I did that.. and theres loads of stuff I wake up and think I can't fucking believe the shit I've done.
I know everyone fucks up, but why do I fuck up so badly, why do I end up losing friends all the time.
I just want to stop fucking up worse then everyone else, I never used to be so fucking bad.. but its got worse as I've gotten older..
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