did i screw up?

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i'm 23 and i'm a relatively normal guy but i've never had a girlfriend.

i just came back from a trip with a bunch of people from work and i'm stuck here thinking i really screwed up.

there's a girl I work with who's the same age I am. we both like each other (as friends) genuinely and up to this point it was just that. On the trip I got hammered, she got hammered and I really came onto her. I was leaning on her and caressing her hips and rubbing my face on her cheek (i was completely gone and pretty much uninhibited). I would have gone for a kiss but I felt like she wasn't ready yet, she did caress me back but kept saying I was drunk and laughed it off.

Now I'm back and I felt bad because I thought I kinda creeped out on this girl who was my friend because I was drunk and couldn't control myself. I told her I was sorry for being a mess and she said it was ok and laughed it off, but I feel like there's something weird in our friendship now.

I wonder if I'm completely overthinking this because I was just lonely and I found someone who's genuinely a cool person and I might have ruined our friendship, or I can make this up somehow.

I don't even know, I'm just kind of thinking out loud on an anonymous board because I can't talk to my friends about this (they're not very experienced either)

I really do like her as a friend and I've always thought of her as the funny sibling i never had, but after this trip I find her attractive.. it's very strange and I actually kind of wish it never happened because I love being friends with her and now I can't look at her without thinking about her the other way..