I thought about suicide a lot in the past. I still sort of do even now but to the point. I think of it in a way that there is nothing after we die and if there is it is better.
We give value to life and I don't understand it. Value to all life is simply a way of mass control and greed. Why do we do it?
I guess this can be broken down into tribes. My friends are my tribe. If (and I have seen) somebody is dying in front of me I just simply do not care unless they are part of my tribe.
I understand that life simply begins and can end as quick as it began. We move on. I think of dying sometimes because I know that I will never have to deal with the aftermath as I could not. The people around me may miss me but time moves on. I won't be there to even know or see peoples suffering so I honestly don't seem to care much.
In general though I cannot see the value in life. I felt like the man who killed a Kangaroo and got jail time really drew the line. It's the way the world works guys suck it up.
>>18094359
Value on X depends on person Y's perception of X's value.
If you don't hold your own life dear so be it, if you don't even hold anyone else so dear in order to live for them, so be it.
I think like you in one way, our thoughts and our mind will cease to exist just like a toaster stops working or a flame burns out.
So why bother? I find the joy in amusing things like sex vidya or love, i also have something i want to accomplish because i see it as a challenge and that's the spirit. We're not here for long but i sure as hell want to enjoy my time.
>>18094359
Also, you're stuck on thinking about others and what others may think, ditch that shit.
>>18094423
Well, I have a dream. I want to change the world. I have wanted to change the world for so long and it was not until my grandfather's passing I began to act. I felt as if the state could have done so much more then I realised then and there, it solidified the fact to me that we as people are a currency. There was so much more they could have done for him when he was healthy and he was badly treated at the home he had to live in.
I read Mein Kampf a while back. I realised that Hitler and I shared a lot of the same philosophy and thoughts.
My dream is to change the world and leave my permanent mark on humanity. To go down in history as somebody who did something of honour. A bit far fetched but it keeps me going.