i messed around with my sister

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I was 11 and he 9ish, we never went all the way but eventually got caught. She devoped a dissociative defense mechism and would hangwith youger friends. She prented her one of the personalities she made up was the one being abused.I finally got caught and we boh saw a child shrik. Nother ver came of it and then the parents split for my cheater cheater and my mommoved away my sister after 3 years of joint custody. during the time with my mom we became very close and she would sometimes dress provocatively. Nothng ever came of it and I finally bloomed and started meeting alot of girls my age. My sister is 3 years younger ad never rly were into boys.I couldn never meet them. When we go to raves and do mdma together we get rly close... I have since done very well at school and she sems to look up to me and says she misses me and loves me. She is no longer with her bf and i stil lust after her. What is wrong with me, if were ever together it would ruin my family. We have never discuss what we happened as kids ... i need adv. I know i sound selfish,