Insecure about my body

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I'm a 20 year old male and I'm way too conscious / insecure because of my body. Specifically my face. I'm not ugly, the opposite actually. Girls told me I'm attractive, but I had acne throughout my teen years. And that is my problem.

As a teen I never really gave a fuck about my zit covered face and others didn't either. But then in my late teens I got really insecure about it and started to feel very socially inhibited because of it. I didn't even want to leave the house. I constantly went to the mirror and checked very thoroughly how many pimples I have and it made me feel like shit. I started to do A LOT to get rid of my acne and now with 20 I don't have it anymore. Went to a dermatologist and had an accutane treatment. It ended 3 months ago. The treatment is over and although I don't have acne anymore, I still get pimples every now and then. And now my mentally ill behavior is coming back again. I keep checking myself in the mirror and feel like shit when I see one or two new pimples. Again I feel like not leaving my house and it's killing me because I do not want to waste any more of my youth trapped in my house or feel insecure when I walk outside.

How can I be a real man and not give a shit about how I look? I feel ridiculous but I can't get over it. My friends told me I have clear skin and that my acne back then wasn't even that bad, my dermatologist and family members said my skin is very clear, yet I still am so conscious about my face.