I enjoy getting into fights. I enjoy hurting people. Men, women, teenagers. I've gotten into probably hundreds of fights over the years. I've gotten beat up plenty of times when the odds were against me, but I've beat up others way more. I regret nothing about it, but I recognize that it's not healthy and it's bound to land in me jail one day, sooner or later.
So how do I stop enjoying things like these?
>>18083001
Get into boxing as a hobby. I say boxing because striking is way more satisfying as a violent act than ground game
>>18083005
Got into it for a bit when I was younger, but they went off on me for being too aggressive.
>>18083010
Find another gym.
Else, find out what it is that attracts you. A therapist could help you here. (not in a "fix me" sort of way, but just to be informative)
I recommend meditation also - it can help you see why you are in the patterns you are in
Come to terms that your uncle touched you and stop lashing out your insecurities on other people. It wasn't your fault, and it's ok to cry.