Advice about leading life.

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I think we need a background.
I am doing an entrance exam course to enter medicine school. It is expensive but I got a discount
Why medicine school? I was dumb and thought I wanted fame and money. Turns out I do want money, but I am not fond of the path it takes.
Also, I probably can't have tattoos while a doctor (I already have a few). So I finally acknowledge that I was seeking a lifestyle that doesn't suit me. I was blind and thinking these things matter, status and et cetera. You could say I was having an ego crisis as if I could pull something like that off.

I need to finish the course since my parents are paying and there is a fine if I bail out after it finishes.

So what I am asking is what do seek in my life? A mediocre job? College? Can I be happy not having all of what I have desired? I feel empty and dumb.

Maybe I am asking what I need to find happiness.... Really, anything helps, anons. I want to talk to someone about it